30/10/2005

Blast From the Past

awww man!!! that was another one of those show i really really REALLY looooove watching. i finally know what kind of movies i like. it's classified as comedy, drama, romance.

i want to watch it again!!! it's sooo sweet, cute and funny! aww man!!! i want to buy the DVD.

wow wow wow... i looved the show... u guys should watch it. i wish i was like the main character Adam Webber played by Brenden Fraser.

he's sooo erm, hahahaha... blur, lost, funny, cute, dumb, stupid (at times), A GENTLEMAN. hahaha... ok, what a girl wants. ( i think ) hahahaha... nah, i juz found his character cool. (not that i want to be someone a girl wants ya.)

hahaha.. i really want to watch it again. man... it's nice.

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29/10/2005

wierd game but since i was picked to do it, why not? i have never thought about the strange and wierd parts of me. ok, let's get to it.

"here's the game. introduce 10 quirks or idiosyncrasies of yours on your blog, following which you are free to pick 5 more people to do the same thing."

1. i like sleeping in a thunder storm. the louder the thunder, the nicer the sleep.

2. i look out the window every night for about 20 minutes juz looking far into the lights without my spectacles, occasionally closing my eyes for about 3 seconds and opening them again. each time i do it, the lights kinda shrink from a blurry "splash" of light to a more focused one, this makes me think that i am regaining my eye sight. (i'm going blind. bet i'll 1000 degrees in 2 years' time.)

3. i loooooove eating chocolates. i eat them like rice, and once the chocolate runs out, i tend to go round blaming my sis and my dad for finishing it. my mom is sooo scared i'd finish all the chocolates at home, she resorted to storing them in her wardrobe. hahaha..(since i saw the word chocolate in col's blog, i' reminded about my chocolate craze)

4. i juz go wild and stupid when i am hyped up - i'm as good as being drunk; ask me to spill and i will.

5. ok, i'm a big boy but i'm crazy over kim possible too. =P

6. i try aligning my eye lids whenever they become uneven due to lack of sleep. as in, one would be double eye lid, the other single, and i'll make them both single by trying to fold my eye lid.

7. no one knows this but i do about 50 or more light push ups again the toilet sink before bathing most of the time.

8. i hate sit-ups.

9. i have 2-3 1.5litre bottles by my bedside everynight cos i'd wake up in the middle of the night and drink up to half a bottle of water.

10. i tend to day dream when i'm extremely bored, and sometimes, i end up doing silly actions to myself because it is what i am doing in my "dream". i dun usually realise it until sometime. so i always tell myself never to daydream in public cos i'd probably be smiling and nodding to myself or worst, practicing a speech out loud and not realising it.

finally i'm done

ok here's the 5 people i have nominated to do this.

it juz comes to my head randomly.

1. Akira

2.Anders

3.Enos

4.Samantha (chimp)

5.gracie

ok, tt's about it, do try it even if i did not state ur name, it probably juz slipped my mine or i think u'd probably not do it. actually, i think kira and anders wont do it but i'm lazy to go choose pple. so i u do do it, let me know i'll go read it. ahaha...

nitez pple.

29/10/2005 - Part 2

last night i had one of the nicest dreams ever... probably the nicest and sweetest ever wuahahaha... =D

ok, last night, even though i slept 8 hrs, it felt like one whole day in the dream. aww.. it was truly nice man... it felt sooo real and things happened are quite real too. wow.... i'd never want to wake up in that case. hahaha...

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alright, back to the next part of what i wanted to say.

as i mentioned, the laptop is where i resolve all my boredom and stuff.. guess that's how i got sooo addicted to it. my blog is where i usually turn to when i need a friend.

sooo tt's probably why my blog's soo wordy hahahaha....

ah... hahaha.. nvm! i'm already lost at what i wan to say my days of reflections are over.

after that 30mins i had while waiting for kira to look back, i realised many things.

one thing i know for sure, christmas is not going to be the same...

28/10/2005

i dun get it? everything was juz going soooo wrong a moment, i wanted to juz give out a loud shout.

i dun feel like getting into the details but i think that it's my mind playing with me.

guess it's cos i'm hungry, frustrated, tired, body's aching...

man.. it's a long time since i last trained. my mind's juz playing tricks on me.

i was asking God, like "what's going on!?!?!?!?"

next, i walked out of the room, come back, and eveything was fine. could it be like there's juz some spirit of frustration in my room??

thank God i'm feeling tottaly fine. ha.. thank You God...

through this whole situation, i realise my addiction to the net. cos i could not connect. haiz.. i muz control. many other things happened la.. internet was juz one of it.

btw, u should catch the new survivor-like series, "the biggest loser". it's very emotional.. ha... okok, i'm really tired to continue.. nite..

