31/01/06

could it ever be?
would it ever be me?
how i wish i dun need to go to school,
yet remain clever and know how to do my hw...
this way, i would have all the time to spend with you.

hmmm... how so low life can sometimes be for me,
i've enjoyed everyday, walking in sun, exploring.
keeps my mind free.
free of school, sometimes, free of u.
but then, life would be so sad.

many times, i enjoy the company of my friends.
how each of u have impacted my life.
especially one, u have done the best.
you have made me learn so much.
sometimes, u make me look like a pest.

how u understand things, i will nvr know.
how u look at things, sometimes i juz wont see.
all i know is that, proly, u're the best for me.
my bestest friend there can ever be.
but again, is it juz friends for u and me?

u made me understand what my friend goes through.
helped me brigded the gap and created a stepping stone for him and i.
i see things as how he sees things,
i fear the same way too.
yet, i know, it's all created by myself and I.

aH!!! I FEEL SOOO MUCH BETTER, writing it in a way, i might and yet might not understand. ah... juz to let it out feels good. haha... time to finsih up my work!

nitey!

30/01/06

ahhh!!! have collected quite a lot of hong baos! wad about u guys!?!? hahaha...

alright. am real bored of visiting people so i managed to convince my parents to juz visit relatives and den some important pple like bosses and all. hahahaha!!!

spent my days (saturday and monday) out travelling, discovering singapore~ ah!!! i love it! i am gonna do it everytime i am free, and i'll bring along my fishing gear too!! hahaha...

i'm all sun burnt! haha.. too much vitamin E for today.. ya.... owowow! spent most of my time in the north, and central of Singapore. places like toa payoh, thomsom road, bishan, ang mo kio, khatib, yishun, hmmm... novena, raffles place etc etc.. hahaha...

i love it!!

oh my! have to update when i come back, i juz reached home la! now i have to rush out again!! -.- i juz showered, haven wear my shirt.

sooooo tata~

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am back from my dad's boss's place! haha... ok, had lots of goood food!! haha.. not snacks, FOOD!

wah... sushi!!! superb laksa!!! scallob! (did i spell it wrong? ha..) crayfish!! woOoOoOo yum! =q

lots of wine!! haha.. free flow of really good wine!! had quite a bit. den my table had a policeman, who's my dad's secretary's husband. he was juz commenting "u better not drive, confirm get caught. look at ur face, sooo red, nvr drink, they also think u drink!" hahaha....

remember? i was sun kissed! lols! hahaha... but had quite a lot too la! i wont get drunk one so no worries! ha!

i cant wait for tmr!!!!! fishing at bedok reservoir!!!! i MUZ catch a fish!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! soooooo exciteD!!!! hahahahaha..

okok, better go sleep already!!! hahaha.... FISH!!!

28/01/06

today's chinese new year's eve... but i'm not the least excited...

guess, i'm kinda feeling something inside of me... things i want to know, things i want to resolve. i juz want to understand more. so tell me.

i cant help but feel this way. cny would be juz another day... new clothes, new shoes. ah... haven buy shoes.. i've seen a pair in which i kind of like but i dun feel like spending more money already haha.. my levi's already costs a bomb!

yea... am not myself today. ha... mood swing? hahaha... feeling a lil emo la i guess.

k la.. gonna work on my maths assignment.

26/01/06

i woke up today, feeling real lifeless...

dunnoe why.. i juz din wan to come to school today... told my mom, and she replied my sooooooo nicely i felt obliged. i din wan to upset her..

hope she dun use this method on me all the time. if not no time out for me, or i'll juz have to make her angry...

hmmm... i knew i was gonna be late too..

reached school, all dead, i juz din feel like talking... went to class, sat down and juz started on work.

den my day was kinda perked up a lil thanks to ur morning message! hahaha.. YOU! hahahahahaha... TY!

i juz day dreamed all day... din feel like concentrating today... thought of any things. haha... dunnoe... juz feel like letting my mind wonder.. how things have changed so much for me...

for the better or for the worst, i'm not sure... ha...

but i dunnoe.. i juz felt i want to be with God... felt lke, i dunnoe... describing it is sooo wierd...

guess, am a lil sad and lost. i juz wan to be where God is, cos i wan to try to put some stuff aside. i din wan them to affect me and how i feel, this feeling has been with me for so long.but i guess it's time to let go of some things. it juz affects the way you think. generates fear, sometimes juz makes u sad and hurt. ha... worried.... but, i know what i am putting myself through though...

ok, i'm happy i juz made it through today... thought i couldn't. thank God...

