30/07/06

AH!!! MACDONALD's BIRTHDAY PARTIES ARE SOOO FUN!!!!

it's just sooo sickening tt i cant upload the pictures... cos my mom's laptop dun have the programme required for me to transfer. that bluetooth programme...

i can only hope tt i get the pics from the rest on cds or something.

hahaha!! we played, passing rubber bands using straws in our mouths, musical chair (which was the ultimate!!!) it was stinking hilarious!!! i laughed my ass off playing musical chairs.

CAN U BELIEVE IT! we were like kids for 19 and 20 yr olds... MAN! it was sooo fun! haha...

PICTURES!!! i want to uplaod them!!!

well... sch tmr, must study hard!

and xw, thanks for everything.

wu xian wei u too. haha.. just for fun. anders, u've been a great friend too. hahaha...

30/07/06

nowadays, i will not be allowed to hang out, my laptop has no internet.....

home becomes worse than before... much more depressing.. ha....

many of u would know how much i'd whine about going home, cos i really hate home! now i suddenly think of those days in school in which i whine about being in sch for so long and not having enough time at home. or maybe it is because i got too used to tt lifestyle tt home became too boring. OR i just wanted to be free from sch AND home! haha...

i feel real happy and me when i'm with my friends, church or school. yesterday was wonderful, i felt real happy. i just want/need my time with my friends... i mean, family is always there but friends, they are only there for part of my life time...

oh well, i was forced to come home from church, and i din want to disobey my mom... i'm suppose to be studying now...

later, am going for lays' bday party at bb MAC! hahahahahaha.... man... CAN U BELIEVE IT! it'll be sooo awkward... oh well... just go there and add to the noise level.

k. sleep.

29/07/06

ha... ok, so my mom removed the router and not cancelled the internet, so i can use her laptop still hahahaha!!

anyway, i had a really fun day with kailing, kannan and lay kuen.

went round window shopping and stuff, played with things and had a lot of fun. actually, this would be a cooler blog entry if i had my comp on, cos i even have a video of me animating tiger (teeeeger from winnie the pooh) hahah...

den we saw russel lee, had his pic too. u know that guy forever covering his whole body in black cloth! (even his face) hahah.. remember how engrossed we got in his books of "true singapore ghost stories"? it was only amusing and fun to read as kids, but as we grow up, we somehow just find the book boring.

if i could upload pictures, i wanted to show u aunty-ism displayed by lay kuen. typical auntie. hahahaha...

too bad la.... i really want to upload em all, but my comp is rendered useless without internet connection... i feel so helpless too... ha.... man.... but i shall study... want to complete my chem assignment.

k la, den i think i can just throw this blog away too... cos i'd prolly will not be able to update. man..... oh well....

28/07/06

i just deleted the whole entry.

keep things short. i feel heart pain for my friends/anyone who have dysfunctional families.
abusive parents. my classmate aint the only one.
it's worse if the teacher is insensitive like mine.

i am blessed. and i take things for granted.

condemned teachers just remains condemned, no matter how i try protect them, i end up condemning them at some point too.
i despise him, yet respect him.
i speak up to for him, and i dun expect anything. really. i dun expect anything.
imagine being the common joke among some parents while waiting for their turns. (and i was joining in too! hahaha...)
he's never gonna be respected.

overall, i'm not mad. and after parents' night... i prolly wont have this internet connection anymore. (according to my mom)

i'm just online to be "closer" to my friends. i'm too dependent on them.

i just dun like to be told what to do, cos i'd do it on my own. but i cant justify this because i am not showing results. but i know my limits, they are prolly just too under-achieving.

well, i'll just do all i can and not be disappointed at any results. yep.

27/07/06

oh yes! i wanted to thank esther tan for smsing me this morning, wishing me well. i appreciate it a lot! it made me feel loved. ha... at least i know that i have a friend who would remember me. one who might as where i am if i wasn't around. ha... it's nice to have such friends. and this reminds me, i've been doing the same thing for the past week! hahaha... zash.. she did not believe i wrote her a letter, CAN U BELIEVE IT! hahaha... dropped by friendster, to write some friends testis, like yong hian from LONG time ago. haha...

but like what i have blogged below, it might have been a symptom of stress, but i wish to continue this habit as it makes me and my friends happy. especially those who replied saying they couldn't believe i would write to them, or those who simply reply to say thanks. haha.. it just makes me happy. =)

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ok, i've got back the stress thingy worksheet. am watching lost now. and am stinking tired. just came back from night study, which was not exactly useful, but it helps in stress relief.

ok so here goes, my reacton and recovery.

