30/11/05

haha... ok, today after our friendly game, zhi wei, ah wei and i came back to my house to shower den go out for dinner. hahaha. have been a long time since i've last hanged out so late with so much fun. i think it was quite fun la.

we dropped by rocky's pizza... AGAIN! haha.. previous time with enos, JL, vic and sam.

saw that new town girl, only vic knows her cos they're from the same year. but like she said, that girl, she's soooo hard working.. man... i sooo wanted to tip her. she was like cinderella. she responded when i was playfully calling a waiter/waitress. she served us with water constantly. (not like the others there.... remember the last time? it was like a few hours later before we were served with another cup of water by another waitress after that girl went to school)

oh, btw, that girl from new town, my sec school, she's studying in poly and works part time.. hard working ya??

really sweet soft spoken person. hahaha.. anyone who wants to get to know her, drop by rocky's at rail mall! hahahahaha... jkjkjkjk...

so like we juz chatted there till late night. the thing i LOVE doing. chatting and nvr go home!! wuahahahahaha!!! proly when i grow up, the bar would be my favourite hang out. nice slow music, nice environment, drinks, chat till late at night. haha.. and bars are like quite quiet there, unlike the long bar at beach road... haha... did u noe, u get to litter in the long bar!? hahahaha.. bet u guys din noe tt.

soooo i've juz reached home like 20 mins ago... proly gonna spend some time praying till i fall asleep hahahaha..

nitez pple.

oh and, thanks a lot tee wei!!! haha... he treated us to dinner!!!!!

29/11/05

alright! for these few mornings, i'll have to go to school for lessons. today, i was sooooo tired. the lecturer felt that we looked more livelier today but in actual fact, i was sooo sleepy, i was trying sooo hard to stay awake!!

after lesson, i went home to pack my stuff for rugby training.

i reached home at about 1pm. so i ate lunch, pack my stuff, did some other preparations for tomorrow and planned to leave at 2.30pm. i was done about 2.15 or something.

i decided to get some rest because i was sooo sleepy hahaha.. i told myself "a short shut eye. 10...... mins..........." zzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz

HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! i fell asleep! OMG!!! hahahahaha...

but the dreams i had felt really mystyrious and..... nice.

i cant remember how it began, but i remember waking up a lil, half concious like, and i began hearing a young female voice singing to me... it sounded sooooo sweet... the voice juz went on gently and slowly changing song to "over the rainbows" she juz continued singing in my left ear till i was fully asleep and guess wad!!!

hahaha.. i was taught on mass weddings as some comercial thingy in class today and i dreamt of that!! hahahaha.. many couples getting married at a go.. i cant really remember.

all i remember was throughout this dream, there was this girl, hahaha.. i dunnoe wad's up with her. but i seem to know her. ha. wierd. and she was juz bringing me around. why? i have no idea. i cant remember. i am trying to. one thing she did was she hel my hand and brought me round somewhere hahaha... the feeling's something i've nvr felt before ha.

dun worry about me. i'm juz going crazy! hahahaha.. but it was a really sweet dream la. the place looks somewhere like home but a lil different. hahaha..

now, i love sleeping haha..

27/11/05

AWWW!!! EVERYONE'S OFF TO CAMP!!!

man... i'm really lonely now la.. many things have been going through my head too..

in fact, after watching this show, this just hit me --- i dun mind living in poverty with my loved one. probably with the leftover money, start a little stall, cafe, by the sea, "macho nachos" hehe.. jus the both of us. aww.. haha...

i kinda watched this korean show about this korean community living in poverty and how this rich lil girl joined a school there. den this lil boy and that lil girl fell in love. awwww.. sooo sweet!!!

ok, the name of the show is when i turned nine. I AM GONNA GO HUNT FOR THAT DVD!!

i have decided to start a DVD rack in my room where i'll keep all my favourite movies. all those heart warming ones... awww... (original ones) haha...

i am watching too many sweet movies already la!! i think i can live my whole life watching them.

ah... and that girl, she looks like grace in one of the scene. grace ZHANG! hahahaha....

okok. stop here.