28/10/2005

ok, it's 12.14am on a lovely friday! =D

should i go to school later?

haha.. anyway, i just returned from watching the movie "legend of zoro" which was quite an ok show. haha.. doesn't have that impacting feeling like when i watch other movies. nice action show and like how 98.7 would do it,

*chomp chomp chomp!* "i give it 3 out of 5 bites!"

lame haha.. yea i know.

i enjoyed my night... went out, walked a bit with moses, den had lots of fun in the arcade and we met hao wen, amanda and liang kai. hahaha.. funny bunch. talking about gays and stuff. ya, me going out with a guy. (how desperate can i get!?) haha...

alright, my dad has left the country and once again, i was not aware.. only found out when my mom called to tell me it was raining heavily and that she's fetching my dad to the airport. haiz...

feeling a little like _____ (i dunnoe how to describe.)

the rain makes the atmosphere juz how i want it. if i dun have parents i'd probably be down somewhere quiet, drinking enjoying the rain, and probably talking to God.

many things... many many things.. i had soooo much time to think about them today while i was waiting for kira and mr chen to finish their conversation. okok, no time to write about it. suppose to be in the part 2 of my "speech"

but like, i guess i feel sad inside. i'd really love to be with some people i really want to be with. but it's juz whether they find my company enjoyable. i love my friends... all of them...

i juz feel like talking to God now... school's ending, chinese and OP are coming. but i know it's time to make a difference.

i want to be someone. someone who can achieve... really want to... i am juz fortunate to get by this time. am so close to promotion... 2 marks... 2% rather... but still thank God.

to all my friends, u're important to me no matter where i stand as ur friend. ya...

goodnite people.

27/10/2005 - Part 1

This entry would be broken up onto quite a few parts...

it's juz a reflection of everything,

everything that is going on or yet to come.

and these few entries would probably be the last...

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Alright!

i have gotten back my results. i am ADVANCED!!! woo hoo!!

yea. haha.. i am happy la. but the teachers speaking to my mom were a first a little erm.. i dunnoe how to describe.

ya, my marks are as good as retaining, but their motive is also to help me advance. the first thing they said was "your son's current situation is that he is retained." i'm like - ya, i thought we were here to talk about my advancement??

anyway, i dun wan to talk about how bad they were, but, it was also for my own good.

there's gonna be LOTS of changes... really lots... not juz in my academics, but in my life... many things... too many it's making me sad. i am juz too comfortable with my life now... shall talk about it in the next few parts.

ok, so i was asked to drop some stuff i like doing. things like my CCA and...... the computer. yea..

there was rugby, SC and computer, i gave it an extremely long thought. to me, rugby is the most important, followed by SC, cos i am sooo closed to getting my testimonial. ( i have to say life in SC wasn't that fun except that i have made many new friends and because people know me, it isn't hard for me to communicate with the student body.) lastly would be my comp...

i din noe to rate my comp 2nd or third cos my comp, is what i use to drown my boredom, lonliness and sadness. yea... it's like people would go drinking or something, i'd drown myself with my laptop. ha... dunnoe if u get wad i mean.

most of this sadness, boredom, lonliness ends up in my blog haha... yea.. "my closest friend"..

hmmm... so i would not be able to touch much of my comp since i have made an agreement that i'll have to put it aside and concentrate on my studies.

i guess this sounds retarded, but i juz realise that i probably am juz trying to "be" with my friends, and probably monitor them through my laptop. yea.. it sounds gross and retarded... probably i juz feel insecure. i probably would not be too bothered by this since most of my friends are soon leaving me...

i'm wierd ya... anyway, am gonna break out of this habit. i have to depend on God to help me and not blog nor wadsoever.

to be continued...

26/10/2005

God's just soooo good. =D

alright! first was cos i did not do well... ha... but that's not the point. i had to see the principal. ha...

i was like scared and a lil sad. ha.. so i juz prayed a really short prayer, like 5 words and i went in.

things were quite calm la... but she seemed a little mad. dunnoe if it's cos josh made her mad or she's juz mad with me hahaha... ok, so we juz chatted. talked a lot about math. den she took out this toy which is all interlinked by many cubes, den it becomes one BIG cube after solving it.

so she told me that "maths is inter-linked with all the other subjects" den she went on fiddling with it, telling me she took real long to learn it from a 14 year old. ha.. kinda put a smile on my face, was quite funny.

i was like feeling sad and a lil disappointed in myself and hoping that i'd advance.

she gave a nod signalling i could go back and all of a sudden she said "here, take this and go figure it out, if u dunnoe, ask the teachers they all should know how to solve it" kinda cos i gave an excuse that i din like looking for teachers whenever i'm stumped with a math question....

but anyway!
the atmosphere juz changed, and i had this movie scene in my head like some wise man telling me "GO! GO and change the world!!!!" hahaha.. i looked at her, and i couldn't control it. i was gonna laugh!! i walked out quickly and after i stepped out, that wide smile juz beamed across my face like i control it. hahahahahaha...

den teachers walked by and i hid that toy cos i was embarrassed. haha.. if they see it, they'd probably know i saw mrs ong and thy'll be like shaking their heads. hahaha..

so, am glad things went fine.

next was my OP rehearsal. hahaha.. i was unprepared!!! i tried to hide it the best i could to decieve mr fung wuahahahaha! dunnoe if i succeeded, but i did not have any bad remarks la. haha.. i was juz on time too !! =D

i juz prayed a super short prayer again even though i was running out of spare time to finish reading my script. heh.. *it was incomplete* hahaha.. so i had to do last minute impromptu speech towards the end of my last few slides. din slip too much heh. thank GOD!!

argh, juz a reflection - i have to grow up!!! hahahaha... man.. mrs kuek pick on me.. but i like being me - stupid! hahahaha...

