wad should i do??

man... wad should i do... first it's lilo den now is quik... i really dun wan to choose... i juz want to go with the flow.. i kinda really let quik down.. but wad can i do? i am really confused.. first, lilo's someone i feel like noeing... quik is someone i've known for so damn long. but was it my fault that we break? or was it hers? maybe both ours? haiz... since had we broken up, life have been quite nice and peaceful... and i really wish i could start all over. reset everything. even reset the way i feel for both of em... i really dun wish to be caught up with such stuff.. but it is hard not thinking about it...

so anyway, i enjoyed today, though the day is hot and it passed real slowly... cant wait to come home, cos wanna rest and play sp with kelvin. i am looking forward to tml.. really hope can go enjoy myself. haha... play pool and stuff.. really wished that lilo was my friend.. she'd be a good listener i guess.. someone i really need now... a good listener... someone whom i feel like talking to...

i thik i should stop here. oh ya... akira asked for grace's no. she's so cute and sweet haha... lucky him, she gave him her no. haha... i'm still caught up with stuff.. so i go play sp le.. cya!

Juz Sunday...

ok.. today's like all normal days.. haha.. nothing much... after morning service, i came back and gamed.. thinking of studying but like very lazy leh.. haha... slept quite a lot today.. kinda cant wait for tml.. juz enjoy school....

hmmm.. many things for me has been solved today... kinda let some body down.. i really dunnoe wad to do.. i juz need some time.. so u guys take care ok?

see sam praise me.. haha

"HEY GABE!!! i'm not lazy la..jus tt ytd i was very tired..nid ta slp u know..not like u..stitch dosen haf to slp!!! so yup..ytd was an excitin day..was luffin thru out nite study..din study at all..onli akira did i tink..dunno how he manage oso..cos gab was tryin to stuff m&m into his nose n test out his nose power..crappy arse!!! it din work..cos it neva ever wen into his nose..was makin alot of noise ytd..gab was 1 nice pal..made mi luff so much ytd..i'll neva forget wad happen man.. "

so i dunnoe wad to write le..

Free at Last?

"am i finally free?

free from everything?

i knew i had to let one of them down,

i do not have the choice...

i have not made mine,

but the choice was made for me.

the past backed down,

and let me be...

how would i know that the past won't repeat?

how can i noe that the future will be mine?

if the past dun repeat,

thing's should go fine.

if the future permits,

it will be mine..

but eventually one will be,

unhappy...."

.:The night of 28th August:.

hmmm... first, i met up with esther like i said in my previous entry.. wanted to go find the rest but they've gone home.. at the MRT, saw auntie susan *gosh*. wad will she say to my mum, she saw me with esther.. but heck la.. i juz realise that i kinda care about esther.. but i've made things complicated.. so anyway, i dun wanna think too much abt those stuff..

next, we went to the edge. edge was cool.. however, there is too little pple.

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ok.. took the shuttle bus back, eat LJS den went up to play pool. after that, i went to the arcade to finish up my credits.. darn, i kinda suck at wartran now. died so early. better train.

so came back and played with john, joel sp. haha.. quite fun. den now typing this, going to sleep soon..

wad's wrong with me...

haiz... dunnoe wad's wrong with me... i think i am going crazy hahahaha... had school in the morning. chem lecture. after that had to come home cos i am suppose to go out with esther. wanted to go out with sam they all though.. but nvm la.

den on the way back home, i juz cant stop thinking of lilo.... i am crazy ya?? haiz... i dunnoe y... i feel so uncomfortable, and i wish i was still back in the lecture room.. it's kinda nice being near lilo.. i noe i am going crazy... darn... wished i hadn't started the lilo thing with ibrahim and south-e(eh... dunnoe how to spell. but he taught me to pronounce his name this way) hahaha... haiz....

ok i should go get ready.. maybe i'll update again tonight... see ya pple...

BaCk tO mY ToTs...

ok. b4 i begin, i would like to talk about my day.. so erm.. today's one of those, half fun, half not fun kind of days. haha... dunnoe how to tell u guys. but i had fun during P.E. doing the dance. though i dunnoe much, i had fun. =)

by mid day, i was bored and sleeping... after school still have detention.. i had to wait 2 hrs b4 detention started.. so this should answer my half fun, half not fun day...

anyway, after school, had a lot of things in mind... was with akira, hoping he'd get grace's no. but... failed la.. ok back to my tots... so here goes...

