29/06/06

combinations & permutations / probability

i guess this is the only topic in maths tt i actually understand; i can read. hahaha... it does not have those foreign language in em, it's just simple english.

so today in class...

question:
(v) probability that all five boys stand next to each other, given that at least 4 boys stand next to each other.

gabriel "huh?? 4 boys stand together? what happened to the last boy? the last one is gay!?"

haha.. i did not get the question at first co i have not done prob for quite some time, den i realised the word "given" and found out it was a conditional question! hahahaha...

man... school have been real boring and passing real slowly... haha.. i brought my gameboy sp to school for fun today, i kinda got caught by mr fung playing it haha. he was gonna walk out of class den stopped by to ask me something. and he saw me playing it!! haha..

anyway, i passed it to him, and he ended up playing with it. haha... but the intro was sooo long and boring, he gave up reading so he returned it to me. haha...

man... i wish i dun have school.. but yet be diligent in my studies. but i kinda like this curriculum style of revision. i think it's effective.

neways, hard gay has new episodes!!!

28/06/06

MATHS LESSON. . .

miss wu "ok, so what do you do in M.I? ......."

gabriel (half awake/confidently) "u study lor!"
(ok, not funny)

miss wu goes on...
"you first write the statemement......"

!!!!! --> huh!? o.O
and i went back to sleep

copy copy copy
copy copy copy
copy copy copy

miss wu "so for Mathematical Induction......."

gabriel interupts "OH! now i know what is M.I!!!! mathematical induction!!!!"

miss wu ---> -__-" "hahahhaa... gabriellllll...."
(ok, now funny)

hahahaha... oh well... maths is an alien language to me! hahahaha...

28/06/06

it's about time i should be sleeping.. haha.. I KNOW!

i am just too caught up playing maple after i was told they drop unique maple items!!! hahaha... i just have to collect em all! HEH!

soooo i've been gaming here and there since i came home, roughly 3 hrs.. MAN! and i did like 30 mins of maths!? which i spent most of the time trying to find out what it is then doing it hahaha...

oh well, i am soooo stinking happy cos i have collected 3 of the many maple items available!! and i'm soooo excited cos i want MORE!! MORE MORE MORE!!! WUAHAHAHAHA!!! i remember at the time i quit, i was like one of the stinking highest level, until i gave up training... man... i regret but aiya... i'd prolly be failing all my tests now if i continued hahaha..

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school's been changing quite a bit since it began. first, we have the honkies joining us, then i realised many changes in cliques, friends, BGRs... blah blah... sooo many things can happen in one month while i was spending most of my time chatting on msn and studying chem hahaha...

some good some bad... man.. for this guy, whenever i see him, i feel sad man... my friend, my erm...... friend. saying other things will give him off! hahaha... sooo ya... i just feel sad when i see him. too many things happened la..

den like i'm now sitting with sa, which is rather fun la.. got her to talk maple when we're bored.. it's partially of her that i began playing again! haha...

hmmm.. k la... better sleep before my mama scold... dun wan her to get mad... love her lots...

so goodnight pple! seeya later! (unless i decided to skip school)

26/06/06

ever felt forgotten? felt like u are insignificat and prolly worth nothing in other pple's life?

i was just thinking, i treasure my friends more then i think they know. was thinking of some of my classmates, and i begun wondering what would please them if it came out sincerely from my mouth...

as i thought of what i would say, i suddenly wondered, they would probably just remember me at this point in their lives for what i may have said to cheer them up, but what about 10 yrs later? when u actually think about it, if my friend asks me "will you ever forget me?" my answer to them would most probably be "i'd remember you for life..."

think about it, i believe even how insignificant a person maybe, i doubt i'd forget him/her. and i believe if i ever ask any them, "for how long you'd remember me?" they'd say "forever."

i know i'd remember everyone for life, no matter how insignificant they have been. one person i miss, pamela lee.. haha... friends since young... den she suddenly left, church, school. move to new ones rather...

