Friday, March 31, 2006

31/03/06

ah... almost 1st of april. haha... tmr, match with JJC, old saints. haha... OLD! hahaha...

i've juz reached home and bathed HA! i had training in which i pushed myself and told myself tt i'll push till i fall dead. broke my limit, was on the verge of puking i kept getting tt puking feeling (forgot the word in which is used to describe it).

yea... was a killer. after today's training, my knees are giving way. guess it's not used to the heavy work out...

anyway, met matt at cck mrt. he din feel like going home, so did i. hahaha.. we chatted at mac all the way till 11.10pm. hahaha.. was nice la...

we chatted about lots of stuff... our school, ccas, timor trip, church pple, penang... ah... all those nice memories la... was reminded of soooooo many things... but guess not all nice things has got nice endings... tired of it already.

so we juz chatted and chatted till the lights outside were off... haha... yea... realised something. am juz worried about this person. maybe i'm juz thinking too much, but after what matt and i talked about, i realised changes... kinda worry me... have not been in contact with this person for soooooo long la.. totally forgot that she's almost disappeared. all grown up, getting used to adulthood. haha... i'm still a small boy here.

anyway, i'll keep of them in prayer. haha... miss all those chatting times i had with desmond, of course now i've got kannan.

i wanted to go for all night prayer but tmr... ar... confused. let me give it some thought...

am sooo sleepy la... i need to recover... my knee's aching...

kk... nights...

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

28/03/06

depressing entry and i did not like it,
so i......


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haha... lalalala...
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29/03/06
i think maths went quite ok today. IF! i get full marks for all my prob and d.r.v questions, i'd regret not studying hard and do my uniform binomial, cos IF i had full marks, I'd get juz enough marks for an A for maths!!!! (it'll be the first time in A maths/Maths C history!!!)
but i doubt i'd get it all right. BUT IF I DO! ARGH!!!!
haha... k, last paper tmr!

Monday, March 27, 2006

27/03/06

hmmm.. guess paper today was easier than expected haha... dunnoe how i'd do...

i did not study for physics as i've been madly mugging for chem (in which i think i might do worse than physics). haha... yesterday i was also out with kannan and barely studied for it.

guess i read the right stuff last night. hehe..

den this morning, went to school early with lay kuen. ha... i woke up at 5.25 la!! so early... haha..

reached school, i was putting on my mp3, and i was studying. den suddenly i felt like listening to one of the christian worship songs. den i suddenly felt a gust of the Lords presence, and then it left. so i decided to put my book down. i juz prayed quietly and told God "Lord, i shall put my book aside and juz give u this few last minutes of my time."

then i began to feel God's presence again, feeling me soooooo fully. from head to toe. i felt the peace of the Lord, i juz wasn't tt worried about my physics exam anymore. i believed tt the amount of hardwork i've put into my assignments would be enough. so i juz sat there, and enjoyed my moment with God... ah...

i need you more than all else...............

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ok, chem.. i'm a lil worried for chem because, though i've worked hard. i'm not working tt hard today. am very distracted. VERY!

dunnoe what's with me, but my mind's occupied, and i've got the sleeping bug in which is making me feel sleepy all day.

muz be the comforts of home...

i juz hope i wont be like this during the A's... good start but lost momentum.

juz have to clear my mind... ha... i need those pills again. my mind runs off too much and i get so easily distracted; my surroundings, my own thoughts...

ok, guess i'll go do something else but study. haha...

Sunday, March 26, 2006

26/03/06

tmr's common test!! haha... anyways, i had lots of fun today with kannan. caught a show "failure to launch" and we found ourselves or rather, myself in a very uncomfortable situation.

i told kannan i felt like watching a romance-comedy show. ended ourselves in a theatre full of COUPLES!! hahahahahaha!!!

oh well. it was stinking funny!

laughed all the way out of the theatre and laughed even more when a malay girl tried walking through a glass door!! hahahahaha... *bumped!* hahaha... so funny, so candid. *ooF* hahahahaha!!!

okok... am high already, gotta go study. told myself i'd focus. i want to try to work to be somebody and not some loser, especially in my studies and tt everyone around me is doing so well too... I MUST WORK HARD!!! (somehow HEH!!!)

alrights, BYE!