25/10/2005

It had been a long day today...

as the teachers sat down in the conference room and one by one slides went by. slides with our photos on them.

the question: "to be or not to be..." PROMOTED

that is the BIG question.

hmmm... spent my day idling round the house today. playing and praying. haha.. praying that i'll make it.

it's almost coming to the end of the day and it seems that Mr Saw has not msged anyone the results of the moderation yet. not keen on knowing, i'd rather concentrate on brushing up on my OP.

what ever the outcome, it's all for my own good. =)

hmmm.. now, to retain or not to... that's the OTHER question..

20% i might end up in the army if i retain. yea... 20% according to me. haha... see if my mom or i have stronger arguements/counter-arguements.

soooo.. the year has went by real nice. i had my fun, played all day, time to face the outcome. tmr! tmr i will know. ha....

soo.. am off for prayer. i think. (having second thoughts)

ok off!

23/10/2005

i have really driven myself far from God... i just want to thank Him for my day.

it's by divine appointment that i happen to be on duty today. i know if i'm not on duty, i'd be at home practicing for my OP.

but throughout this day, i have not only enjoyed myself, not only did i feel closer to my friends, not only was i able to help a friend when he was suffering and also witness him rededicate his life, i found Him-God. (ok, this sentence is a little too long to make sense, cut away a few of my examples and go straight to the last part and u'd get what i mean haha...)

thank u God.

many things i have to put behind, i hope you do too..

many things i have to put aside,

many temptations i have to deal with, i will from today onwards.

many times i have put Him aside, i will not from now on.

i will seek His face daily and grow close to Him. i want what was spoken to me to come to past. i am so happy to be at service today. i have recieved from Him and i know what to do...

thank u God.

anyway,

it's gonna be another long week. tmr.... i've got to be prepared for tmr... i juz want the remaining exams, projects to finish up. when holidays come, it'll be fun but... i know this holidays aint gonna be the same... i

know it...

things are gonna change. my friends, my promotion... christmas is not going to be the same. i dunnoe... but i

really hope things will be the same, or rather, more or less the same.

ok, so till next week....

-i'll miss you like the sun misses the flower..

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just watched the show "a knight's tale". love that show, third time i've watched it on tv. very inspiring... man.. i love the spirit the main character william has. i want that spirit. a knight's spirit.

a spirit on fire for God... i need God.

22/10/2005

juz finished watching this movie "how to deal".. nice show. yea...

ok, update later!! i need to go for edge!!! update when i reach home. =D

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ok, back, that show starred mandy moore (who is sooooo pretty!! nvr noticed..) nice show... but i din really get the part of how the show links with the title. hmm.. probably it's about how she deals with her problems and love? yea.. guess so..

they did say something tt made sense though... "first love never ends..."

so wad do u think? i guess it only applies to those who's first love is someone whom they have really fallen for, not those puppy love type.

to me, i'm still confused at this point of time, all i know, is that i dun wan to hurt anyone else anymore... till i get over the past.

the past.. yea.. times, it juz replays itself, i know it's over but the feelings, it still lingers a little. it's better not to bother it. tt's how i feel. i guess it's gonna be a long process... it's kinda true that when i fall in love, it's kind of a long time..

hmmm... i know things will never be like the past. i know it's impossible and i am takng my time to totally put it aside.

and before i can do that, i guess, i juz have to ______ dunnoe wad to fill in. cant think of a word.

but ya, refrain. hmmm... am thinking a lot these days haha... think and draw. the 2 things i do a lot these days.

haha.. anyway! this song is the theme song for the show. haha.. nice classic song..

enjoy!

21/10/2005

hmmm.. norah jones... love her songs... this song 'don't know why', kinda brings back lots of memories.. memories tt have probably died...

i remember the show i watched, 'marrying the mafia' ha... i loved tt show. it's nice.

sooo.. 'don't know why' i decided to go look for this song.. have been listening to it day and night. brings me nice thoughts... haha.. night, i turn on this song on my laptop and listen to it till i sleep, morning, i have it on my mp3 on repeat 1 mode and hear it over and over. ha...

hmmm.. it juz bring me nice memories and nice thoughts.. ya.. not of the past - that past. it's of things happening now, things i like, times i've enjoy, days i had fun.

listening to this song, spending my free time in school drawing.. i juz enjoy life now.. only if i did not have pw to worry about.. ha... juz realised i really enjoyed drawing.. haha...

think in future, i'd be an artist, living by the sea selling nachos! hahaha... dunnoe why, but i love handi art and drawing.. kinda makes me have tt sense of achievement.. hahaha...

okok... so like, i dunnoe wad to do now... probably play games, or write my speech for my oral presentation...

bye!

