maybe it's time to change..

ah... back from church... today kinda had some fun.. went to sam's house to 'study' haha... the whole world noe's i can nvr study. lol! so played aqround with her handphone wuahahaha.. read msgs about wadeva... i dun even noe wad they were about and she was so worked up haha.... it was fun.. went to play cs with akira and ah seng. realise that i have lost touch. but slowly regaining it... my sniping used to be much muich more better. haha.. remember how i used to challenge matt to sniping. he's good. tyco clan's top few. but tyco clan aso closed down liaoz haha...

so after that, went for edge. obviously i was late. din have a place so shifted a chair down and block the isle haha... after that.... went to eat bk at bukit batok. den went down to the stall elvin recomended us for cookies. they are wonderful!!

so came home and now typing this...

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ok... now wad i wanna say.. haha.. yea.. i should really spend some time on my own and do some thinking. start making decisions yer noe... oh yea.. today lilo appeared on the straits times. i think she looked good on it when it's looked at from far. haha...(not saying she's not good looking from near.) i kinda feel sorry about wad i did to esther too.. make her wait for me for nothin cos i am not planning to patch. i think i din really treasure her during this time.. but i felt the same way last time too yer noe.. it was like my love's taken for granted. it din really mattered how much i cared or loved her... it hurts u noe... that's when lilo came in and kinda made me feel better. by doing nothing. it's like she's caring by doing nothing haha.. wierd. i guess it's juz comforting to see her around in school. that's all...

anyway, i've made up my mind to let things be as it is now. yea... maybe i should even change the name of my blog. i am not waiting to crashland at the right place, but rather be alone and noe that i have a buncha caring friends whom i like to be with.. i'll juz see how things go.. wish to have someone by my side who would care for me.. it's nice in the past to have ec caring for me... feel extremely loved. but now like i said, cos of everything that has happened. i kinda feel less for both of em unless.... they are nearby.. haiz... i'm so weak. i cant put things down and let em be.. haha... i guess that's juz me.