16/09/07

guard duty yesterday, 7am till 8am today.

the day past both fast and slow. ha... time flew fast, but the 24hrs made it slow. was rather fun. we had tv, aircon and all, and on guard, time flew fast. as a sentry, i stood at my post and stare, stare into blank space and began doing loads of reflecting. was rather interesting how i start to see works being done in my life.

just on friday, i wrote on how i want to change my life, how i look towards the hope in me. last night, 2 person, not knowing what each other said, told me things about me that were edifying, things i did not know were sooo important and useful for myself.

well, one said i had a talent cos i can "file" people up in my memory and when i need to, i can open these "files" and flip through the pages and recall things about them i need. he said i should go into business.

the other, as we were talking said i should go into marketing, cos i can make people around me trust me in a very short time. "it's a rare talent". wow... it sure made me feel good about myself and help me understand myself more.

i smile more these days, all thanks to God. his presence's so real even in camp. every night, i look forward to spending time with him, thanking him for the day and all he's done.

i thank him for all the people i love, for the favours poured upon me. i'm starting to not look down on myself. there's something i just want to prove i just dunnoe how and when, but i want to make something out of my life.

even though i failed A'levels, it doesn't make me smaller or lousier in any way compared to anyone. let what my mom say be what she say, let how people look at me, be what they see as my potential.

i believe in my dreams, no matter how idealistic they are.