a sweet day turned sour...

ok... am really pissed man... juz now tt is.. now i'm feeling much better already la.. maybe cos juz now i was tired so very grumpy. today was supposed to be a great day la... school ending at 1.45, go home, bathe, sleep, study, finish work, go church. but! damn it la.

ok.. i dun blame myslef or anyone for forgetting tt today got the dialogue session! ha.... ok.. was from 2.15 - 3.15. and then i tot we could go home. but, DAMN IT LA. we juz have to have a "short" teachers' day meeting. argh!!!!

u guys will be sooo disgusted when i tell u how pissed i was la. if it wasn't for sake of friendship and respect, i'd turn everything against hazwan man... kept taking my mind off it. though i looked fine, i definitely was not inside. i really needed to go home la. no point stating reasons. no one will believe too. cos, it's like too late to say right? pple will say tt it's excuse.

really had plans to do my work and all, but when i think of having only 1hr at homw before going to church, it really pisses me off.. first is because, wad i really needed to do (urgently) at home already takes up 15 mins. den i felt comforted for choosing not to go to church. pissed with myself. sooo pissed to the extent tt i was pissed tt i could go home. cos i should already be home!

den it's like i was sooo grumpy i got irritated by the smallest thing of pple in front of me blocking my damn way. damn 77 took a hell long time to arrive. argh.. better stop cos i'm getting angry again. we have a long time till teachers' day la! even i am not rushing anyone to plan for the next dialogue session. we plan to do it after mid years. so give us a break la! "short" meeting.... thinking of it pisses me off.

at least for a point of time i felt better cos i was praying and all.. should not have written this entry cos it's making me mad again. i think it's juz cos i tot of today as a great day the day before. so when things dun go according to what i plan, i get irritated. man... i definitely needed extra sleep which i got already. i cant bring myself to go to church with an angry attitude.

soooo... the damn devil work in many ways. but i cant blame it all the time. i have myself to blame too for getting so worked up.

now i've got to do my work already la.... juz now really waste time... i din do anything la... after some suggestons at the start, i juz started getting restless and walking all over the LT reading stuff pple wrote on tables.

really spoilt my day man.. they would have done fine with or without me. the girls fault la. told them i dun wan to be part of the committee already den purposely had to fit me in as peacemaker!? so dumb right... had to be some peacemaker between the 2 hard headed ICs. haiz... i am juz a peacemaker i dun have any position so why am i involved!?

haiz... really have to get started already. bye

i've lost weight!?!?! oh no!!

haha... i have lost weight??? was chtting with gracie and lemey... duppose to change their blog URLs too haha.. lazy.. and i've forgotten them haha... hmmm... suppose to add maya too.. ok. sooo they said i have lost weight!? ah!!! haha.. i'm going to eat like crazy now! cos i wanna play this new position in my team haha.... gonna eat more MORE!!! grow fat den exercise!! ha!

anyway, i dun mind growing fat la... should try.... but i'm exercising constantly... i dun even get a chance to grow fat... haha... anyway, i'm eating a lot now.. my normal meals and in between, i'd eat extras too... haha...

hmmm... i cant wait for exams to start and get it over with but i'm still not too ready for it la.... still have not finish my organic chem... need to pia TYS... end of this week and next week, i'd most prob stay in school for night study and chiong. or at most up to 6 den go home. need to work hard man... i'm catching up on chem, except my homeworks ar not done la...

pray for me k!!! i wanna do exceptionally well... get an A level full cert at least.. =D ( i've changed my goals haha.. no more incomplete cert.) i can do better one la! hopefully an AO for maths. gonna take a miracle but i'll try.

cant wait to get my hands on the photos josh took.. he say "tml promise!" --- like a thousand times hahaha... nvm. going to do my work le bb!

Am glad to be back!!

haha... glad to be back in school man!!! i know God's with me in everything i do.. dreaded school at first but now, man... it is fun la!! haha....

sooo ya... juz enjoyed my day today though it was a rather long one haha... tml there's the david albritton service tt i've got to go! cant miss out on what he's gonna teach man... gonna need it haha...

hmmm... wont be blogging much from this day on. sooo ya.... dun have the time to blog everyday. doubt anyone drops by everyday ya?? haha... ya... till i'm free, i'd most probably blog when i've got something nice to write about. yea hahaha...

sooo.. see u guys tml la! cant wait for training on friday hehe... today's was quite fun.

school's starting!!!

haha.. wad ever crap i wrote yesteray, it's crap k! i was really sad la... but... i dunnoe la haha... i've set my life straight already. =D

man.. i love david albritton. and to those who did not go for a single one of his sermons, this tues and wed... muz get to catch him. he's soooo cool! i'm gonna learn from him!! =P God's really good man...

he's really putting every piece of my life together la... it started from camp where i recieved a prophesy upon my life. den things really took a turn. cnt really remember la. but everything had to do with missions and evangelism. first, there's the book of acts which i was prompted upon to read. den some other stuff, like the david albritto coming to Singapore, den for next term LIW, i kinda end up taking missions and evangelism cos it's the only lvl 3 class possible for me to take. the rest in the morning, cannot wake up. haha... man... really want my life to change.

