01/10/06

well... mixed feelings.

if i only knew how to communicate, i take more time trying to know u more. life's just draining time away from things i want to do, things i should try giving a shot at.

wait till it's all over. i'd have all the time 5 months can give. i still need to study though, but i believe i'd be more free than i am now.

spending time at home is a waste of time, my memory on what i've studied are slowly fading away with each passing day. i wish i could take the exams now. i'm mentally ready, though unprepared for it.

if i could only spend more time out, or doing more of the things i want to do. (besides studying) but this would displease my mom, and thus, i'm stuck. yea... stuck, such an uncomfortable feeling. for once, u wished u had no family.

oh well... i do not regret anything, but i hope to make up for all of it, somehow.