28/08/06

"men need the support of other men..."

ha... through this one month, there's been much discussion in school and even on the papers about men being unable to share and cope with their problems.

why men do not share?
see i guess it's like whenever i have a problem, i would usually find someone to talk to. ha.. i used to talk to desmond a lot before he entered army, it's nice to like tell someone den to keep it all to myself.

i have many things i would like to share, yet i keep it to myself to try solve it. now a days, i just dunnoe who to share my problems with! hahaha.. i usually share with the females though, i mean, at this age, it's normal to feel comfortable opening up to them. however, we'd sometimes be seen as a loser if we shared to them, (to some la) and so i have to keep most of my feelings to myself, especially since i broke up with esther, i lacked one major output haha... females would feel insecure if we shared our problems. thus we just have to keep it to ourselves.

it's kinda sad now, unlike the past years, i had many pple, friends i could share with. soon, things change... u lose some because they are suddenly caught up in a relationship, both males and females. some, they have left one way or another, be it NS or in many other ways la. haha... others, over time, things began to become wierd. ha... well.. many things changed.

i'm thankful to all those who can tahan all my ranting. ha... (to think only girls rant) i mean, i just wanna get away! hahaha... but well, i cant.

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haha, it's funny, during maths test, i and sam started off a debate which got me thinking all the way home hahaha... miss wu wasnt around and we just began talking about ideal partners haha! soon, the whole class started talking and discussing the paper, when our voice levels increased due to the intensity of our discussion. hahaha..

ok, so i am being picky! hahaha... but i'm just finding qualities in someone that would satisfy my needs. (NOT IN THAT WAY) what we were discussing about was about intellectual needs.

and apparently, to find some one good looking, able to understand me, able to discuss with me than just do what i say, to be able to do stuff together, things that we would both enjoy. i mean, it's not too much to ask for right? hahaha...

ok, so sam said, i was being too picky and selfish (not in a bad way) in terms of choosing. hahaha... but at least i'd go all out for them. (or so she thinks)

oh well... it doesn't bother me much now. been long since i really loved someone. i mean, it's different between liking and loving. ha... when u're in love u'd just feel like everyday's a happy day whether they're there or not, u'd cry because of them, money is not an issue, u'd spend ur whole bank account on them if u need to, their needs come before urs, u'd miss them the moment they leave. hahaha...

kk. enough ranting for now.