Saturday, March 25, 2006

25/03/06

ah.. yes. i wanted to blog something in the morning but i totally forgot about it hahaha..

ok, last night i dreamt that i went to east timor kinda by myself... ah... sooo nice "to be back there" haha... i dreamt that my dad was driving me from like one town to the other. erm.. i dunnoe how to explain. because what i dreamt did not follow tt of the east timor's map.

ok, so i reached the airport where i somehow, needed to get into the country. (trust me, when i'm awake i did not understand this part either but the procedures seemed familiar with me.)

so i was showing the officer there my passport and all, den i remember asking for a map/directory. ( i somehow knew how to use it.) i looked for the map on the town of dili. haha... (at this point of time, i was somehow alone. dunnoe where my dad went to.)

hmmm... cut things short. i woke up as i realised i couldn't drive! haha... i was thinking how i was gonna get to the hotel. (the one we stayed in the last time)

but it was nice though.. dreaming of tt place...

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lately i have been having many dreams and sleepless nights. i keep waking up in the middle of the night. prolly last night was due to my body aches from my match and i realised i had turn 180 degrees round my bed.

all my dreams were things i would love to dream of. things tt are in my heart but they often have something sad or bad in it. even in this timor dream. i remember i cried as i spoke to someone... i was telling the lady how i could not take the pressure living in Singapore, and how i loved timor, it's beauty, the slow paced lityfestyle...

i am starting to see everything i feel deep in my heart in which i do not potray in public (that much) in my dreams. the emotions felt so real. especially the time when i dreamed of one of my friends... how i really felt about stuff, i did not realised them until the dream...

now i am beginning to dread my dreams as it is bringing out the reality i choose not to live in. it is beginning to make me realise limits and impossibilities. it is beginning to make me realise heart aches and feelings i hide to the extent i do not feel it when i'm awake..

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ok, i did not go for edge today. am a lil lonely at home but no probs! haha.. i'm studying and feeling juz fine. juz finished one chapter, moving on to another. hope to clear chem by today! tmr gonna have intense physics.

okok, am off. enough rest. =)

Friday, March 24, 2006

24/03/06

today was kinda great la ya.. ha...

had a great game with CJ, am like sooo lazy to go into details but yea.. think we won them 17-10.

nice game! first time i had soooo much fun and i cleared a game with no regrets.

BUT HOWEVER! if we only knew our roles more, we'd prolly score more! zzzzz.. it's the only thing tt irritated me.

HELLO!? finisher here!!! if u choose not to pass, i might as well not support and attack ya? juz defend.

-.-... the only "regret" i have in the game tt i cant get off my head. or rather a frustration.

if only we knew our roles, we wont have the mindset of scoring tries! dun play damn solo game la pls. BORING! in my heart i'm already cursing and swearing juz tt i'm not used to exprexxing them. -.-

playmaker dun score tries ok? unless the finisher is under pressure and u have an open route. OH! if finisher is under pressure, u MUST AND SHOULD grubble the ball! cos the opponent is like at the finisher's foot. i can easily run past him and her has to turn around. SEE! oh my! i want to play full back and try it out man. it'll be sooo fun la! =P

so many places i can run. DAMN! (dun mind me, let me release some frustrations.)

juz pretend we're playing touch ok!? see the opponent, pass. if not crash and DUN CHUCK THE DAMN BALL! IT'S JUZ LIKE TOUCH RUG! HELLO!? if only i could run around and change positions like touch... man...

haiz.. shall not express myself anymore.. it'll juz make some pple think i'm a hooligan. hahaha.. i'm juz super irritated. TO THE CORE MAN! i cant stand it. especially when pple keep saying we play like shit. c'mon. den know ur roles la! i understand sometimes we're juz feeling confident. cos i do all the time. i juz cant make myself release the ball. cos though the many times i get the ball, i prolly get to play it ONCE!!!! and being a playmaker is super fun. so dun cut me out PLS!

good game. but it's juz luck. i dun think CJ's tt weak. dun be complacent or we'd lose for sure.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

23/03/06

had a great day today juz tt it was too long!!!

some things tt happened:
i've been losing stuff!!
someone has stolen my chemistry option booklet!!! =( boo.. haha... now i cant do my sunnary =P
then someone "stole" my calculator. searched up and down and finally, thanks to kira, i found who "stole" it! it was under sam's bag next to me!! AHAHAHAHA!! she la, anyhow throw her bag on the table, cover my cal... ha..