which brings me to remember junia haha... i've been long forgotten by her, but i guess i still remember her. goes for heston too.. hahaha.. most of u may only find this name familiar haha... benedict (the one older then me from R1).. man.... all these pple.. where have they gone to???

hahaha... i remember talking to samuel ho, (yes our samuel ho) in the toilet one day when i just entered the youth ministry. haha.. i remember him always playing with us in CW me, david, daniel, jason loy. haha... i asked him in the toilet, "do you remember me?" and hahahaha.. he gave me this look -----> o.O

hahahaha... now we're classmates haha... funny... i remember all these small details real well.. haha...i remember we were even room mates!!! during some church camp.. our families both shared a super BIG room haha... was shocked that he did not remember me.. haha... oh well.. 5,6 yrs ago... haha...

just know this, if u ever wonder for how long i'd remember u, it'll be forever. =)

25/06/06

Ryan:
It's hard to believe
That I couldn't see

Together:
You were always there beside me
Thought I was alone
With no one to hold
But you were always right beside me

Sharpay:
This feelings like no other

Together:
I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do
the way you do
I've never had somone as good for me as you
no one like you so lonely before i finally found
what i've been looking for

Sharpay:
So good to be seen
So good to be heard

Together:
Don't have to say a word

Ryan:
For so long I was lost
So good to be found

Together:
I'm loving having you around

Ryan:
This feeling's like no other

Together:
I want you to know

I've never had someone that knows me like you do
The way you do
I've never had someone as good for me as you
No one like you
So lonely before, I finally found
what I've ben looking for

Together:
Doo Doo DooDoo
Doo Doo DooDoo
Do Do

Woa-ah-ah-oh

24/06/06

hyahaha, last night was the first day of work and it was sooo stinking funny cos i was sooo blur!! haha.. but instead of being a waiter, i was made a manual labor!!! MAN!!! my arms hurt, my legs hurt, worst of all my hands!! blistered, even the palm muscles ache! can u believe it!!!

okok, den i was checking out corinne's blog and guess what i saw!! hahaha...

(ok, it was taken with permission! hahahaha)

hahaha... des.. remember what u said about me? hahaha... i guess it's just the way i look at life tt i dun wan to pressure myself. hahaha.. carefree... hahahaha.. oh well!

okok, am off to play wc3

22/06/06

hmmm... time flies by sooooo fast... it's almost already 4.

home's really boring, holiday's about to end. tmr i've got to work, and i am beginning to feel soo lost haha... collect uniform, badges everything, i think i'll get lost there but, oh well...

i wish the holiday was dragged one more week. just one more week. i want the last week to be spent travelling alone, again, tt is just my dream... cos i said i 'wished' haha...

many things i want to do, many things i want to think about as i walk around, somehow, i've got to find some way to earn more money, not to spend on stupid things but to help me with some things i've always wanted to do.

life is short, if i dun do it now, by the time i enter NS, it'll all be gone, by the time i come out, i'd be to mature to have all these immature ideas in which i want to fulfill.

i'll have new dreams, new aspirations, new things i want to fulfill. by then work, getting married, may probably be the things in mind. now, now's the only time i have to do things i want to do, and only at such an age can i realise them. unless i'm rich tt is.

if i am rich, i would have lived a life sooo full of things i can choose to do. but think of all the disadvantages, i guess if i was rich, i would not have such a bonded family, i would have career minded parents. i would be off fulfilling what i want to do like i see in most tv shows.

this is what i see in the future... career minded females... or those who wants to marry rich successful men, doctors, lawyers, buisnessmen. haha... become a tai tai after tt. i used to look down on them a lot, prolly i was just jealous. but oh well, i dunnoe if it'll be a happy life. hahaha... till the day comes i'll know.

i definitely want a happy future. but to me, being happy dun necessarily mean being successful. but i'll try! haha...

ok, i'm just bored and began thinking again.. haha...

