ACJC killed me..

ha... felt like some shield absorbing damage.. lol! but i had fun la. i'm proud of myself cos if i'm not wrong, i missed only 1 tackle. freakingly kena side stepped... so the other 6, 7 tackles quite ok. except i still need to go lower...

sianz... i cant walk.. as in REALLY cant walk. i sprained my ankle before the game... den i still managed to chiong first half. guess i cant play for a week... ar.... hafta get loads of rest.

sooo.. ya... the game was really exciting for me. and they are really fast, and i have to keep calling for drift. they really stack out damn fast! our players still in ruck or maul... haiyo....

so i din noe that i actually HAVE injuries till i was in the car. haha... i was like touching here and there den wah! swollen until like ok la.. not so big. should be stud kick one... according to my injuries experience haha...

and the funniest thing, i 'menstruated'! hahahahaha!! this AC guy which i found out was a china boy had a bleeding nose and during one of the rucks, he muz have knocked his head so hard, he mistook my WHITE shorts for tissue! man.... there was like this big blood stain on my butt area! and it's like wet and all... EEEEEE so disgusting! hahahahaha!!

man.. this game was defend all the way game but, fun la! haha... now i go out muz carry rugby ball, if not pple will think i fight... haiz...

time to tune in to carrie! nitez pple!

things i like doing these days...

here are some of the things that i really love doing these days...

1. DotA! wc3 dotA is a great way of saving money during break and stuff. haha... i'll juz drop by the comp lab and play LAN with saw and the others! haha...
2. pizza and a can of shandy. ha... pizza is like sooo wonderful already. with a can of shandy, ooo la la... haha...
3. day dreaming in class. great way to waste time especially 3 periods of math class straight! major killer...
4. walking around school, juz loitering hoping to find someone to chat and joke around.. ha!
5. juz play rugby after school. it beats staying in class! guess it has also become like part of my lifestyle.. we're like staying almost everyday for training or game. tml, ACJC... =D
6. laze aroud at home, spending time in the cyber world... ha...

guess tt's all.. hopefully, i can travel on my own, go fishing or something someday...

the caged bird..

i fell like a caged bird,
going to school each day,
like a dead zombiefied jerk.
fishing, swimming, hearing the sound of the waves,
i miss the great out doors.
it's so relaxing and makes me wanna quit.
school's boring, i'm not concentrating,
all i want is to be in the sun,
where each and everyday is so damn fun!

maybe it's juz the sun and hot weather la.. but i really regret studying for A's... should have juz gone for a diploma or something... but i dun regret tt much and i'm reluctant to leave, cos of rugby! haha...

so ya.. gonna go watch an eye for a guy! a super cool show!!

waiting for time to go by..

ahh.. juz reach home and i'm gonna fall asleep already... man... so tired.. gonna stand for chem lesson cos i have not done my work. nvm la.. shall stand larz...

anyway, was juz watching the jungle book 2.. haha... so nice.. such a touching show... man.. dunnoe wad i'll do without disney channel! hahahaha!!

k la.. shall go rest le.. bb!

My God, is an AWESOME God!

haha... yea.. my God is an awesome God! i'm juz happy to have gone to church and NLT today, cos i learn a lot of things today.. ha..

juz realise something... being a christian is the same as being an SC... cos everyone's watching u.. guess wad the teachers say is correct.. but i've nvr felt tt way before.. i always felt that we are part of the school population, no different from the rest.. except tt maybe we have some leadership potentials..

but anyway, why it's the same, cos is like, maybe the world's juz being biased or maybe the school population juz wants to get the SCs... cos u always hear.. "see that christian do this wrong thing, that christian do tt...", but do u hear things like, "see tt budhist/hindu/other religion, he's doing tt thing wrong....."

anyway, i aint descriminating, but i'm saying, u christians out there, watch wad u're doing.. cos the whole world's watching U! yea... it goes for me too.. being an example is really difficult... but wad i've learnt, is tt the holy spirit changes us whole. so i've gotta be more devoted and pray more..

guess this is a wake up entry for me... so christians out there, watch wad u're doing k! =D

one more thing... i've juz gotta say this before i end up hurting anyone...
i'm single, but i'm not available...
till i have found the right one tt is.. =P

the volcano..