i've been sleeping like a pig!
i really think i've caught the sleeping virus. either tt or it's cos of my late nights. but i'm sleeping sooooo much!! it's first the first time i felt so sleepy across 4 periods!! man... *oink!*

i've become a maths pro??
hahaha... miss cotton wu, (a new name we juz gave her) was a bit blur blur today haha.. she's our maths teacher btw, and me a ZERO POINTER in maths managed to POINT OUT her mistakes!! haha... first was some combination thingy in which she said she drew out 10 sets of diagram when i solved in in 2 numbers, 1 letter: 5C2. hahahaha!! den i "spotted" her mistake in another question, which was an accident!~ hahaha!!! i juz wanted to clarify something cos i saw something wrong and then it WAS a mistake after all hahahaha!!! make me feel so maths pro. lols!

other things i cant remember. haha.. except, NO GP LESSON TODAY!!! 3 HRS STRAIGHT FREE TIME!! WOOOOHOOOO!!!

alright, i'm sleepy again. have to finish 2 sets of chem work and 1 set of physics. no time to play games!! =( haha... see if i can find time.

i better not sleep late tonght cos i've got a rugby game with CJC tmr!! YIPEE!! (suddenly excited, dunnoe why) A'divs, end quick! =P

to end off, i miss MI idol, and east timor!!!

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

22/03/06

alright! back home after training and all ha...

today went fine. bet tmr's gonna be better! hahahaha.. =P

okok, sometimes i juz dun understand myself and how i feel... ar... ha... how i wish everything din happen!!! hahaha.... sooo many things, sooooo messy, sooo confusing, i dunnoe what to think.

finished physics! yay!! actually, not exactly la. hahaha... but i am almost done! =D den there's maths which i'm still stumped. need more practice. and finally chem in which i'm prolly DOOMED! hahaha.. need to hand up tmr. haiz...

aiya... how i wished i was in the army. so many things i wont need to think about.

oh ya! u guys remember the johari window thingy i put up in my blog?? haha.. the yr 2s were doing it today for home tutors. haha.. i shall rake up my johari window thingy and prolly place it at my side window. haha... but no one's doing it already!! bleah!! haha...

haiz... guess i'll stop here... wanna go to my bible so tt i can put aside my feelings... =) take care!

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

Psalm 13

How long, O Lord? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me?
How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing to the Lord,
for he has ben good to me.

21/03/06

hmmm... i've been a BAD boy today!! haha.. i skipped school. =P

ok, i've been doing quite some work today, but still NOT ENOUGH!! haha..

i realised something about me these days. i think i got the sleeping virus!!! i got extra sleep in the morning, den in the afternoon, i slept another 2 hrs!! MY! i'm like a pig now!!! hahaha...

worse, i have been having lots of dreams lately... dreams of pple i want to be with but yet, not the kind of situation i like to be in.

my dreams had those emotions of feeling lost, left out, unwanted, condemned... not to the extreme though, but... i guess maybe this is how i feel deep inside. especially with pple whom i've been missing out on. espcially those i've been close to...

i remember the first dream last night, everyone whom i've felt tt we're not as close as before, were all sitting round a table in the restaurant, and they mentioned tt there was no space for me. worse still, there was this person, who made me feel a sense of desperation because all tt person did was juz agreed with the rest and did not even voice out for me.. soooo freaky...

ha... wierd... i dun really feel good about sleeping anymore. haha... but yea... guess this holiday has made me miss many of you, especially the bintan trip. i did not get to see my region pple for 2 weeks la.. haha...

u all mean more to me than u think u do. u guys juz dun know it.. =)

ok la... enough said... gonna watch tv! =D

Monday, March 20, 2006

20/03/06

i'm half asleep but i'm catching "gao xiao xing tong" haha..

they just did a short play to explain that what we see is often external beauty, we lack discovery. to discover inner beauty. we often judge through external appearances.. haha... how true...

ok, i had lots of fun today in school! must thank my friends. they are always the ones who take me through pain and tiring days.

and i'm super excited, cos i'm quite confident of a decent marks for chem. haha.. chem test. not common test though. haha.. need more practice for common test ha..

am sooooooooo sleepy now.... dunnoe why... *yawns*

ok, nothing much ar... juz tt i enjoyed school. haha...

