28/12/08

i just feel God's moving into a new year of faith and of miracles!

i feel so strongly in my heart that 2009 is just like what jeremy said, a year where the impossible will be possible. and just like bro han mentioned, it's a yr of urgency, obey immediately! late obedience is disobedience. obey immediately, and see His miracles take place right before you.

i want to bring up an old post i wrote just a while back when God placed these 2 songs in my heart because i find it very prophetic.

no eye has seen, no ear has heard.
the good that the Lord has prepared for those,
who waits on Him, to hear His voice.
"I AM the potter and you are the clay."

open my eyes,
i want to see beyond all i believe.
by faith i open the doors
to recieve from the hand of the Lord,
i recieve from the hand of the Lord.

miracles are already placed before you, open your eyes to them. also, open your spiritual eys so that you will be able to see beyond every work and every calling so that you will live by faith and with the hope and joy of the fulfilment of your calling.

i've told these to some of you before and even this - that in the last days, God is going to raise the prophetic among us. and i see how true this is when bro han was sharing today. it brought so much excitment!

it does not have to be like "thus sayeth the Lord ........" it can be as simple as what the Lord lays in your heart, or what you have read in a book or heard in a song that speaks to needs of others with encouragement and strength.

start learning to discern correctly, for this is what i feel so strongly that he's going to raise up the prophetic and the impossibles are gonna be made possible this yr!

and let this be a prophetic word:
you who feel you can't be a leader, will be one. you who are unconfident will become an evangelist, missionary, worship leader, etc. the hardest hard made soft. the coldest heart find love. infirmities and diseases healed by a word of faith. that's what this generation is going to be in the years to come.

despite the drifting congregation, a generation falling asleep, i know God is saying " AWAKEN! ARISE! i have called you! COME!"
now wake up and bring the glory of God into this house.

20/12/08

i was watching naruto. i loved it since my MI days because i seem to identify with naruto. and i guess many of us do in certain ways.

"no one defies the odds like him, he saved us countless times. Every time someone expects him to fail, he proves them wrong. that's who uzumaki naruto is!"

18/12/08

i'm sick again. =(

ok, am watching tv now, something random. children laughs 400 times a day on average while adults 15 times a day. that's soooo sad!! i can't believe i laugh only 15 times a day!!! i love to laugh! hahahaha!!

anyway, i am supposed to be the duty sergeant today but somehow, i fell sick and i have 2 days mc. initially, i couldn't find anyone to replace me, so i had to stay overnight though i was feeling lousy. my body's aching so bad, i need panadols to relax my muscles. ha... anyway, thank God for a caring SM, he decided to let me hand over my duty and go home.

i'm really thankful cos with the fever, i thought i had to bathe in camp with cols water, which would really make it hard to shower. thank God! now i get to come home and bathe with warm water... ah.... hahaha...

there's really something growing in me, though i'm not very sure what it is. but there's this new love overflowing from my heart, a new desire to know the joy of living. =) yesterday, i decided to give my mom a huge big hug and tell her i love her, and it felt like the most phenomenal thing! haha... think my mom couldn't sleep also haha... been a long time since i've expressed my love. and i began to understand the joy of living. to me, it's when u put a smile on the faces of people around you. =) sometimes even at the sacrifice of your own benefit. it just seem really meaningful.

it's as simple as sacrificing some time to do something nice for someone. haha.. been a while since i have done that. i can't wait to find these little opportunities to put a smile on my friend's faces! =D

12/12/08

net dinner! it's really nice when we share and we affirm each other. it's really wonderful to see each other learn and grow. also, even as we share we really get to see the message in many different angles.

camp was really awesome! this year's preacher was really prophetic in many ways. and the word he preaches are so real and something we really have to remember and keep close to our heart.

both God and satan knows that through this camp, most of us have made significant decisions to make a change and even as we left and that night itself, the enemy is already trying to come against the work of the Lord.

i mean, not just only me, but my net as well. even in my dreams! can u believe it! i had to wake up and repent and ask God to really keep me on the guard! the enemy is really coming in full force! but i believe in the God to help me overcome and i know that He has already set me free!

we have to stand firm and not go back to our old ways after being set free and this is the one thing i want to accomplish from now on. to begin to stand firm and not go back to my old ways and to share this freedom with the pple around me. i can't wait to get back to work!!! =D

07/12/08

tmr's youth camp! super excited! can't wait to relive those younger times when i was 17/18 yrs old. hahaha! games, and cheers, and all the fun and excitement! haha, can barely contain it! HOHOHOHO!!!

as much as i can't wait to ORD, i'm gonna miss those guys who've spent a yr plus with me. i guess it's a phase everyone goes through. we make new friends, then leave them when the end comes. it's sad ar, but i guess it's just part of our everyday life. to think about someone so close, yet you might nvr speak to him/her again, once they move on, or move away...

anyway, i really want to get back to camp, to finish what i have started! i can't wait, i feel something new in me, a fresh and new desire to live life the way i did. to be called "pastor" in camp, to have pple come to me and talk whenever they need help. i've drifted away too much these past few months, grieved the holy spirit time and again. yet, my God, picks me up when i fall, speaks to me though i sin. He just nvr seem to give up on me when i have already given up on myself.

yet he says, "cast your burdens on me, and i'll exchange them for a renewing of the spirit."

it's so exciting to live for God, to see miracles happen, pple touched by God, even in the midst of guard duty, in the guard room.

i know that You will be with me, till the very end of age. You promised.

02/12/08

man, it's december already! as much as i can't wait for all the december events, i don't want this year 2 end. it has been an awesome year.

sunday was definitely the start of all things fun and joyful! i am so glad that out of the many i invited to come to 180, half of them came! even my PS came! hahaha! awesome!



also, i'm sooo excited that we actually won the 180 dance competition! i really had fun doing the dance, and would be most glad to do it again! haha..

i can't wait for youth camp!!! already hoping tt i can make new friends and rebuild my circle of friends during camp! =D but most of all, i really want to encounter God all over again. i've been so far at times, doing things that do not glorify Him. i've changed alot since April... i just want to run back to that one person who loves me so much. have to start preparing now, packing my bag, and most of all, my heart.

then, christmas, watchnight service, new year, chinese new year, ord, and then a whole new year! woooo! i wonder what's installed for me, this coming year, who, what will i become. whoo will i meet? where will i be? where will i be going? wow. can't wait.

i really want to move on.

ah... it's been a long day. tired. i want a cup of almond milk tea.