"somehow, i feel that i might not be able to grasp hold of the future..

and the past is slowly comin back to me...

however, i dun wanna get involved in the past.

but i dun see the future.

i feel i should juz give up on the future,(though i feel i cant)

and neither should i turn back to my past.

i juz want to be me.

not a me that's always in deep tots.

but one who is often chatty and cheering pple up.

i think i'll juz be me...."

once again guys, this may not make sense. hah.... but it does alot to me... i dunnoe noe if i'll have a future with the future... haiz... wanna juz give up. though it is tough givin em up. but let's see how things go...

so ya.. back to the going home part. i went a big round with akira back to school on 173. den i decided to change bus and go home faster or i'll be late for the missions thingy... one thing i can say about today's meeting was that it would have easily scared off visitors; it scared me... first, with those noisy singing and worship (too powerful voice). personally, i dun think we should have worship. juz go into a short prayer and begin. games was ok but quite disorganised. nothing much to say.

i think i've said enuff. i think i'll go read all ur blogs. bye.

nice day....

hehe.. today's such a nice day hahaha... first was chem lecture.. den had chinese oral, finally, we had chemistry remedial after tt.. wad connections are there, u guys guess.. hehe...

wah.. after sch, rugby was a 'bit' tiring.. had physical b4 playing touch.. hated the star jumps.. made my thighs 'soft'. den after that, touch game, no strength... zzzzz....

at night, we din really study.. we had quite a lot of fun.. M n Ms and stuff haha.. read sam's blog. she say she writing but dunnoe got write a not.. she like lazy one. hehe... hope she nvr see this hahahahaha.... today like so happy sia..

den reach home, take off uniform go play sp.. hahaha... play with kelvin as usual.. now lvl up liaoz can play channel 4. bye miyane, akira and kelvin.. hahahaha.. see u guys in channel 4 soon. ;) had lotsa fun. tot my mom was gonna scold. but she ignored me.. heh. cool.

so i guess tt's all.. cya!

WaD a DaY!

haha.. today's quite a fun day. haha... first, we had practical lesson in the lecture theatre. but like nothing much leh. juz tok tok tok. talking about chem, i need to collect everything by tml.. haiz.. better remember.

oh ya. kinda shock to be da top boy for chem in my class. *lol* i was playing survival project. haha.. good la. at least next time i noe 10 yrs series DO help. haha...

hmmm.. afternoon was raining haha... so funny. i acted like one retarded freak who was afraid of water. hahahaha... the whole place was flooded and i was juz clinging on to the pole, pretending i was scared of the water. haha....

our school's water fall and me!

den after tt was watching a band play some classical songs.. quite nice la. cool thing is that we're juz behind S1 haha.. now i juz remember. i am suppose to go take out my old violin and play. hmmm... gotta look for it later or tml...

after reach home, i kept playing survival project as usual. haha.. had lotsa fun. me and kelvin make good team. kena scolded by mother, so now in the room using lap top to type this hehe...

overall, nice day la. tml got training.. haiz.. suddenly dun feel like going for training...

Last day oF ComMon TesT

yay.. today is the last day of common test.. had SPA which was quite ok.. haha.. one cool thing in the exp today was that, only me josh and kannan got the setup correct. haha... but we din make use of the needle and the retort stand for ruler..so sure minus marks liaoz... zzzzz...

anyway, after the test, we went down to ps to watch alien vs predator. i felt that it was a very normal kind of show, but it was cool. very nice to watch. exciting too.. haha.... while watchng, i had two person in mind whom i really felt like being with... but i shall not continue. haha...

so, i really enjoyed my day today. had lotsa fun.. haha... tml back to sch le.. need to go rest.

yay...

i "yay" for quite a few things..

first is cos chem paper today was not that difficult!!! yay! hahahaha.. hope can score well. i like get quite a lot of same answers as mishal... hope they're correct...

next is that today, i get to see lilo alot lol! yay!!!! hahahaha... den a bit wierd la with the other three disturbing.

third is that tml's the last day of common test. yay!!! and there would be training tml. yay!

hmmm.. oh ya! i was playing sp with kelvin so damn fun sia! yay!! tml muz ask akira and miyane to play together.

so i think that's all... haha.. see u guys tml.

Messed up in My head....

