I CAN'T SLEEP!

i hate it when i can't sleep especially when there's work the next morning, but i can't help it.

my mind's just raving over someone. i've not been/felt this way in quite some time. thought everything's fine, but it's not. haha...

i wish i could do something, say something, ANYTHING to that person. just to see a smile, it's more than i can ask for.

can't BELIEVE i just blogged this.

(dear heart, please don't make me look like a fool again... hahahaha..)

07/07/08

oh, my word! i can't believe this is going to come from me.

OPS WAS SO FUN!

HAHAHA!
i was initially very disappointed cos i was gonna do night shift, and to makes things worse, the day shift guy wanted to do night. -___-" tell me earlier ma!

NVM!
night was WAY better! hahahaha.. i did not sleep the whole of last night la! but the previous 2 days, we'd chat and play till 4 before the whole OP goes down. haha... (no one should know this, but we slept all the way from 4 to 8am hahaha!)

i'd play ahem*psp*cough cough, with one guy then talk all night with the other. haha. their like so old already but young at heart ar. haha.. those hokkien ping. thier funny ar. (maybe tt's why they get all the hot girls and are married.) HAHAHA...

on radio today, 8 out of 10 girls go for personality, the other 2, looks. but ALL 10 loves flattery! HAHAHAHA! actually, it started with how someone smsed and said that the girl was too pretty for him, so he can't get/don't deserve her. then they start making fun of daniel ong HA! the ugly guy who got miss singapore. oO *kow tow*

anyways, i most prob might not see them again.. so sad man.. those guys were fun la. but those 2 ar... sometimes really very childish. married man quarrelling over trivial matters. silly bums! can't stand them when they do tt, the whole OP goes silent for a while, then i've to break that awkward silence. ha..

ah well, i thank God that i had fun! HOHOHO!

03/07/08

ok, i've not felt this way in a long time --- having no one to talk to i turn to my blog for refuge.

just by saying that, i realised that i DO have someone to talk to - God. but... i just keep finding myself down every time i climb up to the top, not to jump off and overcome but to fall back WHACK BAM BOOM! hard on my butt.

i've been enjoying the long break from the MSK ops. but it's coming back! a greater test this time. am not looking forward to it starting all over and all too sudden. i don't know how to react and my 2 days off felt like a little..... dot..... on..... the calendar. (haha trying to describe how the 2 days felt like.)

anyways, i guess it's up to myself to keep my morale up! be strong! be strong and courageous! hohoho!