10/06/07

the whole of this week was a severe mental torture.

though everyone was celebrating, i just couldn't take my mind off things. days went by like weeks.

recruit night just 4 days ago, felt like it took place a week ago... time flew by so slowly..

i hated these past few days... though moments like games day and 24km route march were enjoyable, overall it was a sad week until.....

that night. i thought i've gone mad ha... i just felt like dying. my dreams and goals died. my desire died. my thoughts just went haywire and i sat in bed hiding between the lockers and just waited till i fall asleep.

i thank god. i dunnoe how, but that dying feeling just left me, and a new motivation entered. i just wanted to do my best no matter the circumstances. no matter how far my thoughts are from me, i wanted to forget them all and start a fresh. i just wanted to build it up all over - what i have lost.

i am proud to have completed my 24km route march and got a silver for ippt. i dunnoe why but i thank god... he comfort my heart and gave me peace.

i felt like crap on thursday morning... fighting the tears in my eyes. but whatever it is, how i feel's how i feel and it wont change, for a long time at least. =P

dot, the dotspot sms... ha... coincidence man.

and i AM NOT thinking too much hohoho!

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Colourblind


Feelin’ blue, while I’m trying to forget the feeling that I miss you
Feelin’ green, when the jealousy swells and it won’t go away in dreams

Feelin’ yellow, I’m confused inside
A little hazy but mellow when I feel your eyes on me

Feelin’ fine! sublime!
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind

Oh oh

Nobody told me you’d feel so good
Nobody said you’d be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You’re the light, you’re the light
When I close my eyes
I’m colour blind

You make me colour blind

Feelin’ red, when you spend all your time with your friends and not me instead
Feelin’ black, when I think about all the things that I feel I lack

Feelin’ jaded, when it’s not gone right
All the colours have faded, then I feel your eyes on me

Feelin’ fine! sublime!
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind

Mm mm

Nobody told me you’d feel so good
Nobody said you’d be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You’re the light, you’re the light
When I close my eyes
I’m colour blind

You make me colour blind

Blinded by the light you shine, the colours fade completely
Blinded by you every time, I feel your smile defeat me

I’m colour blind
I just can’t deny this feeling

Nobody told me you’d feel so good
Nobody said you’d be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You’re the light, you’re the light
When I close my eyes
I’m colour blind

Nobody told me you’d feel so good
Nobody said you’d be so beautiful
Nobody warned me about your smile
You’re the light, you’re the light
When I close my eyes
I’m colour blind

You make me colour blind

I’m colour blind

lalala~~~