02/01/06

well, the end of the holidays for most of u. a new year, but somehow it feels like nothing's changed.

nothing much tt i'd look forward to. just to go on, and hope for the best... maybe i do have something i am looking forward to, like my module results, den army - i cant wait till i finish bmt.

for now. it's just work and home. i dunnoe who i can go out and play with. though i really wish i could just call some of u and go partae! but, it's wierd since we dun see each other much these days. even kai and vijey's working, kannan, prolly will see him soon.

maybe after rugby tmr, i'd get to hang out with some of u. all the ruggers.

well... it's not tt i feel alone, but i feel like i dun wanna get involve with the world, while deep inside, i just want to be around pple.

all day while working, i enjoy being around pple, but they come and go. i talk to some of the guest for a moment and i'd prolly not see em again.. haha... man.. tt's sad.

i begin wondering what it must be like to live in that family; their culture, food, gatherings etc. why are they so stinking rich!? and the children and parent seem so friendly. the child obviously pampered yet not arrogant nor snobish. ha...

if i inheritted a lot of money, i'll just leave every thing and everyone and travel. tt's all.

i'm just a nano dot on the surface of this whole earth who wants to see God's creation, understand and get involve in a region's culture, make new aquaintances, live with the poor, bless them, do something big to change their lives, move on and repeat.

tt's all i ask for if i am rich. and of course, do it at my own time... den have some time learning to surf, drive a boat, dive, understand nature and use it to my advantage, whatever outdoor stuff la.

oh well.. these are the things i have been thinking about if anyone at work has caught me stoning. HA!