29/03/07

rainy days are just sooo special, dont you think so?

the sound of pattering rain, that eeire silence, the cold wind. it gives that really emotional and moody feel, a time to remember your loved ones. even those who has left.

once again, my heart aches. while watching videos on youtube, i saw my grandma, standing by the window looking out. i bet she misses my grandpa... i miss him too. she stood there, staring out into the rain, tears trickle down her cheek, but she hides the pain real well...

since my mom left for bangkok, my grandma has been coming down everyday to clean up the house and cook dinner for us. i thank God for her. i cant have a grandma more loving than her. i love her so much.

my heart aches, to see her sad, to realise that one day, i'd not see her again. so in over 10yrs, i muster all my courage and gave her a BIIIG hug. made me feel so good. i love her soooo much.

i've not been a good grandson, i seldom visit her. and she's always so happy to see me. so are my cousins. i missed out soo much, that one of them is already talking and walking the last time i saw him.

it breaks my heart to have not loved her this much before. i am glad, i'm glad i've let her know how much i treasure her after so long.

i love her...