19/10/2005

juz like i said, by the time i woke up, i forgot most of it already. tt's good la.. =)

anyway, the start of the day was really bad, everyone's in bad mood and all. dunnoe la. life's a mess now.

so lie, i HAVE NO MONEY!! haha.. keep forgetting to draw.. i survived on $1.20 today.. haha....

lazy to draw ar...zzzzz

dunnoe wad to say now, juz am glad tt written report is over with. haha... went to school late, i din get caught but shanaz got caught hahahaha!! lols.

ok, i'm hungry. bye!

18/10/2005

After what juz hapenned,

Life is at it's lowest now...

fail me,

hate me,

do what ever u want,

i dun care...

my nightmare i had a few nights back are coming through...

first the written report,

den, 5 marks for physics...

it juz eems so real now...

sometimes i juz hate myself for being someone who forgives and forgets too fast. i am too good at not containing my bitterness. and now, i hate myself for tt. i now tt by the time i wake up tmr, the bitterness and anger i have then would 1/4 of what i'm feeling now.

i hate unappreciative, hypocritical people.

btw, i am not talking about shanaz.

i am soo filled with bitterness now, i cant sleep. i dun even feel like going to school tmr. dun wan to. have given up. but my mind would probably change by the time i wake up. i know myself too well.

anyway, it doesn't matter now. i've said my point. i've gotten into trouble and things are juz ridiculous.

16/10/2005

it seems like yesterday that october just began. i really lost trak of the date since september 28. and yesterdy when i asked sullin the date, she was rembling about 14, 15 and 16 of october and i'm like, "wah!? u mean my exams have been over tt long!?' or maybe i forgot tt exams ended on the 5th.

ok, so finally after 2 months, i got to play rugby! was really excited this morning. played 6 games altogether. out of which we lost 4 which was like a 3-2, 2-1 kind of losing score. so we were real close. guess it was probably warm up. AND I AM NOT USED TO THE NEW RULES!!!!

nvm. we finally played the evry year champion team. ITE combined. haha.. we're all proud of ourselves cos we drew with them!!! *woot* wuaahaha.. even last year, they lost to ITE.

but anyway!
after tt, we kinda won on more game with a 5-2 victory over some little boys la. haha.. by tt time, we were very alert. playing quite smoothly to say.

after tt game, we packed up thinking tt everything's over. end up, we ade it into the semis!!! probably ranking 4th on the board... zZzZzZzZ we were al changed up by then and probably a kilometer from the tournament area.

IT IS SOOO IRRITATING AND I CANNOT GET OVER IT!!!!!

argh... crap. there goes our chance of hitting in third. hehe.. maybe 2nd? hahaha... quite impossible la. even i was playing very badly.. out of the many times i dived, at least 4 of them, the opponent got me juz before the ball landed on the try line. it is sooo frustrating!!! tt is equal to 4 tries i could have scored!!!! could have la.

i played real sucky today compared to the past. only 1 try for me today. the past, i scored like soo many la. (during the time i played the 3 man team. vicknesh, mannanand me. MAJOR KILLER!!! soo tiring...) man.. 5 minutes of sprinting and if we cant handle it, finals is 10 mins of sprinting.... we'd probably die in the second half.

anyway, we were forfeited so no point in me blabbering all these crap. nvm, we've got sentosa touch next month!!

how i wish i could start a team with frens outside.. too bad none of my frens play rugby... it'll be fun man...

win a date with tad himilton

juz watched the ending of this show... aww... i love watching love shows but whenever i watch them, i get real sad, real hurt.

anyway, shall not go into the details. watch the show. =)

so like, tmr i'm finally getting to play rugby after 2 months!!!! woooooohoooooo!!!! i'm soooo excited!!!! i'm so glad tt the exams are over. haha... juz cant wait to get back my results. now, i have to worry about PW.. haiz...

nvm.. we're kind of doing juz fine.... i think...

oh ya, edge was sooo funny with bro john as the preacher!!! hahahaha... he is soooooo funny! he isn't ashamed of loving our God. so much so it sounded psychotic hahaha.. it was sooo hilarous. the spirit of joy was definitely there. whenever i was filled, i juz felt like aughing out loud!! hahaha..

enjoyed it man!! i love edge services!!

ok, need to pack my things for tmr... RUGBY!!!!

before i begin, juz felt like talking about my dream last night... it was wierd.. but it kinda allow me to understand a little about how i feel. it's wierd man.. but it's been too long... it's a sad yet happy dream.. not gonna write it here... probably if u ask me i'd tell u.

so like, school today was juz a whole day of doing our written report.. haha. we are WAY behind schedule. haha... but i think we're doing fine...

so had some time to talk about our secondary school stuff with kannan and mo. haha... it's all about the boys toilet in New Town haha..

