24/07/06

as usual, i tried sleeping but i cant.

i dunnoe why i suddenly thought of it and remember all of a sudden what i said. as in really SUDDENLY.

laid on the sofa for almost an hour, tossed and turn, toss and turn. my mind filled with so much insecurity. wondering how u'd react to it.

i just want to talk, need someone to talk to. just need to clear my mind. just need to feel at ease.

i wish time was turned back to those days, just a while ago. times when i felt ever so at ease. days passed like an hour. so fast i din want it to go by.

i just can't help it but make myself think so much. even i dunnoe why and dun want to, i guess, i'm just afraid. afraid, of losing, afraid of what did, afraid of what i said, afraid of sooo many things.

ahh.. ha.. i told myself i never want to blog such thoughts again, but i can't help it. man...

if i feel any better, i'd prolly delete this entry haha...