19/06/06

it's been raining all morning, and i'm looking out and enjoying the scenery. i simply love the sound - the sound cars running over the water on the ground. i love the breeze that blows into my room..

how carefree the world seems from the view of my window... how i wish i could walk out there and drench myself in the rain.

bring me out from where i am,

bring me out and play.

take me from here where i feel dull and plain,

take me out and paint the colours of my life...

how i wish i could relive this moment, looking the window. simply adoring the little things in my life.

i miss my little fantasies of me wanting to start up a cafe/restaurant by the sea, live there and enjoy the life by the sea. the sound of children playing, sound of the waves rolling upon the shore, sound of light jazz music playing on the radio.... ah.... how i dream to run away - run away from what places pressure on my life.

guess it's these thoughts of life tt keep me going. i know i need to work hard and earn money, and by the time i have enough money, i'd be old and prolly it's the time i retire into such an environment by the sea... i'd lose my friends too... but by then, my friends are also all too old... haha..

it's like a vicous cycle. we are born to study, then to work, get married, grow old and die. where is the part where we would enjoy our lives? where's the part where we can just spent each and everyday young and living our dreams. but i guess it's impossible for where does the dream appear from; it doesn't just blink into life, you've got to work for it...

i guess thi is life. sometimes we just need to slow our pace, look out the window and adore those little things tt u have missed out. spent time with pple u love, pple who do not have the time because of their circumstances. soon it'll be me, cos i'd be in ns... ha... i cant wait for life to progress though...

now, my job is to study. so i guess it's about time i get started for today.

what a wonderful day today is.. =)

17/06/06

haha... today was quite a fun and nice day. finally get to meet corinne again after like erm.. since the YE@H! competion.. hahaha..

was nice la, being able to finally meet up and catch up. haha... like all this time chatting over msn.. haha...

ok, i realised why everyone was not online last night, cos they all slept early for the soccer tournament today!!! haha... man... but i'm glad we won la.. haha.. man.. i should have signed up too!! hahaha...

ok, nothing much actually. just blogging for the sake of it... ha..

16/06/06

ha.. saw this on colleen's blog and thought i'd do them too to past time...

You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this world So much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all... But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficult You are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

true, true... quite true... rate this 9/10. =D

You Are Likely an Only Child

At your darkest moments, you feel frustrated. At work and school, you do best when you're organizing. When you love someone, you tend to worry about them. In friendship, you are emotional and sympathetic. Your ideal careers are: radio announcer, finance, teaching, ministry, and management. You will leave your mark on the world with organizational leadership, maybe as the author of self-help books.

The Birth Order Predictor

actually i find this very true. especially the part on me doing best when organizing. i guess tt kinda explain my attitude towards SC. unlike year 1, all the entreprenuer competition were headed by me, we won all of them. then the millennia big walk, it was also headed by me, and i enjoyed myself. at least i knew i was working towards a goal. but when it came to SC, i found it particularly difficult especially when relating my points across, sometimes it gets me bored, sometimes, irritating. ha...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy. You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

i find this relatively true... but what does animals got to do with how i feel towards love!? haha... the questions asked are all about which animal this and which animal that... ha..

15/06/06

MAN! i had a stinking good time at sentosa today!!! sooo rarely i feel this good going out and play.

man, the time at the beach was like the best la!! haha... playing soccer and likejumping into the water, throwing the girls in as well. stinking fun!!!

oh yes, and soccer, i din know i can play soccer. hahaha.. quite a bit, not too good but yea, somewhat.i cant steal the ball or what but i can sprint down the sides and i scored at least 1 or 2 goals today!! haha...

dinner was superb at cafe divine. woah!!! cabonara and pasta. oOo YUMMY! cheap and nice. i strongly recommend! pple interested to go, i am glad to bring u down! haha.. good food man..

then we walk down the streets round city hall area, esther tan was bringing us around. passed by this 3 for $10 shop, sooo cool la!! a lot of costume jewelries, and from there, it has given me many ideas to create my own!! haha.. more seashell necklace!!

den passed by bata. spent quite a bit of time there... i din want the day to end... i wished evryone was there though... it'll proly be more erm.... i dunnoe what word to fill.. heart warming? i felt good. it made me feel soo good. i loved my day. truly loved it.