Sunday, March 19, 2006

19/03/06

after yesterday, i feel sooo much like crying and i feel sooo comfortable about it! =DDD make me cry!!! i feel soooooooooo gooood when i do! hahahaha...

alright! THANK GOD FOR YOUTH PASTORS LIKE JEREMY SEAWARD.
of course not forgetting my friends and XIAOWEI!

hahaha... first i have to thank God, den xw for encouraging me to go for synergize.

during synergize, as jeanne preached, i felt the presence of the Lord all around.
she spoke of the 7 love letters from God all of them were everything i was going through.

i remember the first 3 the most.
1. the pressure.
i had to relief a lot of pressure that's the reason why i ran away on thursday. ran away from everything. i now feel confident on teling u guys why.
i was pressured because of deadlines for my diploma course. many projects and assignments. next was my studies. i want to try my best for common test but i dun seem to be utilising my time fully and furthermore i have many school stuff to take up all my time, diploma and rugby. of course finally, rugby.

i lost the drive, determination, the fire, the passion. am sick of routines. i dunnoe. but i juz couldn't stand it and wanted to run away as i felt like a bird in a cage being in rugby camp. i wanted freedom. i'm caught all the time in school. i wanted a timeout.

anyway, i've made up my mind after yesterday's sermon. God's with me. i wanna EXCEL!!! and so, i'm gonna continue with rugby to the end, whether the team feels i should play or not, it doesn't matter. i'll do what i can.

2. running away and hiding myself in the cyberworld.
Jesus loves me, excepts me the way i am. why do i need to run away, why do i need to hide. guess i felt i've lost my friends. maybe like erm... lost touch with em? yea... i take comfort being online, being "close" to all of you....

3. melting the hurt in my heart.
over these few days, prolly kannan would understand how i feel. i'm lost, i dunnoe how erm... she feels. i juz get reminded of everything as i pass by familiar places... i cant help, but like what lay kuen said made me feel, love sick. ha.... something i've never realised. it has barely affected me but these few days....

the 4 other love notes, i shant touch on them, i'm running short on time here... ha..

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anyway, there was an alter call. i went to the alter, knelt down and i began weeping. den someone walked by, knelt down and hugged me. instantly, i felt warmth. it was soooo warm i can feel it physically, the love of the Lord, the love of a youth pastor. thank you. i'll nvr forget that loving heart. cos it tore me up. i began wailing... uncontrollably, the love was soooo.... intense. thank you.

i feel more confident now. i know that there are pple around me who loves me and cares for me. i'm so touched, i'm broken inside but i know of a healer who has healed me, restored me.

I KNOW WHO I AM NOW! I KNOW WHAT I WANT TO STRIVE FOR!

i'm soooo touched by the love. i din know it was jeremy seaward till i heard his voice. i thought it was someone else, cos i felt a fatherly love which would usually come from someone older. i was shocked. ha... imagine jeremy seaward, a dad of an 18 yr old kid. haha... from today onwards, i've kind of learn to treasure this love. and i thank him sooo much.

thanks for going down there and be with me...
i have felt the Father's love. i want my friends to know it too! i wanna cry, cry out loud, tears of joy, tears of triumph.

THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, March 18, 2006

18/03/06

ha... back from a play "army daze". was a hilarious and realistic show. enjoyed it lots haha...

kumar was great la!!! hahaha.... i cant believe he's a man. hahahaha...

alright... am sooo tired now but i still have an essay to complete for my diploma... man... i'm gonna fall asleep la... haiz... i cant wait till it's over...

man... now i'm feeling the pressure again...

i break under pressure...

i cant wait for everything to end!

alright... i guess i really need to rush my work... 1.18am... ar...

out of breathe but standing still,
wide awake on sleeping pills...

Thursday, March 16, 2006

16/03/06

alright... finally some time to blog...

have been real busy and tired and lazy and all.. ha... yesterday, i slept all the way till night when i reached home, den went down with lay kuen to study. she like nvr wear shorts lor! so short.. -.-

anyways, after ending our study at 12, had a lil chat and drinks. made me realised something. made me feel something so intense, i nvr really felt before. BLEAH!~

ok, today was great. i AWOL myself from evrything, the whole world. it felt good.

together with kannan and mo, we dropped by marina bay, kannan took some photos. (man i'm so into photog now) we walked and explored sg.

den mo left, me and kannan went to ECP so tt i can get NACHOS!!! i double cheesed it HAHAHA!!! den dropped by J8 at night to look at cameras.

day was great. am super tired from all the walking. we were a lil lost when we're heading for ECP den this uncle volunteerily helped us navigate our way after seeing us struggling with the maps haha... THANKS UNCLE~

ok. i had fun today. felt relaxed.. but still, i cant seem to release the pressure in me. ha... but no probs. i dun feel tt guilty cos i have studied. but quite slowly though. i have to work faster.

alright. am off. thanks peeps! made my day. thought i'd see some church frens today cos it's been 2 weeks since i last see all of u. and for some, it's proly been ages ya... hope i'll see u all soon...