REACTION UNDER STRESS

• Becomes more talkative
• Releases nervous energy physically but in a more emotional way

RECOVERY FROM STRESS

• Social time
• Needs only a short time to recover from stress
• Need to spend time with others by talking

yea... this kinda explains the need over the past 3 days for the need to talk. i was really desperate for contact with the outside world throughout my night at home. it's wierd how i felt uncomfortable and moody at home and not in school, until this analysis came out.

i remember trying to chat with different ones, dunnoe who to chat with, dunnoe anything till i called xw as my final measure. and i really REALLY thank her. cos i knew she would pick up the phone. and it really helped. i felt much better. and following some other events with this other friend, things became much more "lighter".

ha... anyways, i'm glad i dun feel the same way anymore. i feel real happy, especially today. walked into school with a smile. ha..

and i feel so sorry for ideal cos i kept disturbing him during night study. hahaha.. I CANT STOP TALKING!!! it's just soooo relieving. hahaha... shall write him a sorry note. but night study was fun la.. haha...

anyway, i'm trying my best to focus my time on studies, i was just thinking of how much studying isn't tt bad. and like, it's gonna be my hobby, or rather, it HAS to be my hobby, my past time. i know i can do it. somehow. or at least i know i've did my best after i recieve my results.

yea... neways, i forgot exactly what i wanted to say about my study thing but, am gonna continue watching LOST! ha...

sleep sleep sleep!

WUAHAHAHAHA!!! OK! time for my collection of my sleeping class mates!

ALAMAK! just realised i only had a few oh well!!! i've published a few before though. haha..

NUMBER ONE ON THE LIST!


!DO NOT DISTURB!
DEEP IN MEDITATION

NUMBER 2!

don't think i dunnoe what you're doing,

i'm asleep,

yet awake!

NUMBER 3!!!

even when i sleep, I'M STILL SEXY K!

hehe i promised tho tt her pic will be up! hahaha

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lean on me, when u're not strong...
i'll be ur pillow i'll help u carry on...

to dream land. haha...

*aww... sooo sweet... yea...*

vijey, vijey...
he's not gay, he aint trying to lean his head on the guy on the right, who is ALSO sleeping. he's not brokeback but just......

broken neck! hahaha!!!

26/07/06

ARGH!!!! U DUNNOE HOW MUCH I WANT TO KILL MYSELF FOR THINKING TOO MUCH!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA *BISH*
SMASHES HEAD ON THE WALL!

ok BIG SMILES! =DDDDD

my follow up analysis show tt i have just reached moderate stress, enough to get me all moody and thinking too much. will tell u all more once i get a hold on that worksheet.

and like, i have collected numerous pictures of pple sleeping and tho's gonna come see her face hahaha!! so i will update later, when i have the time.

ah.... my period of stress is more or less gone, i realise now, my stress rating would not be a 16 already. ot would have dropped by almost 8 points! hahaha.... cos i am known to be good at coping with stress.

so like, ok, till i update! hahaha...

25/07/06

one more wish...

i wish i had a best friend. as in really BEST friend. the only one.
the last time i had one was in pri school. he was really the BEST!

i wish i had a best friend,
one who would be my companion in my adventures.
share my dreams and aspirations.
be my ears when i need someone to hear me out.
know when i'm miserable and get me out of my house for a drink.
one who would play online games with me,
and we'd own everyone else. HAHA!

i wish i had a best friend,
one like clarence.
he was like my brother, much more of a brother than my sister is a sis. HA!
i wish i had a best friend, one who WOULDN'T steal my girlfriend! AHAHAHA!!!
one who lives just above or below me,
so tt we can go to school together.

ah... i miss clarence... he's prolly in NS now. and we don't talk no more...

hahaha... i was feeling real down, and wierd for no apparent reason i think. i just felt "not in the mood"
i want to cry, i cant cry.
i want to sleep, i cant sleep.
i want to study, but dun feel like it.
i want to maple, but yet i dun feel like.
i want to eat, but i cant find anything nice.
i want to run out, but don't know where to go.
i want to talk. and yes indeed. i just want to talk.

it just makes me feel better in many ways. i'm too much of a dependent person, and now, i'm beginning to hate it. HATE IT!

msged some friends, msn, hp. after a while, we had nothing much to say. (not like it's anything bad k! hahaha) called xw and finally i had good advice which made me feel much better! ha...

and miss lee also went for that adam khoo's course!! hahaha!! i have to blog about the new rules in class one day! it's HILARIOUS! especially when ever i find loop holes in them! HA!

hope she doesn't read this. heh!!

