i dun wish to do anything...

haiz... i juz want to stay home all day and juz try to study. keep the whole world out of my head and study (except for rugby trainings la.. haha..) i only wan to study and play rugby. and i want to do well, glorify God, and be an evangelist (still praying bout it...)

so ya... first of all hafta say sorry to saha bout the bbq thingy... i guess today's the wrong time to ask me... i feel real stupid today la... dun feel like doing anything or going out.. juz wanna sta yat home study, slack.

i also feel like going for prayer meetings after last tuesday's one in which i really enjoyed myself. wanna juz spend more time wit God before school reopens.. wanna pray for a new begining of a new term..

hmmm... dunnoe wad's with me but my body's givin off a lot of heat man... i'm like burning la... so uncomfortable... the wind from the fan feels like warm air to me... haiz... is this the begining of global warming???

anyway, i am juz happy to get to know desmond la.... he's like a really cool fren.

den there's me and this stupid problem with trust la... most of u noe tt i really trust pple, but get betrayed all the time. now is like i am having this trust problem. (oh ya, nothing to do with desmond or anyone else) i juz feel like i need to learn to trust pple more... i feel so betrayed like all the time la. muz be the work of the devil man. gonna pray against it. and guess i've juz experience it too often la... i am scared la...

talking about scared, ya man... i feel scared... i dunnoe... dun feel like talking abt it too... i juz wan to talk and talk and talk la.. forget everything haha... like juz now play drums... major relieve man.. haha.. especially when i played with joash... it was soo fun la... tot we lost but in the end, we managed to play all three parts of the drum game la... (the big japanese drum at the arcade)

haiya.. dunnoe wad to say... i juz need someone to talk to la... juz talk talk talk... but i kinda did enjoy my day... juz need some rest now...

haha.. my blog entry might not make sense la.. juz blog to make me feel better.. haha...