07/12/07

this week have been real slow and rather tough on me. but yesterday i had lots of fun raiding 2 SIR hohoho!! it was my first time and it was rather exciting. i feel like a big shot HA!

and then as usual, today i did something stupid again and i'm wondering if i should have done it or not. word is spreading fast about me. i was just angry la, at that point of time.. however, i'm like and idol to my man now. haha... what i did, i should never do again but through this, one of my man (the ocs dropout one) said to me and as he said it, it sent goosebumps up my shoulders.

"all it takes is a catalyst for a revolution. you have just sparked something off and we'll follow ur steps in.........."

all it takes is a catalyst. what he said made a lot of sense. all it takes is you, or me. one person to hunger for God so much that there will be a visitation of His glory! and when His glory comes, IT WILL SPREAD LIKE A WILDFIRE AND PEOPLE ALL OVER WILL RISE UP! isn't this an amazing word from him? it stirred me up! God used Him to remind me. all it takes is ONE person, dead in the flesh, from which the glory of God will manifest!

man, i stood there thanking God. and repented of what i did in the afternoon. what my senior did, awakened the berserker in me. a point where i am fearless, pumped up with new energy despite my tiredness and raging with anger. well, at least i have the respect of all my man.

they came up to me shook my hand and some pounded their chest saying "wah sergeant, i respect you. why didn't you beat him up!?" hahahaha! somehow, i felt encouraged and more at ease. my senior's just too full of himself and arrogant. but yea... i guess i had already forgave him from the moment my anger dissipated, i know i'll still treat him as a senior and friend with respect come this monday.