hols soon!

haha.. gonna be the hols soon.. teachers day's coming.. man.. cant wait la for it to be over. all the SCs have made lots of preparation... though things still look a lil plain...

am quite tired... have quite a lot of work to do, but anyways, God have seen me through all my problems especially today. ya.. thought i'd have a depressing and sad day, guess not! haha...

i remember being in the car and not feeling like coming to school cos i have not studied for chem test, math test (like i'd even study), and there's some stuff i cant remember tt would make my day sad. ha.. however, in the car, i was like, "God, bless this day even though i know it's gonna be real sucky... "

hahaha.. guess wad, when i reached school, no chem test. then something happened while i was playing game that made my day GREAT! haha.. after tt, things juz went by smoothly.. nothing much, no hw i need to do, no tutorials i need to complete. wuahahahaha!! power la!

haha... nothing much.. juz wanted to blog today so had to write something ya.. nitez pple.. should have seen the pic with me and balloons.. haha.. look soo sick.. lols! before i sleep, hahaha.. mr fong has finally found his talent in dancing haha. he did quite well toay with "micheal jackson" HAHA!! not bad.. lols.. him, dancing, hahahahahaha!!!

Thank You Lord!

ah... am really happy to have completed all my assignments last night though i stayed up till 2.30am... but i feel good ar...

when i reached school, i was still quite ok until math... no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't. i wanted to listen to mr saw but i couldn't stand it. i fell asleep and when i forced myself up to do my work, my arms were shivering lightly... ar... too tired.. many of the notes which i copied half way through my sleep, i did not remember copying them initially. i thought aisha helped my copy it. hahaha.. i was really half conscious when i copied them...

anyway, i juz reached home from school. it's like 10 la... spent the whole night doing up the deco for teachers' day.. am super tired now. all i can do is pray that God bless me for tml's test and go to bed. i cant keep my mind awake no more. the longer i keep it awake, the harder it'll be for me to fall asleep...

need to go to bed. all of u taking ur exams soon, i'll keep u in prayer ya... God'll bless u my friend... i know it... nitez all.

I need a break...

if u see me blogging excessively like now, it means that i'm really stressed.. two of my favourite means of stress release, hang out with my friends, blog. to me, blog = friend, therefore, i find comfort in blogging.

guess, when i really get started on work, i cant stand the load.. wonder how u guys do it... all i can do now, is seek God but i still need the peace in my heart... i miss my friends, especially church frens... barely get to see u these days... am busy and tired.. especially tired... have been oversleeping a lot lately.. recovering from my aches and sores.. 6 different bruises round my body, still taking time to heal... i'd rub them till i fall asleep haha... soothing.. ahh.. but pain. >.<

really need a break from all this man.. school aint stressful cos i can easily not do my work and get away with it ha... but it's the part of not upsetting ur teachers cos they suffer more... this stresses me out.. especially maths! i feel obliged to pay attention. haha...

why am i going off topic? guess i'm too stress. guess, i'm hanging out with my blog now, drinking teh ping and pouring wadever i feel like saying... guess i'm very different from many of u ya? i like to tell others my own secrets but not other pple's secret. not say secret but wad i have in mind. i find it easy to say things i feel inside to my friends and when it comes to secrets, hahaha.. u can trust me up to 90% haha... i'd probably listen and forget.. ha...

hmmm... hafta stop blogging now, though i soooo want to carry on chatting - chatting with my 'friend'... guess i'm gonna go down and get a drink. need one real bad. so ya... tata~

it juz left me heartbroken...

as i am searching for material to do up my EoM, (evaluation of material) i came upon this piece of article which really broke my heart... it's about this old man who was ill treated by his relative. his monthly welfare money was confiscated by his family member leaving him only $20 a month... sometimes, he gets locked out of the house without food nor drink...he thought tt he had found a good relative who would take good care of him, but no... he was wrong..

it's sad tt there's the old aged pple living in pain... everyday is merely a torture till the day they die... it's sad... i wanted to tell him sooo much i loved him and tt Jesus loves him too... if only there was a way...

anyways, here's the webby, u can go check it out.

Convicted...

this is something i have to blog down. i really feel sooo convicted. it's 3 am on a sunday morning. and can u believe it? i am still or rather was still playing games. i stopped. y?

2 weeks ago, (the week i brought kannan, enos and gracie to edge. the rest of u were either having mother daughter session or excursion or juz decided not to come) jeremy seaward preached about temptation. (right kannan?) so to cut a long story short, at the end of the service we were asked to write down on a small piece of paper wad is our bad habits in which we need to get rid.

as i was playing my games, i decided to take out my bible to read while waiting for mushmom to spawn. juz after mushom spawned, i killed it and continued playing. suddenly, this little note, flew out from like no where, in between my legs. i thought it was a bee or something. guess not. i thought to myself, "where did this piece of paper come from??" so i slowly opened it up....

first thing that came to my mind, "muz be some note from ec which i left lying around..." as i opened..............

it wrote:

temptation...

to play games non-stop...

as i read it, it freaked me out. i realise that it muz have flew out from the bible. (cos i placed it in there) the spirit of the Lord juz came pouring down and it filled me sooo much, i felt so convicted tears juz came out my eyes....

i sat there, staring at the paper telling God, "Lord, thank you! THANK YOU JESUS!!!"

thanks to jason too... if he did not gimme the paper, i would not have written it down. to u too kannan. hope u did not misplace tt piece of paper... take it out, remind urself of ur temptation.

thank you Jesus.... i'm sorry....

guess, i'd better be going to bed... juz felt that after what happened, i had to blog it down. to tell u, God's real and he loves each and every one of us. at the same time, the devil's real and he's or rather it's here to destroy our lives! the reason why thank God is because, i was sooo touched. i know he loves me by protecting me from the works of the devil. it's really a miracle to how the paper flew in between my legs... i did not even see it fly out... best part, the bible's juz next to my laptop. i definitely could have seen it come out...

yea... nitez...