25/11/05

juz something that hit me...

i was just chatting on msn (...clue)

and i suddenly realised the sacrifice made. i'm looking forward to see the major reaping of fruits of labour... not mine though. i salute u.

spent my day more or less alone out "exploring" Singapore. haha.. i wished that i was just "topped up" with money and i'd spend my days wandering. i kinda enjoyed wandering today...

after updating my passport, i dropped by beach road. been a long time... den head to town, bought me a book to read cos i'm VERY free spending time on the wrong stuff..

i love relaxation. but it's too much. though i have stopped games significantly (which is a great breakthrough), i still spend most of my time doing other things like sleeping, watching tv, surfing the net, downloading music etc....

i muz somehow focus... it's over for most of my other church friends but not me... i have one more year...

i juz have the feeling that next year's gonna fly. yea... FLY!

25/11/05

i juz wan to give out a loud shout!!!

the first time in many years, this show ("a walk to remember") put tears in my eyes... i was soooo heart broken and devasted and sooo touch by his love.

it's the best sooo far amongst all the other shows i've watched.

man.. that guy.... i'm like him. ha... a bad boy in school, but not the bully type.. hmmm.. maybe a bit la. haha... but awww!!!!!!!! she's like the perfect girl... oh wow.... it's sooo sweet... i practically fell in love with her!

she's sooo sweet... and soooo special... she made a change in someone's life... Landon's real fortunate to have someone like jamie in his life... how i wish my life was like his...

a life changing love... wow... it's sooo beautiful... i'm sooo touched!!!

i'd love to switch lives with him man.. aww... to experience the truest of true love. wow.... it's really beautiful...

i cant sleep now... i'm juz soo caught up with that show...

the writer of that show, and the director are really good. not forgetting the actors too! =)

"man... wow..." tt's all i can say... "man... wow..."

23/11/05

thank you Lord for the service juz now. thank God i din miss out. REALLY!

even as i was doing cam, the presence and anointing of the Lord juz hit me and filled me. it was wonderful... i know the calling upon my life and i pray that God would continue to use me.

only when u know ur God is real would u want to let ur loved ones know about Him. i know mine's real.

"When the multitudes come, THERE IS JOY!!!"

man... i'm feeling soooo blessed. wow!

juz soo power filled! k.. need some rest.. ha...

23/11/05

ah.. long time since i last played. had fun today.

man... my whole body's hurting... from my nose, to my jaws to the scrathes on my leg.

but i've not gotten enough.

really feel like playing more... ha.. i remember SAS, it's soo intimidating man... big and fast.

i'd stick to playing with the forwards if they're big but slow haha... man. i love playing second row. so fun but really tiring...

scrum, rucks. i love entering rucks. fun. i like to go in second cos everyone in den i go in and bang them haha... got momentum ar.

ok, lets get to the gross part and gross out all girls reading this (or even gay guys) hahahaha... jkjk.

we were bathing and the toilet's like all flooded!!! it's gross if someone peeed into it la!!! yucks! den ah wei washed tee wei's underwear by accident. ha.. funny. make me laugh until the jaw pain.

dunnoe wad's with my jaw.. i cant close my mouth fully on the right side until after some time. den i had a bloodied nose today, and i can dig chunks of dried blood out of it hahahahaha...

den the ear, ha... sam gave me a tissue to clean my ear and it looked like butt wipes!!! hahaha.. like bits and pieces of mud came out like lil pieces of shit. hahahahaha...

okok, grossed out already?? wad's gross is me putting my head in between muddy, hairy, sweaty legs!!!! eeeewwwee wad choice do i have. ha... part of playing with the forwards. it got me a tiny cut behind my ear which hurts everytime i had to enter scrum!!!

had fun la. i loved my first and last game.

