WHY!!!???

why... i dun understand why i am having problems with juz this 3 ruggers in school... they always spoil my day... wad did i do to them? i ask them, they dun wan to say. i say sorry, they aso dun care. wad u wan me to do!?

today was late cos of my sis.. slow la she.. if not i could've been early today. din like doing the morning chores but the teachers were nice so i din really care bout it. den i went back to class and then to the toilet. when i went in, the first thing Lc... he say i join wanderers and stuff and start saying me. say wad i have to face hanchin. den i tell him i can play other position so why would i play against hanchin? i train all the other positions in wanderers. (juz to let u guys noe, i am training in touch only. i cant compare with the austrailian ruggers. they are so big.)so wad's the problem? zhiwei said cos of wad i said, he say me siowchang. i din really understand it at first but as i returned for class, i kept thinking about it, and it distracted me from the whole lesson. slowly i kinda understand wad he meant. he was trying to say i showing off rite? but i am not. i swear. juz cos i say i can play all other positions den i show off? nvm. the worst part is that Lc went telling pple about it which really pissed me off and when i try explaining, he did not seem to belive me... haiz... it really hurts me.

i dunnoe wad i did to lc and zhiwei ESPECIALLY alan. i did nothing to alan and he's condemning me. *WTH* i have nvr treated Lc as an enemy or wad. last time when pple tell me about Lc this and Lc that, i would defend him and say some good stuff for him and now, he treats me like this. i tot he was my friend.. playing in LT and all.. now is like my mentality of him has changed. like today when the SCs ask me about him being a leader and stuff, the first thing was y would i want him to be a leader? but i still tried to say some good stuff, like supporting him instead of mannan(that's after i minus those grudges i have against Lc). some times he like to say me hands no good and stuff. i would listen. i only cant stand it when he keeps repeating it.. it is not like i nvr practice passing and all. i got practice.. maybe i juz suck at it.

this few days, zhi wei has kinda treated me much more nicer and i am really damn glad and thankful. i was even shock when he supported me to go for publicity I.C... i noe i have pissed him off when i touch his chin. but i said sorry already and i've stopped doing it... why he still seems so cold towards me? i feel all this condemning started only after the toucher thingy began. dunnoe hu start la. but i wont blame that person. i love touch anyway...

but seriously i dunnoe wad the hack is wrong with alan lor... he is like sheep. follow wad the others do. they condemn me, he follow. *bah bah bah* i got nothing against him but now is like cant stand him. even some yr 2 ruggers cant stand him too... racist, hot tempered and all.. dun wanna say too much. not here to insult pple. but y have he got to treat me so mean. is like after our boring touch game recently, i was telling the rest about a tactic i felt would score us a try. and alan was like giving that kind of " wah! so clever!" look. it's like so insulting lor..

i juz hope things would be ok after the yr 2s leave.. i dunnoe wad i'm going to do if i ended up like max. it sucks.