man... service juz now, when a prophesy came again, the Lord spoke to my heart real deeply, this time, He really burnt me up.He was holding on to my hands! i could not put them down. haha... it's like being held up den the holy spirit juz filled me. wah... long time nvr feel le... so nice... but even bro john's prophesy during worship spoke to me la.

now i know tt God's really with me. cos i have experienced him immensely. all of u out there should too.. man... i'll nvr forget today.. i really burned up... my hand and body could feel like something like the movement of fire... not hot la haha.... my hands were like out of blood haha... ice cold, but i'm not cold la haha.. it was numb too but it doesn't look pale haha.... brian thought i was shivering cos i was cold haha... was still filled with the holy spirit. wah.... soo nice....

so ya... school's starting le. got good and bad la! but more good! live life on the positive side, used to be my motto haha.. dunnoe wad happened to me these days. tt motto died off... i should be happy everyday! haha... ya.. so school's gonna be fun!!! glad to be going back. see u pple tml!!!! hahaha... i'll be in front!

Man.. i'm juz so happy la!

haha..... first, it's abt that girl whom had juz recieve Christ, den now, these 3 guys from last week's evangelism recieved Christ!!! they were interested to come back after the last time round and i'm like sooo happy la! haha... man... i juz enjoy seeing pple come to Christ.

ya.... edge's getting better once again, geting filled up with pple once again. am super glad man... God's really working through us youth to bring our fellow friends to church. haha... maybe it's an IN thing now? haha... but it's really cool to make new friends and mix around.

hmmm... actually, nothing much bout today la... juz tt i went down to orchard with des and fab. haha... WE ATE NACHOS!!! yum yum. $2 only!! hee =D

went to edge, but... haiz.. dunnoe la.. ha... i guess, it's over for me man... now really muz start studying and forget abt other things la... i guess, i'm too impatient ya? hah.... really wanna spend some time with God, so ya... see u guys soon... especially kira, sam, mo, kannan, S2 dudes... saha, others, shanaz... yr 3 ruggers... miss u guys man...

hah.. am sad with my life now la.. am sad tt school's reopening but i'm happy to be with friends who noe and understands who i am haha... the silly me, who's always out there making no sense and being lame hahaha.... tt's me!!!

it's hard trying to fit in, dun wanna try anymore, dun feel like trying too...so i guess, i'll stick to you guys for now!! haha... see you guys on MONDAY!!

Glory to God!!!

woohoo!! i'm soooo excited!!! cos one who has been lost, has recieved salvation!!!! hallelujah!!!!!

ok... let me tell u abt her. she's someone whom i've nvr seen nor heard her voice, but we chatted through sms. during my send off to jog-jakarta, she msged me out of the blue. she was bored and so she juz smsed me by anyhow typing a number.

after tt, we chatted once in a blue moon. and nvr contacted after tt. suddenly on tuesday during prayer meeting, she msged me! she aske me abt tongues, i told her abt wad the bible stated. but she din reply... thought i freaked her out hahaha... but u noe wad!? today she msged me again while i was studying at esther foong's house. she said, she's a christian!!! Glory to GOD!!!! i'm soooo happy!!!

i'm praising God for his goodness and mercy!! how wonderful this is man....

so now i'm like wanting to talk to her and probably teach and help her.. soo happy sia...

anyway, spent the whole day at esther foong's house studying, watching movie, sleeping... haha... was fun la... morning breakfast was nice. had it at coffee bean. a set meal.. * yumyum!*

so... ya.. tt's about it lor... loved 13 going 30.. super nice and sweet show man... i loved it. really did... taught me how to really be a caring man. sweet and loving... i feel so sad for matt man... how guys get awefully hurt by girls... haha... sometimes us guys aint treasured. haiz.. but girls too. we must treasure these sweet, unique species God gave us men. so ya, guys out there, dun take ur girls for granted!

I'm here to blog, because I'm bored!

ha.. ok.. really am bored man... guess i'm gonna go study soon too... haha... it's gonna be super intensive 4 hrs but not straight la haha... breaks in between...

hmmm.. for the past 2 days, my hp batt has not been charged haha... cos i have no msgs!!! so boring... haha...

being home and alone really aint too bad... get to do the things u want, get to spend more time with urself and definitely with God, cos u're bored! haha...

and as i was reading the bible juz now, something juz came into my head... haha.. u noe, some religion, i believe we pray to the same God. the only thing is, through who.

catholics, mother mary, muslims, prophet mohamad (hope it's the correct spelling..) christians, jesus. but all in all, our God is the same. so isnt it tt all of us can go to heaven? the only thing is, as a christian, (btw, christianity aint a religion but a relationship with God through jesus. right?) we have jesus as our so-called lawyer. because He is the son of God. we noe tt Jesus died and rose from the dead to be with God right? so ya, Mary's up there too.. perhaps if prophet mohamad believed in God, he's there too. but because Jesus is the Son of God (in which everyone knows right?) he gets a say to what He wants to do with His people who believes in Him.