there's once this volcano,
whom often cause trouble.
but one day it became dead dormant,
and he juz stood high watching the townsmen.
he thinks of his past,
how magnificent he was,
the pain he caused,
but now, he juz watches...
he really wanted to erupt again,
not being able to erupt is tormenting and pain.
he asks mother nature for a second chance,
but she said, "wait till the next month."
this repeated every month,
and soon, the volcano's passion to errupt died.
the confidence for a big erruption decreased day by day...
finally, he juz laid low and do wad's best.
watch everyone while they fight and play...

first time...

i signed out!! ahahahaha!! sooo exciting sia! like dunnoe whether the teacher's gonna let u sign out or wad. ha.. so fun ar! i finally got to signed out even though i felt perfectly fine. haha!

wierd man.. when i am damn uncomfortable, tired and sick, luke chen dun let. when i perfectly fine, he say ok! wad de!!! haha...

anyway, came home and sleep for about 3 hours, hoping that maple SEA d/l would be done... but! my mama went to go cancel it off!! ar..

so juz nice when i woke up, uncle boyle and auntie ann dropped by our place for dinner.. after tt, they went for camp meeting with my mom. so ya.. nothing much le..

Nothing to write about..

nothing much in particular... juz have a stiff neck from last night... cannot sleep properly too...

this morning i like cannot wake up ar.. too tired... *yawn yawn yawn...*

so ya.. i slept from 9pm - 3am, played games and do some proposal thingy den went back to sleep at 4.30...

wah.. when i close my eyes, i keep hearing voices, juz chatting here and there.. everyone's voices.. so hard to sleep ar.. i like try not to hear ar, cannot sia! my head too much unrest la.. i think cos i play games den go sleep...

den when i finally get to sleep, i kena oppression... body cannot move, either wide awake, or half conscious and hallucinating.. i had to force my body to move... maybe i kena attacked, cos i was having great anger in my heart la... so end up, could not sleep much.. each time i sleep, i become paralyzed... damn uncomfortable... tonight muz pray le..

so ya.. nothing much la.. so bb!

Ya la...

I SUCK OK!?

playing a quarter is a damn INSULT to me man! i rather juz go play for club than stay on if i'm still being looked down on. SO WAD IF MY HANDS SUCK! if u think my ands suck, IT SUCK! damn it. wad's visualizing to me!? NOTHING! i dun get a chance to let it out! and it aint the first time! damn! wad's the point for me visualizing than!? i'll juz sit back and be a spectator, or rather juz send me home! for crying out loud! got important things to complete. and wad, i have to do it 3am now? i rather not waste my time watching and come home finish my overdue thingy for the dialogue session. i've watched ENOUGH! dun waste my time...

The Contender

the contender is one of the reality tv shows tt the damn americans created. man... it's seriously done on purpose to cause pain to everyone... juz watching it make my blood boil.. how low can pple go to earn big bucks!

the contender is about these bunch of guys staying in the same house, going through training together for their final battle with.. EACH OTHER!

they have to fight their friends! can u believe it or not! it sucks man! it's such a sickening show.

they make their parents watch their fight, film down the tears of the family, the pain they go through with their son fighting and one family has to face the shame of their son losing... ON NATIONAL TV!

WTH!

survivor was a major hit and it is a nice show. but now, reality tv are becomeing more bold and violent. man.. i cant stand it.

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anyway, i juz cut my hair cos the whole rugby team wanna have the same hairstyle and i am damn embarrassed with my new hairstyle!!! argh!!! sooo ugly.... but u noe, it's for the team... i gave it like an hours thought of whether i want to cut man...

anyway, my hair's so damn short... so wierd... haha.. cant stand it! somemore tml i am gonna do the commands for morning assembly.. haiz... soo wierd looking... haha..

now, i can run faster!! the wind would juz cut through my little strands of hair... hahaha...

ok... tt's all for today la... bb!

hope tml goes well!! i've prepared real hard for tml!

A div's coming!!

"ahh........ A Div's coming.... man... this is making my whole body......... tremble.....

it make me.... tremble in.........."

"EXCITEMENT!!"