did u know...
that we had punching bags in our toilets!! here's the story:

my sec sch has like tons of gangsters haha.. so they enjoy breaking mirrors. how? PUNCHING EM! hahaha.. crazy people. hahaha. so my discipline master ah lau said something like this "since u guys like breaking mirrors, if there's no mirrors, there's nothing for u to break. so we wont replace them. and to help u vent ur anger, we're gonna install punching bags." haha.. so we had like half broken mirrors..

heard about the old man in the handicap cubicle??

haha. ok. this was the funniest!! IT'S CLASSIC! remember this phrase?? "LIM PEH PANG SAI, LI DI SIAO SIAO!!!"

haha... the cubicle in which we always dared ming chee to open hahahaha.... first time was by accident. he could stand there and stare at the old man!!! hahaha.. second time, he was dared and got shouted at hahahaha.. stupid old days.

"steam! steam! steam boat steam!"

remember the big deal about the "STEAM.... boat"?? HAHAHA... es!! haha.. eng soon!! hahahaha... ok, not too nice to write but wad wai kiong used to do was to pull him away from the urinal while he was peeing hahaha... so like, he peed on his pants. hahaha... okok.. should not continue.

haha.. stupid days!!

exams ARE over!!!

today's my last paper and wad a better way to celebrate it than walking home!!! hahaha...

ok, i really walked all the way home from school!! haha

it was the longest distance i've ever walked.. aww.. my foot's sore.. especially my right foot... kinda burned the padding of my skate shoe, and tt part kinda left my feet almost bare to the ground.. hurts...

so like, walking home was really cool.. after my "cycling expedition", i really wanted to have another "expedition" hahaha.... walking home was great! got to see many things. besides, i forgot to bring my wallet.. no money... not tt i din borrow, i did. but decided tt'll be used in an emergency.

lots of thanks to my mp3 which kept me going.

i decided to take the bukit timah way home which was kinda long and challenging took the longer, sunnier side of the road too haha..

some places were sunny and bare (as in not much trees around) and tt kinda reminded me of malaysia... aw... miss penang... there's was this path which had these vines hanging down, and it sooo reminded me of us walking to the food center late at night to have supper in penang.

i miss paradise...

den there were parts that reminded me of kluang. miss kluang too.. time i spent there, was really cool and peaceful. also there's this part under the railway which looked quite british. haha.. a place tt looked like somewhere in britain in a dark quite night and a couple.... making.... out! hahahaha... yea... like those typical movie scenes under the whitish grey brick inverted U kind of structure.

haha... many nice things.. soon i was reaching bukit panjang LRT and i was soooo tempted to take the LRT back but no!~ i muz hang in there! so i walked, greatly dehydrated, very hungry... but i pushed. i din want to spend the money my friends lent me. so i did not stop by the gas station.

i pushed on, the sky was dark, it's gonna rain. i picked up pace and continue. God's juz sooo good. by the time i reahed home, it rained.

ok, at home, i finished the remaining yogurt milk in the carton and another bottle of chocolate milk. still! i was thirsty!!!! i made myself some honey water. haha... yum =q

hmm... lazy to type.. am gonna fall asleep from all the walking..

cya.

chem sucks

dun u think so? i used to love it sooo much, now, i think it sucks so bad. it is so depressing and pressurizing to study chem. dunnoe where to start, wad to study... ur teacher dun make studying chem any fun.

not tt physics is fun. i like that study method. i like knowing what i am doing. while in chem, i have no idea wad i'm doing so i copy answers for tutorial if i can. if i dun do, i juz stand, and standing makes concentration soo difficult, i juz dun bother listening and think i'll go home and study. no i dun.

physics, we do it on the spot, go home, i redo everything. i dun copy cos i more or less have lost all the work i did during lesson and redo the whole thing. after tt i feel like i have done something, the sense of success. it's like i noe how to do and continue doing it. but chem, it's like doing math now, i get stuck, i stop. aint motivated.

thankfully, chem isn't like math. math, numbers and equations wont speak to u, but chem, there's at least some english u can understand. if not, i can probably quit school cos i wont know wad i'm studying fer chem and maths.

anyway, chem sucks. that's the whole idea. (i sound like akira now, dun i.. ha.)

this year, it totally destroyed my passion for studying chem. dunnoe if it's the teacher. cos i prefer mr chen over, miss lee in terms of study wise. but friend friend wise, yea, miss lee over him. but i guess, chem is made too pressurizing.

thank God physics paper came before chem or i will be too pressurized to study anything at all.

ok, i aint gonna go to sleep until some chem gets into my head. cos i'm on the virge of tearing my book and burning my notes. but i know i'll do fine even after doing those stuff.

dun look down on me.

argh! i cant concentrate!

this is the final lap man.. but i cannot focus.. there's too many things in my head. juz when i start, i start thinking of something else.. WHY!!! i cant focus. dunnoe if i should take a depressant so tt my mind wont be too active. but again, i'll become sleepy... argh!!! probably drink a little. juz a little..

i need to wake up my ideas!! -- miss lee

hahaha... i cant concentrate!! i need to promote!! hello!!! gabriel!! (feels wierd calling myself)

oh ya!!! chocolates!!! i forgot!!! not only did my dad bought back some erm.. things for me to drink, he brought back chocolates!!! chocolates helps in memory right!?!?!?

wuahahahaha!!! gonna sneak the whole pack of chocs in and study! yes! i can, no i muz make it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! if not i'm doooooooooomed!!!