In other words, though God may judge us, Jesus is at His right hand saying, "this is my child and i have died for him on the cross and so my blood has clensed him of his sins." and so, we as christians enter heaven. as for the others... i dun think Mary would have a say in this even though she's in heaven... and ya... so... we all can actually go to heaven! isn't tt right!? juz tt, maybe catholics and muslims would have to be sinless in the eye of God. so if they ask God for forgiveness, i guess they too can go to heaven right?

cos i was reading abt king herod. though he judge christians and persecuted them, erm... i dunnoe la... haha. forgot wad i was thinking, but this thought came to me as i read the last part where:

when king herod was talking to the crowd, they said,

"this must be a word from God!"

but because king herod did not praise God,

an angel of God struck him down.

and his body was consumed by worms.

u see, herod persecuted christians but was spared by God. cos he's still allowed to praise God. if he praised God though.. he wouldn't have died... arrogant fool...

anyway, i'm not sure of wadever im writing here... juz wrote it down for fun cos i have no one to tell to since my mom is in thailand.. haha... so i might be wrong k.

din noe i was alone...

haha.. gonna be lonely these few days cos no one's gonna be at home.. ha.... din even realise tt my mom and sis is gone haha.. they are in thailand by now i guess... hmmm.... but i'm gonna be super lonely though.. haha...

man... i really need friends haha... or should i say, i need my friends. =D i miss everyone. feel real lonely, but i kinda need this time alone to get things straight with myself, with God and my studies... gonna study real hard later. like no one's business... i noe i am gonna be tempted but i'm gonna pray real hard too....

have to work hard man... time's running out... school's reopening, many things i dun understand.. man... i need these last days to push myself to study... haiz... i better work hard.... i'm scared...

anyway, i'll be going to bed now... so, nitez pple...

time wasted, day gone..

ha... ok... i really had my time wasted by not studying la... haiz... dunnoe wad happened to me already... but still gonna try y best la...

morning had SC meeting.. ok la.. not tt long.. so quite ok... had some fun too la. haha...

hmmm.... as usual.. nothing to blog about.... next time ba!

wad about today....

haiz.. morning passed real slow today, so it was nice, but when it came to my 2 hr afternoon nap, argh!! time flew like no one's business.... den play dota with fab and his frens, time fly even faster!!! ahhhh!! haha....

ok.. training today was fine and time flew real slow haha.. cool! was only 11am when we finished.. so i quickly go bathe and chiong home... dun want to waste time haha.. life is precious lol!

aiya... dun feel like blogging abt my day la.. such a normal day... den the entry would be so boring so i shall juz stop here haha...

from where i left off..

haha... am really bored and lonely at home la! but i'm happy i'm studying...

so from where i left off, ok, though col was wished me on the wrong day, she was the first though! =P haha... i still appreciate it k! so on the 27th may haha... yea... as usual, my friends would wish me.. haha.. TY! especially azlina!!! it's like unexpected la!!! min u too!! all the way from australia.. the number one one,

*drum roll........................*

UNCLE BOYLE!!!


haha... the most unexpected one haha.. his greeting came in some picture sms where he typed the year wrongly haha.. 2006.... haha.. so i replied and he sent me another, this time, at least i know he's not from the future haha...

ya.... was on the mrt when i recieved it...

haha... was suppose to lead worship tt week, and i did it super last minute. haha... at his house den i began to choose the songs lol!

den there's the first time i went out with hehe... (like wad brian would say) the gang to watch movie, so brian, des, col, es, and i went to watch madagascar. haha... silly short show that made me laugh quite a bit la.. haha.. oh ya, btw, FREE TICKETS!!! wooohooo!!!

haha... den there's the RJ vs MI, 6 vs 5 hahahaha!! i remember tt as the last day juz before i was leaving for malaysia... heh... got a medal!! LOL!! soo lame.. i actually skipped a dental appointment for tt medal haha...

den anders msged me, but when i replied, it's not anders!?!?!?!

haha.. on tt day, i was also talking about 'eye for a guy' with col la... haha.. was funny la... she i say i learn to become auntie sha shou from this kind of show. wad de!! haha...

ok... next few sms are from all the malaysian hp services.. haha.. welcoming me haha...
den not much messages and all la.. juz some about me trying to call my parents and all..

ok.. when i'm bored again den i'll update on the sms after camp..

sms' dated all the way back...

ok. i have 238 sms' in my hp and it dates all the way back to the day after i exposed my little secret haha... i'm juz bored now... have been studying for like the longest among the longest la.. haha.... ok, so let me take a step back into the past and kinda relive it lol!

ok, finally, i scrolled all the way to the bottom. it dates all the way back to the 21st century on the 18th of may 2005 haha....

it's abt wad happened the night before la... =P so juz chatting, talking about PJ's investiture and all..oh ya! about that rainy day too.. haha.. we're going to school and all, DEN out of no where, a reminder to hand up our PIs haha..

bet this is gonna be a long entry... 230 msgs more to go heh...

i guess it is PJ vs MI tt day... pple wishing me luck, wanting to noe the score. den.... BAM! we lose... haha.. so i'm super disappointed, blah blah...den there's this thingy regarding mrs ong's prezie for our institute day.... hehe.. den labs looking for her bf... ha! i shall not write down wad was written in the msg.

