my 'grand' send off.. haha...

ok.. so today is my 'grand' send off to indonesia.. haha... not grand at all.. haha... i cant wait to go... i want to be at the airport cos i like that place. cant wait to meet the children, eat with them, play with them, love them... but today's sermon thingy quite scary.. mardios...(if it is spelt corrsectly) indian God of shiva... so scary... how the girl's voice sounded so deep and manly... sooo scary.. can u imagine?? demon possessed pple are like pple from the show exorcist... man... and the other lady with this sin she has and dun want to change change and God told pam seaward to dedicate her to satan... to satan!? i cant imagine those screams when her body started burning up spiritually after being dedicated to satan.. the demons she sees... eeee... i dun want to go to hell... i'm gonna go to indonesia and do my best. show them God's love and hope they'll come to God... save them from the burning legion... hate them.

but of course got nice stuff too.. about how this man never bathe, shave, cut nails and all... begging on the streets and pam seaward cleaned him, and tears juz began rolling down his eyes... i'd really love to show love to someone out there who really needs love... next year, i think i'll go east timor... help that country....

so anyway, tml gonna have my sentosa touch tournament... cant wait.. haha... gonna need strapper for my feet.. maybe i'll go fishing after the tournament.. a short while... go play at some breakwaters. see if can get a grouper or something.. haha.. long time never fish le.. den maybe go down to beach road and then to the edge.. haha..

ok... today nothing much la... stayed at home whole day relax.. den when go out, i had to go look for flowers for lee min.. cos i owe her ar.. finally found some lilies but haven open.. haiz... so sad.... but no choice le la haha...

after everyone else left, i was juz thinking about wad micheal said about me and girls haha... i dun have the attracting powers other guys have la.. haha.. he like totally predicted wad kind of guy i am.. haha.. muz be that training thingy... i am that kind of guy like ger wont jio one only make friends haha.. i'll most probably ask for email if i got the guts haha... quite silly thinking about how timid i am. haha... i think cos last time, the first girl i really like kinda ignored me for damn long.. we were juz friends but when she found out i like her, she like ignored me... so sad... den i think from tt day on, i always tell myself be friends is better than getting ignored.. so... i've never tell a girl i liked her (unless maybe she tells me first) after that incident. for esther's case, she asked me... so i said... haha...

ok... so i have to plan for my clothing le.. i dun have enough clothes for 2 trips... i think during church camp, i also want to fish.. i dying to fish. haha... i cant remember wad else i wan to type le... so i stop here.. oh ya.. saw esther juz now... i kinda melt a lil... i do miss her... but missing someone is different from loving someone...