God help me...

retail therapy! me!?

oh my!! i feel like a girl!!! hahahaha... i spend almost every last drop of my money on shopping today!!! i am officially BROKE!

ha!! maybe not! i still have an $80 cheque!!! yay!!! still rich!!! haha.. oops, i haven tith those money. thank God i remembered.. aww... a lot of money to tith. hahaha... muz remember next sun.

ok, i bought 3 t-shirts, 2 polo-ts and a pair of slippers. hahaha... it's like the more we walked, the more i spent!!! i was rushing them to go home!!! at the first shop, i bought the 2 ts and 2 polo-ts, and spent $87.50! it didn't really hurt till we were going back. haha.. (at least mine din hurt as much as dec's hehe..)

den we walked on, and i bought another t-shirt in which i like, and i'm like asking him "eh.. nice hor?" den he said he bought it already! ahh!! but i bought a different colour. ha... everytime we go buy clothes, dec's always picking the nice ones faster than me! hahaha.. but i manage to get one of those he pick because the size dun fit. hahaha..

den i bought another pair of slipper. ha.. cos joash and joel bought one too den thought i'd get one. haha... no comments about the slippers except tt it looks kinda funky. ha... i think joel and i would probably have the same pair but different colours. ha..

ok, like i said i began to regret cos i spent $125 altogether.. haha..

reached home, slept. when i woke up, felt kinda lonely. juz as i got out of the shower and began trying out the clothes, my parents came home. yay!! juz on time haha.. so i kinda tried on the few t-shirts and one was too big!! cos it kinda came in a bargain, 1 $25 or something 2 for 37. den i juz got another of the same size but when i tried it juz now, it was WAY too big! ha.. so i decided to give to my dad.

ha... he loved it. so thank God! i din feel too guilty about my spending.

ok, am watching meet the parents while typing this... man.. i feel sorry for him.. greg, greg focker. ya.. haha.. wierd name. but anyways, man.. it's like he's suffering with his in-laws... i'm afraid of the same thing too haha.. if i ever have a girlfriend and if i ever get engaged. hahaha...

ok, gonna go study for a 2 hour marathon.

physics tml!

Ryan Cabrera - Shine On

dedicated to a special someone =P

the song's too nice to be not dedicated to someone hahaha... this song kinda reminds me of ron... hahaha... especially whenever kim has a crush on someone, den ron would be like *aww man...* haha... reminds me of ron being jealous haha..

still, i've found a much nicer song... shall put it on once i've found it. =D

i've given every moment i had
still i can never seem to keep up with you
you're done with one mile, and on to another one thousand
still i could never seem to keep up with you

i know you'll be better off without me when i'm gone
you know you're beautiful
you're beautiful

(chorus)
shine on
you were made to shine on
and you know i love you
even if we can or can't be friends i'll be with you till the very end
shine on
you were made to

it's keeping me awake everynight
but i can never seem to give up on you

i know you'll be better off without me when i'm gone
you know you're beautiful
you're beautiful

(chorus)
shine on
you were made to shine on
and you know i love you
even if we can or can't be friends i'll be with you till the very end
shine on
you were made to

nobody's wrong
nobody's right
keep moving on

shine on
you were made to shine on

(chorus)
shine on
you were made to shine on
and you know i love you
even if we can or can't be friends
you're gonna be better than you've ever been so
shine on

you're gonna be just fine
you're gonna be alright love
you're gonna be just fine
you're gonna be alright love

enjoyed my day

so i thought joanes words yesterday made sense and so i decided to go out today. din exactly go out, but went down to dec's place to swim and play games.

haha... i realise how much weaker i am now den when i was young. i cant believe i can swim 20 laps in the past. now, i'm dead after a few laps at dec's place. the pool is like probably 30m in breadth (the word looks funny. did o spell it wrong? haha...)

wanted to do a lil tanning but guess that failed. am darker but it is sooo minimal u can only see the diff if i am erm.... naked? haha... cos of the mark left by the swimming trunks. =P

ok, after that we had like a survival project marathon where me and dec played like mad. i leveled once today and he level 10x more than me!!! haha... cos he began at a low level... =)

soooo.. it was really fun. i watched advent children AGAIN! cos it's like we wanted to go eat, (we were super hungry!!!) but i had to bring up the show. den it was like 5+ when the show finished. we din want to go eat cos kim possible was gonna start followed by X-men. so we played games a little more, and then finally the shows began.

after all that, it was 7pm. we finally had our lunch. oh! i guess it was dinner since we fasted lunch. we fast and play. though, we should be fasting and praying.... hahahaha.... =P

yea... loved my day... was a really fun and funny one. that boy keeps dying and it's quite funny at times la. hahaha...

din really wan to come home cos it was really late and i was having too much fun. haha... but my parents are back, finally, after 2 weeks. kinda felt pressured.. kinda liked the feeling of them being gone.. was getting used to it.. life was soooo different and quiet... too quiet at times though.... it's nice to be the head of the house especially when my sister listens to me heh.. =D

okok, shall.. erm... sleep or play a lil more... gonna have to study since i had sooooo much fun today. haha... yea... beter work hard... dun wanna be kicked out of my rugby team... probably i'd join a club if i get kicked out.. =(

so... gonna see all my church frens tml!!! been 2 weeks. =D

nite!

