26/01/06

i woke up today, feeling real lifeless...

dunnoe why.. i juz din wan to come to school today... told my mom, and she replied my sooooooo nicely i felt obliged. i din wan to upset her..

hope she dun use this method on me all the time. if not no time out for me, or i'll juz have to make her angry...

hmmm... i knew i was gonna be late too..

reached school, all dead, i juz din feel like talking... went to class, sat down and juz started on work.

den my day was kinda perked up a lil thanks to ur morning message! hahaha.. YOU! hahahahahaha... TY!

i juz day dreamed all day... din feel like concentrating today... thought of any things. haha... dunnoe... juz feel like letting my mind wonder.. how things have changed so much for me...

for the better or for the worst, i'm not sure... ha...

but i dunnoe.. i juz felt i want to be with God... felt lke, i dunnoe... describing it is sooo wierd...

guess, am a lil sad and lost. i juz wan to be where God is, cos i wan to try to put some stuff aside. i din wan them to affect me and how i feel, this feeling has been with me for so long.but i guess it's time to let go of some things. it juz affects the way you think. generates fear, sometimes juz makes u sad and hurt. ha... worried.... but, i know what i am putting myself through though...

ok, i'm happy i juz made it through today... thought i couldn't. thank God...