lalala~ RANDOM!

juz thinking about the phrase "forbidden love" haha...

fell asleep while thinking about it as i played this song "living to love you" ha.. love the chorus. i suddenly found it in my recieved files while looking at the photos hugh sent me on msn...

hmmm... haha... "he loves, but she forbids..."

thoughts abt this phrase juz flowed through. hahaha...

".... how the petals of a rose turns black as it falls off the rose..."

have u ever felt this way?

why is it my heart hurts at times when i think of you?

though we're so far apart...

why do i think i am hated?

though i know i've been once cared about so much...

why is it that you wont juz look at me and tell me how u feel?

though at times i juz wouldn't understand how you feel...

why do u just walk away so easily?

though it's the last time i'd probably see you...

why did i fall for you?

though i know i'd juz may never be with you...

why do i live days thinking i've lost a friend?

though you're juz there standing by the corner...

why do i feel as if i have lost a closest friend?

though we barely knew each other.

why do i feel this way?

i'd never know...

hahaha... I'M FINE k!!! haha... i'm juz thinking abt questions i used to ask myself. how silly and naive i might have been. most of the questions i prolly cant answer and cant understand what they mean when a girl reacts in a certain way. hahaha... i've never knew how to go after a girl. ha... most of you know it! i'm juz LOUSY! hahaha...

and FINALLY! sam admitted, i'm juz friendly and approachable. NOT A FLIRT!!! hahaha... totally suck at it, make myself look like a fool if i tried. prolly sometimes (when i think about the past) my silly innocence makes it look like i'm flirting hahaha.. but have stopped it already. like i've mentioned.. i'm not so fun loving anymore like i used to be... wanna be like last time, but i guess i've juz grown up. matured. HA!

i'm juz a lil more quieter than usual, dun socialize that much. ha... even yr ones this year barely know who gabriel is HA!!!! EGO! no fan club... heh!! hahaha... =PPPP

ah... now i'm so energetic. lols... from that sleepy mood to this "i cant sleep" feeling... tmr i've still got school... ha...