den there's ec asking if i had saved her hp no. haha.. kinda deleted or something, i think is i did not save her new no. la...

den 20th may! my mama's bdae, heh.. msged her to like ask abt presents and all... haha.. bouquet of flowers eh.. haha... OH! it's JJ vs MI not PJ haha... cos SA was there den i was looking for corrine. and tt was last day of match, i din go for net... bought flowers for my mom..
den i wanted to call her to tell her something! ya i remember!! haha... tt guy from our church who was lost at the MRT station hahaha!!!

it was jeremy seawards birthday on sat. den... hahaha... colleen msged me on the 22nd night to wish me happy birthday.. hehe... wrong day. den there's this thing abt clarence wanting to buy my hp.

den tt sunday, angel's checking if i am going for class, den there's beautiful mind on chan 5. =D i did not go for badminton the next day. had to tell et. aiya... feel so wierd to write it down. heh.. but it's soo nice reading it man.. abt tt time when i send tt "read it backwards" msg.. haha... (remember??)

wah!! SUPER LONG AR...still have 170 msgs to go.. anyway, guess shall stop here... this part of the msg is during my bdae! haha... i really had fun reading through my msgs.. back to work!

i dun wish to do anything...

haiz... i juz want to stay home all day and juz try to study. keep the whole world out of my head and study (except for rugby trainings la.. haha..) i only wan to study and play rugby. and i want to do well, glorify God, and be an evangelist (still praying bout it...)

so ya... first of all hafta say sorry to saha bout the bbq thingy... i guess today's the wrong time to ask me... i feel real stupid today la... dun feel like doing anything or going out.. juz wanna sta yat home study, slack.

i also feel like going for prayer meetings after last tuesday's one in which i really enjoyed myself. wanna juz spend more time wit God before school reopens.. wanna pray for a new begining of a new term..

hmmm... dunnoe wad's with me but my body's givin off a lot of heat man... i'm like burning la... so uncomfortable... the wind from the fan feels like warm air to me... haiz... is this the begining of global warming???

anyway, i am juz happy to get to know desmond la.... he's like a really cool fren.

den there's me and this stupid problem with trust la... most of u noe tt i really trust pple, but get betrayed all the time. now is like i am having this trust problem. (oh ya, nothing to do with desmond or anyone else) i juz feel like i need to learn to trust pple more... i feel so betrayed like all the time la. muz be the work of the devil man. gonna pray against it. and guess i've juz experience it too often la... i am scared la...

talking about scared, ya man... i feel scared... i dunnoe... dun feel like talking abt it too... i juz wan to talk and talk and talk la.. forget everything haha... like juz now play drums... major relieve man.. haha.. especially when i played with joash... it was soo fun la... tot we lost but in the end, we managed to play all three parts of the drum game la... (the big japanese drum at the arcade)

haiya.. dunnoe wad to say... i juz need someone to talk to la... juz talk talk talk... but i kinda did enjoy my day... juz need some rest now...

haha.. my blog entry might not make sense la.. juz blog to make me feel better.. haha...

tired & grumpy...

man.. i am really, really tired after 1 whole day of evangelising... man... it was cool la, even those scary adults turned out to be quite cool haha.. after doing God's work for a whole day, i am happy tt i managed to get 1 saved. i noe it'll improve over time =D

monday, abt 7 saved, tues, abt 20, wed, abt 40, thurs, abt 70! TODAY, 140!!!!! woot~ God's doing his work in Singapore!!

service as usual was extremely suberb and i forgot to call kai and kelv!!! argh!!! slipped my mind.. sianz.... but it was super cool la...

anyway, after service went out to eat la... now im feeling nice so i wont complan abt my sis. but i really wanted to go home alone la, juz so irritating... especially juz now, when i really needed a time out on my own. i juz pretend she wasn't with me..

sooo.... i'm having some things going on in my head la... juz conflicts which i decided to stop thinking abt when i reached home. guess i'm juz super tired and i feel like talkng to someone.... juz dun wan my sis to disturb me la.... wanna have some time myself... haiz...

ok, i am super sleepy so i'm going to bed... nitez....

juz abt my day...

ha.. i think i spend a lot of time on the comp man.. so hard to study.. muz get rid of my laptop haha... but i cant bear to... haiz... HOW!! try lor haha..

watched the news saw the one about this security guard taking revenge on some international school by planning to kill all the kids or something, din really catch it. but anyway, thank God the kids are save but when i saw those pple getting bashed, man my heart ached... i noe they did something gravely wrong but they were battered soo badly by the public... police din stop the public too... i mean, i dunnoe la... i bet they regret what they did.. hopefully they'd change...

ok, so i juz spend most of my day slacking, some time on my book but not much la.. i think one place without much distraction would be the KFC near my house. there's almost no one there.. guess tt would be like the best place i can think of besides my grandma's place..

i juz need to study. anyway, heading back to the book.. plan to finish another chapter before heading to bed...

