today's sermon

haha.. i'm kinda happy tt i listened to today's sermon.. it's like God's speaking to me... the message was about offence... being offended.. how being offended can spoil ur day, wad God has in and other pple's day. it's true, especially when i think back to my past how i spoil everything whenever i felt offended.. haha.. but thank God, all's changed..

so yea.. juz tt friday, i was offended. i was juz concerned about our back line having to switch so much.. i felt tt they might be tired and all, so i juz asked if we could do less switches and the kind of reply i got, really sucked.. man... i really din expect it ar... i was really angry and mad... i juz cant stand such an attitude especially from a captain. no motivation, demoralisation.

man... i was like so angry tt i really could not hold it. my tears juz came out whenever tt anger surged in me.. i thank God for it too... imagine wad would have happened if i went round trashing about venting my anger. bet i'll be a laughing stock when school reopens. as i packed my bag, each time i felt like screaming or doing something, a tear juz stops me from everything... it's like some kind of seal man.. it's juz better to have it though..

think about some others who juz vent their anger and show them out, to me, they become a source of entertainment and i definitely dun wan tt to happen. think of how pple will look at u in future. it's better to juz let it go but not in a violent way.

juz as pastor Gospel said, "don't curse those who offend u but instead, pray for ur enemies. pray tt God'll bless them..." and surprisingly, tt was exactly what i did when i was in the lift. i prayed tt God'll bless him i know it sounds dumb. but i've been doing this since sec 4... everyone who offended me, i prayed for them and sometimes, i really DO see a change in their attitudes towards me...

anyway, i'll juz do wad i want to and feel i should do. i'll juz train my best. if things still dun turn out fine, i guess, it's better not to get involved ya? so anyway, back to studying for me.. see u pple tml i think.. ha...