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back to the start...

haha... i was late today cos i was watching a documentary about mumba. and something really reminded me of tt documentary. cos of some indian nationals that cut our que when getting onto the bus. they just bumped into me which made me SOOOOO MAD! this is not mumba where trains are always jam packed! this is singapore!!! MAN! i just kept quiet though, inside i felt so mad, i just wanted to shove him off. like one family of fat men la...

oh well. it's their culture in india, cant blame them too la. but i hope they dun do this as there's no need for rushing, at least, DUN PUSH! so rude... i cant believe i'm still mad now... haiz... i dun want to get mad but thinking of how he just pushed me as if he owned the bus makes me sooo mad!!

ah.. ok, enough said, i just want to let u pple know, i had a great day! =)

13/06/06

hmmm... i should not have introduced youtube to my mom... now she's like totally hooked onto it. she's been sitting in the computer room watching videos since 11 am... now she's really like a tai tai.

ok, i have been studying quite a bit today but i feel it is not enough! i am gonna move to another chapter soon then wait for the rest of the guys to get back before we begin dota.

quite a nice paced day... still, it's gonna be another day closer to the A's i feel so lost, as if i don't know anything. i want to do well, but there's soo many things distracting me, some seem to be catching up daily becoming a real bad habit which i cannot get rid of.

man... i feel helpless but i'm gonna push and do my best.

anyways, i think i'll just go study now.

12/06/06

so i just came back from a movie "cars" hahaha.. was quite a fantastic and worth it show cos it lasted almost 2 hours! hahahaha.. colleen sure seem cheerful today. haha.. and jonathan and i just cant stop talking about hard gay and imitating him hahahaha!!! OKAY!~

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when i reached home i somehow had the urge of trying some hard liqour, so i just popped the question to my dad "pa, do we have chivas"

true enough we did! haha.. i remember seeing it somehere though. i dug deeeeeep into the cabinet finding bottles of wine and other liqour with rotting labels. am most disappointed with the wine cos good wine stored in cabinets (especially in singapore) would ruin the wine. tell ur parents not to store wine drink it or it'll be wasted. unless if u're living in a cold country where the temperature aint as hot as it is in sg.

i found SOOOO many different hard liquor which got me super excited, knowing i could make many of the different cocktails i have learned with what we had at home. hahaha... still looking for the martini though...

but anyways, i got to the chivas, and when i opened and smell it, ohhh... GOOD!! and when my dad and i finally put it into our mouths, ahhhhhh.... my word simply fantastic!!! it kinda reminds me of terquila, it's simply good!!! i had to keep it straight away cos i know i'd continue till i drop. hahaha...

oh man.. in fact, i'm going out now for another cup and take my time to finish it...

HA off for chivas!

12/06/06

hmmm.. i've just spent my whole afternoon on youtube... suppose to be studying, but i cant help but turn away...

i can imagine myself, recieving back my test papers and realised how badly i have done... argh.. feeling soooo wierd now. haha..

maybe it's cos of the show corinne introduced to me on youtube. it's this korean movie "my girl and i" man.... sooo sad....

but i did have a good time watching it and spending time with someone cyber space away. hahaha.... maybe one day i'd bump onto u in town. heh!

ah yes, back to my studies.. i feel so lost with my books... hae no idea why... feel like going down to macritchie's cafe and sit there, focus on my studies. but it'll be a big effort just to go down...

man, HOW!!!!!!!!

i hate myself sometimes...

watch!

11/06/06

ok, so i am stinking high today!! i have no idea why, but i was suddenly just real happy! haha... i just cant stop talking and all.

it is seldom that i am high outside, cos most of the time i'm prolly just high on msn and all. HAHA!!

den matthew came up with a little joke that i am contridicting myself cos how can i be high when my surname's 'low'? haha... ok, very lame! but funny.

soooo.... today is like first time i spent almost the whole day in cck. had fun and i learned how to play "meant to live" on the electric guit. man, super cool! got that erm, 'zao sia' sound, u know? hahaha...

ok la, i am bored so i am crapping in this entry. shall just end off. ha... next week's gonna be a real cool one!! haha...

