28/02/07

for you are my source of strength, my source of hope.

lead me o lord for i have lost my direction in life,
i'm discourage, i'm in despair.
i'm.. lost.

but in you lord i place my trust.

in every area, lead me for i do not know where i am headed.
refill me with the hope that you have given your children.
may your joy continue to be my strength that through you, i may overcome.

redeem me by your grace..

26/02/07

well, the 4th and last season of kim possible's out on youtube and i'm catching every bit of it!!!

i'm so stinking jealous! hahahaha... like awww... ron... i want to be ron!!! hahahaha...

i'm wierd huh!? and it takes a KP to love one wierd one like me!!!

BOOYA!!!! STRIKE ONE ON THE WIERD-O-METER!!! WOOOHOOO!!!

in season 4, KP and ron are together like woah! and it's soooo sweet especially KP. she's always telling ron how irreplaceable he is though he's wierd. aww....

well, i'm quite a wierd one too! hahaha.. and i wish i was ron... so wished i was ron. well, i'd say we do have some goofiness in common. HA! ah.. well.. just love the show.

23/02/07

another day in which work ruined my day. i lost a bonus day with pple i want to be with. oh well, i cant wait to quit, not that i dun like working there, i love it. just tt i want my freedom again hohohoho. well, i was asked to work one more week, so yea, why not ha! more money! =p

after that... whooo!!! i am gonna go get a new rod as the first thing i'll buy!! wuahahahaha!!! then i'll be fishing all day long!!!

i need more sun and exercise. am starting to try to do some exercise but it is really tough hahaha... have been forcing myself everyday, every hour just to do even a little. ha!!

after this one month, army. not mentally prepared yet, i used to be excited cos i was fit and ready, but 8 months later.... ha!!! now i am worried cos i am not as physically fit as before!!! then to add on to everything, my diploma... ha...

oh well.. end of school does not mean the end of all troubles, well i thought it was when i was in school. now i learned =D

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something random

sometimes,

it's the memories that are unforgetable that makes a person stronger...

21/02/07

are you ready?



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well, who knew that our church people would meet again.. aww.. haha... i lost my bonus day of spending one extra day with them... oh well... who knew...

anyway, i plan to stop work soon, today kinda past quite fast, can't believe i am home already. hahaha.... tired man...

well, i thank God for giving me strength through the day cos i woke up at 11++ ate one chicken pie, bathe and left the house. well, that chicken pie lasted me till 11pm!

i can actually go to sleep without eating in fact, but the thought of not eating at all that whole time made me go search for 24hr prata shops. suprisingly there are many huh! haha.. we stopped by at 3 different locations on my way back hopng to find chappati! man... non of em have any left.

k la... lazy to type.

19/02/07

for those who watch naruto the hurricane chronicles is out.

ok, i've just watched part of it and found it sooo funny and cute at the same time.

there's this part where sakura finds out that naruto's back and went into town to look for him. when they met, konohamaru (i would say, the younger naruto) showed naruto his perfected harem no jitsu (some perverted skill where the ninja changes into a beautiful girl and K.Os male opponents hahahaha!!) then naruto says like, i'm all grown up and i should not use such techniques yadda yadda..

then sakura begins to adore him for his maturity (naruto likes sakura but she has always found him a pain in the neck hahaha) and starts thinking highly of him until he said.... LET ME SHOW YOU MY NEWLY DEVELOPED PERVERTED JITSU!!!

and sakura just smacks him crazy cos he popped her little bubble of him HA!

well, ever since i began watching naruto, i realised i was so much like him especially at the point i entered MI. hahahaha... how someone so lonely, desiring other people's attention and just to become someone, eventually, makes his mark somewhere. i like his character and can relate so much to him. hahaha...

i cant wait for more episodes! it's gonna be soooo cool!!!

19/02/07

well, it's cny but it seems sooo much like a normal day except for the new clothes and visiting.

ok, wanna thank dot for the F.O.C pineapple tarts. hahaha... FULL OF CRUST! I LOVE CRUST!!!! yum yum! =P

then for those who love the pineapple, there's auntie jessie'sthin crust pineapple ball. it's too sweet for me. =P

okok, so i'm looking forward to tmr, i asked my dad to go for a walk in the jungle from my place to macritchie then to thompson. can't wait for the adventure to begin hahaha... long walk but it's gonna be fun. heh!

k la... reall late... shall go to bed.