Lead by Christ

i am really thankful and happy to have accepted Jesus in my life. things have really changed a lot. this whole week have really been very prophetic, it's like the timing's juz right... i dunnoe how to explain. but every service i attend has something tt speaks to me, unlike the usual where i'd juz listen and learn more. this time, it speaks.

through out this one week, i was lead to read the book of Acts during my devotions. and the book of Acts tied in with everything i've been learning and doing. it muz be the holy spirit tt lead me to the book of Acts at the start of this week. David Albritton is juz like Peter, somehow, they have similarities on how they strongly go against the enemy. powerful pple filled with the holy spirit.

yesterday morning, David was speaking on how God provided everything for him haha... soo cool. he wanted what i want!!! a house by the beach, a dock at the back of his house where he can fish and guess wad, HE GOT IT! God asked him what he wanted and David told God about all these and he got them! our God is a God that gives and bless! if u submit ur life to Him, what is there to worry? He'll bless you imensely!

i too want the same thing... i'm juz waiting for God to ask me "what do u want?"

I HATE WASABE!!!

argh!!! today had to relive my nightmare haha.. eating WASABE!!! haha.. i did not hate it till today cos it hurt my tummy sooo badly... but i dunnoe la, maybe is ET pray or the lemon tea, but i was feeling a lot better by the time we reached bukit batok. before tt, i was suffering with on and off pains which are like super uncomfortable, feel like vomiting but cannot haha...

anyway, it was my fault to participate in it haha... thought i had enough practice... guess not hahahaha!! man... i practiced like crazy in malaysia lor... but it was in bits, this time, one whole spoon! not really whole la haha... i juz swallowed everything! hahahaha!!! nearly choked. haha..

ok.... gotta tell u about today's service!!! it was super radical la!! the band was on fire man!!! super rock! hahaha.. 2 electric guits instead of the semi aquostic. woohoo!! God's anointing was on the whole place man!! bet the visitors were shocked! rock music in church!? hahaha.. pple always thought we go for hyms.. no man.. haha... tt's more to catholic side. not saying they not cool la. haha.. they have a pope, we dont.... haha...

sooo ya... had loads of fun man... did my best to invite everyone on msn la! but haiz hahaha.. nvm, even though like quite demoralizing, i'll still try to invite as many pple as possible!! woohoo!

okok... am really tired already.. one whole day of winning souls, though i din do much... tml muz work hard already! i wanna win souls too!!!! a bit lazy today la haha.. sleepy and all... kk... so goodnite pple!

yipee! cleared 1 topic...

only... haha.... at least better than nothing la hahaha! i think i onl used an hour pf the whole day to study hahaha.. maybe even less... lol.... but i'm gonna work on it and study harder!

man.. i juz feel good la... maybe not tt good la.. haha.. so-so... have that wierd feeling the whole day.. haha.. my heart and mind are not at ease.. haha...

but anyway, today went by juz noce but a lil too fast towards the end of the day... maybe cos i woke up late.. gonna wake up at 6 tml. chiong maple, devotions and get ready to go out already... got lotsa stuff on tml...

sooo.. ya.... gonna leave the comp on, but i'm gonna have my devotions now before going to bed... so... take care pple!

haiz.. study, study...

ok.. today would be the day in which i've studied the most... still pushing on... i'm definitely not ready for school to reopen yet... have not finish studying...

anyway, i juz realised something real crappy.... time flies fast while i'm studying!! man.. i dun like it... i want the day to go by ssssloooooowwwwlyyyyy.. haha...

hmmm.. juz having this wierd feeling as usual... feel tt i'm at the wrong place at this point of time... i din go for the thing again la... i woke up at 10+.... tonight i'm gonna sleep at 9 and nothing wll stop me!!! haha... i muz make it tml... but i have training after tt... gonna go invite all the ruggers! den we'll have like one whole roll of red jerseys haha.. cool huh..

so far, i guess fareez is interested... tt's cool. hope we'll get to bond haha... i need to mix around with the team seriously, cos if not it'll be like chinese one group, malay another... haiz.. muz work as a team if we want to enjoy. bet sadiq's doing his best too to bring the team together...

ok.. i still feel super wierd and lonely la... but i'm gonna go back to studying... bb!

it's been a while..

haha.. it's been a while since i last played rugby.. and today's training started off with a bang for me hehe... i cleared 2 tries with my trademark wuahahahahahaha!!!

however, very lil pple dropped by for training today man.. sad... and training for me was definitely tough.... especially all the runs.... man... 10 mins non-stop passing + running up and down.. man... killer...

after showering, i got a box of tako balls which has been a while since i got one... *yum yum*

den went for prayer meeting which has definitely been a super long time since i've been to one la. i am thankful i went for prayer meeting man.. i juz had to release the pressure about studying... also, i got to know demond better which was like super cool la... enjoyed talking to him...

best part, time flew super slow. i din want to go home la... but... no choice... i am still living in those days of church camp haha... stay up till like 1, 2 am... haha...

anyway, i enjoyed my day la.. dun wan it to pass... sianz.. k... gonna go do some other stuff...

lazy me!

ah.. haha... woke up at 9.30am cos my sis was calling me up to go to church... haha.. man.. i was like "go get changed.." den i went back to sleep hahahaha.... so dumb of me...