".... time has gone by real fast...

it's been almost more than a month since we went our separate ways...

i enjoy my time in school with all those fun pple...

but once a while, memories of the past juz flash by...

it pains me to think of them and i take comfort from what seems so far...

i cant forget the past.

i can't let go of the future.

when it juz seems so close to reaching my goal,

it all turned into failure...

my heart's changing direction again.

but wad can i garauntee in reliving the past?

and whether i can achieve grabbing hold of the future.

it doesn't seem to matter.

cos when the time comes,

i'll noe my path to choose..."

i noe all these wont makes sense to most. cos it only makes sense to me. i juz needed to write this down so that i wont forget the things i am going through now. ruby game's starting. see u guys! all the best for tml's chem test. need to continue studying too.

Common tests... again.

haiz... today bad day ar... first maths tests... like shit like that haiz... actually, standard la. i always fail maths hehe.. den physics.. argh!! come out so many on kinematics and i din study it! stupid. we keep doing dynamics and momentum, den suddenly, a hell lot kinematics come out! damn! they want me to retain ar!?

but anyway, it is also a good thing. like luke chen say last time nvr come out kinematics, so now come out a lot. final year should come out lesser le. hope got more dynamics questions come out. but then, still got electricity.. hope it is easy...

anyway, after tests, came home.. rest. tired so got some shut eye. after that was making up my mind whether to go to edge. wanted to go, but changed my mind eventually... after that, i went to play comp for quite some time. survival project, again.. hehe... so fun. i think i addicted liaoz..

ok. after playing went to watch some tv, took a shower, did some weight lifting and study. so like damn boring hor?? i think it is quite boring.. should have gone down to the edge.

anyway, gonna continue studying. later 2.30 am got rugby. want to watch...

.:common tests:.

common tests have begin!! sianz..... it is 10.30 now.. and i am going to play some games!!! hahahha....

today's test was quite easy la.. hope i can do well... short day, nice and so cool. haha.. so early at home, like i juz woke up. hehe...

now i'm going to play survival project. later study. oh ya! tonite got net... got visitors... nvr had visitors for a long time. hope they dun back out.

"Dear God,

i juz want to pray for the new visitors.

i pray that u'll bring em all to fabian's hous safely.

i also want to pray for my friends and i

that u will bless us in our common tests.

help us do well and

get promoted as a class.

thank u.

Amen!"

hope all of u will be blessed!! go play games le cya!

Survival Project!! [the past and now...]

hi evryone!! now i juz finished playing survival project. it is real cool man!!! should go check out that game.

so erm.. today i stayed back as usual. but tonight i did some work!! haha.. *shocking* hahahaha.... today was nice... hanging out with the usual bunch, chatting... haha...

oh ya!! i am going for the leadership camp! cool huh! cant wait to go.. Lilo's going too. yeah! it's gonna be fun.

juz wanna thank wenhong and christine for dropping by my blog... come to think of it, i kinda miss u guys a lot... i miss how kin wai always make fun of me... boonchye's stupid laugh, LOH's company... weijing's funny stuff... all u guys, i miss u!!! i wish i can turn back time and re-live those good old days... miss da teachers too...

anway, life goes on... sad things has passed and now happy things are all around me.. this is to u esther...

"thank u for always being near me...

really miss u and love u.. a lot.

though things have changed,

our friendship wont.

i really enjoy those time i spent with u,

and hope i can do it again soon.

thanks for everything..."

yea.. we should forget the past and move on... i have been real messed up in my head bout this stuff... but now, i think i know wad i have to do and how i should still continue enjoying my youth. ;)

Being Reminded...

hmm.. the drama today was nice but.... it reminds me of sad things... makes me feel so hurt.... i dun wanna be reminded.. juz wanna be me. made me feel so sad... but i enjoyed the show.. :)

so erm... went home early again from night study.. cant study la me.. i am cut out to be an entertainer, not a study kia.... hahahahahaha..... wad u guys think? *hee*

today... another nice and peaceful day lol... cant remember much. i oni keep disturbing miss lee and the other teacher, trying to make them blush. wuahahahahahahahaha... mean ya!? hee.. miss lee's so cute. blush so easily. *LOL* oh ya! guys hu did not go night study today missed out man!!! today all the chio bu teachers stay back hehe....

i think nothing else le la.... so cya!

sorry sam, miyane and millie. heee....

hey pple!! yesterday could not write cos internet down. today i manage to solve the problem haha...

anyway, i juz came back from night study... like usual, i din do much again.. juz keep chatting. haha.. sorry guys keep disturbing u all... hee... i cant study la.. not my way of enjoying life haha....

so erm... today... i cant remember much leh.. but quite an ok day la. oh ya. i passed everything of my NAPFA. so next PE lesson, can join the rest do the dance le... oh ya.. sam, i still dunnoe y u say she's rude.. y ar? tell me wad she do leh...

today kenna disturb by all the year one ruggers... stupid bunch. wait till i think of something. heh.... cant wait to start playing rugby again.. wanna play so badly...

k la. stop here le. these few days not enuff sleep. today betta get some..