The Turtles - So Happy Together

Imagine me and you, I do.
I think about you day and night,
It's only right.
To think about the girl you love,
And hold her tight,
So happy together.

If I should call you up invest a dime,
And you say you belong to me
And ease my mind
Imagine how the world could be
So very fine
So happy together

I can see me lovin' nobody but you,
For all my life.
When you're with me baby the skies'll be blue,
For all my life.

Me and you and you and me.
No matter how they toss the dice,
It had to be.
The only one for me is you,
And you for me,
So happy together.

I can see me lovin' nobody but you,
For all my life.
When you're with me baby the skies'll be blue,
For all my life.

Me and you and you and me.
No matter how they toss the dice,
It had to be.
The only one for me is you,
And you for me,
So happy together.

Me and you and you and me.
No matter how they toss the dice,
It had to be.
The only one for me is you,
And you for me.
So happy together.

So happy together
How is the weather
So happy together
We're happy together
So happy together
Happy together
So happy together
So happy together

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i was listening to this song till i fell asleep last night. haha... then.........

i had a really sweet dream! hahahaha... well... i dreamt tt i was working at the hotel. it seemed so real cos like when the host needed the waiters, (us) to be part of some act, (i dun exactly remember) some of us waiters began sitting on the floor, then we got scolded by the manager.

and so on... blah blah... i dun remember.

but suddenly i became the sound/electronics personel. had to run over, get the stage done and all, the tables, the lightings, the sound. and then i heard! *ten ten ten ten~ ten ten ten ten* haha... some of u would know this joke about 'tens'. so it was the wedding song! and we were not ready inside!! hahaha!! so while we rushed, the bride and the groom walked in.

it seemed to be some kind of erm... the host simply had little guests. yea. and then it became sooooo familiar. the wedding.... (if i said, whose and what, it'll be soooo obvious!) but to see a friend in my dream... ha... was nice. we din speak. in fact, i walked past so many times, but i was too busy, and my friend, somehow, "did not" see me too. ha... was wierd, but in the dream, it seemed perfectly fine.

until i saw my sis speaking to my friend and found out my friend was my sis's ***** instructor! (in the dream only) hmmm! den i beginning to see the BIG picture. and i woke up! hahaha.... oh well.. was a nice dream, cos i had lots of fun! i din know where my manager went after tt. hahaha...

24/07/06

i found the video colleen made on our timor trip =)



i've left my heart there.

24/07/06

as usual, i tried sleeping but i cant.

i dunnoe why i suddenly thought of it and remember all of a sudden what i said. as in really SUDDENLY.

laid on the sofa for almost an hour, tossed and turn, toss and turn. my mind filled with so much insecurity. wondering how u'd react to it.

i just want to talk, need someone to talk to. just need to clear my mind. just need to feel at ease.

i wish time was turned back to those days, just a while ago. times when i felt ever so at ease. days passed like an hour. so fast i din want it to go by.

i just can't help it but make myself think so much. even i dunnoe why and dun want to, i guess, i'm just afraid. afraid, of losing, afraid of what did, afraid of what i said, afraid of sooo many things.

ahh.. ha.. i told myself i never want to blog such thoughts again, but i can't help it. man...

if i feel any better, i'd prolly delete this entry haha...

22/07/06

my qoute for today ha...

"you try, u fail, you try, you fail, you try, you fail.

but u really fail when u stop trying."