I'm a happy man!!

haha.. finally i am a happy man.. these few days, school ends early, cos of exams, tml, i've got no school. yay!! haha.. can get to come home early everyday.

in fact today finished soo early i hanged out with the S2 girls a little. went to eat lunch. usually the four mungent ruggers would hang out together with them, but today i'm the only guy hahaha... the sugar daddy? hahaha.. i juz found out wad i means. haha.. and i've got to be cool to be a sugar daddy!? hahaha... i'm nerdy.. aww crap.

anyway, we ate at westmall the kopitiam and i had some japanese cuisine... man.. enjoyed it totally.. me and joanne were like really taking our own sweet time enjoying it. for me, it kinda brings back nice memories.. yea... to me tt is... now i kinda have a different impression on japanese food than used to especially when it it served in those kind of dish that kinda have different segments for different food. yea... good memories... enjoyed those time a lot. ;D

doubt i'd ever get to have that kind of fun in future, anymore....

anyways! have been able to catch kim possible cos i'm home early. haha... man... i love her!!! she's soo cool! ha.. i really i wish i could be ron if there really is a kim possible on earth. hahaha..

i dun mind being the loser ron, cos heh.. i already noe the outcome. =P i'd be a happy man! hahahaha...

okok, have been playing lots of games after my major chem and physics 2-in-1 day. ha... am gonna enjoy a little more before continuing my mugging..

so ya.. am gonna sleep. have not been having sufficient sleep these days... need to wake up so early to go to school. every morning i'd have really dark eye rings.. i have to sleep by 10 lor.. but i cant! i tried. i'd lie in bed till 12.... man...

so.. ya, gonna rest..

ok, thank goodness my previous entry was not up.. felt kinda bad for being sucha prejudice. was talking about the hijras ya, some eunuchs, not because they ae indians k. sometimes i might get over board distrubing my classmates but i dun mean them ya. esp misha. dun take it too seriously.

ok, shall not start again on the hijras but rather my papers today... aww man!! it's bad!! argh.. i'll work my best i can and if i have to retain, guess i've got no choice.. there'll probably be 15 yr 2 classes next yr and 3 yr 3 classes. hahahaha... stupid papers. so dfficult.

i practically wasted pontaning school yesterday studying. wad i studied, almost all did not come out!!! so disappointing.. it's totally not like was we usually do in school. the questions asked were sooo different... the manner as in...

anyway, tml's maths paper. juz need to bring myself, 1 pen and a pillow... i dun even need a calculator. -_- *yawn* -o-

yea... 3 boring hours...

am going blind man... soon i'll hit 1000 degrees... my eyes are failing me.. wish they recovered all of sudden and i dun need specs or wad so ever..

ha... nearly missed my papers today. it was 6.08 am when i woke up!! cos it was raining in the morning and it was sooooooooooo nice to sleep everyone did not wake up! hank God i remembered my handphone alarm ringing before i went back to sleep... or else, i'm doomed!!! ha... anyway, no diff... doomed. chem... arh...

i like studying physics these days.. less pressurizing. ha... i like to know my facts before starting unlike chem, i dunnoe anything muz start on tutorial.. haiz...

okok, wan to rest my eyes.. dun wan em fried. i'll nvr get to see my grandchilden at this rate my eye sight is deteiorating...

nitez pple.

guess i was feeling sad last night.. felt that there's something i miss but am not too sure wad it is.

anyway, i'm feeling good today, am gonna spen my last 20 hours fruitfully. i woke up early this morning and decided to stay home and study. finished one physics topic at 6 am. haha.. went back to sleep, now studying chem all the way. quite worried for chem.

now i'm feeling a little more confident for my papers. =) just pray that the next 2 weeks goes on just fine. pw, and everything...

gonna go back and study.

when reality sets in...

ha.. ok, i am way behind schedule for my studies for today, i overslept. should not have played at westmall for so long.

but anyways! haha... i've got some nice-to-read comments which sounds cool. but is it so that i'll check out their site? hahahaha... i do actually. SOMETIMES! hahaha... but no hard feelings la, to those who kinda left comments. lols! it's probably the changein music. haha..

ok, so now, reality is kinda setting in... the time i have for studying's short, and i wanna catch my back to back 'lost' on axn... guess, i've gotta quickly finish blogging and get started and revise and watch at the same time hahaha.... juz wanna rush through everything, revise the necessary chem stuff and all... argh!!!

