01/03/07

well, i'm worried about the future, not just mine, but my family's.

and what a time, such coincidence. i am listening to a cd speech, on some marketing business stuff, it sounds so much like a sermon, talking about dreams, about a passion that burned about being challenged, well... it makes me feel all warm inside cos i feel tt i identify right now.

i need direction.

i have been running away, running running running, running for so long. i guess it's about time to face my problems, to face life - reality. i've been dreaming for too long. dreaming empty dreams. dreams i thought would be achievable but i guess it's not cut out for me. i do not know what to do.

yea, i wish one day, i'll become the man, the man that will share all the things i had to overcome, words which would inspire people.

if this man could talk about this business like talking about christ, i wonder what happened if he was a pastor, how he would touch the world. he can inspire pple to be warriors for christ.

arh!!! i just want to be with God. i just want to bask in his presence. i just want him to be a friend, so close to me, hugging me, telling me how much he loves me. i need him.