28/01/08

God has a bigger plan than all the little insecurities which distracts us from His great plan and purpose for our lives.

i really thank God for andre, cos of our similarities of character, we are able to constantly encourage each other and help each other. i can just sense the holy spirit's presence between us even as we speak and share about God's plans for our lives and prophesying into each other's lives.

in some way, i just want to be pushed into the dead end until i solely depend on God. until the point where there's just non left of me but the glory of God.

how i desire so much more of Him each day, and how everytime, when i do not sense His presence makes me feel insecure. let me not take for granted His presence...

how i wish i had you by my side..

just lacking the fire this evening... somehow feeling this unusual lonely feeling, just out of place, like i've given up trying to fit in kinda feel.

well, the weekend's been awesome haha... i really thank God. i wished it went on all day long hohohoho...

"give me oil in my lamp keep

me burning burning burning,

give me oil in my lamp i pray.

keep me burning till the break of day..."

holy spirit, i need you soo much.. SOOOO MUCH!

22/01/08

Seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness,

then ALL these things shall be added unto you.

it's almost 3am and i can't seem to fall asleep since 1.30... but well, this verse have been ringing through my head the whole time.

17/01/08

14/01/08

yesterday was awesome! i had a really tiring day/night but i had soooo much time to spend with God!

i managed to do a bible study on ruth and hannah and wow... AWESOME! it spoke to me soo much.

and i realised something i've been depressed! haha... my lack of self-esteem, the tendency to assume all kinds of feelings in which in reality the other person isn't feeling, the loneliness and confusion etc. man... but it's amazing how God still used hannah to be part of the royal bloodline.

God can use human schemes and "accidents" to fulfil his divine purpose!

my man were really obedient too haha and HILARIOUS! they literally do what i tell them to HA! the duty officer and i were laughing because of a turnout HA! i told them to wayang and they wayang a little TOO well HAHAHAHA!!!

but i thank God, warrant kang turned us out twice only. i mean for a guy who holds the record of highest number of turnouts a night! 14 TIMES! can u imagine! no sleep the whole night! and also, because i was reading a christian book, at least i was able to shine even just a little for God.

warrant kang was surprised to find out i was a christian.

well... it was a real torture at night trying to stay awake. my duty was from 2-6am. i did not want my man to do it cos i'm afraid that they'd be too tired for training today and the guard 2i/c had to stand sentry at 7am so... i volunteered ha... I REGRET!

i konked out at 4am head knocked back, mouth prolly wide open, dead asleep HA! thank god no one saw me HEH! maybe the newspaper guy. he must have been laughing. man...

but i just want to thank God for His favour especially in camp. thank you lord. it is really good to walk in the lord and see his blessings everyday! =D

last wednesday, while i was seeking God, i felt 2 things impressed upon my heart by the holy spirit.

first, The Anointing of Moses.
there are people among us who will rise, great leaders of our generation. they will be the ones who will shout out to satan "LET MY GENERATION GO!"

yet up till now, they are asking God how?
like moses, he asked God how? God gave him Aaron and a staff. in the same way God's going to give these people a heart of intersession, a new passion and desire. these people are going to intercede for their generation, to break the youth of this generation free from satan's hold!

i really wanna be of tt plan...

well... God's gonna bless pple as well! just like joseph! remember how successful joseph was because God's favour was upon Him. God delighted in Him.

those who longs fulfilment, seek to please God, cos only when u touch His heart and please Him then will His favour be upon u and His blessings showered upon u. You do not even need to pray for blessings, but pray to bless His heart, ask him, "who can i bless today?" or "How can i touch your heart?" give God all u have, be it the pair of hands or legs he has given you. give it your all in worship.

then u'll see fulfilment and blessings come your way.

yea... this were the 2 things i felt in my heart... the same excitement i felt like before so much i couldn't sleep haha...

thank you Lord.