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even after 20 years, the battle in chernobyl against radiation still goes on...

i'm awed at the courage the liquidators had even knowing that their live's were at stake...

imagine, going up onto a roof to shovel off radioactive pieces and only being able to stay up there for 45 seconds! more than that could become lethal.

the deformities in the embryos after intoxication and contamination are just horrible, yet the government tries to cover up as much as they could, hiding the truth from the public.

however, i thank God for letting it happened. it was because of chernobyl, 2700 nuclear missles planned for the US were destroyed. i thank God tt this people spared a thought for their enemies. each missile could do 100x the effect of chernobyl.

watching at the documentary and looking at the photos, i am suddenly reminded of what corinne told me about capturing the essence of people in pictures. i suddenly saw what she meant. it kind of inspired me to start learning about this "capturing of the essence". i think it's something really beautiful, especially being able to do such a thing.

just like the photographer who took this year's pictures for SAJC and my school. as i looked through his photos, MAN! he's sooo GOOD! i couldn't see what he was planning in his head but when the pictures are input into the computer, i saw how beautiful they were, what more if we were models knowing how to pose. it'll be PERFECT!

21/07/06

i believe some of u know tt i have this problem of not being able to sleep at night because my mind's like super active haha...

last night i was being stubborn and i did not want to take my pills to sleep cos i was full of wonderful ideas, ideas of MAKING $$$ hahahahah!!

at 3 am, i ran to my mom, she was alseep, and my dad's not around, so i pulled her bolster away, and began telling her all my ideas, haha.. of course i got scolded. HEH! she's like telling me, it's time to sleep, go take the pills, now's not the time, school tmr blah blah blah. but i was telling her, "IF I DUN DO NOW! OTHER'S WILL BE AHEAD OF ME AND I'D LOSE OUT!!!"

ok, she was quiet for a while, den we began discussing ideas, at this point, i din mind criticism of my ideas, cos they have to make flawless, so i impeding factors need to be pointed out. so i just lay there and listen till she fell asleep. haha...

went off and i could finally sleep... AT 3.30 am!!! haha... well, i woke up this morning at 6.30am wide awake, so guess i wasn't affected by the lack of sleep. hahaha...

winners make it happen, losers, let it happen.

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so like i have been thinking, just for the fun of thinking of it though.. haha..

i wish i had a girlfriend,
one who is mature and intelligent,
will set me straight and tolerate my adolescence.
someone who can decipher my thoughts,
need not understand, but help me put them into words.
someone whom i can trust, one who wouldn't let me down.
would be the doer in my life, cos i'm the dreamer.
i dream big, she carries them out.
one whom in which when it's time to have fun,
we'd have the life of our time.
need not see life as i do, but enjoy it with me.

how nice ya?

(noticed that i did not say she has to be pretty or beautiful, average's fine *i'm still being picky ha!*, cos if i ever find sucha person and fall for her, she becomes the most beautiful lady in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD!)

haha.... anyway, it's quite impossible for me to find sucha person, so i'm just dreaming (as usual)... and like if i ever do find someone like tt, ha, it's still a problem if she doesn't like me! ha... oh well... i'm lousy at such stuff. hahahaha....

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I NEED TO STUDY REAL BADLY!

man.. looking at my results, i'm SOOOO DOOMED!

a lot of work to catch up on man...

pls, pray for me.

19/07/06

ok, i just finished making a copy of sam's card holder. haha... she said she bought it at bugis for 12. and i just made one with what i have at home. ha... but it's still quite incomplete. only the body's formed, deco and covering are yet to be done. cant wait for the finished product!!!

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hmmm... took time out to catch SG idol, am rather disappointed. i realised tt we can't sing! haha... oh well... i mean, some performances were good, and some others, they were good in the previous episodes but not today.

anyway, today passed real nice and slow. got to watch some really interesting documentaries on geographic channel. i guess i have a new dream now. i wish to be a travel journalist!!! man...

I'D LOOOOOOOVE THAT JOB!

if i have to opportunity to be one, i'd prolly leave everything behind and start this career. anyways, i'm a step closer haha... my diploma, i think it would help. BUT A's... man.. i have to find some way to buck up.

prolly stop my games and find some comfortable place to study, like macritchie. now i'm kinda getting bored of my games la.. haha.. if i had no school, i'd go fishing in the morning, or do some photog, den sit down in the afternoon and study. haha.. how carefree...

oh well, condensed time table aint too bad la, get to go home early.

okok, back to my books now. i have played too much today. bought the maple 2x exp card. ha... got stuck onto the comp...