18/02/07

one thing to be happy about this cny, i am getting "2" pays. hahaha

so coincidentally, chinese new year (ang bao money) and my next pay fall on the same day! whee!!! well, i hope for a super duper, mag-giagant-enormous double blessing hahaha...

hmmm... i did not get to buy new shoes.. =( was thinking of a really grown up type of trendy leather shoe with laces, a round pointy front. hahaha... i cant describe, but i've seen it and i like it.

well... i have learned so much over the past month about blessings, love, affirmation etc.. i feel so blessed and changed.i know i'm no more the same person as i used to be in certain ways. money has become something of smaller significance in my life. i'm not saying i do not need it, but i'm just more willing to give it up.

love... this thing created by God has made my world go round. painted colours in black and white pictures and brought warmth in the coldest heart. i love love. i do.

i am looking forward to my days ahead. i cant wait to be married (pray i do) and have a family. now i am beginning to enjoy the company of family members, see their smile, love them. i see my cousins, aunty, uncles, and i wished i had a family like theirs. my lil cousin... after not seeing him for almost a year... my... what a big boy... he did not even know my name but roughly recognised me.

played sparklers with him and stuff and well, it was just so nice... hahaha... bringing the rest of them down too, and somehow one would always manage to climb up my back (though it hurts cos of my sunburns!!) or another crawl onto me and into my arms while i am sitting down. it's just a wonderful feeling =)

well... happy chinese new year! i just felt like blabbering HA!

15/02/07

ok, had my basic theory test and i passed. ha... to those doing basic theory any time soon. it's not tough at all. read the book take it asap and get on ha!

well.. went to do some shopping. am kinda lazy to do such things but i have to force myself once a while, or i'd be wearing the same old stuff for years haha... neways, it was easy, cos right at the door of seiyu hung many polo-ts and shirts. so i just got 2 polo i liked an a shirt. hahaha..

well, am gonna look stripey and green this yr. hahaha... hope i did not choose ugly stuff! haha... am like real lazy la... still need a pair of shoe...

ok, so like yesterday, valentines. ha... stayed at home man... dunnoe if the usual pple went to hardrock this yr... ha... it kinda felt so unvalentine hahahaha... first time in 3 yrs not partying out and my dad did not bring my mom out! ha.... man... oh well... somehow, dot, there did not seem to be any feeling of nostalgia... ha...

ok, am broke. i cant wait to get my pay, i cant wait to go out into the sun and play. gonna spend the next one month fishing or something. haha... am staying at home too much and doing nothing. i might just die of heart attack. for those who do not know. u do not need to be fat to get heart attack. just sit at home all day and watch tv and u'll get a heart attack from blocked arteries. (learned many things from reader's digest)

k, work tmr. gonna be a great day i guess.. see ya peeps, sleep!

muse - starlight

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

Starlight
I will be chasing the starlight
Until the end of my life
I don't know if it's worth it anymore

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

My life
You electrify my life
Let's conspire to reignite
All the souls that would die just to feel alive

But I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms

Far away
The ship is taking me far away
Far away from the memories
Of the people who care if I live or die

And I'll never let you go
If you promise not to fade away
Never fade away

Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations
Our hopes and expectations
Black holes and revelations

Hold you in my arms
I just wanted to hold
You in my arms
I just wanted to hold

wow.. wonderful...

11/02/07

AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

i feel better after writing it out, reading it a few times and deleted it. hahaha...

11/02/07

i slept 10 hrs last night! hahaha...

well... i had 1 crazy night. barely had any dreams, rather i kept tossing and turning in bed, woke up with an aching neck. man!

i'm looking forward to each passing day, i dunnoe why. i've got a feeling it's because of things i thought about unconsiously last night however, i do not remember almost anything of it. all i know, is that it's making me feel good. haha.... i was high last night while i was asleep. hahahaha... like WHAT THE!

oh well... i'm not tired anymore i can't wait for another 2-3 weeks to pass. i hope things turn out nice and well over the next few months.

10/02/07

a lot of things to blog about.

talking about being sentimental, i realised that i have been using my wallet for like 3-4 years and i can't bear to change it! hahaha... the zip for both the coins and the notes section are spoilt and so i have coins dropping rather often haha... though it was a gift, the meaning as a gift has slowly diminished, instead it's more of it being with me for so long that i can't bear change it!!! hahaha... maybe till one day i get a new one which means more to me then i'll change HA!

so like reader's digest have been really useful in helping me understand myself more. it has definitely broaden my general knowledge and been a wonderful friend when i am bored. it has thought me many things.

well, i have realised that in future be it doing a business or a life partner, someone who's a doer would prolly help me in many aspects of life. i am a dreamer i have BIG ideas. however, i am a procrastinator as well. i need someone to push me, motivate me. though having such a partner would be a little tough, i am mentally prepared to go through it to become successful in my business. hahahaha... (if i ever do one)

bring me back to reality

ok, so sermon these days have been on love, and it has been stirring a lot of things in me especially when i have nothing to think about hahaha... well... love is just wonderful, don't u agree?vhowever, someone ever told me, each time u fall in love with someone different, u give a part of ur heart. even after the pain "heals" there's still this little unbreakable string attached u can never break. that's something i dun ever want feel again. now, the remaining bits, i am gonna guard them and keep them specially for the person God is going to give me.

