past nightmare...

in the past.. i remember how i use to have this nightmare.. dunnoe why, but i'm awake and i'm having a nightmare.. i dun dare to sleep now... it's a kind of really anxious kind of feeling.. even whentyping this now, i can feel the uncomfortableness... it's like everything u say in ur mind is emplified.. i'm juz sooo scared... been a long time since i had this.. i have this only when i have a fever.. i remember how i used to wake up crying feeling so scared for nothing.. is like the slightess sound juz freaks me out...

i dunnoe how to explain.. like the world is in a slowed down pace but u're in a hyper pace... too hyper till u juz cant take it.. tt's something like wad i'm feeling... it's sooo wierd.. even playing maple becomes like an adrenaline rush... it's soo uncomfortable... ar... God help me...