12/08/07

once again, just a short thought of u, ur deterination, ur accomplishments, pushed me on once again. though i dun feel any attachment to my friends anymore, i still need them.

it has both pros and cons, now i'm more focused in the army and booking in is not so tough, however, i dunnoe who i can talk to anymore, i'd just randomly find someone to sms. the only pple able to push me on are my platoon mates.

suddenly i began to wonder... all these while... going to church, for God or for my friends? my daily relationship and dependence of God has not change, but the desire to go to his house, to spend time with him has slowly dissipated.

i still need my God, but i dun want to be where his people are. confusing huh.

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i miss timor... miss those times sooo much.