10/06/06

haha... i was on the lrt with nothing to do. so i was beginning to think of the different memorable times and all. haha...

sooo the people involved in the different times and things that have been my favourite:

my favourite for...

a 1 on 1 chill and chat:
actually, i'm most comfortable in opening to almost anyone on a 1 on 1 chat but my favourite would be having spend time with desmond! haha...

hanging out after school:
it used to be the tennis girls, but things have changed... ha... now, prolly my classmates.

hanging out after church:
ANYONE! but definitely the usual video guys and all, of course not forgetting the girls, like the usual few, dot, jocelyn blah blah and J.E.C (haha.. i just came up with that not jurong entertainment center but joy, esther and colleen)

chat on msn:
haha... many different ones but now, haha... corinne!

group outing:
hmmm... hard to say, school would be S2, out to hard rock. church pple, almost anyone.

still have other really nice times, but i'd rather keep em personal. ha... but note that they're forever in my mind. the time when we hanged out by the beach and i embarrassingly had to go to the loo. times at J8, times spent chatting and sharing stories. time spent in school... ah....

haha... okok. i wanna dota but everyone else's catching the world cup soooo... think i'll go wash up and do something.

09/06/06

lalalalala~ am back from church camp in KL! hahaha...

it was SIMPLY FUN-TASTIC~!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!

i loved the preacher, pastor andrew. what he said really made LOTS of sense. in fact, i'm quite proud of myself as i feel and believe that i have been living somewhat a life of how he's describing.

i'd just think back of things tt happened in school whenever he preached on a certain point. many of them reflect what i should be doing and some reflect times when i have not been living in soul prosperity.

i do love blessing my classmates/friends, encouraging them, cheering them up. in fact it's kinda my hobby in school, u know, a past time hahahaha....

nowadays, am slightly quieter though but i still would love to live my life like those days. haha...

ok, i'm really tired from camp and all and with jaydon sleeping by my side!!! HA! he's one big baby. haha... fun guy but when comes to sleeping, he can keep u up the whole night! hahaha...

ya, and i'm sick too... and because i am sick, i get to come home a day earlier, thank God!! hahaha...

k..... off!!

03/06/06

i'm like leaving for malaysia in like 5 hours time. haha... and i've just finished dotaing.

haha.. one thing i learned from dota, u can die as many times as u want, as long as u are able to kill them twice as many times!! hahahahaha!!!!

the new avatar is like some kind of owning machine! i died like 10 times but my kills like almost 20! haha... best part, i still top the whole game! hahaha.. i was shocked cos i died so many times and yet still top! lol!

ok, before that, corinne introduced me to a new friend on youtube! hahahahahaha!! his name is HARD GAY!!! HOOOOOO!!!! OKAY!!!! HAHAHAHAHA!!!!

he's a stinking joker so cool, he made me laugh my ass off! just drop by you tube and type hard gay nd you'll get all his vids! hahahahahaha!!!

thanks corinne! cool friends know cool pple! hahaha.. =D

ok, i need to go to bed. i'm not really done packing too hahahaha!! man... nite pple!

02/06/06

juz in a few moments, i'm gonna leave my house and down to town for my training. hahaha...

gonna be a waiter!!! i'm lazy and at the same time not say excited but wanting to know what goes on in the F&B sector of the hotel industry. gonna be something i'd get to discover over time. haha...

i hope i dun reach late. will prolly get a lil lost, hope not! haha... my first time going there alone.

tmr i'd be leaving for malaysia and i've been trying my best to hold myself back from reading my book. guess what! i'm almost halfway through!! hahahaha.. it's getting simply soo dramatic, it's getting me hooked onto it. haha... how engaging a book can sometimes be.

alright. off to dinner. need to leave like in 10 mins time... ha.... sian a bit la, haven pask my bag and all... wonder what time it'll all end.

