a sweet day turned sour...

ok... am really pissed man... juz now tt is.. now i'm feeling much better already la.. maybe cos juz now i was tired so very grumpy. today was supposed to be a great day la... school ending at 1.45, go home, bathe, sleep, study, finish work, go church. but! damn it la.

ok.. i dun blame myslef or anyone for forgetting tt today got the dialogue session! ha.... ok.. was from 2.15 - 3.15. and then i tot we could go home. but, DAMN IT LA. we juz have to have a "short" teachers' day meeting. argh!!!!

u guys will be sooo disgusted when i tell u how pissed i was la. if it wasn't for sake of friendship and respect, i'd turn everything against hazwan man... kept taking my mind off it. though i looked fine, i definitely was not inside. i really needed to go home la. no point stating reasons. no one will believe too. cos, it's like too late to say right? pple will say tt it's excuse.

really had plans to do my work and all, but when i think of having only 1hr at homw before going to church, it really pisses me off.. first is because, wad i really needed to do (urgently) at home already takes up 15 mins. den i felt comforted for choosing not to go to church. pissed with myself. sooo pissed to the extent tt i was pissed tt i could go home. cos i should already be home!

den it's like i was sooo grumpy i got irritated by the smallest thing of pple in front of me blocking my damn way. damn 77 took a hell long time to arrive. argh.. better stop cos i'm getting angry again. we have a long time till teachers' day la! even i am not rushing anyone to plan for the next dialogue session. we plan to do it after mid years. so give us a break la! "short" meeting.... thinking of it pisses me off.

at least for a point of time i felt better cos i was praying and all.. should not have written this entry cos it's making me mad again. i think it's juz cos i tot of today as a great day the day before. so when things dun go according to what i plan, i get irritated. man... i definitely needed extra sleep which i got already. i cant bring myself to go to church with an angry attitude.

soooo... the damn devil work in many ways. but i cant blame it all the time. i have myself to blame too for getting so worked up.

now i've got to do my work already la.... juz now really waste time... i din do anything la... after some suggestons at the start, i juz started getting restless and walking all over the LT reading stuff pple wrote on tables.

really spoilt my day man.. they would have done fine with or without me. the girls fault la. told them i dun wan to be part of the committee already den purposely had to fit me in as peacemaker!? so dumb right... had to be some peacemaker between the 2 hard headed ICs. haiz... i am juz a peacemaker i dun have any position so why am i involved!?

haiz... really have to get started already. bye