24/01/06

ok! since akira mentioned it, the rumor is a rumor!!! me and who ever grace's match making me with is FALSE! dunnoe why she's doing tt too but... ha... not true k!

den i have been recieving mysterious letters.. hahaha... ya, i have no idea who she is except that she's really observant haha... firstly, the letters are in chinese! haha.. so i can barely read some of the words in it. but ya, have translators and all. secondly, hahaha.. it juz makes me laugh. ya... hahaha... quite funny and dun ever say such things in my face! it'll go red hot! hahaha...

ok... enough of rumors and stuff.

i was juz going through some things and found my yr 1 handbook. i turned to the page where at the start of yr 1, we ad to write a mission statement. here goes...

Gabriel's mission statement:

• be a better person. e.g. respectful, kind...
• be a good christian and shine God's light wherever i am.
• make everyday special for someone.
• make my parents proud.
• do well in my CCAs.
• be more responsible.

and now when i think back, i feel sooo proud of myself in yr 1 and i wonder what has happened to me in yr 2 and 3! haha...

i definitely have met every criteria i listed up there. i worked hard to become a better person. all i wanted was a new start from sec school. look at me, from zero to hero (juz an expression). hahahaha..

i worked real hard to show forth the fruits of the spirit.

i cant remember if making somebody's day special as in ec, or my school friends. but i definitely did make pple's day!!! =D

i did exceptionally well for promos in yr 1, tt should've made my parents proud, also adding all my achievements in e-club. during the meet-the-parents session, i had no bad comments except praises for being able to lead the e-club in some competition and winning, blah blah... tt would have definitely made my parents proud. also, i recieved the eagles' award tt year. my mom was like "wow!" haha...

i excelled in my CCAs both e-club and rugby. i kinda improved quite a bit after some training with wantocks. went back, kicked some ass (me and kira's trademark move, remember!!) haha.. pple said i was cocky, but i couldn't be bothered, i din mean it tt way anyway, and like hazwana's telling me how much the other ruggers were commenting about me behind my back at tt time.

be responsible! i loved this part!! haha.. this allowed me to run around school all the time! i was chem rep, did a good job! ask miss lee!! haha.. =DDD i handled the walkathon project quite well too! thx to my members too! took ownership in entreprenuer club projects earning lots of money!! haha... others, i cant remember.

ah... i'm soooo proud of myself. let me boost my ego in this entry juz this once ya! hahahaha =DDD

but now, i've got to start working hard man... look at me... in this state. i need to push myself more!!

alright! back to chem pract assignment!!

23/01/06

Yesterday's gone, a new week has begun!!!

i had the most wonderful night once again, last night... haha... i had dreams after dreams after dreams and they were all sweet dreams... ahhh... i din wan to wake up la!! haha...

tt's was kind of why i dreaded going to school today...

first, i felt tt i have not finished my hw and tt i have been playing too much.
next, as i was saying, i din wan to get out of bed. i was late today.
then, today's the longest day of school... thurday too... but thurs.. HEH!

but! thank God! i was saved! first period, a miracle happened, teacher din come.
den! i managed to finish most of my physics in class so i have lesser wrok to do at home.
finally, maths is due on thurs and not today!!! ahahahahaha!!!

best of all, mrs mayor approved of the picture of sleeping positions on my file! hahaha.. it's nothing sick though.. it looks very comfy.. yup! =D

it's juz a man and women in night garments in bed. ya... not doing anything ya!
and the caption says "30 new research shows that sleep makes you clever in the morning" haha..

ok, i have enjoyed most of my day, and being at home is soooo relaxing.. i cant wait to go to sleep after finishing up my physics hw. have not started studying yet though... haiz... me ar.. hahaha...

alrighty! a new week has began! and it comes with a new song!