18/07/06

some how, i really miss those days in timor... am looking at the photos in the cd colleen burned for us. man... i really miss it all...






more than anythig tt has happened in timor, i realised what i missed the most is actually the days spent in tt house, with all my team mates. (and did i really snore!?!?!?)

ha.. when i think about all the dai dee times and time spent sitting together, packing the gifts, morning and night devotions... i miss it all...

whenever i smell tt smell of the "fresh flavour 'OFF'" spray, my eyes are suddenly just filled with images of the hotel, the trees.... many things.. i really missed tt place... i wish i could stay there, but again, alone? haha... maybe after i get married with someone who wants to stay there too hahaha...



new friends i made there, fun and crazy time spent in the room. funny and wierd things tt happened. all sooo funny... haha...

hmmm... cant seem to find the other pics... ar... oh well... timor leste... i want to go there again... a place that has made me feel soo free..

16/07/06

ha... man... this world's getting freaky by the day with more gay things coming up. man...

first, i dropped by corinne's blog and saw the trailer of a movie "another gay movie" MAN! IT'S GROSS! but it seems like some american pie alike kind of show. haha...

den hard gay's latest vid on you tube looks YUMMY!~ MMMM~~~

he made some carrot dish which is like milk and cheese and chocolate... aww... i wish i was tt boy. he was like "MMMM! YUM!" sure looked good...

haha.. ok, so after this entry, i'm going back to studying maths for tmr's test. though i hate studying, i have no choice.

oh well.. see u pple back at sch!

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ah... it's soo difficult for me to study. once i get stumped i'd go like "crap!" and "oh well...". i am trying maths now. differentiation. and i need sooo much help.

if only there's a kind soul out there who'd sit next to me and when i get stumped, teach me how to do!

i'm sending an sos here!!! haha.. i NEED help!

i somehow wonder how am i gonna get through A's... and i still have a diploma in which IF i get like 3 A's and a B or something and get scholarship. hahahaha....

man.. i need help...

16/07/06

ok, oh well... no harsh feelings.

15/07/06

WHY WHY WHY !!! WHY DO I ALWAYS LOOK STUPID IN PHOTOS!!!

man... i am soo not photogenic. i must get myself a camera and practice looking good in pictures! hahaha!!!

ok! so i went to expo late today, dunnoe what i'm suppose to do for our drama outreach. well... i somehow got pulled into the act last minute to be some extra. hahahaha! but! that granted me a "backstage" pass to jasmine trias!!! hahahaha!! cool huh!

man... i feel sooo stupid now. cos i did not know she's 19 till i was in the mrt!!! ah!!!! first, if i knew she was 19, i wouldn't dare ask for a picture. second, i feel sooo stupid cos i did! hahaha... but aint she just gorgeous! aww!!!

so like we had some asian idol superstar show in which my church hosted. had some really cool hip hop dancers at the beginning followed by jasmine singing (who care about the other 2 guys HEH!) hahahaha.. jk la.

and it's like, the way she walks is just like one of my friend, and u will know who if i said, she bounces (of course NOT in the bad way) a little when she walks and looks as if she loves skipping. hahahaha...

man.. this entry was not suppose to be about her though! hahaha... oh well...

anyway, what she says is sooo true! haha.. popularity and all, they only last a moment. then they're gone. haha... i DO miss the extra attention. HEH!

man... those were the fun and exciting days. now, i'm forgotten... sob! hahahaha! ok i'm just exagerating. so like ya, wonder if those tables in the eldds rooms have like other comments. haha... someone called me a gremlin! ha!

ok la... i forgot what was today's entry for.. definitely had something special but i forgot...

14/07/06

Artist : Enya
Song : One by one

Here am I
yet another goodbye!
He says Adios, says Adios,
and do you know why
she won't break down and cry?
- she says Adios, says Adios, Goodbye.
One by one my leaves fall.
One by one my tales are told.

It's no lie
she is yearning to fly.
She says Adios, says Adios,
and now you know why
he's a reason to sigh
- she says Adios, says Adios, Goodbye.
- she says Adios, says Adios, Goodbye.

One by one my leaves fall.
One by one my tales are told.
My, oh my!
she was aiming too high.
He says Adios, says Adios,
and now you know why
there's no moon in her sky
- he says Adios, says Adios, Goodbye.
No Goodbyes
for love brightens their eyes.
Don't say Adios, say Adios,
and do you know why
there's a love that won't die?
- don't say Adios, say Adios, Goodbye.

