02/08/06

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ah... just watched a documentary on some haunting thing, and i am awed at the awesome redemption power of christ!

this show is about how this certain place is haunted, which got me thinking because there are no such things as ghost, BUT there ARE demons amongst us.

but according to their account, the spirit/demon din want to move on cos it was afraid of it's eternal judgement in fire. which means, eternal burning of flames, in hell.

this brave guy, stayed in that haunted bar to protect the owner, and i honour him for his bravery. he in fact got posessed. and how ironic. a psychic who believes she can speak to spirits, definitely NOT a christian, suggest tt they call a minister down to deliver tt posessed man.

and in fact, when the pastor came down, he cast the demon out and best of all, the man said, he felt change, like something he has never felt before. and this touched my heart. because almost all christians have their lives changed like never before... just like me.

i know i am different from the rest. those who dunnoe christ, and unlike the past, i now dun really weep for them, and i feel sad. but i do feel sad for my friends who dunnoe christ. to think of them being blinded, burning for eternity in hell. i use to cry in bed because of the fact they die without me giving them a chance to know christ.

in sec 2, i had this change in my life, a depressed child to someone always cheerful, someone, whom i feel i dun get involved in the world. i learned self control, i dun go beating pple up for no reason like in pri sch hahaha... i controlled my emotions more, i learn to forgive and forget real fast. pple say i am naive because i trust others too much. but no matter how many times my friend may betray me, i still loved them. i grew to love pple around me, care about them.

i know i changed. i remember how i dreamt tt one of my friend, weijing died, though i used to be condemned by him and of course some others in the same gang, i never hated any of them. in my dream, i was heart broken, and i cried, HYSTERICALLY! haha... when i woke up, i was still crying. to make things funnier, i went onto msn to look for him, and found his contact MISSING! i was soooo worried, i immediately asked a classmate for his e-mail add so tt i can add him. haha...

yea, he's not dead. THANK GOD!

i'm so happy another friend of mine, yong hian got saved. i used to tell him about christ, trying to convince him. but it never got through. one day, he got saved, and like all christians say, his life was changed. man... this is sooo heart warming... i just love to know of friends getting to know christ. it makes my day. at least here, i am not forcing anyone to convert or anything. i want them, to know christ as their friend on their own.

not forgetting roy sim! he wanted something in life, brought him to church numerous times, and he slowly began singing the songs during worship and he sensed this feeling, i know tt feeling. =) deep inside he wanted to know this Jesus, but he was afraid of his mom. i remember praying for him, giving him advice.

soon, he was soooo excited! he told me how he has changed, converted, he knew christ personally as a friend, and with his SAJC mates, they attended church. MAN! i was overjoyed!

praise the lord... i miss those times, time when i was really close to God, times when God used me.... everyone wants to be used by God, it feels nice.... nice to know he has a purpose for u. nice to know tt u have authority over sin and death. knowing tt my sins can be washed clean, and death is nothing sorrowful.

i miss u Jesus.

P.S. I AM NOT STRESSED! hahaha.... i am in fact, happy. =DD