i'm a Donkey

ok.. so today's edge sermon is about the donkey... i guess i do want to be tt donkey, to be set loose, to be used by God... he has helped me, changed me.... i am soo thankful. he has made me wad i am. he's always with me. guiding me through the darkest nights... i need a change in my life.. i'm constantly falling back and forth... life's tough... but with God by my side, i fear nothing! i noe for sure He is there to help me when ever i need Him...

songs.... a wonderful thing created.... i guess, i juz want to isolate myself once again and do lots of thinking.. the only way, is music... keeps my mind off the world, allows me to do thinking in my own world... life's changed a lot for me since she left me.... i do think back a lot... i miss most of those times... and now, i've got no one to share my life with... i feel lonely... but.... this change is inevitable.... it has to come.. with this change, i cpuld concentrate more on God and my own life... but... i really miss having someone with me... it still hurts a lil... but i guess time will heal... soon.... i'm not so hurt about it anymore... been quite a while already...

got the pictures from jogjakarta already.. one day i'll post em. haha.. thanks angel... i guess, i might want to go back there for missions... i dunnoe... is juz how i feel and not a calling.. ha.. my time will come soon... wonder where i'll be... wonder what the future holds for me.. so exciting. haha....

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election's coming soon.. so is my speech.. i feel sooo nervous juz thinking about it.. my heart juz beats real fast. i noe i may not win, but i'll still put up a fight. and i dun wan to lose face during this 'fight' ha.... i'll do my best though and hope i have the support needed....