"raaaaargh!!!!!!"

i sooo cant wait for A div's! we're gonna show em wad MI team spirit is! win or lose, my goal, is to show others...... MI's SPIRIT!!!!! raaaaargh!!!!!!!

haha!! i'm goona do my 110% in the game! pass to the wing, i wanna feel wad it is like to be brought down! i have never been brought down and i dun feel the fear in being brought down! so gimme the chance to feel that fear of facing the opposition!

guys!!!!!! i'm on da wing!!!!!!!!

entry for yesterday..

yesterday... hmmm.. it was sooo... boring, boring, boring! haha...

did not do much yesterday except play maple at about 6am, take a look at my GP poem writing hw, go back to sleep, wake up, chiong my new PS2! haha...

after tt cut hair, go church.. and now my hair look wierd.. haha... not cut properly ar..

anyway, church yesterday wasn't too boring.. haha.. it was juz quiet hahaha! we had this other preacher and her title was a shampoo brand. ha! Follow Me...

at least most of us listen.. (me too =D)

afer tt, went to dec's place for bbq.. ok la.. i din eat much.. haha..... dun feel like eating with soo many pple around... like have to fight for food! hahaha!! i wasn't tt hungry too.. so i juz sat back and see got wad nice stuff pple nvr take , den i take haha....

after tt, i was real bored man!! hah.... nothing to do... of all times, nobody msged me.. ar... haha.. when i playing games, msg come non-stop.. haiyo... muz be God stopping me from getting addicted haha!

sooo... i chatted a lil with esther, col and joy.. but.. i had nothing to talk about! hahaha! i was like crapping.. -_-dunnoe why when with church pple, i nothing much to talk de... sianz... so silly haha..

anyway, tml i'll be back in school! so can start playing a fool again!!! haha! love going around, running all over the place finding pple to talk, disturb and MAKE FUN OF!! haha.. pris... hahahaha!!! she fell for tt hand thingy!

kk.. gotta go prepare to go to church lioaz bye!

wad about today??

hmmm... sooo.. today was quite an ok day.. got the fun and boring part of school haha...

so.. i remember in chem lecture, i kinda fell asleep haha... den i heard miss lee said something like this...

"when u react propanoic acid and methanol, wad will u get??"
*mumblings*(pple in the lecture replied her but i couldnt really catch them cos i was asleep...)

"YES! u get an ester formed!"
*bubble pops* ----> dries up drool and look up (jkjk)

"huh!?!?! esther foong!?"

haha... sooo blur hor!! anyway, haven seen esther foong for quite some time le hor??

ok anyway, back to my day... actually quite lazy to update now... cant remember much either... oh ya! i nearly scored another try during touch with my trademark move!! (tt would make it the third time johnny fell for it haha..) or rather, trademark finishing! haha...

argh!!! it was sooo frustrating... cos i kinda made quite a few mistakes today.. and a try would have saved me!! haha.. and ya.. i think i've gotta tell johnny bout the up down gaps.. gave me quite a few today... but good game!

man.. i broke through johnny and saha(maybe not saha but someone else.. forgot) liaoz... YET! i still passed the ball back.. somemore drop ball!!! argh!!!!!!!!!!!! there goes my try..... zzzz... but i was going all crazy and was enjoying myself!! LOADS!

overall, i had a hell lot of fun... regret not staying over night.. but also, it has been a long time since i've been to a net meeting.. so i guess i dun really regret now! haha.. nitez pple!

thursday equals to...

to 3 sleeping periods!!! haha... maths ma... 3 periods straight some more!! 2hr,15mins of maths... zzz.... my most hopeless subject..

during GP today, we did something a lil fun today haha.. we're suppose to write a poem about life.. and mr fung told us to each come out with a sentence, den it'll form our poem. wierd huh. and the best part, it does not rhyme haha.. ok, it need not rhyme ha!

sooo.. as we were telling him our lines on life, hahahaha... it was kai's turn. guess wad! kai said this...

