18/09/09

AR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what is this i feel!?
jealousy, hatred?
why did i not know it existed?
it's long over, aint it?
but why when i look you,
my head just feels like splitting,
my heart races,
my mind just starts spinning.
why do i feel this birst in emotions?
why do i want yet not at the same time?
what must i do to keep you out of my mind!?
I SWEAR i do not want to have anything to do with you.
i do not want u to linger deep inside,
my head, my heart...
i do not want you anywhere near me, cos it melts me.
WHY CANT I DO IT!
I THOUGHT I HAVE GOT IT OVER!?
i thought it is out!
I HATE IT!
cos i really do not want to think of anything,
anything from the past, anything in the present.

i'm going for a run.