ok, i cant wait till i get my next pay. many things i want to do. for the first time, my bank's gonna hit 4 digits! hahahaha... i cant wait to do free lance work and have a lot of time to myself.

actually, i dunnoe if i did the right thing and come home. i always look forward to weekends cos i want to spend time with pple in church. every other weekday, i would miss them a lot. haha... today, i felt like talking, talking my heart out now that i've dot to talk to and discuss about stuff. also wanted to discuss with the esthers about their own business, miss tan got me so excited and full of ideas till i couldn't fall asleep HA! well.. i think i should have gone down to the wake with the rest then my mom could pick me from there on her way back from tiong bahru... oh well!!! guess all that's in my mind is to get home as soon as possible and rest, need lots of sleep these days... dunnoe why.

06/02/07

hmmm.. i realised something about me. i get bored of something too easily. hahaha...

i was just telling my mom about it randomly then i realised it today. now a days i'm not working in just one or 2 shops but round the island which makes work more interesting and it brings about that sense of discovery and exploration. like erm... work and learn new stuff.

like one day, i'd be working at a shop, the next day another, then the warehouse, the office, then back to another shop, then another time driving around sentosa delivering stocks yadda yadda. quite fun huh! if i can introduce adventure on my own to my work, i'd enjoy it. like the other day. hahaha... taking rides instead of the usual buses around. hahaha... enjoyed myself besides, i should make use of the staff prices!!! ha!!

neways, the musical fountain's closing soon. prolly end this month, i'd miss it - the place that i've had so much fun.

the ferry terminal, everything u visualise sentosa to be as a child would be gone. i'm planning to go back to do some photog just for memories.. hahaha...

i have this sentimental problem. my room's full of junk cos i cant bear throw anything which have the smallest, most slightest significance and meaning! HA!!!

k la... i need some sleep... i found out one more thing. nice emo chinese songs puts me to sleep. i dun listen to the lyrics though... it's just the tune hahahaha... well... night!

06/02/07

i hate myself...
yet i thank God...

i cant get the stench out of my mouth and nose.

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i supposedly had a really fun and great day today, however, i some how seem to not remember the feeling. i'm just mad with myself.

head's spinning, throat's dry, i feel uncomfortable and that stench. urgh! it's not coming out of my body. makes me feel sick and want to vomit.

ah well... working tmr. i need some sleep. really do...

03/02/07

i do not know why but the word "love" have been appearing at all angles in my life lately.

first, i had this stir in my emotions then things began happening. like really everywhere! like up to 8 things that happened in accordance. ha...

i cant figure if it's just me, or maybe God saying something. i mean, through this period of time, i have sooo much love, it's not just about bgr stuff but i began realising that i actually almost blurted out to my mom that i loved my uncle. i am beginning to care for family members i used to dislike. i begin loving my sister. i mean, i HAVE NEVER said i loved my sister before but right now right here, ya, i love her.

today, i was actually late for youth activity, but i felt in the spirit led to read the bible, so i read 1 corinthians 7. after that i left the house. on our way to church in the bus, i had a tugging to read the bible, so i read it again. this time finishing chapter 8.

guess what. service was on every single thing from the half of 7 to what i read in chapter 8. i am amazed. truly. i even told jeremy. i mean, it's really an affirmation that God wants to say something. throughout the whole day, this few words "bought with a price"was in my heart. i was sooo sure there was something God wanted to say. i even asked God "what" and "who". well it wasn't exactly anything or anyone, but the sermon.

also, i remembered the week before during pre-service prayer i was asked to give a prophetic word to glorify God. i was shocked my mind went blank as jeremy whispered into my ears. but after a while i knew God was going to set pple free with his love.

and so i am excited and all of you should be too. guard ur hearts but be open to the father's love. i cant wait to recieve more from God.

nite

01/02/07

well.. working at sentosa has helped me get to know pple around the world and broaden my circle of friends.

the newest, (besides the taiwanese students) is this couple from brisbane. they are travelling and at the same time working. i mean, i found them a sweet couple, travelling the world together and need not worry much.

they work as middlemen, and like buy and sell and just travel.

interesting i spent some time chatting with em and like they were real nice. they say i could give em a ring if i am ever going to brisbane. haha...

i feel like leaving the house at 23 and begin my travelling. shall travel and work part time till i have enough to continue. haha...