"cher, my one no link...." ... *pause* ... (den he carried on with his line on life)

guess wad again!

as kai said his line on life, mr fung wrote down the line on "my one has no link..."!!!!
-_-"
so in the middle of our so called poem, there's this line on my one has no link.. haha!! sooo dumb... hahaha...

anyway, i was juz playing with my new PS2 in which i have not paid a single cent... yet! haha... forgot all about my work man... anyway, gonna get started on some physics i guess... so.. ya... tml, i might not be staying over in school liaoz... got thigs to do on sat... see how!

ah chuan --->: my coach!

haha... ah chuan is my rugby coach and he's damn chubby chubby type haha... den the way he talk ar, also damn funny and cute! hahaha...

ah chuan ---> "ok! boys, let's start wit some sield(shield) tackling excercise!"
"... ish(if) you cannot break tchoo(through) the line,....."
"...do a swish(sweet) pass and make ur opponent uncomtable (uncomfortable) while u very comtable..."

haha.. cute and cool coach who takes lots of explaining to get wad he has in mind across all the ruggers!! hahaha!!

anyway, i was a lil reluctant to go for training today, but as ususal, once u start, u dun wan to stop! haha... today, din really play very well during the touch game aha... din burn anybody's socks! haha... but our physical con, not bad sia.. we have to sprint 5 laps 50m like not very tiring.. i tot it was 5 sets of 100m!! haha... i will fall flat on the floor... *piak!* i think.. haha!

ok, akira's bowling fren reminded me something!! it's about the gremlin!! ahhhhh!!!!!! hahahaha... ok, pple, stop scribbling stuff about me on da tables le la.. haha.. even no matter how sweet it is or wad... =p cos! got pple who will write something over like, ---> me looking like a gremlin! -_-# haha...

guys, if u need somewhere to write these, i've got a friendster! hahaha.. u can write down all the sweet things as testimonials for me... even IF! i look like a GREMLIN!!! ahhhhhhhhhh!!ahahaha...

okok... juz joking about everything.. who ever who wrote the gremlin, i forgive u.. -_-" heh... =D

a short day..

NOT!

today's the longest day for us 04S3 students... cos after school, we had to go for some.. chem polymer workshop... BUT! it was fun!! ahahahaha!! (who ever said it was boring hee.. =D)

i love making the nylon threads. it's like soooooo fun!! haha... the unsaturated ethene molecules (i think) juz keeps joing up like some never ending until reagent runs out kind of thing. so fun! haha. i juz keep spinning in the nylon thread which is formed.. haha..

i also made this me to u bear. haha... it's soo nice like the original, it even has it's trademark mark on it. cool huh! everyone's like fighting for that mould haha...

let's see who's tt lucky person i feel like giving tt bear to.. =D

ok... i also made this winnie the pooh bear which is really cute but! cos i was a lil impatient, it ended up with my bear having pimples!!

*eee* i noe.. haha..

anyway, i had 2 bears in the end.. haha.. this is wad happened..

"hmmm.. lay kuen, ur bear very cute hor, but like mine liddat.. haha.."
*she place the bear on my hand*
"thanks ar!!"

"ok lor... thank you lor.."
innocent face, *smiles*

"huh??? u giving me ar?"

"ya lor, anyway, they look cuter together like a couple heh... =D"

"YAY!~ thanks ar!!"

haha... so now i have 2 winnie the pooh! cool! haha....

so after the whole thing, went to look for my new pair of shoes with my dad.. i've been eyeing this latest pair of Vans shoes... real nice.. but i've got this little problem... size 10 looks a lil big, while 9, is juz nice for my feet... so how?? which should i buy??

guys! tell me wad to do!! i dunnoe haha...

anyway, i am gonna go do my chem assignment. =D
readers, *gasps* hahaha!!

this is the second time i'm typing this entry cos of the stupid freaking lousy blog!! argH!!!
this entry, aint as good as my previous.. i was sooo damn satisfied with the previous one.. tried to make this as good as the first but.. i still think the first one was better.. argh!

I LOST MY ENTRY!!!

damn blog! u suck! made me lose one whole entry.. zzz
-_-"
actually, it wasn't a long entry. =D but i'm tired!!!! arhhhhh!!!!!

juz feeling real tired now.. trying to keep myself awake.. ar.. juz now i logged into msn den go watch tv a while come back, kenna flooded with msges sia!! dunnoe where to start.. haha.. actually i quite lazy la.. cos headache.. but i juz replied...