haiz.. now i'm feeling real guilty man... maybe i'll go for prayer meeting to compensate.. haha.. have not been to one for a really long time.. shall juz drop by and see how it's like...

hmmm.... later i'm gonna have training... it's been a while man.. i noe my stamina has dropped quite a bit... but i'll still try my best. =D

i really miss camp... dun wanna be back.. haha... or is it my blog song which is making me feel this way? i dunnoe... i juz wanna be by the beach again.... heh.... aww... i had to ruin tt day... man! hahahaha...

sooo... i guess i'm gonna get started on my studies... or else, i might as well quit school.. zzzz.... maybe i shall one day be a hawker selling goreng pisang... and i'd grow fat eating all the left overs... ha... what a life.. most probably die of heart attack hahahaha....

k la... stop here....

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dunnoe how express wad i feel inside... maybe it's juz one word, guilt...

i heard my mom and dad talking, and most probably, about me. i noe i'm not studying and yet, i dun wan to do anything about it... anyway, i had juz drawn up some plans and all... gonna stick to it... make my mom worry less... i noe she loves me a lot...

so... i juz came back from watching mr & mrs smith, which was quite nice EXCEPT, the part where the fought like an army of like erm... swat. haha... the like killed everyone without getting hit. how hard is it to aim i wonder...

anyways, i'm feeling sleepy almost like the whole day and i'm like giving off heat haha... my body's like burning up.. as if i'm gonna have fever...

hmmm.... really dunnoe wad to write la.. haha.., i'm in my dreamy state juz thinking about lots of things.... how lame and cold i can be haha... i juz have too many things in mind now, wanna take a lil drink and go to bed.... hopefully, i get to wake up early tml and maple... if not, i'll juz do my devotions...

somehow, i'd rather study the bible than my textbooks.. haha... but i know i am gonna get through this year somehow... pple out there, pray for me k.....

nitez pple.... have a good rest...

back... with a speech!

since kira say i nvr say anything, ok i shall haha....

HELLO!!!!!

wuahahahahahahaha!!! k la... i do miss the whole team la... the last tournament was a memorable one hahaha.. was the last time i got to spend time as a "team" hahaha...

btw guys, i dun think we'll be playing in lion red's carnival already cos..... MOST OF U DIN GIMME UR EMAIL AND IC!!!!! argh!!! see la! haiz... nvm.. haha.. still got next year... but i wun get to get their cool t-shirt!!! i'll try sending in the form on tuesday again, so DO go down for training tml!

okok... last night i kinda had lots of fun haha... i love sundays now! haha.. it's like the most fun day ha.... first was tt wonderful preacher... i love him man!! he's now my idol. now i wanna go for all church meetings possible so tt i'll keep the light of christ burning in me.

"I am an EVANGELIST!!"

haha... for those who remembered.. haha...

but anyway, david albritton is a super powerful man of God. people who go against him juz gets convicted at turns to jesus! isn't it wonderful!!! i was touched especially by the one about the muslim country.. i was super touched!! cos i guess it's been my passion since sec school to really love my muslim friends... and i wanna be a missionary most probably to indo... hehe.. tt's why i'm learning malay now...

man... as he got up to the truck and preach, he was stoned by everyone... and when he recovered, he got back on his feet and preach! fighting through persecution, his 5 week battle was victorious! AMEN! guess wad! 1.1 million muslims got saved!!!! man!!! i'd run up to everyone of them and give em a hug!!!! man... tears was about to fill my eyes when i heard it... i was sooo touched.... God is sooo Good!

man.... i want to be used by God juz like him... getting pple out of drugs, fighting for christ... he's ultimate man...

anyway, after service, i went down to lot 1 with some of the youths for dinner.. haha... after eating, we were suppose to make prank calls la, but in the end, we juz sat there and chat about the youth group's past haha.. all the conflicts, funny bgr stuff hahaha..... sooo funny man... i was reminded of soo many funny things tt happened in the past.. ESPECIALLY the boat A and boat B thing hahahahahahaha!!!! totally forgot about it man.... hahaha...

we really had lots of fun.. even joel was thankful he din take cab back haha... cool...

ya... anyway, woke up really late today, haha... slept about 3 last night trying to get things done after playing a bit of kingdom hearts haha.. so cool... i think i'm gonna love tt game.. but now's not the time to play it la...

sooo.. anyway, i'm gonna go out soon.. gonna get some rest... bb!

