11/08/06

ah, man! hahaha... i totally forgot tt i have a dinner at gallery hotel!!!! man...

i dunnoe why but i just dun seem to remember such stuff. maybe also because we had no meeting point and all, so in my mind there's no one to meet.

hahaha... some how, i need to be reminded constantly, i mean, it's a school day man, haha... i'm too caught up with the worry of school work, i'll simply forget all else, especially care group!! hahahaha....

i dun understand what i'm doing also. i mean, i know nothing much's gonna come out of my A's yet i'm slogging and trying what i can, yet everything makes my effort feel as if it's to no avail with the results i obtain. i thought i knew.

nowadays, i have conflicting thoughts of studying, i just do not want to study, though deep inside i want to. hard to explain. i just dun see the result coming out of my hard work, maybe cos i did not study them all and also wrong method? but in that specific topic i studied on, i did quite well, except the others.... argh! i thought it was enough...

maybe i need a close friend, or good friends, or who ever who would remember me and keep reminding me, to meet. maybe if i had a girlfriend who'd remind haha, (i'm not hinting anyone or what ya! hahaha) i guess, some times i can be more caught up with friends from school and those outside tt i'd just forget about church activities.

it's so sad la, last time (prolly like almost 6 yrs ago!) church was so much cooler with all those guys, but things changed, we all grew up, pple left. haha... and church and what ever activity we had was of my top priority, cos i just wanted to see everyone, i wanted to be with everyone.

but now's still quite fun too, maybe i just dun appreciate the present hahaha... video guys, den there's dot, joce, all the new lil ones whom i can clique with cos of the children things we play HA! jadon joshua all. HAHA!!!

ok la, at least kailing, kannan and lay kuen still remembered me when i was suspended. HA!

I'M SOOOO ABSENT MINDED!!! can't believe i forgot all about the dinner!!!

like just now, I COULD STILL GO FOR DINNER WITH LAY KUEN LA!!! ARGH!!!! i was soooo hungry and since it was on our ay home, we stopped at al ameen. hahahahaha!

argh, stupid me. feel so useless, cos i even forget about home work i need to complete. maybe i chose not to remember them. i feel like there's this mental blockage. irritating, but i'll survive!