GP essay: Relationships are painful, discuss.

haha.. ok the title's crap but it's regarding what i want to talk about today... why? cos i saw something, another thing happened, and cos ec msged me. ok. what i saw: ok.. so i saw this guy today... dun wan to state name la.. but the whole school noe's him (clue) ok... so as his ex was walking by, i could see tt he was distracted... tears were juz in his eyes but he managed to conceal it well... i knew who initiated it from his expression...

den another thing tt happened was similar to mine... cos of a change in environment, change in lifestyle... the opposite is juz not used to it... doesnt this sound soooo familiar? wasn't it the reason why ec felt neglected? i din have time for her... i mean.. to the first guy, wo men shi guo lai ren... i understand perfectly how u feel... 2 yrs of experience has made understand a lot of things.. i used to tear whenever she passed by me... but no point man.. i cant trust even her now.. maybe i'm juz still very scared... afraid... i dunnoe... i rather juz be with myself sometimes... pour out my problems to myself...

u noe, i am not tt sort like what some of u guys think, i'm not the always changing type. there are some which are u noe, juz..... u noe, like juz admire but not like kind of thing... and i dun over react k pam! is u all disturb me and u noe, i easily pai seh one lor! at least theresa understands! haha.. i juz like to say it out so u guys may think like.. haha.. i dunnoe la... but i really am a faithful person... i noe.. i juz like to talk about other girls sometimes.. maybe cos i dun do all these in the past and u guys are not used to it.. haha.. i'm a free man now k. ha... and i'm not tt bad la... compared to the rest! (right!? u all are especially those 2 ahem! hahahahaha) remember those times i was with ec? i could not even be bothered about other girls. now my life's soo different. haiz...

i'm juz listening to the song on ec's blog. it's nice... brings back lots of sad memories... but i like this song... it's like a song for a love that never meant to be kind of thing... u guys can trust me on my judgement whenever it comes to relationship k. i noe how u 2 feel but u've gotta trust me.. dun let such small stuff affect u.. haha.. though there's some older one's tt dun like taking advice from younger pple. haha... they think they are mature enough.. hahaha WADEVER! hahaha... lets see... lets see... betcha image is always important hee!

an for crying out loud!! i dun attract guys and i'm not gay!! hahaha... i'm juz frenly to everyone. how would i know if tt person's gay or not! but maybe some of my actions are really silly sissy hahahaha... cos i always imitate some girls to make fun of them ar.. den end up i keep doing it ahahaha!! so i'll stop disturbing them ha! (who ask them la.. always do stupid actions tt make me want to laugh and disturb them. bet some of u guys also cant resist but make fun of em ahahahaha!!)