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

14/03/06

blog, my o'pal... i feel lost right now...

i've got sooo many things to do in this short one week holiday... why is it a one week holiday??

i cant wait for everything to be over... i cant wait... i'd rather everything end now. but i dun want to escape. pull me through this God...

i feel like leaving, disappearing, shouting at the top of my lungs, release all the pressure.

i juz cant wait for tmr, i wan to be with my friends. i wanna study, study, study... isolate me, box me up. i need to be alone.

i'm running in circles. i juz wanna feel at ease. i dun wanna be caught up and be boxed up, "held captive" by anything.

haha... i'm lost. in circles.

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anyway, am watching top gun on HBO. ha... miss that show. this was the show that inspired me to be a pilot hen i grow up. but with the kind of eye sight i have, i dropped the idea soon after...

ha... i remember how i asked my dad to find out all means of curing my eyesight and how he'd comfort me by telling me that he'd send me for operation and stuff. hahaha...

i cant wait to see my future. ha... i cant wait. i cant wait to grow up. =)

HAHAHAHA!!!

quoting mr fung "ok, las thing. u were really good for the idol nite, only u cld hav carried off tat performance."

hahahaha... =P

i'm blogging sooo excessively today cos i'm soooooo bored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i've got my diploma exam which is like another project work la! haiz... i'm trying to write my script but halfway through, i decided to juz practice and memorize it... am juz too lazy, and dun wan to stick to memorizing what i wrote.. it will limit me.


sooo... i'm juz soooo sleepy, but i cant sleep!! i muz memorize!!!

ha... i miss some of my friends... especially those that i've not seen for sooooo long...

okok... shall memorize once more and go to bed...

Monday, March 13, 2006

13/03/06

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!
I AM WATCHING MY VIDEO ON THE SONG I SANG FOR MILLENNIA IDOL!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! IT IS PUTTING A BIG SMILE ON MY FACE!!!

hahahaha... i miss that night man... the anxiety and the excitement, the cheers and all the laughter. hahahaha... we did well *pat on shoulder* hahaha...

i have like watched the video 10 times and i'm still amused by it hahahaha....

enjoyed myself man... too bad it's all gone and in the past... aw.... miss EVERYTHING!!!

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i felt i was like in timor during my time there. they had similar building structures like those in baucau. the beach, the sea, reminds me of timor...

as we drove down roads after roads, i saw alters in almost all the chinese's houses.. kinda made me a lil sad. den we drove past a church. and then back to the houses with all the alters.

suddenly, i had a smile on my face. because now, I HAVE ONE MORE NATION I CAN PRAY FOR!!! i guess going anywhere for missions is totally cool with me. be it timor, bintan or any where else, God will make sure that i will enjoy myself doing His work. =D

i cant wait man... grow up, become a photographer, travel the world, take beautiful pics. kannan said some of the pics i took can be sent for competition. HOW COOL! haha... i hope he sends them and i'm looking forward to WINNING!! hahaha... i want to be a PHOTOGRAPHER!!!

"capturing every beautiful thing."

13/03/06

alrighty back!!!

ah.. i had a wonderful time in bintan man!! hahaha..sooo fun!!!!

ok! 2 things i loved about the retreat. the "MI IDOL!!!" and the tour round bintan. oOo... WONDERFUL!!! hahaha...

for "MI IDOL", each class was suppose to present something. we had something, but all us guys were MIA! hahaha.... so we din do a rehearsal.

during the night, nicholas was like "where is S3!? are u performing??? pagin for S3"

I DIN NOE WHAT TO DO DEN!!!

ah... i felt bad, cos it's like our fault for not turning up, we bought our "costumes" and stuff. moses was pushing me, at the same time supporting me saying "just do anything, i will support you, even if it's dumb." hahahahaha!!!

I HAD NO CHOICE!!

i went up to get a number. ....opening the lot i picked.... opening... opening.... NINTH! PHEW!!! got a lot of time to come up with something new and practice!

i was like slapping my head saying "CREATIVITY, HIT ME!!!"

"wheee heeeheeeheee heeeheeeheeeee heehee wheee he mumumoneh~"

HAHAHAHA!!! so i re-wrote the whole song of "the lion sleeps tonight" hahahaha!!!

I'VE GOT THE VIDEO!!!

guess what i was sooo shocked when we hit top 6!!! O.O

we had quite a few votes la. hahaha.. was sooo cool!!! that song's now stuck in everyones head la!! u'll hear it around my classmates, my friends hahahahaha!!!!