Smack dead tired!

man.. haha.. i am super super tired!! slept quite a few hours today... i only remember i went to get some rest at 1pm juz now.. listening to the music from my laptop, i slowly went to sleep.... my mmind juz drifted and drifted.. realised that there's really a lot of things in mind...

the sound of the music, wind, cars, made me remember my old house at pandan gardens.. as i was half consious, i felt as if i was in my old house, lying back on my bed hearing the sounds of wind and birds. i somehow felt that i have a service balcony that is next to the toilet filled with evening rays of the sun. haha... it's juz like my old house... the tv's running and my dad's at the sofa joint 90 degrees along the wall.

ha.. i guess, not many pple realise this but our house, is just like a family member.. a member that doesn't speak nor do anything but protects and houses us - a special member. everyone would surely have a kind of 'feeling' for their homes.. leaving or demolishing a home is like leaving behind a famly member. one that has been with u all this while, watches ur every action, see u sleep, was there at every celebration. man... i miss my old house... small and cosy....

anyway, today's a slow day hahaha.. i juz sleep and sleep. my shoulder and neck is aching from all the tackling yesterday.. it hurts so bad i cant even shrug my shoulder.. haha..

kk... back to finishing my GP essay.. still got my EoM to complete.. -_- ha... bb!

wad would i do?? (edited)

hahaha.. wad would i do without rugby!? ha... man.. i juz love playing it. i'd probably have withdrawal symptoms if i did not play for a week.. haha.. u'd see me trying to tackle trees or worst! pillars!!! hahahaha... (and if it hurts too much, i'd probably tackle brian =D)

today was really fun! we had like 45 minutes of 1v1 tackling, where we have to dive and score. ha... i was stuck to tackling for soooo long cos i juz cant take them down!! hahaha.. not tt i miss them or wad, but it's like i hit them but they'll usually drive for about 2 more steps before going down. hahaha... so like wad's the use if we're at our try line. ha...

anyways, i was sooo bu gan yan, i decided to do it until i get it right so i was like "NEXT!!!" *bam* "NEXT" *bam* "NEXT!!!" hahaha... i had fun la, though now, my body hurts and my arms are weak... hahaha...

wah... my whole body' aching.. haha.. especially all the scratches!! soo pain when i bathe. hahaha... but it's normal la.. juz complaining for fun. especially this scratch behind my ear!! haha.. got it from a really hard tackle i got from li nan i think hahaha...




check this out!!
XL RUGBY SHORTS!!!

yea... fun... wonder if it's God's will for me to continue playing.. ha.. many things have been running through my mind lately, after my application was sent. aint worried. haha... i'd love to go. yea... =) but still, i'm working hard on my studies. gotta do well for promos if i get to take it. ya...

i juz am in love with this song hahaha... it's soooo nice. i juz keep humming it the whole time in school. hahaha... no la, if u think i'm love sick or wad, i'm not. it's juz a really sweet song. ya... haha.. gonna have net at my place!! how cool! hahaha.. first time lols!!!

before i forget... =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CONGRATZ TO TOUCH GIRLS FOR FINALLY HAVING THE TASTE OF VICTORY!

ruggers, we've got to work harder.. -_-"

=D

nice song ya?

this is a really sweet and beautiful song... written by john denver for his beloved wife. he muz have loved his wife soooo much to come up with sucha beautiful song... wish i could be a song writter too... it'll be sooo cool...

joanne, this song's for u. ha... i juz think it's a really nice song ya... hope this song's able to fill the 'gap' ya.

yea.. sometimes, dun we juz feel like erm... lonely, bored, out of love?? hahaha... like as if u feel sad being alone, but again, nice to be alone. dunnoe wad ur friends are up to and blog becomes ur friend. ha... i do feel tt way once a while haha... so ya, u guys who feel the same way, u're not alone haha...

anyway, i heard this song in the morning and juz could not stop humming it.. haha... sooo nice...

do u remember why u started ur blog?? haha... i think i'm gonna write about this the next time round. i realized something about pple starting blogs. not everyone but some.

juz days like this..

ha... since yesterday night, the mood of joy has juz brought me through my day. hahaha... i juz totally enjoyed my day ha... even though i was lacking sleep, i dunnoe why i din take the opportunity in class to sleep haha.. i was forcing myself to stay awake.

everything juz went right today. haha.. no nothing, really. man tt's cool la. i wish everyday's like this. only prob is tt when i went to sleep after i reached home, no one wake me up!!! ahh!!! i juz woke up haha.. ya.. screwed.. no time to do homework.. whole night gone. lols. i'm still sleepy though.

ha... anyways, since u guys are requesting t i link u, ya, i've done everything up! haha.. even edited leney's link! finally! hahaha... am too lazy to do such 'admin' stuff.. haha..

short entry, nothing much to say. wanna keep it short and sweet cos i know my entries are boring hahahaha... too much talking no pics ya. haha... soon, soon..

ah... one day gone...

haha.. wish this day din end and tt i went for edge as well... man.. was really too tired.. haiz.. anyways, i had lots of fun this morning! haha... sooo we din do too well but well, haha... we juz need more training.

anyway, i still feel like playing now ha... it's like whenever i wake up and become on form, i'd usually play like one last match, or last 10mins den go home... argh!! hahaha... starting i was nervous and all, missed quite a few tackles but after the AC game, woah! tackling's fun!! hahaha.. when i played CJ, i juz had to go into every ruck possible and take down every man i met. ya haha... i had no miss takles during CJ game. in fact i had one run which i was confident haha.. probably over confident. cos it looked like one of the situation i faced during training.

wad happened was tt i ran up, den i faced off this guy den i was like yea!!! gogogo!! den i saw this fat dumb guy on my right... ar... haha.. but since i was like i said on fire, i thought i could bang him off la.. haha =D i yelled and hit him *BAM* den his head flew to the side a little but he was grabbing hold on me sooooo.... ar... i tried wiggling la, but by tt time, 2 more guys lifted me off... aww...

was sooo fun!!

anyways, i am sooo encouraged by PJC's team. they are one hell of a team that deserves a coach more than us. wasted talent man... they've got heart and desire. their no. 8 was super cute la! like little bear charge up, fat but FAST! BOOM! but also got miss la... haha.. their no. 10 was good too. rahmad or something. ya... heard he used to be a nothing till he joined combined schools.. not bad... i love their spirit a lot. holding back SA and RJ and conceding one try only. man.. they deserve an applaud! would be an honor to play them in next yr's A'div.

