28/10/07

woo! i'm like really excited about what god's doing la! i can't wait for next week. =D i dunnoe what it'll be like, if i'd be able to share or not, but kannan's gonna come! been so long since he last joined us at edge.

anyone who's reading this, do continue to keep me in prayer. i really believe that god is gonna do a work in all the youths and we'll see each one rising up. it's just marvelous; what god is doing.

keep me in prayer. =)

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Don't Know Much
by Aaron Neville

Look at this face, I know the years are showing.
Look at this life, I still don't know where it's going.
I don't know much but I know I love you.
That may be all I need to know.

Look at these eyes, they never see what matters.
Look at these dreams, so beaten and so battered.
I don't know much but I know I love you.
That may be all I need to know.

So many questions still left unanswered.
So much I've never broken through.
And when I feel you near me, sometimes I see so clearly.
The only truth I'll ever know is me and you.

Look at this man, so blessed with inspiration.
Look at this soul,searching for salvation.
I don't know much but I know I love you.
That may be all I need to know.

I don't know much but I know I love you.
That may be all I need to know.
I don't know much but I know I love you
That may be all there is to know.

love the oldies. heard this song over the radio, nice.

27/10/07

didn't expect field camp to be rather fun. however, it was really tiring as well.

2 times when i felt like dying haha, it would be building the PW cage (prisoner of war) and dismantling the MG pit after building it. (machine gun)

we built our pw cage under the hot afternoon sun. man... with the sound beating down on us, constructing a cage took twice the time we did before. by the time it was complete, i had a slight tan mark from my helmet and i prolly drank a whole jerry can of water hohoho..

it's 3 missions in 30 hrs, so my second mission started at 10pm and ended at 4am by the time at about 3am when i was taking down all the sandbags, i fell asleep while standing! HAHAHA!! sandbags are like almost 20kg per bag, imagine we're supposed to carry 250 of em, but it was reduced to 150 so it's still like almost 3tons of sand!

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well.. i got to think about a lot of things on all our toner and bus rides haha... i suddenly realised a similarity in the things i say at every part of my life and realised that i've got to change it.

when i was in school, i remember mentioning, "i can't wait for the 3 yrs to past." now in the army i'd say "i can't wait to ord."

all we do is just look forward to the end but we did not realised that once it ends, it ends. i was feeling a little sad about how i'd never be in school again, be in a setting where everyone's wearing uniform, sitted in neat rows, with a teacher teaching etc.

also, on our second night, we gathered to cook maggie mee haha... with our mess tins and solid fuel.. brings back lots of memories. scouts, east timor... all these will never come back..

so i realised that i have to treasure every moment, cos now that i'm in MP, i realised i missed my sispec days even though they were tough and i can't wait to get out of there. therefore, i should just enjoy my days in MPTS cos it won't come back again once i pass out.

this have actually make me treasure every moment with my bunk mates, and made me want to work harder than to just smoke everything else haha...

ok, this entry may be a bit messy cos like i've told some of you before, i'm not so good at describing my thouhts as much as i can do last time. haha.. i dunnoe why.

21/10/07

so fast!! and it's almost time to book in.. man.. ha... back to tekong! ha.. can't wait to get it over with.

ok, i kinda did not want to go to church today, ha... but somehow, i still did. and today, the lord reminded me of the joy of giving. =) what a joy it is to see the smile on someone's face or to hear the word "thanks".

i can't wait for next weekend! can't wait to be with everyone. can't wait for all these to be over...

lord, see me through.

19/10/07

well.. this week, though a 4 day week, went by real slow... i looked forward to book out a lot and today, everything just went wrong, end GPMG firing early but book out the latest.

and the day before, i just got 1 tum jia lat jia lat. man.. my morale's like real low la.. ha... but finally... after a long 4 day week... things passed soooooo slooooow... argh!

back to tekong.. next week.. arh... my morale's really low la... i'm just spaced out most of the time, hoping that time would fly while i'm dreaming hahaha... dreamt that i was back in school last night. wonderful dream, i woke up with that tingly feeling in my heart hahaha...

miss MI, hate studying.

tt reminds me, HA! MY EXAM! so dumb la.. the military police paper... i fell asleep when they were revising.. am gonna fail... i tried to stay awake already, but that was like my extreme end of needing sleep. i did not even realised that i fell asleep la! -_-"