SOOOOOOOOO COOOOOOOOL!!!! (i know i'm like praising myself but it was SOOOOOO COOOOL!!!!)

thanks to moses who motivated me, thanks to mr chen who helped organise the background singing (cos i had a hard time teaching some of them to sing it in the right tone. the tone of it was quite difficult hahaha..)

thanks all for ur support!!! sam, azlin, shafinah. and encouragement by kira, kiat, viJAY! hahaha...

okok... enough said. am lazy to continue. HEH!

tmr free day!!! shall i go explore SG again!?!?!?!?

Thursday, March 09, 2006

09/03/06

ah... before i leave for bintan, hahaha... juz wanna type this entry about sam bisbee!!!

haha... most of u dunnoe who he is. but i am a fan of his songs!!! hahaha... i juz love the way his songs are sung. sooo erm.. i dunnoe. i think i find it comforting and erm... like very... i cant think of the word haha...

but i'll dedicate this whole week to play different ones of his songs. my favourites. haha...

anyway, i am sooo excited about bintan, but when i think about it, i realise the pple i am gonna miss though it may be like only 3 days. haha...

hope i have loads of fun there...

i cant wait for A'divs to be over. i cant wait for the time where i'll be sitting still by the corner in a fastfood restaurant studying.

GUESS WHAT!!! i am sooo excited!!! for the very first time, I COMPLETED A MATHS TEST WITHOUT BLANKS!!!!

what's more is that, I BET I AM GONNA GET FULL MARKS!!! WUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I AM SOOOOOOOOOOO EXCITED!!!

i juz cant contain that excitment! wooot!! hope i dun get disappointed hahahaha... later fail! -.- haha...

ahhhh!!!! as i was about to upload the song, thumbdrive is down!!! aww!!! no sam bisbee songs for this week... sobs... kk... am off!!! nites pple!!!

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

08/03/06

OMW!!! read this!!!! this is how i feel about the certain ones hahahahaha!!! i am a high 'I' juz for ur info haha...

How the "I" Can Enhance Interaction With Each Style


I with D

I's tend to view D's as argumentative, dictatorial, arrogant, domineering, nervous and hasty. As an "I", you are likely to resent the D telling you what to do. It will frustrate you when they don't notice your ideas. Since you are used to being able to talk your way into or out of confrontations; you will likely be surprised when you find out that your charm does not bring a favorable response from the High D.
(for this part, this was how i felt initially when i entered the SC. i totally hated it. it made SC the most boring CCA ever!!! hahahaha =P i juz couldn't put my point across and whenever a point is contributed, i felt like as if i din contribute it.. -.-)

Relationship Tip:

To make this relationship work, you must have direct communication. Deal with issues in a straightforward manner. Work at negotiating commitments and goals on an equal basis. Focus on tasks and issues, not people and personalities. Point out specific accomplishments.

I with I

I's enjoy relationships with other I's ... thoroughly. You will see each other as stimulating, charismatic, outgoing and optimistic; relating well to each other and developing relationships quickly. You will both tend to mix business and pleasure, and strive to impress one another; possibly even competing for recognition.
(hehehe!!! YOU! this is how i see YOU!!! hahahahahahahaha... juz like YOU la!!! hahahaha....)

Relationship Tip:

Maximizing relationships between I's is not difficult; it's controlling them that will require effort. Be friendly, complimentary; acknowledge each other's accomplishments. Listen sincerely instead of planning what you want to say next.


I with S

You will see High S's as passive, nonchalant, apathetic, possessive and non-demonstrative. But you'll also find them accepting, and willing to enter into relationships if you can slow down the pace; even though you'll tend to become frustrated when the S doesn't express their thoughts and feelings like you want them to. You can be a motivator and encourager to S's.
(hahaha.. this is how i felt about esther chong. hahaha... exactly described here. ha, no need to explain. it's EXACTLY in there.)

Relationship Tip:

Slow down; be more easygoing. Show them sincere appreciation and you'll find friendships with S are very rewarding; they'll stick with you. Above all, don't be pushy.