13/07/06

my mind, still filled with the adventure i had at the cinema... it makes me soooo want to be a pirate and travel the seas and document my adventure!!! ha....

ok, i'm rather tired. but i had a superb time watching pirates of the caribbean. it's way better than the first!!! whooooo!!!!

and just a spoiler, a third is gonna come out! I CANT WAIT!



ah... yes.. wonderful show! i give it a definite 5/5! i dun mind watching it again! hahaha...

hmmm.. so like i had my chinese oral today, and crap, i think i'm gonna fail it again... but i really pray i dun. I NEED A C6!!!

oh well... got back maths paper 1... 8/100... no surprise la... but i really hope tt i'll do fine for chem. i kinda feel like i've put in the most effort for chem but yet i din study much... quite contradicting..

haiya! i am just gonna have to continue my pace and i should do fine.

12/07/06

ha... ok went to marina city park today to do some photography. was rather fun la. went there with the SLR my dad brought back. haha.. used up one whole roll of film even before i could finish walking the park.

the place was really beautiful. wished i've taken more shots with my hp to show how green the place had become since i last went there. was really nice. today was like perfect! haha...

the skies were so blue, so was the sea. and the area, filled with trees all so green! nice...

anyway, soon that beautiful place will be gone, transformed into a metropolitan city park i guess.. kannan reminded me of a project going on to connect both banks at the mouth of the river... man... that beautiful quiet place's gonna disappear.. gonna go back there and get more pics for memory's sake.

ok, am just soo tired after the whole thing.. tmr.... i dun want to get my papers back!!!

11/07/06

ha... ok! i'm done with mid years!!! hahaha.. i felt real good when i reached home today. and after mapling for what felt like hours, it was only 1+ hahaha.. i played till 3 though.

den i went to sleep and by the time i woke up, it was 6.45pm! AH!!! hahaha... den i felt real lousy, cos i slept my day away!!!! argh!!!! felt soo irritated.

den took a bath, come out and ok la, was a little more cheerful.

anyway, haha... in case jonathan u think i am insisting to watch pirates of the caribbean tmr, ha. i'm not la. it is really true tt i seldom go out after school to watch movies especially on late days. the only time i go watch movie would be like today, when i finish at 10.45. haha... den i'll ususal go with my classmates to catch a show. but today i chose to chiong home maple!! haha...

watching the movie or not doesn't really matter to me la, just tt i simply just dun like the feeling of going out right after a long day. if it's a short day, like i finish at 12.45 or 1, i wouldn't have mind la. but long days, i prefer to go home and get myself cleaned.

neways!
i really wish to get a pet bird. and i plan to get it tmr!!! hahaha.. gonna persuade my parents later again. i desire a pet bird.. DESIRE! haha...

i think i'm gonna pass chem and fail the rest. todays paper wasn't too bad. except for the part on carbonyl and nitrogen compounds. i totally did not studied it and guessed things out hahah..

oh well... i feel tt i can manage if i continue studying a little a day. yep!

ok, i'm looking forward to a great day tmr! and my dad brought home an SLR! haha... but i dunnoe how to use. hahahahhaa... shall see la, maybe get kannan to teach me or something. heh!

10/07/06

check this out!!!






I AM FINALLY ONE HELL OF A KILLING MACHINE!!! HAHAHAHA...

i just leveled up and now i can do 6 hits with one blow!! whoo!!! been waiting for sooooo long!!! hahaha..

neways, i can finally go study in peace without thinking about doing 6x damage. hahaha..

man... look at me in the pirate hat thingy with the korean fan. man! i'm cool! hahaha...

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okok, tmr's my last day of papers yippee!!

HOWEVER! (hate tis word... dun everyone. especially those who watched fear factor couples. hahaha) it means tt meet the parents session regarding mid years are gonna begin too. i know i'm D.O.O.M.E.D...

God pls save me... man... i am slowly getting the hang of my work especially organic chem BUT! it's not enough!!!! ha....

oh wells... gonna eat-shower-study! all the best for tmr's paper 04S3!!! =D

10/07/06

because of jesus i am restored.

09/07/06

and every tear u cried,

is precious in His eyes...

because of His great love,

HE gave His only son.

everything was done so u would come.

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nothing much to say...

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nothing in this world can satisfy me...

only you alone can fill me up...