01/06/06

my last entry before i go to bed.

i just don't know how to describe what i feel inside.
it's simply beyond what words can say.
if only i could be there - there where you are,
i'd tell you all - all for what words can describe.
i can't help but feel this way.
turned away once and now turned back.
my neck never making up it's mind.
throughout this period of time, i just looked ahead.
i did not care what was on my left or my right.
but now, of all times, i realised.
by the start of a new term, it'll all change.
according to the paths you choose,
it'll determine it all.
it's now or never for me.
now? or never?
now? or never?
now? or never......
help me decide. cos i do not have the guts.

i dunnoe if i should be posting this. but my mind's in a mess. haha...
i'm too young to think so much. so i shant. everything's just a mystery it messes me...

k, i've gotta go to bed, i've got school tmr. now or never...

1/06/06

what a beautiful day to start the month.

ok, before i begin, i think i should add this haha... firstly, want to thank jonathan and matthew too who contributed to my birthday present. i had a great time listening to the cd (you 3 got me) today, THANKS!

den in the recent jogjar earthquake, my maid's sister and her family's house crumbled. thank God most of them got out on time and her heroic husband who rushed in to saved the kids, though he and the kids suffered some injuries, they are doing fine in hospital and her brother who was sent by the company to jarkarta a day before the earthquake was saved while 13 of his friends died. in that, i just have to praise the Lord for his hands of protection over my maid's family.

Acts 16:31

They replied "Believe in the Lord Jesus and you will be saved - you and your household."

I'm truly seeing God's work being done in my maid's life and i believe one day, all her family will come to know Christ! AMEN!

as for me, I AM BLESSED INDEED! it is just that i've been living in blessings that i do not realise them and i would look to others and see how blessed they are and compare myself. but if i really compare, i live in a safe country, i do not suffer from poverty, no wars, no epidemics, i have a proper and loving family, i have everything a person needs, most of all, i have Jesus in my heart. =)

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i was suppose to leave my house with my dad this morning but i was too tired so i slept in. my dad came to my bed to wake my up, handed me $50 for no apparent reason, i was too much in my sleepy mood, i dun remember what i asked him haha...

left the house about 2 hours after waking up, had to go to ICA to extend my passport. met sheena on the way. hahaha...

ok, when i arrived, there was a stinking long queue, i practically stood there for 2 hours!!! i recieved my number tab "7596" looked up at the board, "7424". MY WORD! thank God i brought along my readers' digest and gameboy. went round msging pple too.. ha... esther foong was like of no help, she replied soooooooooooo slow! haha.. and i was like crapping with jonathan.

after i got it done, i needed to go down to the bank to replace my atm card and at the same time wanted to apply for a debit card (not sure of the speling ha.. ), so city hall was the nearest.

did not feel like going home so walked around and did some window shopping. checked out cds and books. at the bookstore in city link, i practically sat there an hour reading some IQ testing book hahaha... was fun la! hahaha... den right under the IQ book was a book i've been looking for for soooo long!! hahaha.. i did not even bother to flip through it. i picked it up, went to the counter and paid for it.

on my way back i read like 1/10th of the book; 2 and a half chapters. hahahaha.. i am trying to control myself cos it is for me to read when there's really nothing to do instead of playing my gameboy. hahaha... i sat on my bed and i couldn't stop! i read 2 more chapters and told myself i HAVE TO stop. haha...

oh, esther and colleen were like at bugis only la! haha.. was so tempted to go down and look for them since i was just nearby but decided not to disturb their girl's shopping hahaha...

anyways, just to end off, i love days like this where i spend the day out alone. i get to do a lot of thinking, enjoy my day and appreciate my day. it's like as if it makes me feel mature, more grown up. ha... unlike my childish self. i wanted to go to macritchie to sit down at the cafeteria there and read but i decided that i should go home since i've spent almost the whole day out and i cant stand standing anymore. i stood the whole journey there, stood while waiting and when i got to sit down, it felt "AHHHH!!!" hahaha...