just so distracted today. every single day i feel so horrible as i make my way down to school. i don't know if i should be there, i don't like what i'm doing, and it seems like i have no choice. i've been putting in so much effort the past week, putting every single bit of strength into what i'm doing yet today, i just couldn't focus all day long. don't know who to tell, don't know what to do.

i keep telling God my feelings and a song began to rise from my heart.

Still

Hide me now,
under Your wings.
Cover me, within Your mighty hands.

Find rest my soul,
in Christ alone.
Know His power,
in quietness and trust.

When the oceans rise and thunders roar,
I will soar with You above the storm.
Father, You are King over the flood.
I will be still know You are God.

yet, i still feel so troubled. the only thing keeping me alive are rugby and spending time with my classmates.

such an unexplainable feeling. i just need some joy. maybe i need more time with the word. more of God, less of me.