hmmm... was really tired after it all, went home boom. sleep... nothing much to say except for a dream i had hahaha...

i went into a super deep sleep. and it was sucha wierd but cool dream. i dreamt of sooo many pple, all church one. haha... there's fab, dec, des, matt, col, joel, brian, sheena, ec, hmmm... who else ar.. got 1 or 2 more. ha.. yea.. i think i saw es for a while. haha...dunnoe why man, but was a funny dream. it's like our church builiding is in line with this whole row of shop houses, one of them was BK, the other was KFC (in between got other shops) den we were like going to eat after service, den i was with a first group of pple, (lazy to name) den we bought our food, at BK, mine was not ready. somehow, went up to the second floor which had beer!? haha... i remember drinking heineken lol. den suddenly fab asked me want to go eat KFC, den i was like ok so i left, forgetting tt i already ordered food and that it was coming. so at KFC, i ordered again, haha... so i ended up running both places giving excuses why i needed to leave the table haha... had to finish my food at both sides haha.. was a silly dream la.

okok.. shall not crap anymore. off to do some stuff..

tml's the day!!

wah.. have come a long way, waited a long time. tml's the day!! i'm soooo nervous and at the same time excited. just cant wait to play tml! haha... super excited, yet i cant wait to get it over with haha..

man... i really really cant wait! hahaha.. guess i'm going back to wing again.. aww... but hahaha... also can la! am happy with this team, it's a great team, full of talents, nice pple and definitely gentlemens unlike the past. yea. i believe that we definitely make a better team now.

hmmm... nothing much to say but i hope to go far! cant wait. gonna play AC again, am really excited. i remember all the hard hits i took haha... they are fun and challenging to compete with. soo ya... off to go to sleep already...

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anyway, i'm happy i went home early yesterday cos i took lots of rest and i felt good today! haha.. i was back to being me haha.. jumping about, playing a fool. disturbing everyone i see haha... i started the day off disturbing kumari with my new trick hahahaha.. was funny.

while typing this, i'm watching extreme make over. haha.. sooo touching and romantic... the guy propose to her... aww.....

but ya, it reminded me of something. i remember training today, we were cooling down, doing stretches. den i remember looking up into the sky. wah... soo beautiful... it felt good... i felt like i was with someone i really loved haha, my problems and troubles just disappeared looking at the clouds drifting by... wa.... sooo nice...

today juz felt great. went to do some grocery shopping on my own, went home adoring the round moon.. sooo round... nice... it's really a nice day...

i know this is quite a boring entry cos i'm watching tv and typing this so i am not thinking of making it creative and interesting hahaha... kk nitez!

from then till now...

ok, since the last entry, quite a lot of things happened, aint gonna elaborate on all of them but i juz feel like blogging down some of the important ones. ya.. haha...

sooo.. remember my previous entry? yea... tt nite i was kinda lost man. haha.. juz wanted someone to chat with lighten my night haha.. kinda chatted with gracie. since she had her probs and i had mine, why not? ha... so ya... it soon became a casual chat and to cut things short, i came up with a song while stoning over the phone. haha.. it's like some sort of poem but it's sooo cool la. haha.. too bad i've forgotton how i sang it, but i still remembered how i played it haha...

den the next day was es birthday!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!!!

had training tt evening. am quite satisfied with it haha... after all the crouching together with the computer chiar, pretending to be in a scrum, asking my sis to roll the ball and me hooking it, i've finally improved!! a bit... hahahaha... not bad la. juz need more experience. yea. had fun during tt training la. enjoyed it though i got screwed quite a bit.

soon later i had to leave cos we're gonna drop by es place and i thought i had to bring my fried chicken down. thanks to auntie anne, i dun need to travel home.. yea... THANKS A LOT! (though she might not read this haha..) had a nice time there except tt i was very tired.

by the time things ended, i reached home bam! i fell onto bed and sleep... haha.. slept a lot but until this morning i was still very very tired.. i dunnoe why... like lack oxygen. the body's juz shaking cos it feels weak... ya.. light shivers when i woke up, carry my bag and all.... but after a while will ok la. juz initially.

so am back home early cos i signed out. cant carry on in school. too tired and feeling very uncomfortable. slept through chinese, (i love my chinese teacher. =P) my break, and slept a little during physics, cos i wanted to listen. but no matter how hard i tried, i felt like dying...

anyway, am going to sleep now. feeling goggy after typing this. like eye pain and head like going to have headache. so i'll write about my stupid signing out prob if i have the time later and if i still feel like talking about it.

kk... snorez...

mixed in my....

hmmm... there's just lots of things running through my head.. i dunnoe how i feel now but ya... ha.. i just feel like playing rugby and never stop now.... juz run and run and run and let go of how i feel inside. i dunnoe how i feel inside. juz feel like talking to someone. i dunnoe who, but someone i feel like talking to.

probably it's more of emotions running through my head but i dunnoe la... feel lost now haha... so wierd... was studying, but i cant concentrate, i guess too many things has happened.

tml's gonna be a nice day, i hope. got training once again... i am gonna hook the ball this time if given the opportunity. i want to, i must. will do my very best. all i can think of is saturday. am rumbling inside, waiting to juz step on tt field and give it my all.

anyways, i think i'll juz lie in bed and try to fall asleep cos i really cant stand this feeling i'm feeling inside... it's like totally lost. i dunnoe. am lost. cant study or do my work... juz want to lie back, and let things run through my head and make all the decisions i need to.

so ya, all of u take care. see all of u tml...

Only Hope-switchfoot

A Walk To Remember

There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write
over and over again
I'm awake and in the infinite cold
But You sing to me over and over and
over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope

Sing to me of the song of the stars
Of Your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that You have
for me over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only Yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope

I give you my destiny
I'm giving You all of me
I want Your symphony
Singing in all that I am
At the top of my lungs I'm giving it back

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only Yours
I know now You're my only hope

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really like this song... din noe it was from "a walk to remember" till i found the lyrics... haha.. guess it must have really been a really nice show to have sucha beautiful song in it. hafta watch it someday...

gonna change my blog song soon!

hmmm... read.

egoistic teacher but stinking funny!