Time to blog!!

okok.. haha.. i've juz finished watching naruto the movie.. man.. it rocks!!! hahahaha... i only got it for RM14!! haha...cheap ya! i miss naruto a lot! gonna learn how to use bit torrent and start downloading all the series!! haha....

after the show, i dropped by friendster.. haha... and there's like a testimonial tt made me feel sooo.... undescribable. hahahaha.... =D i dunnoe who is he la... but somehow he noes me... cool!

juz wanna say hi to jesmen! hahaha... tell me wad they say!! i very kpo!!! i want to noe!! hahaha... (skally all the bad things...)

but anyway, i juz wanna talk about the first few days la.. haha.. i like auntie ann's extended family... man, they are sooooooo cool!!!! haha.... extremely friendly and all... and i'm being fed with good food for the first 5 days. wah!! it's really unlimited supply of good food!! haha... i nvr felt hungry at all the first 5 days. haha.. there's juz sooo much food, i wont even get the chance to feel hungry haha....

and for not being able to eat much, i kenna say by dot dot dot tt i have girl's appeitite!! rar!!!! hahahaha.... during camp i eat a lot k!!! hahahahaha!!! u should've seen me eat lunch during camp! haha....

sooo... i got to meet benny and cyndi again. haha... like them a lot! they are like the nicest and cutest pple on earth man!!! especially cyndi. haha.. she and her daughter make them the cutest pair man... den benny kor kor is like a bear haha... very nice and friendly one...

haha.. i remember the night i learned to eat wasabe!! hahaha.. it was one of the coolest nite man... i will NVR forget it!! i loved it a lot!! i got to eat all kinds of japanese cuisines, den i tried eating wasabe cos i saw colleen eating it in like big lumps haha... so i tried... man... i nearly DIED!!! hahaha... i pratcied with small lumps which at first ran up my nose almost all the time. after tt, i learn to eat it in bigger lumps and was taught the technique of swallowing it. haha...

i know there was once where i managed to take a really BIG lump and felt nothing hahah.... den for the sake of entertainment, i decided to spread it over my tongue and let it be recorded down on colleen's cam. haha.. i tot i was able to swallow it without any pain, but somehow, i was wrong!! haha.... it was super pain!!! tears were like filling my eyes man... argh!!!! hot!!! hahahaha....

i still remember once when we were studying at leisure cove, den i decided to ask colleen go down play pool haha... tot she was joking when she said she din noe how to but.... it was true!! haha.. but at least we had loads of fun!! my sis, colleen, uncle david and i played one of the most exciting table soccer of all time!! haha.. it was sooo fun! at least everyone had fun la.. haha...

argh!!! my HP not with me!! haha.. i juz remembered something i recorded and would really love to hear it.. aww... too bad la.. nvm...

sooo ya... i think tt's like about it.. dunnoe if can get pics.... i'll try to steal them from somewhere la. hahaha....

back from paradise!

man.. it's really paradise!! but anyways, I'M BACK!!!! hahaha... shall not blog things now cos i'm still tired... soo.... come back later ya? hahahaha....

had loads of fun ar.. seriously everyone should have went for it man.. ok.. i know everyone's tired and sleepy but i've got my naruto movie to watch!!! heh!!

kk cya!

My last entry for this week..

ok... it's about time for me to leave already.. doing some last minute packing and stuff... hmmm... i feel a bit wierd but.. ha.. dunnoe la.. i juz wanna enjoy myself..

now, i'm watching the hockey game between malaysia and new zealand. haha.. they are on par!! oh my word. haha....

i finally got my hair cut juz now ah... now i look a bit better.. no more messy hair.. lol.. haha... tot i was leaving at 6... rushed to do everything...

lalalalala.... i dunnoe wad to say but.. see the rest of u in malaysia!!!

M1 touch tournament!!

ok. so i woke up and saw brian out of his mattress already... thought everyone has awaken and pang seh me!! haha... so i juz got up went to the toilet... saw colleen's room door still closed... den i figured, it was only 8 am. haha.. they say want to go breakfast at 9 hahaha....

so i went back to sleep after coming back from the toilet... oh ya.. before i walked off to the toilet, i saw brian walked back.

hmmm.. i think it was 5am when uncle boyle woke up and walked around haha... he and auntie anne went out real early.. hmmm... like quite a nice life ar... if i like have a wife den go out really early in the morning, maybe go for breakfast at some not too expensive dim sum restaurant eat.. haha... but tt will have to wait till i'm like 50++ haha... only around tt age do u get to spend lots of time with ur spouse...

ok.. so woke up again at about 9 and got changed and all... den i had a long discussion with my mind and finally i decided, not to go for breakfast.... need to rush off ar.. crap.... wish i could've spend more time with em...

nvm.. so i got home, bathed, change, took a short 20mins nap and left the house.. was soo sleepy while i was aboard the train man... met grace and zhi da on the way to school haha...

hmmm.. reached school, i saw shafina and sam. haha.. guess wad! they say i got muscular legs leh!!! wuahahahaha!!! maybe cos i wear rugby shorts den super short den can see thighs? wuahahahaha!! muscular legs.. hehe... saw the rest of my pw team so got things done, den i had the next problem. M1 touch tournament.. sianz... have to rush...

took a cab down and realized tt i could've taken the mrt.. argh!!! waste me money!! haha... but nvm la.. so waited for like 30 mins till akira reached. ha... i was thinking, we can withdraw already. but soon i saw zaki, and 2 yr ones, fareez and sufian. ha... still need one more player.

heck i juz went to take the sign up form and signed all of us up. realize, that there are only 4 schools playing and there's only 1 knockout round. haha... we like dunnoe wad to do cos only four man. so zaki was like, "call sam see how la.." den they ask me go ask if we are able to withdraw or something. so i juz went to check.