-=Lilo & Stitch=-

after some rest, i went out to watch tv... when i got bored of channel i, i switched it over to disney channel for some cartoons... juz nice, Lilo & Stitch the movie had juz started... nvr watch it b4..

it is sucha touching show... made me think back about some stuff... how each other should not be forgotten and left behind...

"O'hana (if it is spelt this way)

it means family...

And no one gets left behind

or

forgotten...."

man... this is so touching.... i hope i'll get to watch 'Finding Nemo' soon... should be another nice show about family....

hmmm... tml i've got to take my physics test cos i din take it on saturday... haven study yet. i think i'd better start studying... oh yes, teck seng will be back tml after half a month in japan... hope everything would still be the same. so guys, take care k? i'll always be praying for u guys. God Bless...

ah... finally...

finally i have a more decent looking blog... heh... took me up till 2 am last night to do it. i figured out that the html commands for blog is more or less similar to OD.. haha... cool. now i juz have to try to find a way to add the background picture.. cant remember the command ar... haiz...

anyway, i juz came back from church. straight away log in to my blog to adore it. lol... (all my hardwork....) i think it is going to be a boring day from now till tml morning.. so gonna catch up on some sleep and do some workout.

so anyway, that's all for now.

kelvin, kelvin, kelvin...

ok... i juz came back rom the bbq... quite fun and hot. haha.... so anyway, when i came back, i decided to go to kelvin's blog... go check it out : http://yingmujielun.blogdrive.com

haha.. when i wanted to go to his blog, he warned me first cos it was gonna be very shocking and indeed it was! haha.... check it it out.. gonna hook u guys up with a preview. *lol*

Directly from the creator - Kelvin Wang

"pamela came late for the test... she sat in the same row with me.. so i was able to see her very clearly.."
"pamela was in front of me.. as well as teresa.." ........."then teresa seperate from pamela... "
"and by then i was in front of pamela heading to the gate toking on my hp... hehe... guess what happen next?? I ACTUALLY PLUCK MY COURAGE AND WENT TO SPEAK TO PAMELA..."
"me: pamela...
she gave tt weird look.. hehe.. so cute... but it did make me more nervous...
me: u and gabriel from primary school until now right??
(sorry gabriel abt this one.. i gotta have something to start with ma.. pai sei hor...)
pamela:how u know?
me:i'm gabriel's friend ma
pamela: you are gabriel friend??tt moment i was like this ---> -_-" "

That's all for now. for more, check out kelvin's blog!!

(hope u dun mind me publishing this hor kelvin.. haha...)

haha.. the funniest part was the last line.( pamela: you are gabriel friend??tt moment i was like this ---> -_-" ) hahahahahaha... make me laugh non stop. man.. kelvin u rock! if only i am this brave... hahahahahaha.... cool...

so i guess that's all... oh ya! y muz i be bugs bunny!? no more other cartoon character meh!? wad sia.. same as kelvin.. hehehe.... nvm la. kk see u guys!

Lousy Nationals!!!

haiz... today's Nationals sucked....so bad! man.. we beat HCJC which sent SR and YJ trembling but not RJ. sadly, we lost to RJ. wad was worst was that we lost to SR and YJ!!!!!!!!!! argh!!!!!!!! i had confidence we could beat them... we could have been in the semi finals... though i dun think we'll get third(cos SA, AC and RJ will get top 3) but we can at least be fourth than nothing!!

but anyway, good game guys. i only played the RJ game... it is like defense all the way... they are very good. SA and AC's match was more like a real rugby game. very nice to see em play... i wished i could've play the YJ match... wanna let out some fury and give'em a bashing.. hands itching for a faceoff... haiz.. nvm got next time friendly.

gonna work hard. i wanna play in more matches.. anyway, i'm really tired now so i am gonna rest update again later. tonight got bbq again.. eternity production thingy.. haha... so come back later and check out my blog see ya!