Pre-Assignment Note:
By now, you would have heard the news that I am not around for lessons today. For many all of you, I am sure this is a great tragedy since you adore the subject and me, even more. Therefore, to comfort you in your period/s of loneliness, this assignment is a balm for any GP withdrawal symptoms you might will suffer from. As you proceed with this, try not to miss me too much because it is only natural that you will miss me more than i miss you. Alright, before we start making each other puke, you better begin with your work.

Mr Fong

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hmmm.. ok.. am back home. dunnoe wad title to fit in. ha... have decided to stop blogging about my days cos i felt tt it was a really boring routine. but now, i've decided to put in this entry (which will be one of the few entries) tt will talk about wad happened today. haha..

not a short day DEFINITELY! was real tired on the morning, body pains, uncomfortableness... probably from the donation. slept at 10.30 the night before and i cant even wake up at 6.30am... -_- haha...

anyway, had training at the end of the day... after training began, i forgot about my fatigue. haha.. had fun and definitely am honoured to play the game.

today i was placed into a new position. hooker. cool ya. am real proud and honoured. though i DO love playing wing, i'd love playing as a forward! it gives me the "power" to work harder, i get to do more thinking and all.. especially as a hooker. calls and all.. i definitely am gonna work SUPER hard to play it.

did quite a lot of good hits and runs BUT, i also did many many lousy things especally drop balls! thought i have gotten over it but ya.. came back to me again. maybe cos i'm juz too excited about running up and hitting. cos i LOVE hitting!!! woot!!!

din do too well in hooking the ball. (have to practice) was kinda pushed back to play second row. haha... it's pain and gross but also fun! haha... sick thing - during scrum, i have to sqeeze my head in between the prop's legs and the hookers. haha.. mannan hooker. hairy, sweaty LEGS!!! haha.. ever watched "Along came Poly"?? ya.. u'll noe wad i mean.. hahaha.. ewwww.. =S

i feel bad about taking over hady's place. as in really bad cos i'm inexperienced in tt position and he really wants to play. yea.. sooo for tt, i'm gonna work very very very very very hard to play it! ya... really hope i can secure tt position. wanna play with the big guys. haha.. always enjoyed it since the 15s. i play blind with the forwards!!

lots and lots of thanks to hady and mannan for coaching me ya... especially hady. i know u deserve it. for tt, i'm gonna work very hard and learn from him. thanks dude!! gonna work hard as a team and push far! gonna show the school tt we're no losers ya. i am really encouraged after wad happened today. the forwards are really nice pple. hope to work with u guys in the game!

yea... tt's about all. haha... no more internet connection means less maple, less msn... ya... kinda suck but it's a major blessing in disguise! yea..

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btw, have edited the previous entry. highlighted wad i feel tt's true about me.

wad do u think?? accurate? (edited or rather, highlighted)

haha... juz did the test i found in colleen's blog. haha.. see, see my results!! =D

Besides being concrete in speech and utilitarian in reaching their goals, the Performer Artisans are informative and expressive in their social interactions. Thus, while Performers are usually extreme in their expressiveness and sociability, observably the most expressive of all the types, they are not comfortable telling others what to do, preferring to offer information rather than to issue orders.

Demonstrating or performing is putting on a show to entertain others, and Performers, whether on the job, with friends, or in their families, are the natural performers among the types, people for whom it can truly be said "all the world's a stage." Playful and fun-loving, the Performer' primary social interest lies in stimulating those around them, arousing their senses and their pleasureful emotions-charming them, in a sense, to cast off their concerns and "lighten up." Representing about ten per cent of the general population, Performers radiate warmth and optimism, and are able to lift others' spirits with their contagious laughter and their irrepressible joy of living.

It is well that Performers are plentiful, something over ten per cent of the population, because they bring joy to so many of us. They love the excitement of playing to an audience, and they try to generate a sense of "showtime" wherever they are. Performers are not comfortable being alone most of the time, and seek the company of others whenever possible -- which they usually find, for they make wonderful playmates. Lively, witty conversationalists, Performers always seem to know the latest jokes and stories, and are quick with wisecracks and wordplay -- nothing is so serious or sacred that it can't be made fun of. Performers also like to live in the fast lane of society, and seem up on latest fads of dress, food, drink, and entertainment, the chic new fashion, the "in" nightclub, the "hot" new musical group. Energetic and uninhibited, Performers create a mood of "eat, drink, and be merry" wherever they go, and life around them can have a continual party-like atmosphere.

sooo accurate or not?!?!?!? tag!

how an object oscillate with a given force

Just the other day, we had a lecture on oscillations and now, waves. ha... i remember tt lecture clearly when Mr Tan used how human relations can be compared to that of a frequency of an object...

friends, and yes of course, relationships. haha.. i remember how we were disturbing him about him and miss wu, talking about them having the same frequencies and all -_- haha.... but wad he said din realy made sense, haha.. having the same frequency means knowing tt person well? hmm... i guess soo... haha... his coffee example and all reminded me of achar! kira, ah wei remember?? achar! nasi brani?? haha...

but wad he said was quite true ya, when i'm with my friends, it depends on our frequency to gauge how much fun i'd be having haha... i do have fun with ALL my friends ya. haha... jus the other day going home with ah wei, zash, jane, ran and jac made me realise how much difference it could really be.

haha.. i really had fun tt day juz chatting, disturbing and playing a fool. i realise tt when i was with pple who understood me, the fun we had was like a lot! so much so tt not only are my friends having fun with me, but pple around too! haha.. i remember tt lady with us near the bus stop. she was like u noe, um chio (want to laugh, cannot laugh) haha.. i din notice it at first but after a while, i realised tt she was smiling at almost every joke i cracked with the rest haha.. guess i was the one doing the most talking la.. was hyper back then haha...