first against CJ as i had fun tackling their winger who was quite slow... missed about 2 tackles in that game la. warm up hahaha... actually those 2 i wont miss one. juz that i forgot the tracking thingy. i love tackling people who are trying to pick up balls cos they are stationary and i can juz dive on them! hahahaha....

den CJ... haiz... it's like the only game i felt that we could win besides PJ. CJ had many fumbles... and i kept trying to pick em up until i got sick of trying. cos the first few times i did, i had 2 ruggers running at me! WAH!!! that's scary k! like how much i like tackling stationary people, they too would love it! -_-

in the end, i juz ruck over who ever who picked it. ha.. that was y i was stinking dirty on my first game.

the last game, i gave it 100% until about last 1 or 2 mins.. too tired from all the chasing. i had to run over the back line to support... man.. it's more tiring den playing backs la... i dunnoe la.. i juz follow ah wei run, though i really wanted to stay on the open wing..

okok... tt's about it la... the rest of the games were boring... and now, i cant close my jaw again... haiz... soo uncomfortable... i feel like juz breaking off my jaw la... argh!

NITE.

21/11/05

my mind's juz in the mood of living life in eternity... where i cease to exist but i do somewhere. soooo lost... soooo peaceful...

just how peaceful it is... my grand father has passed... he lives peacefully in the crematorium... as i walked by looking at the other (dead) christians at the crematorium, they looked real peaceful... with toys pasted by the sides, letters written by their loved ones, i dunnoe... but tears are juz coming out of my eyes...

to many things in my mind...

i feel sooo peaceful now... as if my life's complete... i yearn forgiveness, i long to be loved. thank you God...

i love the skies, the stars, the sea, the sand.... i love God's creation... i have taken life too lightly, going for the wrong things. reaching unseen goals. how lacking of foresight can i be...

many things running through my head... it's as if u're just gonna pass on, and things just run through real quickly, good things, bad things, sad things, nice things happy things sweet things... too fast for u to catch. u say "wait a moment! let me enjoy that thought!" but it just fly by soooo quickly. life's just flying...

too many things i've done wrong, too many things i want to change, too many things i want to do, want to accomplish...

ha... i just i realised that i din really understand what i just typed.. i'm too lost back in time, the time of knights and dragons, prince and princesses, kings and queens, poems and songs of love...

forgive the blabberings.. i'm just falling asleep in this _______ undescribable feeling.

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i think enya has wonderful songs... i remember being in the car and not letting my dad off the engine as i was listening to her songs on the radio... until the DJ comes on then would i step out of the car... i was only.... 3 or 4 yrs old?? a little boy...

i'd fall asleep listening to her sing. it was like the hottest thing on the radios at that time. enya's songs are just sooo mystical, sooo peaceful... sooo nice...

ah... probably i'm writting nonsense cos i'm tired...

tmr's my rugby tournament. am not that excited la. (probably just not excited now.) but i definitely want to play a good game man. been sooo long. hmmmm... if like what a chuan said, "play it like touch rugby," i think it shouldn't be too difficult. some more it's contact, boost my confidence of breaking through.

imagine people just barely touching u in touch rugby, what makes u so sure they'll take u down in contact?

so like, i need to study... i'm afraid i'd fall asleep before lost begins... so ya. muz hit my 2 hours!!!

20/11/2005

Your name of Gabriel has created a most expressive nature, idealistic and inspirational, driven with a strong inner urge to be of service in some way that would uplift humanity as a whole (ha... humanity as a whole? not sure if it's true). However, there is a tendency to assume too heavy a burden of responsibility for others, which leads to worry and undue concern. (Kannan will agree with me in this point ya?? haha.. i told u about it before right? and it's not just a tendency. it's like all the time! hahaha... even rui xiong will know ha.. i was telling u guys about this during CG.) People with problems are drawn to you as they recognize you as one who has understanding and gives not only sympathy and comfort but provides also some constructive advice or assistance. You have a generous quality to your nature, but you must guard carefully against giving more than you receive or you will find yourself doing without because you have helped someone else.( ha.... sooo true. ha... sometimes when i juz feel like treating or something, i'd juz spend happily. hahaha... enjoy giving my friends a treat once in a while =D )

i this is soooooooooooooo true!!!!! i was sooooo shocked i typed in my mom's name and asked her if she's like what the results say she is and guess wad!? she said most of it. woah!!!

mine's like 90%, 95%? hahaha...