I with C

I's view C's as overly dependent, evasive, defensive, too focused on details, too cautious and worrisome. The natural interaction between you will strain the relationship and require work. You'll focus on people; they'll see the facts. You'll be optimistic; they'll seem pessimistic. You'll look at the big picture; they'll see only details. You'll want to make a decision; they'll frequently want to gather a little more data first.
(hahahahahaha!!! THIS!!!! my team mates should be reading THIS!!!! hahahaha... isn't this descrbing EXACTLY what happened! =P)

Relationship Tip:

Present your facts clearly, and don't exaggerate details and numbers. Prepare well for a discussion with a C. Expect them to express doubts and need time to evaluate data before making a decision. Remove any potential threats, making their decisions easier. Write notes often.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

07/03/06

alright!!! had sooo much time of games today. muz begin work already!!! HEH!!

anyway, i cant wait for my contact lenses to be done!!! hahahaha...

i bet there are some pple who actually thought that i am wearing a no degree glasses!!! and they're calling me poser!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! dumb pple!

ok, it doesn't really bother me hahaha.

i feel sooo uncomfortable with the specs especially after wearing it for so long cos the ears get painful!!!

tmr i got training... no choice, have to bring along old lenses.

okie! chiong maths!!! wuahahahaha!!! seeya!

Monday, March 06, 2006

06/03/06

ha... forgive me for the nonsense in my previous entry... ha... was juz suddenly down...

anyways, moulin rouge IS a beautiful show. i thought it was like some erm... haha.. like chicago type of show. beautiful musical. wanna watch it again!!!

oh, anyway, to you, though it's been long, 2 yrs or so, yea.. i guess it was only proper for us to break up. yea? not because u din like me, or i did not like u but like, if u think carefully, it might not have turned out too well. as in erm... ha.. ask me, i'll tell u.

soo yup! fast passing day i had!

i have not much work, yet i dun feel like moving my butt! haha.. and like i mentioned. i'll regret once i've made myself do chinese.. I DID!!! hahahaha...

but heck la... shall juz retake it. who knows! i might get a C6. hahahaha.. maybe better, a C5! hahahaha... shall work towards a better grade.

ok, lots of work to do. off!

Sunday, March 05, 2006

come what may...

come what may.....

oh how i remember that day...
the desperation, the pain...

i understood and new how christian felt as satine was left with no choice but to go to the duke. his desperation... he loved her soooo much...

everytime i think back of that day, i juz feel sooo hurt.. the pain, that desperation, as i knew i would lose you. it hurt me sooo much. so much u know...

i thought i had forgotton how it felt, but no... it pierces my heart soooo deeply... i longed for no other... but u left me...

come what may...
i love this phrase... come what may...

it's been almost 2 yrs since... yet, this feeling inside is still sooo killing...
i will nvr forget what u made me go through.
i will nvr forget the desperation, the pain...

back then, how i wished i would juz die of sickness, of missing u...
i was soo blinded, i din see the world... now my eyes are opened. opened to this wonderful world.

east timor, my friends in MI, pple i love...

i felt christian's pain, but i've yet to experienced the true love between him and satine... how wonderful and yet how sad...

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anyway, everything's in God's hand. i guess there's no point in worrying, no point in thinking, no point in missing, no point in wondering. what if i was meant to be single all my life? i dunnoe. it doesn't really bother me now.

i'm only 19... will i be getting married at 21? that's 2 yrs away. is 2 yrs too long? no. neither is 3 or 4 or 5 or like till the day i get married.

all i know is tt i dunch know. i dunnoe when, dunnoe who...

was spending my whole lrt ride thinking about it. realised many things.

i am weak. i'd probably need u more than u need me. (the 'u' here defines no one.)

i wanna do well for A's. i dunnoe how, but i'll work hard somehow.

my first step is to retake chinese. i know i'll regret it once i have no turning back, but i'll do it for myself.

i need you God...

Saturday, March 04, 2006

04/03/06

my heart ached,
just when i saw u walked by,
right before my eyes.
nvr felt this way before,
nvr felt this way in a long time.

i knew,
i missed u.

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ok, so now, i cant wait till diploma's over... i want to enjoy my days, studying for my A's. haha... hope i'll study though. i wanna work hard. REAL HARD!

i dunnoe how though... where to start? what to do?

ar!!! anyway, my day felt sooo rushy!!! i had school in the morning, after lessons, rushed my project work, after tt, rushed home. had 30mins of sleep den rushed to cck, no bus, rushed to yishun. HA!

service was GREAT! the sermon woke me up! realised that almost every sermon preached these days are like related to how i feel, but i juz cant see my dream coming to past. lack of faith? maybe.

BINTAN! wait for me!!!

Friday, March 03, 2006

3/03/06

ah.... i cant wait for my diploma lessons to be over and done with!!!!

tmr i still have to go back to school la... sianz... i have to finish up on the my presentation which is due once i come back from pre-u 3 retreat.. i regret, i should have partnered pre-u 2s... so tt while i am in bintan, i need not worry about it...

now, i have to rush everything tmr... haiz... i hate it. hope my group mates are of help....

anyway, today was a short and nice day except tt i have school tmr which totally spoils everything!