15/10/07

oh my!! i need to find a codd-neck bottle!!

being a sentimental person, i have this sudden need to search for a codd-neck bottle because it brings back memories.. of what, i dunnoe, but there's that feeling of nostalgia and a blurred memory of a codd-neck bottle.

i was watching this really sweet anime called lamune. ha.. too bad i did not really have a childhood like theirs, am a little jealous, though when i used to live in pandan, we were a really small and close community, like tt of a kampong, so me appearing at anyone of my friend's house became so common, it's like walking into ur own home haha.. same goes to my friends, entering my house.

our doors a seldom locked, only at night. the rest of the evening, we'd be at the playground or at someone's house. i really miss those days... it's as if we shared homes. girls and boys mix as if we're of a single gender. we were really close.

my friends from PAP... it's so sad i dun remember a single one of them. i really wonder if there was a way i could find them... any one of em, especially those that sat with me on the same table. though i only remember 2 girls of everyone else HAHA!! one gave me sweets, the other helped me with my work cos i was blind ha... my degree was so high, i could barely see anything on the board, and so, she'd do my work for me once the teacher's not around.

it's just so sweet of her, like that in the anime i'm watching. i only remember girls being so sweet only when i was young... hardly see any girls that way anymore.. heh... =P

i guess doing sweet things for people isn't part of our culture anymore.. cos it just means something else haha... time's changed.

maybe that's why i wish to live in the countryside...

13/10/07

fell asleep with the itunes on again last night. ha.. makes me feel good, at ease. knowing i'm on my bed, at home once again.

like i said, i look forward to the weekends and so this week flew by the fastest of all weeks in my army life. i remember thinking of sunday as if it happened yesterday on wednesday night. and 2 days later, i'm out of camp. ha...

i treasure every minute, every second, being at home, on my bed resting or what so ever. this weekend's gonna be great! (i hope so!) i've got an off day on monday and so i'd get to spend a whole sunday at church, and dinner with everyone and all! hahaha...

well.. i pray all goes well this weekend.

stir up my creativity.

07/10/07

woke up at 2am plus in the morning to the chorus of this song.

"because you live, and breathe,

because you make me believe in myself,

when nobody else can help.

because you live, girl,

my world, has twice as many stars in the sky."

ha... i love the chorus. bmt first ippt test, sispec, 28km route march. "you made me believe in myself, because you live..."

talking about the 28km route march, i thank god i've never got to do it again haha... imagine signallers and commandos, 72km HA! phew, i could've gotten into signaller.

i'm just so proud that i completed it. also thanks to my commander, who pushed me, taunted me, whatever it was. i remember the feeling of relief the next morning when i was going home, how i could barely walk, blisters on my feet, abrasion on my groin, back, shoulder, legs muscles ached. had to squeeze into the bus with all our barang barang. PASS OUT! wooo... that's the feeling, haha. mixed. excited about going to my unit too. chatting and laughing at each other cos we could barely walk out HAHAHAHA!!!

i remember competing with gab yang haha.. we were like snails walking out. that's the last i saw him.. after 4 months, gone... my bmt buddy.. ha... miss my bmt mates...

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well! i'm a really happy person! =DD i'm just looking forward to every weekend. no matter how tough training may be, the thought of the weekends would pull me through. a reason to live, a reason to push myself, i'm so excited! 6 more weeks to my next promotion! =D

ever as before,

ever a surprise.

04/10/07

it's already october. time sure flies. this week went by fast. booking out tmr.

lord, i need ur help. just a split second and everything turned bad.

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haha... oh well, i'm not so mad at what happened earlier already. this week went by real fast, however, days have been rather boring ha.. we ended up drawing on our exercise books given to us to record notes hahaha... i decided to write a few haikus here and there, wanna try a terzanelle someday hahaha... we did origami with the paper too. a lot of nonsense la! hahaha!!

i enjoyed all that slack moment. so fast, and it's been more than a month since i went into mp command. fast.... 3 more weeks and back to tekong for me.. haha...

well, i hope my man arent those type described by my sergeants hahaha funny, but i'll suffer if our section had em hoho...

ok la, shall prepare to go back to camp.

looking forward for each day to past.

a day closer..