19/11/2005

woohoo!! i had a really nice encounter with God today... man...

i remember elvin singing the part from a soft and slow melody to one really loud about the glory of God filling the earth. den suddenly, i was drenched in the holy spirit, it was sooo dense.

even though the crowd in the building was really quiet except for the loud music, i began hearing the voices of thousands of people cheering. they were shouting, screaming... oh my i din noe wad it was.

suddenly, something began to visualize. i saw crowds on my left and my right. soooooo many tiny lil people worshipping God!!! oh my!!! it was wonderful!!! i was overjoyed!!!!!

as i looked out, the crowd was NEVER ENDING!!!!! it stretched. i was standing in the middle i remember the feeling was like really tall. and i saw the whole horde of people worshipping God!!!

man... it was sooo wonderful... especially when out of no where the cheering began.

aww.... i could juz see it man.. people coming to God.

thank you God. my prayer in which i prayed while i was bathing today was answered. i'm really happy.

15/11/2005

ok, i have been cracking my head day and night thinking of a new e-mail add since my current one is kinda cheesy. haha... (i'm growing up!!!) have created one, but i felt that it was equally cheesy or rather gurly?? i dunnoe hahaha..

sooooo can u guys help me think of one?? all u creative people!!! hahaha..

also, after creating my new e-mail, i'm thinking of creating a new blog. ha... i love this one alot but... i think creating a new one would be good. need to go look for blog skins or if there's anyone out there who can help me!!!! (again)

hmmmm.... sooo... i've been playing lots of games these days.. slowly getting started on studying... think i'm getting addicted. haha.. thanks to rakion. it's like gunz but i think that it's cooler!!! haha... it's really fun and i'm addicted to it cos i'm constantly improving.

(point learned- u'll only enjoy wad u're doing only if u're improving. =D )

haha... for the first time, just now, i was titled excellent player of that certain server. haha... felt good. my first time!! i owned the game man. WUAHAHAHAHA!!!

so like i'm soooo happy now, i'm gonna study chem till i finish the first part of it and continue gaming later. heh...

BB!

13/11/2005

had a wondeful evening today. andrea, her sis, jia lin and sam came doen today!!! haha... they said edge was cool!! and for that, u guys are cool!! haha. come again! =P

today, jeremy preached quite a cool semon. it was a really good one in which i have been benefitted from! wuahahahaha!!!

ok, after service, we went to lao pa sat to see vic perform. but by the time we reached, her performance was over... and andrea and her sis left us cos her parents were there... so left sam, jl and me...

went to BK for dinner. on our way there, "it" began to hurt again!!! i couldn't walk. was suppose to see doctor today but i'm like sooo tired. i fell asleep at 10+ juz before tribal counsel during the comercial break and woke up at 11 today!!! man....

so as i was saying, it hurts. and i remembered jeremy's sermon. so now that he prayed for us to have the power for miracles. i pray that it would stop hurting. a few minutes later, it stopped and i walked perfectly fine!!!! halelujah!!!!! woot!!! thank God for that miracle. i am gonna continue to believe and wear boxers. see if the pain's still there. if it comes back, no fear! God is here!!!

hang out and had a wonderful night man. was fun la. i was at hyper mode. telling em stories after stories. juz chatting. haha... k. everyone's telling me to grow up. ya, i know... 5yr old in this 18yr old body. I KNOW LA! my classmates, my teachers, my other school friends, except church people. haha.. guess i'm not sooo warmed up with em, or probably am holding back. haha...

anyway, i like my childish self. at least i dun need to act cute! wuahahahahahahaha!!!! =P

grow up gab...