den i suddenly asked, "can we play 5v6? would we be forfeited?"
den they said ''no.'' so i was like cool!!
den i asked ''what awards are given?''
they said ''only cup''
i was like, ''aiya.. RJ sure win cup la... only one cup... haiz...''

but in the end we decided to play them 5 vs 6! they also told us monfort pulled out!! wuahaha.. secondary school boys scared liaoz haha....

anyway, our game started 15 mins later. so we made last minute moves and soon, we were on the field. haha.. no stress no nothing.. thought they would be gentlemen enough to play us 5v5.. haha.. but nvm la... they were still nice players after all.. haha...

so the game begin.. first 5 mins, 1 try from RJ, next 5 mins, half of RJ team substituted. WAD DE!!! we're dying of breathlessness here!! hello!!!

so it's like a 5 vs 8 game!! haha.... second 5 mins, they scored 2. one was cos i was too tired.. haha.. my fault!! sorry!!! but! we nearly scored too!! one was when i was at the wing.. haha.. akira sucked the wing in for me already but nvr pass haha.. nvm la.. den got one is at the other wing where akira and zaki played together i think.. but too slow, den i did my trademark finisher haha... i managed to run pass them la.. but still, too slow also.. den fareez.. haha.. major side stepper!! 2 guys missed him!!!! LOLS!!!

bet if we had 6 players, it'll be a draw haha....

sooo.. it was like over for us already la.. can go home cos no award.. haha.. final game was suppose to be temasek JC... but blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah..................................

PRIZE PRESENTAION!!!
announcer: Finishing second on top of the board...... MILLENIA INSTITUTE!!!
we were like, so wad we do?? den isaw the guy at the prize presentation table holding medal, den i was like '' GO TAKE MEDAL!!!" hahahaha... we were soo excited man.. we din noe tt there's medals for us!! hahahahahaha!!! i tot 1 cup.

ya la. one cup but many medals! wuahahahaha!!!

ya.. soo like tt's about yesterday lor.... suppose to go for dental but coul not make it.. went home, sleep. haha...

I like to move it, move it!

haha.. for those who have already watch madagascar, would know what my nick is all about haha...

ok tt show is a really nice and funny show but it's real short, 1hr 15mins... so it is up to u guys if u wanna go watch it. ha.. i loved the beach part hahaha.. was the funniest man... okok.. shall not spoil the fun for some of u..

sooo after the show, we walked around and shopped a lil.. i got a new shirt for myself haha.. at the same time, esther foong dared desmond to put on this really ah pek shirt!! hahahaha... den col lent him her specs and they video it.. haha..

after tt, headed down to movies section to rent movies hmmm... i feel like renting all the naruto discs thee and then go burn them!! haha... or maybe, i'll juz borrow the whole of kelvin's set and burn la.. gotta go download torrent so i can get the latest episodes of naruto..

we decided to head to col's house to watch forgotten... one movie which we rented..... let's skip the part about me "losing" my wallet haha...

okok.. forgotten's a real cool show.. quite erm.. thrilling.. cos it's a thriller... haha... a must watch!! man.. it's not tt scary but the actions are so sudden, we all freaked out man... haha...maybe except brian..

ok after tt show, we play a new version of heart attack. haha... at first i was losing cos i dunnoe wad is it all about but second round onwards, wuahahahaha!!! i was winning... man it was soo fun... haha... we decided to come up with a forfeit for it hahaha... it was to like erm.. wear a plastic bag on ur head, a goggle, and a straw in ur mouth and muz act as if u are ready for a swim haha...

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i kinda lost my blog entry soo... erm... i'll juz continue briefly from here.. sorry for a boring entry.. haha...

ok... after everything, felt like staying over cos i had a hell lot of fun there... haha... so was checking wih the rest if they wanna stay over... so es called her dad.. haha.. (there was suppose to be her conversation in my blog but it was lost) it was quite funny la.. u noe, her dad.. haha.. cute guy haha...

so... ya.. she managed to convince her dad ya... so we stayed over, went home, grabbed some stuff den came back...

so after reaching back at col's house, i showered den watch CSI and animal planet. den after a while... we juz sat there and chat for like an hour half. haha.. we were like chatting about the past... YAs, YCs all... the likes and dislikes.., all the problems known and unknown... haha... soo.. ya.. enjoyed myself la..

ZzZzZzZzZzZz... went to sleep after tt...

to be continued...

stay tuned...

haha.. i'm soo tired and i have like 2 entries to type.. so u guys stay tuned ok! cos i'm gonna go to sleep now, hopefully wake up at like 1 or 2 am den type after tt, MAPLE!! wuahaha sooo juz a preview or rather, a reminder fo me haha..

thing's i'd be blogging:
30thjune...
madagascar,movie,forgotten,unoheartattack,forfeit,stayover,
nitechat!

31stjune...
wakeup,morningrush,rushfornouse,notraining,tournament,cab,
handicap,RJvsMI,howwewin,asecret,gotmedals,lol,LJS,home,sleep!

and tt's like about wad i'm gonna talk about.. woohoo!! our 5 man team rock! nite nite!!