quiet, comfy day... (updated...)

hah.. today i'm spending the day as if promos are over.. haha.. i studied a lil here and there.. now i am having a headache... gonna work hard on electricity later... wanna do well in electricity.. dunnoe wad is coming out, but i hope more dynamics and electricity..

so i'm real bored now... feel like chatting with lilo. but i'm afraid i'd disturb her.. haha... it's really nice chatting with her.. she a real nice person.. nicer than i tot... i juz enjoy chatting with her.. is like though we have juz became friends, it's easy to talk to her about anything, everything.. hah... i guess, it's cos she's open ya? i dunnoe... but chatting with her helps me forget about this torturous world haha... it's like another dimension. lol... like i am chatting with someone i dunnoe yet, it feels like a long lost friend haha.... wierd..

ok... so today i din go with the rest to sam's house to study. i bet gabe's really looking forward to me going down (i think).. i cant study much with friends.. my bad habit.. cant stand them studying so hard and not enjoying life haha... that's how i feel.. to them it might juz be thier job to study as a student.. juz that i find studying torturous... i'm wierd haha...

was watching naruto juz now.. haha.. so damn funny. but the show like damn loh soh.. not enough action for 1 episode.. i think they should like combine 2 episodes together.. haha...

i think i'll get back to studying.. so see u pple tmr ya? all the best for tmr's paper!

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ok.. juz updating cos i feel lonely.. haha... i kinda miss lilo now... or do i miss the other? i dunnoe... i miss having someone who would love me i guess... i juz feel lonely... no one to talk to, no one to help me forget about the present promos and whether i'd be promoted or not... haiz... used to talk on the phone with her a lot.. now it juz feels different. but it's my choice that we're separated now. i am happy being single, but i do miss those times a lil... i dunnoe if i'd have the chance with lilo.. it's all about time now.. i am happy being friends with her.. at least MI life wouldn't be so boring anymore.. hah....

i juz feel like quiting school.. spend my life in some fishing village, a kelong perhaps? catch fish, eat fish, sell fish... boring quiet life... but life is not all about being alone.. it depends on who u spend ur life with... i dun mind the lonely village life.. if i have some i could spend those time with.. away from all these urban terrors... the world is juz advancing too fast... the final days are coming... how long more will humanity continue on? i want to live life to it's fullest before i perish...

man.. it's sad knowing that someday u'll have to die.. but i've told myself time and again not to fear death.. it comes to all.. and by the time i am in heaven, i'd be enjoying life more with the one who created me... but do i deserve it? wad have i done for Him in return for His Son who died for me? i know that there's still someone up there who loves me though i am suffering down here on earth...

so anyway, gonna stop here. dun wanna write too much crap haha...

(8.03p.m.)