11/11/2005

ha.. back from camp. camp was ok la. a lil boring haha... i juz had to assess the others. had quite a cool team too la. =)

hmmm... yea... i'm happy that i managed to share with them on the last day. i juz had sooo much time to go from testimonies to testimonies. shared with the rest of the my group members how each and almost every single one of my maids convert. i enjoyed speaking to them. haha.. i think i want to be a pastor when i grow up. it was soooo fun. i really love speaking to the "masses" hahaha...

ok, soo today camp ended early. so i managed to hang out with victoria, sam, jia ling and enos. was fun la. hahaha.. really really fun!! like long time nvr have such fun. we spent 4 hours in rocky's pizza at rail mall since the diary farm MOE camp was so near rail mall. haha..

we chatted and chatted, den all of us dropped by my place to watch movies!! haha.. rented some shows from ezyvideo ha... reminds me of that time when i'd hang out with des,col,es. haha.. was something like that. really fun. ya! haha...

anyway, i really hope sam and jia ling will come for edge. am really excited and i REALLY hope they DO come! HAHAHA... thanks man. today was fun.

8/11/2005

haha... this song....


now playing --------> something stupid (robbie williams & nicole kidman)

ha.. i heard shanaz sing this song while we were doing our OP slides at woodlands. haha...

cute song. haha...

reminds me of my own stupidity hahaha....

8/11/2005

it was a magnificent reconcilliation.
i cannot forget what happened that sunday at the alter.

it was sooo nice to juz meet with God again. let His love flow through... how magnificent, how real.

i wish i could be used by God like how he uses brother willy (though it's kind of scary...)

brother willy knew where my pain was, no one could have told him before that, he knew my deepest, darkest secret. in which NOBODY knows! except my guardian angel and God. he knew everything.. wow....

God is good... it's kinda scary he knew, i'm embarrassed, but it's god he knows. but i know i'm forgiven and that i feel good cos God filled me with much joy at the alter.

haha.. i was filled with the spirit! flowing, flowing... luahging and den crying, and den laughing again. hahaha.. wierd. only the holy spirit can do that. hahaha...

anyways, i've been praying for my OP and for everyone else. yea.. all u guys out there doing ur A's or like me, OP. ha... all the best!

i'm very prepared. haha.. NO SCRIPT! heh. hope i can pull it through. i've practiced over and over for an hour.. haha.. fun.

soo. nitez pple.. it's soo late...

6/11/2005

first of all...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY COL!!!!!

aww man... first, this morning had diarrhoea den now, i cant walk properly!!! ar!!!!

boys out there, learn from the pro *heh* NVR GO JOGGING WITH BOXERS!!!

no need to fill in the details. i really need to go for that op. it hurts soooo bad.

yea... gonna get some tights for trainings too... if not the other side....... hahaha...

man.. those sport lovers, BOYS, take care man. wear tights.

ok, thank God i went for power night. i know my diarrhoea will be healed.

bro willy like stood there for 30 secs den he touched my waist and prayed for the pain to be gone. ha cool huh! God also told him many other things about my personal life.

now, i feel seriously renewed. it feels really good! =)

ok, juz wanna thank God. haha.. i was soo touched by Him today, was crying den laughing den crying. i was like okok enough stop! stop filling me! but bro willy say wrestle with God for more!!! i was soooo filled with the holy spirit and it feeeeeels soooooo gooooood!!! woooooohooooooo!!!!

ok bye!

