leave me alone...

wad is ur problem? u pple are always talking about esther this, esther that. leave me alone. dun remind me of her already.. it has been a long time since we broke up so let it rest dude..

that guy came in cos esther needed someone better than me to love her ok? i am at fault. after o's i worked, finish work only late at night.. i started school, i dun have time for her now cos we are at to different places. also i finish school late these days. this is not like secondary school where i can always go down to her house and pei her. i need to study and relax too u noe. i have 2 cca's and i really want time to spend alone. maybe i should have broken up with her a long long long long long time ago. man. u pple are making regret not breaking up with her.

juz leave me alone.. wad did i do to u pple. live's nice and peaceful for me now. leave me alone....pls! argh!!!! i hate it when pple cant leave me alone after so long. my fault, my fault, it is all my fault!!! now u pple happy.I HAVE ADMITTED! IT IS ALL MY FAULT! so leave me alone.

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man... today was so boring.... din do much today. i was so bored that i juz decided to go sweep the floor during shamala's class... oh ya.. had physics test today.. it was ok la... pam kept taking away my test paper and copy... tell her i not sure, she still copy haha.. but quite correct la my anwsers.. a bit wrong here and there only...

i was still ok today until when i read my tag board. i juz cant stop thinking about why we broke up. i juz dun understand y esther like him... i always ask myself wad did he do to be better than me. i am willing to spend all my money on esther juz to help her save money, remind her day after day to go study. call her everyday in case she gets upset with me. i have done so much for her. my last bit of money was spent during the last we went out before we broke up. i remember how shocked i was when i had no money to buy the adidas bag i am carrying now. thanks to kira if not i really wont be carrying that bag.

man.. i juz feel so wierd today... so erm... i think wierd is still the best word to describe. maybe depressed... hah.. i spent all my time after school today loitering and most of the time spent in the library... slept there for quite sometime... cant stop thinking of lilo... i barely saw her around today... only when sam's going back den they told me she's in the canteen... man i juz felt happy for once today.. it's really nice noeing she's around..

i din stay back for night study today cos i juz feel so wierd... maybe cos i feel like studying chem and my chem tys is at home.. so kinda pang seh kira and jj... sian la.. feel like resting at home too..

so i stop here. maybe if feel like updating, den i update later tonight..