mY BIG toE...

oh no.... my BIG toe... how??

today was such a dumb day.. so sad for me... i had to run 2.4 but... i passed!! zaki din have to cos we were going for nationals... but rozlan look down on me... anyway, with my toe, i dun think i can play already.... sobx... den still had to have training. (the day b4 the match!?) anyway, i got my toe injured, my jaws injured and i had double vision for a moment... haiz... how?? now that my toe is swelling...
muthu play so hard during training dunnoe for wad... shit man... this sux!!!!! bashed me and stepped n my toe and din say sorry.. *crap!*

so frustraing... i hope it heals.. now i am puttng ice while writing this...

"dear God.... pls heal my toe... i have been training so hard....

pls allow me to play tml.. i really want to....

Lord pls bless us tml with good health, let us play our best...

God grant us all save journey mercy to YJ.

Amen."

i really want to play.. sobx.......

anyway, had a bbq... and despite being so pissed, sulinn had to add to my frustration.... she forced me to play games but i'm so tired.... den tell her nicely, she becomes so rude. i hate it. i am really tired even now when i am typin this. actually i dun wan to type. but if i dun type, i cannot vent my frustrations (about my toe) anywhere.. argH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUTHU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hmmm... but i have my happy moments too... saw lilo quite a lot of times today.. haha...den i passed my 2.4! so the rest no prob liaoz. den can join the rest do the dancin thingy.....

so.. i stop here la. anything else, tml i write. now damn tired...

sTarTs wiTh 'M' n ends wiTh 'E' MilliE!!!

haha.. hey akira, miyane! juz now during night study, millie asked about the lilo thingy, we should have juz stopped at telling her about the M and the E haha... den she tot is her. lol... so anyway, i did nothing much during night study.. juz did some of the questions miss lee asked the other pple to do for discussion. read some chem stuff n... that's all haha...

ok.... today is juz another nice day.. one funny thing was the teapot thingy and shana'z... thanks to josh, akira n of course SHANA'z, i sang the ending of this silly song...(after keeping so quiet for so long during chem.. dunnoe wad happened to me) muz tel sam the next time i see her.. haha... juz a rough idea.

'Little teapot' (censored vers.)

I'm a lil teapot,

short and stout.

here is my handle,

here is my spout.

when u here me screaming,

..........

guess wad?

that's all for the censored version. hahaha... tell u guys next time. it's got to do with the storage tank thingy. haha.... she's full of that. lol.... she started the storage tank thing herself hor! not me and akira. we not so... hahaha.. u noe la.

ok... so teck seng's comin back soon. things will be a lil different but it is gonna be fun. first it's cos we'll be able to finish our project. akira is dying for him... hehe... squidwert thingy, crystal growing stuff n all.... haha...

so thatz all for today. tune in tml, same day same place, time?? i dunnoe... when i feel like writing. bye!!!

my first entry

ok. my first entry.. ah.... y i started a blog? cos no one wants to use OD anymore... but anyway, today was quite a fun day. had a lot of fun playing a fool during chemistry. hahahaha. cos i saw miss lee scolding those with their filter funnels on their burette, i came up with this idea to sabo pple by putting the funnels on their burettes. wuahahahahaa.. i asked akira want to go do a not he say ok so he went to put the funnel on shaf's burette den kenna caught by her. for me, i went to put it on clinton's and vijay's burette. they din noe a single thing lor.. hahaha.. tio miss lee. hahahaha.... but i got go say sorry la hahaha.. sorry guys!

oh ya.. u guys noe mary? the servant. she is so fun to talk to...... or shold i say disturb. whenever i saw her today, i kept disturbing her.. hahaahahaha.. she thinks everyone lkes her!!!! *shocking sia* so bhb.. lol... even my chinese teacher had nothing to say about it... aha..

hmmm... oh ya. heard about akira's 'goodness resists all common evil'?? haha.. cool huh. wad about me?? mine too long... haiz.. but.... guess wad!? i manage to come up with something too.. it goes like tis: 'Made In China Huh' hahaha.. lame eh.. but the name's too long la... heee... but those hu noe about this, keep it a secret k? those dunnoe, come to me personally and i'll tell u. and dun leave posts about the made in china thingy thanks.

haha.. first entry and so much to say. ok stop here. take care u guys, especially sam! cya!