4/11/2005

alright! had quite a fun day at the library today. had to go to school first for OP practice... time really flew real fast!!

anyways, i spent quite a while in the library looking through the microfilms. hahaha... i was there alone and i was blur on how to use the machine. haha.. quite embarrassing, but i figured out how to use it on my own in the end. heh.

so i was scrolling through Straits Times more than 10 years old!!! sooo cool right!! looking into the past!! i read an article on rugby. hahaha.. AUSTRAILIA USE TO SUCK!?!? oh my!!!

austrailia forces or something i forgot. haha.. they pulled out of the malaysian cup the following year which i cant disclose.. yet. SG played NZ and we lost 10 to 48 or something. i forgot. hahaha... quite impressive huh. Singapore was once good. hahaha... probably because WE DUN HAVE TO STUDY LIKE WHAT WE DO NOW!!!!

hope MOE reads it and finally lower the our standards and make life nicer for us. even my mom agrees that the standard has increased significantly over the years...

soooo like, i still got my I&R draft to complete... my first draft was totally.... erm.... sucky. hahahaha...

ok, now i have to go look for something and work on my 2nd draft for my I&R...

ok off!

3/11/2005

alright, i juz woke up from my long sleep, thought the heaviness on my head has subsided, but guess not. i am definitely feeling much better though..

juz as i expected, library was closed!!! now i have to brainstorm on what to do!! arr!!!

ok, juz now was really a tiring day thogh i only went out for 3 hours.. haha.. was with mo and i really couldn't move!! was too tired, whole body ached as i walked from JEC to library, back, to IMM.. ha.... had fun juz window shooping la since there wasn't much to do also... i wont be able to concentrate if we catch a show, the timings were bad too...

i juz sat down here and there, couldn't eat much too... i felt like vomiting after lunch... now, i'm finally hungry!!! am gonna eat dinner!! haha.. my mom's cooking now. i think my stomach should be ok by now and i can eat. haha..

hmmm... ok, i'll probably drop by the library tmr. see if i can get what i need, i hope.

ok, am gonna watch my mom cook. cya!

3/11/2005

ah... now my whole body's aching.. i'm tired... last night, i spent almost the whole night in my favourite hang out - the toilet.

had diarrheoa or something. man... i could'nt sleep till 4.30am... now i'm having a headache, teary eyes... my body's soooo weak. i'm hungry but i do not dare eat.

it's like i realised that i was passing out water, cos i kept drinking water, so it's gross la. i got dehydrated in 10 minutes. it's like peeing but at the wrong place.

whatever that went into my body came out. so i stopped drinking water and i felt better. did not hurt soo much and could finally sleep and let my anti-bodies fight the battle. haa..

ha... man... bubbles would be amused by the sound my digestive system made. hahaha.. *bubbles, bubbly bubbbbbles* ha... too much info ya hahaha..

ok, i realy need to go to the library. cos i am in desperate need to do something. i'm running out of time. den again, i juz realised, today's a public holiday! will the library be open?? ar!!!

actually i'm soo weak i cant even walk properly.. dunnoe if i should procrastinate and wait for another day, but i'm afraid it is too last minute.

ahhhh!!! let's see how my day goes la!

1/11/2005

my oh my, it's already november!!

anyway, somehow, i decided to go look for my old computer speakers cos as i was listening to my mp3, the bass was kinda weak no matter how high i pumped it up in the settings. so i found the whole set. yea WHOLE set! my mom took them off i thought she threw them away, thank God she did not.

i untangled everything and plugged it into my comp and watched advent again, WOW!~! the sound is like BOOM! surround!! woohoo! i set the speakers at different specific locations and the sound's good!!

one problem, i did not have space to put the subwuffer (haha.. not sure hot to spell it.) so i'm packing my room!!!

haha.. lots of junk. actually i dun have much time to type this, but i needed a break. ok, so like i juz wanna share something i saw in my handbook in secondary school hahaha... i dun remember writing it though. hahaha..

Dear mom,

Thing$ are really well here at $chool,

but they could be better.

I need $ome thing$ mo$t de$prately.

I $u$pect that you will gue$$ what I mean

and $end me $ome $oon.

Your Loving $on.

Gabriel

Dear son,

NOthing is new here,

i kNOw that you are doing better NOw

than u did in NOvember.

Write aNOther letter soon

I want to get this NOte in the NOon

so i'll sign off NOw

mom

haha... ok, so i'm off to continue packing cos i've got to go to westmall at 5.30... so like need to rush ha.. babye!