i juz cant sleep...

guess i really cant sleep eh... i juz feel all wierd inside... wanna forget everything ya, juz play rugby... but at this point of time? guess not...

i am juz thinking about the day, since before my birthday till today, and how much of a jerk i have been... man... really a jerk...

still trying to keep in touch with God, even up till now... but how i feel, really make me wanna juz be alone... but another part, makes me feel tt i juz wanna be with God... guess i'm juz stuck in between ya....

i'm juz running through all my memories... thinking of everything tt juz passes by... i feel dumb and silly ha... at the same time, i guess i realise how childish i can be...

but 2 words to you i really wanna say...

I'm sorry...

=) i dunnoe why i've acted tt way.
juz wanna stop and start from the time tt msg was sent.

(the last thing i did which ever put a smile on ur face.
or the rose i made and to you, in which i gave.)

where it all began,
you became, --- my beloved friend..........

i'm so sorry, but if we could start again,
all i want is to be ur friend.
nothing more, just as it was,
i am sincere and full of remorse.

nothing i do would ever change things now,
really wished if i only knew how.
i already know what i want to do,
just to be ur friend, --- i assure you...