22/01/06

HOHOHO!!!

u guys should watch world's craziest video!! haha.. not funniest but craziest!!!

AHAHAHAHA!!! they have the coolest, funniest videos!!! OMG!!!

their last one was SUPER good!! i laughed till about at least 4 drops of tears flowed out la! however, it was a super horny one!! haha.. ON NATIONAL TV!!! OMG!!!!! hahahahaha!!!

if u want to know, come ask me. difficult to type!! hahaha... it's sooooooo funny la! i'm like doing work and when i saw it and how the advertiser reacted, AHAHAAHAHAH!! HILARIOUS!

hmmm.. i got a lot of things to say but i cant remember!! haha...

ok, yesterday at the edge, it was a sermon about life and it's problem, how to face them ya! haha... soooo i had a problem! BUT! i knew God is with me! hahaha.. ya right! haha.. but yes! he was! hahahaha

I HAD NO MONEY! as in dry! nothing in my bank. i've spent every single cent. yea... this month.. ha.. bought a lot of things that i dun usually buy and i've been really generous too =D ha..

but! no sweat! i still have $8 left till CNY! haha... thanks to elvin foong!! haha..

i was praying and asking God "HOW!?!?"

den i was reminded of my red packet with 50 ringit inside! but what is 50 ringit? unless i change them, it's nothing! soooo i remembered elvin owe me $12 for pizza!!! hahaha... LONG LONG TIME AGO!!!! like beggining of last yr or something!! hahaahahaha!!!

thank God! on sat, i was $12 richer!! hahaha...

alright! am feeling dead and LONELY! hahahaha.... cant wait to be among humans heh.

long day tmr... zzzz... got to finish most of my work today. thank God...

k... off!

22/01/06

ha... last night was like the most wonderful night for me man.. ah.....

okok, MY EXAM IS OVER!! YAY!!!

hahaha... my diploma exam's finally done and over with! as i was handing it up, i couldn't help but put a smile on my face. i was juz grinnig all the way! hahahaha...

even as i walked to the toilet. MAN! u dunnoe how happy i AM!

alright, juz a lil about the exam. 40 EASY mcq!! haha.. give away. some are super obvious la!

3 stinking long essays which hurt my hand!!! my first essay's like 1000 words LONG!!!

den 2nd and 3rd like 250 words? haha... gonna lose 10 marks each per question man... sob.

hope i get C. haha... if i fail, i'm gonna CRY! haha... wont la!

kk off!

20/01/06

Study, play, TV!

hahaha... i juz cant sit still and study.. prolly the environment ya? hahaha...

hmmm... mugging like mad man.. still have quite a lot to cover...

i always thought memorising would be so much easier to practicing.. hate practicing maths and thought i should do Arts.. haha..

BUT! i need to practice in order to memorise! i am writing all the main points out la! haha... so what difference is there? hahahaha...

i juz cant sit there and study. haha.. after every 1 or 2 sub topic, i'd run away, hahaha.... den come back again. =P

soooo boring!!! cant wait to get it over with.. haha.. i still have 5 MORE MODULES TO GO!! AHAHAhaahahahahaah!!!!

19/01/06

AH!!!!

i am juz getting sooo irritated doing the chem pract ws, IT IS JUZ SOOOO RIDICULOUS!

prolly cos i dun really know what i'm suppose to do, BUT, it is repeating it's points here and there, and the questions asked do not tally!?!? am i suppose to leave it blank or still fill it up??

if i'm suppose to leave it blank, then it's not ridiculous after all, but if i am suppose to fill it up, HOW IN THE WORLD AM I SUPPOSE TO ANSWER THEM!!! i am cracking my head like mad to answer them AND I DUN HAVE THE TIME!!!! i need to study fer my exam on saturday!! ah!!!!!

hmmm.. ok, neways, i juz cant wait for saturday to be over, then my "pain" would be over... argh... this yr, i juz have to work harder la ya.... =)

i know i cant really make it for my As, so better get myself a diploma cert and juz go to uni la ya!

hmmm.. alright, no time to waste! gonna do some work out to refresh myself, bathe and chiong!!!!! hahahaha... =D

God help me!

