10/09/06

"i am sam" is just so beautiful...

i dunnoe. i'm just real sad, real heartbroken. man... i wish i nvr existed. i hate everything. i wish i was good at my studies so that i can make my parents proud. but i simply hate it.

i feel sooo good that i've done almost 40 structured questions for chem over the past 3 days, but it's still not enough. i need to do more. but it's so hard. i am trying. i am.

i dunnoe what to say. i just longed to be appreciated and loved. it's just something so simple yet hard to get from anyone.