SEE I SO GOOD!
*grins*
anyway, gonna go to bed soon, cos tml i wanna maple.. anyway, haven done my chem assignment yet... how?? guess i shall stand once again in chem lesson.. (at least i did my chem pract assignment... hee)

haiz... i wanna work harder and study hard... rugby's important too haha...

i've got this rugby "tattoo" it's damn punky and cool.. i gave the idea and design of it, moses drew it for me B.E.A.U.T.I.F.U.L.L.Y! (one L or 2 Ls?? haha..) gonna take a pic of it and upload.. once the final finish is done tt is... it looks cool now though haha! nitez pple....

Snorez..

haha.. i think i'm turning into a.. PIG! hahaha.. wild boar! hahaha... i'm juz lazing around the house, playing games, watching tv, and snacking lke mad!!! haha!! at least i've got training almost 3 times a week.. haha.. but i've gotta work harder!

okok... so now i'm 'trying' real hard to study and make up for lost time in school. but i'm having problems to make myself study... man...

i'm i gonna retain!?

ar.. what can i do?? haha... mapleholism... ahah... guess.. i might have to work with an o'level cert, i think.. hope not..

ok.. i have juz realise some things after having some space for some thinking.. i've neglected a lot of things.. A LOT! first, it's like all of u guys noe.. ec.. din have time.. after life got boring, i started neglecting God... now... my studies... games and fun is juz filling up my whole life.. man... guys... PRAY FOR ME!!!!

aiya.. i juz dun wanna bother now... juz have to push myself to study... kk.. shall go try studying..

sianz...

i juz lost my whole entry i typed.. haha.. but anyway, things i said in tt entry...

• have not been updating cos blogspot loads slowly...
• yesterday had a boring seminar, and all of us planned and scheme to pon!
• yesterday was also international friendship day, so there was this things about thailand ahha..

ok. yesterday the thailand thing, they taught us how to speak some thai.. haha.. their language like begins with only k and s.. haha.. (ks, maplers wil noe) so ya... there was one one excuse me/sorry or something.. goes like this.

"mai khao cai." -----> sounds like -----> "mai kao be*!"

haha... sounds funny la their language.. it was soo hilarious ar, yesterday...

anyway, nothing much. except tt my viewership is droppong too haha! guess i muz think of interesting topics to blog ya! haha.. kk... see ya guys soon.. back to mapling... went straight to sleep after SMALLVILLE!~!~

titleless.. haha...

ok.. yesterday din update cos blog was loading slowly. haha... lazy to wait.. anyway, i wanna say tt 2 days ago, esther chong had this song on her blog.. haha.. nice song. if u are reading this, can u put it back up?? i wanna copy the html. ok. so when i was sleeping tt nite, as usual, i was tuning in to carrie chong... and i heard tt song!!! ahahaha!! wad a coincidence!! i was like listening to it for more than 10 times while mapling, den at night, tt cartoony song was played!! of all places!! hahaha... i tot perfect 10 played only like the latest songs and all, but cartoony songs too!! haha..

maybe i was dreaming....

so ok! nothing much has happened except my sis is now keen on learning malay, and she keeps asking me how to say this and tt. haha.. my malay language craze is a lil over already but i'm still learning new words every week!! haha... it's fun to learn malay... so when i go east timor, i CAN communicate hahaha!!

okok... nothing much la.. juz feel like resting now... 3 days straight intensive P.E. and training... tml's my one day break.. haha.. den back to torture on friday! haha... actually, it isnt tt tiring la... especially once u started. is like i dun wanna stop, but no choice!! like today... RAIN!!! ar!!! haha...

hmmm...

i forgot what i wanted to write, but oh well. let's talk about the game that's getting more popular!!