den when i went home with jac, i remember the MRT being packed and all. and we're jus chatting and having fun till the extent tt talking about the different religions and comparing them could also be quite fun and funny. ya... haha. we were going round catholic, islam and chritianity. haha... dunnoe if jac realised it but the pple around the MRT was definitely trying to laugh at some of the things we said. haha... even the one about "God has plans for us... etc etc." haha... all of u wont understand this part. ya... she might have forgotten about it too haha...

ya... things can be really fun when u're with ur frens who understands wad u're trying to bring across haha.. but how i wished tt i was frequencyless hahaha.. bet many of u do experience this and always try to fit in ya. haha... many of u i noe of hahaha... right? heh... m guilty too ya!! *waves* =D

but dun betray ur frens for the new ones ya. the old ones have helped u through a lot. some of u would noe wad i mean. ya... time to sleep!

overcomed! --- can't believe i did it!

since young, i've always had the phobia of anything that's piercing, extreme pain and all.. ha... i have never in my life dared pierce myself or anything and i can't believe i did it la!!

i guess i was motivated by care and concern or i'd never and i mean never in my life donate blood. i have to admit, i was pretty scared of the needle... it was.... and i mean IT WAS, super BIG!!!

but it din hurt la.. so stupid. i was like so scared. but still, the effects of my phobia were still eminent. i could not clench my fist properly.. it was all soft haha... but it was a great experience. am gonna do it again if i have the chance!! haha.. not scared of it already.

thanks for those who stood by me haha... made the experience a nice one ya. haha... the numbing jab is pain! quite contridicting ya, haha.. numbing, pain. haha...

anyway, wad happened was tt liana's dad, he met with an accident. he needs a lot and i really mean A LOT of blood for these 1 or 2 weeks. quite a few bags a day. and she needs donors to provide blood for her dad.... it's really sad la...

i was praying that things would be fine when i first heard the news from miss lee... went to ah wei to tell him about the blood donating thing. so we went together with kira and the other girls. after donating blood, i remember going up to see her dad. he's in the ICU. i remembered when i first saw him, my heart broke... yea... it really hurt.. he's unconcious, tubes all over.... my eyes were wet, but i din want to show pple the soft side of me.. ha...

but yea... all u pple out there, do spend time on her behalf to pray for her dad ya. i'd be constantly praying till i hear good news. i'm gonna believe God in a miracle. =D

liana, u may not read this but aku mau bilang awak, saya dan yesus cinta kamu ya? kamu tak takult. kau bapa suda baik, aku TAHU yesus boleh erm.... heal kamu bapa ok! (spelling and meaning might not be too accurate. haha.. wrote it in malay cos it's quite embarrassing to say it in english, like it's wierd to show my concern in english ya? haha... i feel wierd)

anyway, God is good. soo ya... take care girl...

haha.. oh ya! i nearly died during training hahaha.. really no strenght. lols!

WHY!? ha.. but thanks.. =)

haha... has it ever happened to you, like you've been saving ur money to probably buy the latest mp3, discman, or maybe a handphone or cam. when.....

UR MOM BUYS BACK ONE AND IT"S NOT SOMETHING U WANT!?!? and u like go WHY!!! cos it's not exactly what u wanted. she thought it'd be a suprise. haha...

not tt i'm complaining la... i know i'd never be able to save buy an mp3 i want haha.. like an ipod and so on.. but my mom got me one cos there was a major discount from about $250 to just $99.. so she.....................

GOT 2!!! hahaha... and i'm like why!!! cos if i dun like can give my sis ma!!! haha...

but i could see it on her face la... in her head she's like saying "ha... i know my children are gonna love it!" haha... i din want to say anything la... just thanked her and pretended i really liked it haha... but i am really thankful la... it's small and nice. good enough for me! =)

seldom u'd get wad u want but still, ur parents will sometimes get you wad u want out of the blue cos they love you and they want to suprise you, so if they DO do something like this for you, dun go "WHY!?!?!?" but go "thanks". cos it'd break their heart... ;)

let's say God has answered my prayer ya! haha... ok la.. it's good enough FOR NOW! haha... i was disappointed to hear it was only 256mb BUT how much songs do i want to blast my ear with!?!?! haha...

thanks mom.... =D

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well... one thing funny that happened today was during GP when mr fung asked, "what is the root word of phenomenal?" and already being punished for losing my worksheet i said "PHENOL!" hahaha... i was just waiting to answer him cos he was asking all the other root words like leverage which i wanted to reply 'everage' (average). haha...

one good thing about today, i get to go home real early!! but i slept from 5pm to 8pm. what a waste man.. whole day at home GONE! -_-"

ha... gonna do at least 1 work now bb! =P

my "expedition"

could not stand my day if i just wasted it away. was craving to be out in the sun. man... craving for vitamin E hahaha... i could not stand it so i got my bike out and decided to go explore the part of zhenghua park i've never seen.

an account of my "expedition"

on my way down to zhenghua park, which was about a kilometer away, i passed by these group of pple getting ready to fly their remote planes. sooo cool! i also want to buy one and play. haha.. soon i reached the park and that's where all the pain started ha...

thankfully i know how to make full use of my gears (and i only had 3 pathetic gears which was kinda good enough la..) so climbing those super steep slopes wasn't too much of a problem at the start. there were soo many slopes but it was ok la.. the path was made of gravel the type our cars go on, so it was kinda smooth.

the nice part was after i cleared the park and entered the forested area. wow... can hear the sounds of all kinds of birds and all.. as i moved on i saw squirels, little rodents haha.. was cool. i remember tt i was stumped for a moment when i reached a dead end. thankfully i remembered a detour and took it so i can continue and go further than i last went.

soon i reached dairy farm road, the place i've never crossed over, i remembered tt there was a path down but i reached a dead end. so i turned my head, determined to look for an alternative route and i saw one hidden, covered by thick grass. so i went on ahead.