18/01/06

ha... it's been a month ya... haha... =P felt like as if it's been soooooo long la... how time flies fast yet slow. how contradicting ha!

cant stop thinking of timor..

alright!
today, i'm stinking busy la! i've got 4 sets of hw, and my dip notes to study!!! ah!!!

my GP file is like still incomplete, i did the back soooo nicely, i have nothing for the front! -.-"

physics was a breeze,
chem, i have not begun,
maths, i'm stumped!

man... am mugging... need a B! need a B!!!!!!

kk. i miss quite a few of u out there.. ya. man... shall see u guys soon! school's making me soo stressed so much that i'm thinking of u pple. cant wait to have fun! hahahaha... after saturday... it's all over. wuahahaha!!!

17/01/06

=DDDDDD XDDDDD

hahaha.. look at the BIG grin on my face!! hahaha...

guess what i've been doing the whole day! hahahaha.... =PPPPP

i did not go to school today! hahaha.. woot? hahaha... rejoice or not? hahaha...

ok, am having some minor cough and throat infection la. haha... am afraid that i'll have that erm... tonsilitis (dunnoe how to spell) the one where u guys remember, i had 2 weeks mc! haha.. so juz to play safe, i went to the doctor today. ha.. not oo bad! =)

hmmm... i spent my day catching up on ALL my work and of course not forgetting PLAY!! hahaha..

lvl twice today for maple =DD am now lvl 35 in cassiopia. HEH!

alright! so i finished everything except for my linear inequalities and my GP file deco. (wonder what hw i have today...)

yea!! nice and slow day. my dad was at home the whole day too!! he was not feeling well haha.. so is my mom.. she's not feeling too good too but she went to work today. ha...

yea. thank God for everything!!! hahaha... i love my day. slow and nice. and i DID do work! OMG OMG OMG!!! hahahahaha...

off to decorate GP file!! =D

16/01/06

after playing the whole night yesterday, I DEFINITELY DIN WAN TO GO TO SCHOOL TODAY!!! hahahaha...

i nearly died waiting for every period to just get by BUT! once again, i thank God for this wonderful day!

no matter how boring each period gets, i find some fun in it.
no matter how many times i fall asleep during lecture, my teacher juz gave me gentle reminders.
no matter how long it takes before the period ends, i have friends sitting by my side.
no matter how much i feel like walking out of school, i thank God! i've made it through!

yep!!! hahahaha.. i'm juz happy! happy happy happy!!! hahahaha...

my body's not aching that much anymore!!! yay!!! hahahaha....

yea... i'm really tired today, i slept late, i din do my maths, did not complete my chem, but thank God. i'm still ahead of schedule. i muz push myself now to complete everything and i'll be still on track! =D

haha... thank God.

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haha.. sam, din see u at all today la! hahaha...

ok, something funny that happened as i pushed through the last period of the day.

ok, we had chem lesson, and she was going through this question on group 7 elements.

so the question goes something like,
"The elements of group 7 are all oxidising agents, but some are more strongly oxidising than others.

Illustrate this statement by quoting suitable E naught values from the data booklet and by describing and explaining."

so miss lee said "i am going to ask all of you a very stupid question. VERY stupid. BUT all of you must know! ...... so why we cannot use bond length between the hydrides and halides to describe their oxidising power???"

so everyone was juz guessing and i did not have the question with me, so i stepped up, turned around to look at carolin's TYS den all i saw was "use E naught values" so i was trying to be cheeky and giving her a stupid answer so i said, "cos the question say use E naught values!"

suddenly miss lee replied, " VERY GOOOOOOOOOOD!"

i was like "HUH!?!?!?" but i pretended as if like i was very clever and like hahahahahaha.... u all know la! hahahaha...

so ya, den the day came to an end! yea!!! hahahaha..