ALL I NEED IS YOU!!!!

man... i feel sooo stressed.. i feel like juz spending sometime with God...

ah... ok, kap-ed again hahaha... did not go down to fever 06 launch, though i am quite excited about where they're going this yr. i wanna go again to some country and bless them once more.

I DUN MIND GOING BACK TO TIMOR!!!

i will nvr forget tt place... feels sooo near.. i dunnoe why... it's a 4 hr plane ride but i felt tt it was juz an island off the coast of singapore.. haha... miss those pple there...

i realised something... friends really come and go real fast. haha.. i wonder, would i stay in contact with many of u once i've enter the army.. i'd prolly be very lonely... most of u are my sch friends... church friends.... they will be with me always but... i'd miss all u pple in school...

imagine me feeling soooo lonely now. wad about after army!!! i'd be soooo depressed cos i've lost all my friends. they would have met some much more fun guy than me or hahahahaha.... i am thinking tooo much!!1 heh!!!

ok, i'll juz miss most of u la... really... was thinking about it yesterday and today.. haha... like lay kuen.. dunnoe if i'll ever see her again after we collect results. got to know her better and find tt she's quite a great friend! haha... we went to ROCKY'S!!! hahaha YUM YUM!!!

i missed rocky's so we dropped by there for dinner. hahaha...

okok... am gonna go to bed.... but before tt, my time with God! =DDD

Thursday, March 02, 2006

02/03/06

so far, these are the qualities pple see in me. haha.. so wad u pple think?? me or not me? ha... neways, continue rating me heh!!!
CLICK HERE!!!



Arena

(known to self and others)

cheerful, friendly, idealistic, reflective, sentimental

Blind Spot

(known only to others)

accepting, calm, caring, energetic, extroverted, giving, happy, helpful, logical, proud, religious, shy, silly, spontaneous, trustworthy, witty

Façade

(known only to self)

Unknown

(known to nobody)

able, adaptable, bold, brave, clever, complex, confident, dependable, dignified, independent, ingenious, intelligent, introverted, kind, knowledgeable, loving, mature, modest, nervous, observant, organised, patient, powerful, quiet, relaxed, responsive, searching, self-assertive, self-conscious, sensible, sympathetic, tense, warm, wise


Dominant Traits

75% of people agree that Gabriel Low is friendly

All Percentages

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Wednesday, March 01, 2006

1/03/06

chinese results: D7

ha... cant wait for pw one... neways am a lil disappointed cos i wanted at least a C6 so tt i would not need to retake. anyway, a D7 is kind of like the basic requirement but it cant get me anywhere.... yet! hahaha..

alright, came home earlier today to get loads of work done. still in the midst of it though... taking a short break.. still got to do lots of other school work so tt i wont have to rush on long days like tmr and friday..

ha... so i decided to finish up my DISC report while taking my break and it describes me exactly how i feel i am i think hahahaha... if u want me to rate it, 9.9/10 hahaha... not bad. better than i expected.

here's an overview...

Advisor

An extremely outgoing and social person, Gabriel Low tends to make friends easily and likes to have fun with others. He wants to make commitments even if he may be unable to keep them; but that is because of his desire to please, not because of any intent to deceive. Gabriel Low tends to be very spontaneous, easily becoming bored with routine tasks.

A loyal friend, Gabriel Low is patient and caring when attending to the needs of others. He is usually an even-paced individual who thrives in a peaceful, harmonious environment. He tends to be quite predictable, sticking with proven, reliable methods of dealing with situations rather than taking chances with a new, unproven approach.

Because he cares about how others feel, Gabriel Low may feel uncomfortable making decisions that strongly affect others. He typically encourages others to be involved in the decision making process and prefers to work in a team role. Others tend to see Gabriel Low as agreeable and humble.

Not afraid to take a bold approach, Gabriel Low is willing to challenge the status quo. He is original and creative, and acts with confidence when implementing new solutions. Gabriel Low will tend to use a balance of intuition and facts when making decisions, and once he has made a decision, he will not be afraid to take action upon it.

ha... yeps... i think it is very accurate especially when i fit it into situations i have been through.. group works, E-club projects, relationships, yr 1 and 2 time... ah... miss those days...


yr 3 now! muz work hard, though i barely see myself doing just tt...

ok, i dun remember anything i wanted to blog, so let me save time and get back to work. =)