08/07/06

Fly me to the moon

And let me play among the stars

Let me see what spring is likeOn Jupiter and Mars

In other words hold my hand

In other words darling kiss me
Fill my life with song

And let me sing forevermore

You are all I hope for

All I worship and adore

In other words please be true

In other words I love you

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the Lord is really good... i found his little love msg for me today.

it's today's sermon. all i've been feeling is exactly how sister sandy described it. i feel sooo lonely at home, easily bored, if i have no school i just hang around the comp idling, wasting time...

i feel soo far from my friends, and the only thing tt brings me close to them is msn. i guess i am too dependant on pple around me...

i hate the feeling of loneliness at home. i want to go out, but with my given circumstances, it's almost impossible to... man...

anyways, i thank God for this sermon, it means that he have been hearing my prayers every night, how i'd talk to him and apologise for not spending enough time with him. how i neglect him, having my time spent online...

man... i hate being at home these days. i want to be out with my friends but.. ha... i also dunnoe la... it's whether they want to go out or not...

neways, i guess i shall do some other things as a start for today instead of hanging around the comp. i've let joash play my maple acc, sooo i cant just focus on my studies knowing that i can't log on hahaha...

07/07/06

one day after training...






remembering God's promise



one of my favourites! looks sepia doesn't it?


wonder what i see when i look out the window?








lush greens and blue skies

06/07/06

i simply love misha. haha.. she's this indian girl in my class, and like she's funny and blur in a certain way.

so we were studying chem and apparently only i was making the most noise in class, as usual... hahah.. so pple like misha gets distracted easily.

i ended up playing with a 5cent coin showing sam and misha my magic trick hahaha... ok, so misha was a little amused, and she keot wanting to fid out how i do it haha..

anyway, i did not tell her so she said, "later, i canot concentrate during the exam, because i'll be thinking about how you do it."

haha.. so i went "think of me and u'll think chemistry!" hahaha.. oh well, it was quite funny.

was just trying to make pple laugh la...

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man.. physics exam today totally sucked! hahaha... i dunnoe whether i should laugh or cry and reflect about what i should have done to be more prepared. almost 70% of the paper's empty! argh!!! and i thought i was gonna pass physics cos i did fine for paper 3...

anyway, after physics was chem paper 3. man! after doing that paper, i sure felt a sense of satisfaction. but like what in the world! sewage treatment came out in environmental chem!! of all topics! but i was told not to look down on it. cos it came out for mid year last year, and everyone reacted like how i did, in the end, it came out for A'levels HAHAHA... man... tt'll suck. so i better study it.

oh well.. i must push for the final leg of mid year! i must score for physics paper 1! gonna stick my head in the book and not look up man... gonna practice as much questions as possible.

k... off to go play and relax a bit first. hahaha.. procrastinators.... heh!

04/07/06

ok, haha... my exam today kinda went better than i expected.. haha... i thought i'd be stumped by most of the questions, in fact for physics, i think i handled it quite fine la.. haha thank God!

but it's not paper 3 that has always killed me, IT'S PAPER 2!!!! which is like on thursday, have not had enough practice yet! argh!! to make things worse, chem paper 3 is on the same day!! (double) ARGH!!! hahaha...

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yesterday i was playing around blogskins trying to come up with something so tt i can move my blog over to something new. haha... guess what, i nearly lost this whole blog!!!

hahaha... now i'm traumatized!!!

i was panicking!! cos i din know what i was going to do, i accidentally clicked on 'save template' when i was suppose to click on 'preview' hahahaha... man!! thank God (once again) that i manage to figure a way to clear tt problem, or i'd lost MY WHOLE BLOG!!! it's my friend!! haha...

oh well... off to maple a little... bored.

02/07/06

man!
3 more months to A's!!!
2 more days to mid years,
1 more hour before 2x exp on maple begins!!!

hahahaha... the exams are coming, and all the temptations flow in more than ever as well! hahaha...

first, maplestory's birthday bonus is like been happening for the past 2 weeks, and i'm sooo caught up playing it cos of the bonuses!!! haha..

den i traded my gameboy sp for joash's psp temporarily, which means, new games! hahaha... man!!!

ok, i've been studying, at least 2 hours a day, but what in the world is 2 hours!!! it is as good as failing!! haha..

worse, i'm such a dreamer, i spend 5 mins on my work, and my mind drifts off hahaha... too lazy to think formulaes but sooo active in thinking about the world revolving round me. hahaha.. that's what i call THINK BIG! hahaha...

man... i'm taking a break now.. gonna go study another 30mins before mapling haha..

all the best for mid years everyone! miss foong, u too! haha.. and u better study!!!!