juz a short update...

sooo... i was juz chatting with lilo... but i kinda told her that i'll go to sleep... i din really go offline.. i juz appeared offline. cant bear to go offline yer noe.. being 'near' her no matter physically or online seems sooo comforting... it was really a big blow for me when me and ec broke up... i'm juz soo torn... for a friend i juz knew, lilo's real nice... she can be real caring.. real......... sweet. it juz kinda touch my heart so deep... she's juz the sweetest.... haiz... i'm really sad now haha... think too much liaoz...

lilo.... she's got a really strong stand on not having a boyfriend. hah.... she's real cool. i'll never noe when is the time she'd be open to guys.. but i'm really conteneted being her friend.. is like.. i dun need someone to love me cos i already have sucha nice friend whom i can talk to and cares.... somehow, my heart's kinda aching.. i dunnoe y.. is it ec? or is it lilo.... i have no idea.. i'm sooo fickle minded. hate myself for that. but i've gotten over esther... looking forward to what lies ahead... i'm enjoying life now no stress and all... but there's this small lil heart aches which i still have to deal with...

haiz... what can i do? i feel sooo lost. i am gonna put my faith in God and believe in him for what's best. but i too know roughly wad is the outcome... that's the small problem.. the 'gap'... dun want to say out what it is.. cos if i say out, things wont go in it's 'natural' way... yea.... i guess i can stop writing already. i'm feeling better now... so good nite pple...