haha.. i wanna do well.. but the time i take to revise is really too long, it may be a good start, but i started too late. definitely am getting back in track with consistency with me assignments but it's too late!!!

i dun wan to let my parents down... they're gone, i'm alone, i wanna do well. if there's no such thing as advance this year, i'll probably be prepared to retain. my aim though, is an A'level pass in both chem and physics, and an AO in GP. but it seems a little...... i dunnoe... hafta start working hardER and pray....

but work HARDER more!

haha... am watching charlie's angel while at the same time, doing my written report. haha.. drew barrymore's so cute. haha... she's got this baby face, and there's this part where she woops 5 guys, and after wooping them, the music changes and she dances off.. haha...

cameron diaz's cute too.. haha.. i like her with her butt dance haha... =D

anyway, dunnoe wad's with me. haha... cant believe i did not go to church the whole of today. thought i'd drop by in the evening but guess i did not ha.. wonder if it'll happen if i lived alone or if my parents aren't around...

ok, something just for fun. haha... these few days, kinda have lots of time myself, have discovered some things about me and kinda changed a lil throughout this time. haha...

1. I discovered today that i still like playing with toys. haha.. cool ones. =D
2. wearing specs these few days has allowed me to know some stuff, and understand some things..
3. I miss playing rugby.
4. I need lots of time to study/revise 1 set of work, I'm too easily distracted.
5. But i'm totally focused once I sit down and do it.
6. am getting lazy these days.. find myself sleeping a lot more than usual.
7. I'm gonna go blind soon.
8. I do not feel "out of place" like i do last time.
9. Being at home alone is no more lonely but rather boring.
10. I'm becoming bad. =P
11. I miss my parents.
12. I love finishing up my assignments.
13. I have improved a little more in terms of self-control.
14. I like going to school myself especially times when i'm lonely or feeling down. i get to reflect..
15. I cant wait for promos to be over.
16. I'm not soo worried about the kind of results i get, i juz wan to do things i used to do alone after promos
17. I wanna go fishing.
18. I'm being very sentimental in terms of my thoughts these days.
19. I've been thinking more about this topic "love", through things i've seen, shows i've watched and quizes i did.
20. There's someone -SECRET- =D whom i think means something to me.
heh Can u break the code and find out wad is it? haha...

haha... have really enjoyed these few days of school and life. haha.. cant wait for everything to be over especially oral presentation, den i'll start skipping school. probably spend a day by the reservoir and do some luring. promos starting soon and its gonna soon be over too. =)

days are really nice... all of u, take care ya.

quizes and stuff! =D

ok i cant sleep, so i'm juz surfin round friendster cos there's like some new things here and there.. haha... did some quizes and stuff... juz felt like making a post on it. haha... bored.

ok, cant paste the japanese name thingy hahaha... nvm, here's the quiz i did. some love test...

1. The road represents your attitude towards falling in love.

You chose the short road. You fall in love quickly and easily.

2. The number of red roses represents how much you give in a
relationship, while the number of white represents what you
expect in return.

You give 50% and expect 50% in return.

3. This question represents your attitude towards handling
relationship problems.

You like to get the person yourself. You are a more direct
person and like to work out problems immediately.

4. The placement of the roses determines how much you like seeing
your boy/girlfriend.

You place the roses on the bed. You like to see him/her
a lot.

5. This represents your attitude towards his/her personality.

You prefer the person to be asleep, you love the person as the
way s/he is.

6. The road to home tells how long you stay in love with someone.

You chose the longer road. You will tend to stay in love for
a long time.

i think it's a unique test, wierd way of assesing someone, but its direct and simple.

and then, i found this quiz which is really down-to-earth. do it honestly, den do it all wrong and go read about what true love should really be. =D

ok did this next quiz. hahaha..


Deep-dish with Sausage or Pepperoni

haha... this was the pizza i chose, see wad they say bout me! =D

Deep Dish "Chicago-style" Pizza
You have a wild streak and like to live life to its fullest. You're likely to be a high school jock. You dream of being a sports star. You enjoy most movies --- comedy, drama, action-adventure.

exactly how i would describe myself hahaha...

and for my last test, i gave out a loud laugh when my results tell me:

You are a good Masculine - Feminine mixture

KIm Possible: So the Drama

wow... that was one of the sweetest show i've seen... aww... it's sooo sweet!!!

haha.. i'm like totally happy for ron.. haha.. he and kim... aww...

too bad i din catch the start.. missed about 30mins of it.. ha... but it was a stinking nice show, so.... drama. hahaha... den the plot, is the coolest i've ever seen! hahaha.... the coolest Kim show. muz catch!

from that show, i have found another singer i really like, besides sam bisbee, christy carlson romano is my next. aww!!! she's really beautiful with a really nice voice!! (probably cos she sounds like Kim. hahahaha.. ) but she's really cool.

gonna go get her songs now, and i stil lneed to study!!! hahaha...