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do my entries sound so suicidal? hahaha...

oh well, life is hard inside, i'm sad now, and what i go through now is unbearable, however once i go in, i'm usually fine. it's just hard now, just for now....

2 more hours till i leave home.

there's a cry and a hatred so deep inside of me. i hate what i'm doing now, i hate the government. these feelings don't show them, i can't show them. i'm a soldier, a leader.

tears flow every there and then, it flows in my heart and i let it out only if i'm alone. this is not the life i want, actually, i dun even know what i want. even if i'm out, what's the kind of life i'd lead? i have no idea.

2 years... 2 years...

i have no faith in myself.