RUGBY!!! `no pain, no game...

haha... ok.. i love our year ones this year though they do not look like ruggers, but they'll be the coolest batch. seriously! they have G.R.E.A.T team spirit in which i like. i hope they would not follow the foot steps of swearing and cursing, violence and bringing down of others. really.

i really love our team now, (talking about yr2s and 3s..) we're getting better, i'm having a better relationship with em too.. i think we'll move on far this yr! i'm trying to improve on my hands seriously.

johnny-- "not bad ar, today i nvr see u drop ball."
me-- "actually i got la.."
johnny-- "at least i din see em!"

haha... true, i did drop balls, but sometimes, it's really a shit pass, or miscomunication. i've told saha before, cos he's playing along side with me. i cant catch hi balls. i think that and 1 other was the only real drop balls i had. the rest, shit pass.

i really had this shit pass, miss comunication pass today, i juz except it as my fault (as always) cos i dun want to blame others! i mean it. it's like u want to cut pass me, or dun wan, how i noe write? if it's too far front, it's definitely not my ball right? if i try catching it, definitely knock on!

i noe u guys would say, run up and catch. i did. really!~

anyway, we're improving, and i hope we'll do well.. i'm putting my 100% these days to take note of changes.. i'm practicing on my hands. i'm practicing on other positions other than wing. cos i want to be a better player.

i've to agree with myself tt i've improved quite a bit yet, i do u feel looked down on at times man... but it's ok la.. i'll juz train harder. =D

anyway, touch game today was super fun! i feel more involved. wanted to do me and kira's trademark move but din la.. din have the chance. nvm. next game! hahahaha...

relaxed day...

today was a really nice day man... one i would seldom have...

ok, so first off, had morning service at expo... was being a little unattentive haha... but today had some fun with the bible and names.. haha.. me and matthew were laughing at some names the bible has..

e.g. tel melah ----> tell me lah! bezai ----> bi sai (compete in chinese) uzi ----> machine gun

haha.. okok, enough of wierd names though there's like quite a few more haha...

after church, went down to my grandma's place to wait for the rest of my relatives to arrive cos we're gonna see my grandpa... my grandpa's urn.. haha..

ok.. after all of em arrived, we set off... ( man.. my 6 yr old cousin's goona grow to become one really sweet girl man... nvr see her for sometime le.. she's really sweet... =D)

when we arrived, we re-decorated my granddad's the erm.. dunnoe wad u call it.. the one tt stores the urn and it is sealed.. after my family members decorated it, i decided to walk around...

the place is a really peaceful place, filled with flowers and best wishes... i looked at those thingy one by one and noticed that there are some who died real young like 22? 24? man.. there's some fellow 87 kids who are there too... but they look soo peaceful being in there... maybe because i know tt they will be in heaven.. their 'graves' were all decorated nicely... even i feel like being in there.. but, it's juz a feeling la...

i juz continued to look around, seeing all those departed ones... man.. it's juz quite saddening especially wen tere are both male and female, young, handsome/pretty, but has gone to be with the Lord... they would have sucha great future....

anyway, we soon left tt place, went down to farm mart... it was another nice, comfortable and peaceful place... looking at the scenery from there is sooo beautiful.. it's like, u'll think of someone, but for me, it;s like wanna think and miss someone also dun have...

i have no one to miss. to think of...

ok, so, i juz watched other pple fish for prawns haha... sooo fun.. if i had a girlfriend in future, i'd bring her there. den canfeed goat, haha.. soo fun! my lil cousins were having soo much fun...

from there, we could see a lottle bit of sunset.. real nice sky view... love tt place... stayed for dinner there.. wonderful dinner...

man.. tonight was really one of a kind.. so relaxed.. first time in lke 2-3 yrs i spent time with the whole of my mom's family on an outing.. except tt, my grandpa aint there with us... man.. i miss him.. there's this uncle in church tt really look like him, everytime i see him, i'll think of my grand pa... maybe not so much now, but last time when tt 'uncle' had a walking stick, it really reminded me of my grandpa... haha...

my.happy.ending

looking at my life now..

it juz feels sooo much like a korean drama sequel... it's like some sort of love hate relationship kind of thingy... now tt i know the real truth, man.. it hurts.. rather not have known or cared.

i really juz wanna start a fresh..

like my old self... forget everything... looking to my left and my right looking for alternative routes to take... but i think, life's juz like tt. ha... cant escape...

i am really lost now...

i tot things could have turned out fine, i tot it was another chance but, i guess not... thrown aside, hated, loved, cheated. what a mess man...

trying to be left alone..

i dun want anything to do with us. i juz wanna put things to a rest. we'll still be friends ya. i dun wanna reply cos, i dun want to have any part of me with u.

this is juz the perfect song...

I'M STUDYING...

belive it or not...