it's like playing final fantasy. things start off easy and understandable. but later the routes become harder to see, the grass's much thicker, so thick it gets ur foot cut. the path becomes very very very rocky, i bumped all over the place and my hands really hurt, they're blistered now. slopes become super steep. i was determined not to fall off so i pushed super hard going extremely slowly up the slope. was really painful on my hands legs and lower back. it's like slope + bumps... wah... difficult but when i reached the top without falling, i feel tt sense of achievement. also, u get to see more different "monsters" on the way. those of "higher level" haha.. rpg gamers would get me. i saw from little lizards to big monitor lizards to VERY BIG monitor lizards haha...

i remember passing by little "rivers" the water was clear and very beautiful. there were little fishes in them... was nice.. the water was sooo clear... it looked like drinking water... i soon met a family lost. they were asking me which is the fastest way out, but i really did not know cos firstly, i dunnoe where i was, secondly, from where i came, it was quite far. haha.. but as i cycled on, i realised tt i led them the wrong way... the way i led them was never ending... haha..

i continued the way i led them. i was tired, i was telling myself to turn back but, i couldn't. i haven reach a dead end and i was reluctant as i have come so far. i knew that i might not have enough energy to go back but i told myself tt i wanted to see wad's ahead. i went on non-stop..

finally, i reached a dead end. it's stairs up. and i thought it's not for cyclist to continue on. the trees above looked more dense and i thought my bike wouldnt survive there. i turned back thinking if i missed a detour, but i guess i was too tired. i went on for more than an hour continuosly.

i met someone moving the same direction so i asked if he knew where i was. i was near the summit of....... bukit timah hill!!! wow!! that's pretty far!! he told me tt if i continued on up the stairs, it'll curve down hill to the foot of bukit timah hill.

anyway, the time taken to go back was half going up!! woot!! (now i noe i can go further next time) the reason being that i have gone up sooo many slopes, it's time to go down! haha.. i remember going soooo fast, i can see and hear monitor lizards scattering all over the place!! haha.. it was sooo fast cos the slopes i climbed were super steep!! slopes i've never managed to climb before. haha... now i can =P hahaha...

it was soo bumpy, it hurt my hand even more.. but all i care was to go back. i was dehydrating real badly. my shirt's all soaked in my perspiration, my clothes covered in mud. the muddy roads kept me going at gear 2 only.. was slowing me down greatly and gear 3 was too difficult to peddle on the mud...

anyway, on the way back, an ang moh cyclist caught up with me and he went ahead. all the slopes we climbed looked cool haha.. we were like synchronized in our gear changing haha.. looked cool. even the slope which used to say "pls get off your bike and push", he was able to climb it. so i tried. haha.. i did it!! i remember the last time i fell off and rolled down. *ouch* i guess last time i did not know how to use my gear.

soo. it was great la. din waste my day. once i reached greenridge shopping center, i ran up to 7-11 to get a drink was dying... haha.. den slowly cycle home 3 blocks away.. was all in mud.. had pple staring at me.. haha.. about 2 hrs all in all.. yea.. time to rest... my hand hurts and my legs ache... my bike needs cleaning and servicing.. haha..

i'm gonna do it again!!

Nday celebration

today's Nday celebration's quite cool!! enjoyed it. hahaha...

first off, there's marching. ar... my feet's aching cos of the marching. reached school at 7am got changed and practiced. parade began at 8.30am.

marched out i stood still the best i could out there. hahaha... recalling everything i learnt from being a scout. was cool la... i was dripping with lots of perspiration la... haha... so hot. white shirt, blazer... like the word says "blazer" it's hot!!!

haha... den there's kite flying which was quite silly la. haha.. i was slacking in class. den to the halL!! tt's where we had the most fun!! we had prize prese den songs!! woot!! i wasnt too hyper today cos i was sleepy. but i realised tt teachers are juz like us. haha.. on stage, i dun see the age gap haha.. we act like as if we're the same age. was quite cute la...

we pulled the teachers up to the stage and got them to sing our national songs. the crowd was juz cheering for the teachers, but as time went by, it got more enthusiastic. was soooo fun la!! u'll see pple jumping around as if it's planet shakers. lol... if it's really planet shakers, we'd have to change school. cos the hall would collapse!! HAHAHA...

as everyone jumped in front, u could see the projector bouncing too.. hahaha... everyone formed into their own groups and started singing, shouting, screaming, HAVING FUN!!! i ran down with the wireless mic getting students to sing. i think it was 05A1, i saw tt they made a circle so it's a good chance to get them sing into the mic so i ran to the middle. haha.. in the end, i kena bullied ar!!! hahaha.... but the rest were kinda shy singing into it. there were some who were bold too. yea... fun...

am glad everybody had fun ya!!!! the FLs put in a lot of hardwork into it. me too!! haha... i marched the best i could!! hahaha.. kk.. now tt i'm back home, time to catch some sleep! reached home late yesterday.. was at es place with some other youths having fun there too.. haha.. pizza and all.. ya... some more after reaching home, i juz felt like praising God. played guitar till like 1 am.. this morning wake up at 5!!!

gonna go sleep...

`My reflection..

do you see wad i see?

do you know wad i go through?

do you know who i really am?

do you understand what i say?

no.

i'm not making sense.

you'll never see what's in me.

you'll never know what i go through.

you'll never know who i really am.

once again, i'm not making sense.

=D

only i can see what's in me.

who i really am.

i'm finding myself.

i want to know who i really am.

we're all special.

u, me, everybody.

but i know, i want to be someone special.

=)

once again, i still dun make sense to all of you haha..... =P

that's beacuse u are not me. get me?

haha... i salute u if u do.

