18/08/08

i believe the lord has plans for my life. =)

i've just spent the last few minutes in a heated discussion with my mom over what i plan to do in the future. initially, i have totally no idea and all the other ideas of going to indonesia or poly or working in prudential, kinda just made me feel a little uneasy.

but suddenly, just a few days ago, i felt my eyes open, and my heart comforted. i suddenly felt like "i know what to do!" yea, and i feel really comfortable with the idea. =)

after my diploma, i'll probably enter JCU, and at the same time apply for gideonites. of course i hope the gideonites entry would come through first but haha... some of you might know what my mom have gone through in timor and so, she strongly disagreed.

but i believe in God's promises soo strongly, i'm actually looking forward to ORD. I KNOW WHAT TO DO! (at least as of now hahaha)

one more thing is that, i just want to become the warrior that God wants me to be. the man i ought to be. it's about time to stop depending on others, being a sheperd boy, but it's time to be a warrior like david when he fought goliath or joshua, who led the nation of Israel into war against the many different tribes to win back the promised land.

before i even find someone to fight for and love, i really want to become a warrior for God. to learn how to actually fight for and love someone. i just find it so meaningful all of a sudden. pieces of things God spoke to me about just began to form all over again.

it's about time for God to use a mismatch for His glory. and i'm the willing vessel. though i am afraid of writing all these, but i just have to declare them over my life.

God, here i am. i am weak, but i know You can use me, so that people will see your glory. that You will be glorified through me, because You made me, who is unable, to be able.