18/02/06

i feel sooo distant...

so far away, from everything. been a long time since i felt this way... i juz realised something about myself, i am becoming more of an introvert then in the past, an extrovert.

hmmm... i was juz thinking about last yr and how i changed sooo much... haha... i'm becoming quieter, i love time spent alone, i'm not so funny anymore, i juz realise how much i love the time i had when i could "tour" singapore... miss those times...

anyway, i guess, too many things i have erm... i dunnoe how to put it, but how i wish... how i wish... (nobody's understanding what i type now. ha...)

i juz cant stand life now, i want to move on but i cant. held back by so many things i cant bear letting go. i want to but it upsets me soooo much.

i guess i should.

hmmm... looking through some of the guides and maps, singapore is sucha wonderful place! haha.. i cant wait till i've totally explored singapore and begin exploring other countries like malaysia or even indonesia. hahaha!! i wanna travel!

now i realise why i am studying about the tourism industry! heh!!! cant wait to start working.

wanna enter the navy. wonder if i can though..

ah... enough for today.. church's making me feel more and more lonely these days, everyone's gone, pple there erm... nvm... history. (ok, it's a pun here)

i din feel like going today, but i felt sooo far, i pushed myself out of bed and left the house. thank God i did. sermon today though it did not really hit me tt much but it reminded me of my passion, and what made me go on...

hmmm... ok la... muz stop.