NITE NITE!!

past memories... =D

Now that i had a whole day to just bum around, i kind of had some time to think about my past... haha... it's quite nice la.. all the wierd things i think about... prepare for a super long entry..

i remember once, my mom brought me to the museum. i don't know exactly why, but i remember i dressed up as a malay boy den together with some other children, we did a short skid in the museum. it was a last minute thing. we were like holding the scripts and all. i was only in kindergarten or pri school.. very very young.. probably kindergarten..

halfway through the skid, a young lady announced around "kids! finish up and go outside for your Macdonald's!!" i was like "yay!! mommy, mommy! got Macdonald's!!"

my mom was like "huh?? got meh? who tell you son?" den i was like "go out and see lor!!"

so there was macdonald's outside. my mom happily queued and got me an apple pie. (it's free btw.) i happily ate it too.. all the other kids around were enjoying too! after i was halfway through, that lady came up to my mom, and den she suddenly said "hi ma'am, actually these food are for the orphans from XX orpanage.." (forgot the name so use X haha..) my mom was like shocked!! quite embarrassing la.. even i, at that young little age felt embarrassed.. haha...

while i was finishing up my apple pie, i could hear my mom talking to the lady "my son told me......." haha..i felt real bad. y mom even offered to pay them, but they said that it's ok. they had extras anyway.

as we were leaving, i remembered she offered me an ice cream. but i was too shy to take it. so i just rejected the offer... haha... thinking about it really made me laugh a little... also.. i remember how much my mom used to pamper me... she loved me a lot.. i was like always hiding behind her.. little boy... my mom used to be soo loving... not that she doesn't love me and my sis now la... tt time i was like the only child...

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den there's this one time where me and my neighbour, best friend were at my house raking up all the video tapes from a cupoard looking for cartoons. suddenly we chanced upon this tape... my parent's wedding video...

my older cousins were sooo young... i remember watching it... from the morning visit to the dinner at night. i recognized quite a lot of things.. they are still in my house now and they're propably antiques already. one's the mirror which was a wedding gift i think. gold plated. now it's old and rusted, and it's in my house balcony now. there's this other large flower vase in the video which i kinda broke it while skate boarding at home about 3 yrs ago..

it was a beautiful vase which during every chinese new year, my mom would fill it up with flowers...

i remember how me and kok yah juz sat there and watch it. and it became kok yah's favourite video at my place. he'd come by and juz start watching it..

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remember the last time when u felt u were old enough to handle an electronic device and you'd beg ur mom to buy u one??

last time, we had this electronic diary. it serves as a calculator, note book, telephone and address book, calendar and a few more functions. it was very popular during my young days.. my mom had these really cool one and i wanted one as well..

somehow she manage to get one for free and gave it to me.. and till now, it's still with me. found it while digging my stuff looking for some things.

also girls, they like to keep those fancy erasers, i had one too.. it's more than 10 yrs old and it looks like it's 2 yr old. haha... i kept it. it was a gift from someone. and i liked it a lot! i did not use it. it's like somekind of lunch box. i'd open and take the food shaped erasers out and put them back in haha...

i think tt's enough for now... it's a long entry i know. haha... bet most of u wont read it all, but its kinda more for me to read... hope blogspot doesn't juz disappear cos i definitely want to print out my whole blog and make a book out of it.. haha..

wasted a day..

today, there's nothing much cos i'm home the whole day!! haha... boring and lonely la... wanted to look for pple to go out but think i dun wan to la.. it's like the best day for a family outing but all my parents could do today is spend thier WHOLE day watching japanese drama... it's really the WHOLE day. i barely stepped out of my room, din see much of my sister. all i did, play game, eat, study, sleep, play more games, watch tv, and juz repeat these few things la...

morning went by slow and nicely... was cool. afternoon was when i started studying and playing alot.. oh my... i dun wan to be addicted la... shall not waste my time on games anymore.. the day's coming to an end. gonna make full use of this time now..

i really feel like going out, but i should have asked pple like an hour earlier.. it's already 7 la... wad's there to hang out. ha... anyway, i'll spend my time on my work and doing some things i always wanted to do but din have the time. (cos i'm playing games.)

sooo ya... i really hope everyone's enjoying their day ya...

last day of the week!! yay!!

haha... am real happy tt it's the last day of the week cos next week, it's alost holiday all the way!! hahaha... anyways, i feel real motivated to start doing my work somehow. so gonna start later or tml morning..

soo ya, had touch rugby tournament juz now was really fun la! i din lay too well la.. haha.. off form. but we did fine. i think we did not let in a single try ya... cool.. haha... ah wei!! HAHA... chio bu remember??? haha...

soo ya... miss lee's in a good mood these days.. wonder why... haha.. pms over? nah... maybe she and the boyfriend got some special thing going on?? haha.. or maybe she's juz plain happy.. ya, feel like buying her a flower to make her EVEN MORE happy hahahaha... ya....

she did not make us stay back or wad today, asked her about her mood and she's like all cheerful about it haha... but anyways, i'm still gonna do her file and all... sooo gonna get it done by monday, hopefully haha...

kk... gonna enjoy the rest of this weekend!! hahaha..

with a nice day, it usually comes a bad.

today was bad... din want to go to school cos i wanted to catch up with my work... my mom was like being so nice till i had no choice... man.. i'm quite mad about it la. if i din have much work, today would be the most wonderful day of the whole year...

today, was a total waste of time! chinese which lasted 30 mins but 15 for me cos i took my time. stupid dialogue session with some minister which killed one of my breaks, leaving me with a 30 min break. (when it's supposed to be 1hr 30mins...)

den it was like physics, maths, GP. which lasted like only 2hrs before the day end. worse of all, i have marching. damn! i could have gone home to finish up but os of marching, i've just and i say JUST reach home. i want to finish my chem file cos i dun wan to stay back tml!!

i've been trying to copy finish but it seems sooo infinite! argh!! everyday, i've got hw, and only after i finish den i start on the file but everytime i want to start on the file, it's about 9.30! and i can only copy at most 1 set!!! if not the usual, half a set. argh!!

my mom should have juz turned back this morning la... really! i am unhappy tt y day was just wasted away like tt when i can make use of the day to relief myself of my stress...

cant even get to touch games. sooo irritating.... guess i cant maple much for a really long time la.... zzzzz..

anyway, one good thing happened la. at least... i've been praying for my PW yesterday and this morning cos whenever we keep coming up with a new idea, the idea seemed to be done already by some pple... sooo frustrating. but today, we went to clarify, and guess wad, our idea is actually kinda new! OMW!! (oh my word) i'm like soo happy la! finally can get started!!

so ya... am really happy to know t our pw is very feasible and fits in to our society. so hope i can do well in it! praise God!

anyway, i have to go eat dinner and bathe den probably start work even though i am sooo frustrated to the extent i dun feel like doing it already... haiz... bb.

ah.. nice day.. finally.

haha.. so cool.. miss lee has kinda stopped the persuit of files. guess it's my responsibility to finish it up and hand it in by friday. haha... had this song in my mind today and was changing the lyrics and all haha.. fun.

my day circled around this song 'top of the world' haha.. singing and bouncing to it during physics. mrs kuek tot i was very happy hahah.. maybe not very la.. juz happy but feel like being cheerful ya. hahaha... it's fun when everything's cheerful, training, class, everything!! hahaha..

loved training man! especially the 1v1 tackling. woot!! soo fun la!! run and hit! *BAM!* WOOHOOO!!! wanna do it again. cant wait for M1 10s!!! i'm super excited!! got my tracking more or less improved la, now is to test it in the field. ya. haha.. cant wait la!!!

soo ya... today's fun. tt's all. haha... i noe, boring entry as usual... nothing much nice to blog la. as much as i want to know how ur day is going, i'd like to let everyone noe how mine's going haha...

back to work! cya!!

hmmm... titleless i guess..

dunnoe wad to say or wad to do. haha... juz deleted my previous entry after some thoughts about it... dun wan to stir anything up ya... past is the past, why bring it up ya?

so erm... i hope u pple are enjoying life and all.. haha.. i am.. juz tt sometimes i feel down haha.. for no reason. but today, i'm hyper! hahaha... i was juz singing praises all day long lol! at least i put a smile on someone's face with idiotic singing haha.. made ray smile!! ya am proud of myself!! was singing 'the joy of the Lord is my strength' to her.. haha.. u noe, the iddy version. haha...

guess, there's nothing much these days except tt i am starting to buck up more on my work ya... sooo guess i'm gonna go to bed.. nitez pple!

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haha.. i wanted to update about something i nearly forgot!! haha.. if u have realised, i juz changed my blog song! haha.. this song have been ringing in my head. dunnoe why la! haha... it doesn't really mean anything to me juz tt, it makes my mood. the tune and all... haha...

these few songs are juz running through my head throughout the day : five for fighting-'superman', 'collide', 'last thing on my mind', 'dream'. haha.. maybe if i can find these songs, i'll put em up.

what a dreadful day...

ha.. now i'm in comp lab enjoying this break while it lasts haha... today's sucha painful day man... but i'm not too worried or wad la.. juz want to get this day over with.

sooo.-.. first, i've got P.E. today and i did not bring my attire!! screwed... den, i realised tt i had sooooo much homework i did not do!!! now, i've recorded em all down so tt i'll remember to do em.

later, have to stay back to do chem, practice marching for Nday den finally, do file... ARGH!!! still have to stay back to do my pw... which is like sooo.... erm... dunnoe la... GOD SAVE THIS POOR SOUL!!! hahahahaha...

kk.. wanna go maple. will update here again once i reach home.... if i even survive this day ha...

1.00pm...

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ok haha... i put the wrong month when i updated the entry so u guys din get to read this while i was stll in school.

anyway, i'm glad to be home!!! woohoo!! i survived the day!! gotta tell u how things went into place man... first off, i was troubled about my day like stated above. wad made it worse was that i did not have to juz stay for chem cos mr saw made me stay back for maths too!!! i was like argh!!

but this is where everything falls into place. after maths, it's time for P.E. i had no attire, was worried, but, i din want to tell a lie or wad to escape or juz stay in class and pon. so i juz went up to the hall sat down, prayed a short prayer.

there, i was obviously caught hahaha... green guy among the white and blue uniforms hahaha... so i juz told mr chua i forgot to bring. thought i would be punished or wad. haha.. i was telling mr rozlan like first time only la.. nvm haha... after a short silence, mr chua just said, "ok, no games for u today." haha.. pointed at me in a really cool way hahaha....

*phew* =D

so after everyone went to their seperate games venue, i went back to class which gave me the opportunity to catch up on my chem!! woot! THANK GOD!!! finished one practical (out of 2) and then went down to the comp lab to relax a lil... played maple a lil... din feel like joining the rest for dota.. ya hahaha...

after the period ended, went back to class, saw mr saw... guess he's really mad, disappointed and all.. luke chen's partly to blame. however it's wierd, i dun support my classmates in cursing luke chen and all, and i definitely dun support luke chen in scolding mr saw!! i love SAW!! he's like a grandpa to me... poor guy... heart broken....

talking about calling him 'saw' hahaha.. he was like irritated when i call him tt n the library. haha.. like i nvr give him face. haha.. quite rude la.. but i've been calling him saw since last year!! hahaha... he doesn't really mind if we're in class but outside. hahaha... it was funny la. i wanted to laugh when he told me not to call him 'saw' hahaha.. he was like looking around, den he bent down and whisper "oi, so irritating la u. saw, saw, call properly la!" haha.. den he looked at my paper and juz continued helping me with integration hahahahaha...

hmm.. den chem, i had file ad pract but when i looked for miss lee, she has juz gone home!! yay!! tt means i'm free!! so i went home after marching. because i had maths, i missed about half the marching, so i only marched a little haha.. which wasn't soo bad haha.. cos i din want to march at all at first la, but now, still ok la.. hahha...

kk.. time to get back to work. might update again tonight. a lot of things to say. see if i free haha..

9.25pm...

the joy of the Lord is my strength!!

woot~ hahaha.. i am juz feeling soo happy today la! hahaha.... the day was juz kinda filled with laughter... hmmm... service juz now was supereb too la!! haha.... now i'm juz singing praises to the Lord cos i'm happy.

on the way back home in pastor martin's car, i was juz listening to hillsongs and there, i juz felt the presence of the Lord sooo strongly and all i felt like doin was to play my guitar and worship Him. the desire was sooo great like as if it was an addiction. it was like i MUST do it. but my guitar string's broken. guess i'll get one soon. tml perhaps.

yea.... it juz feels soo good when i worship God... i juz love the joy of the Lord. it really feel GREAT! hahahaha...

back to school. problems and all, but NO SWEAT! the Lord's my strength, my shelter, my ALL! gonna go to bed already nitez!