16/01/06

HA!!! praise the Lord! i got home!!

haha.. i caught the last train just on time! hahaha... thank God... thought i had to walk home from jurong... haha..

neways!
after church today, i went to ivan's place where we had a reunion! MAN! i juz realised how much i missed matthew and weijing and wen hong, and juay, and all the others cept ivan and min WUAHAHAHA!! cos i see min so often compared to the rest. ivan, i appreciate his company hahaha.. am mean ya! hahaha...

had so much fun! dota, dai dee, indian poker. hahaha... LAME!

the last part was the best, where we played indian poker and 2 losers have to compete in finishing a can of beer. hahaha... wei jing puked some out. hahaha.. 19 secs, not bad la! haha...

yea... had soooooo much fun!

thank God i got to go down, now, i wanna start dotaing again, gonna buy WC3 original and from there, i'm gonna convince them to come to church HEH! cos firstly, i miss them, secondly, (this may sound cheesy) i love em! hahaha...

man... how i wish i went to poly, den i'll have all the time in the world to play games like them. hahahaha!!! best part, no uniform, den i could stay over. hahahaha!!!

yea.. miss em lots man. like 4 yrs together, totally forgot them after entering MI, now, i got to see them and wow! i juz wish i was back in sec school with them. though i might get bullied and made fun of, NVM, cos i love em man. hahaha..

ha... still got my binomial theorem to do... am soooo dead. hahaha... k... too tired already...

14/01/06

I REALLY LOVE TIMOR!!!

the more i do my research on it, the more i fall in love with timor... so happened that for GP, my section was asked to do up on timor and not the palestines nor singapore!! haha.. gave me the chance to research and understand timor MORE!

Neither Hinduism nor the Islam had influence in the Timorese beliefs. That achievement was reserved to the Christian missionaries.

PRAISE THE LORD!

"Efforts to promote spiritual conversion to Christian Catholicism were introduced into Timor through Portuguese colonisation. However, the influence of the Catholic Church really took hold and began to strengthen only after the Indonesian invasion. This is partly because the Church, particularly the Diocese of Dili, gained the respect and prestige of the people during this period because they often came to the defense of Timorese lives. Today more than 90% of Timorese identify Catholicism as their religion. Nevertheless, animist beliefs remain strong in Timor-Leste and only a minority of local Christians (serani in Tetum) can be considered as having no animist beliefs. For a few Timorese, animism remains their main spiritual religion which informs their cultural practices and outlook on life. "

all quoted from http://www.timor-leste.gov.tl/AboutTimorleste/culture.htm

God's hand is really on timor, though they still need some guidance, i see that nation rising up as one of the most joyful nations. juz like the christmas tree i saw, felt that the Lord juz showed me how timor would grow in all ways exponentially! how the leaves of the tree remain green through the winter season. and how the star on top of the christmas tree is the light to that nation.

Jesus, the bright morning star.... wow.... i love timor...

i know that timor's gonna change after christmas in 2005. i believe in a great change in that nation.

God bless timor!

13/01/06

HAHAHA FRIDAY 13th! hahahahaha!!!

how superstitious some teachers can be... ahahahahaha!!! =P

ok, i din realise it was friday 13th. but what i wanna say is that this morning, i woke up with this beautiful song in my heart that juz pushed me on to get through with this week.

the song title is "could i ever" by planet shakers. ahh... nice song...

hmmm... i remember quite sometime back, my friend told me eddie guererro (am not too sure how to spell heh!) died. it did occur to me at that point of time that someon'e gonna go to hell...

in sec school, eddie was my WWE card main character. i played him and won many battles though he wasn't like the best char hahahaha! was sad when i found out he died..

BUT! juz today, i heard the whole story about things that happened before his death! hahaha... man i was overjoyed la, juz that i din wan to show it, it'll be so awkward with all the ruggers there hahaha!!

i was like on the edge of shouting at the top of my voice that my God sets people free and he is GREAT! WOOOO HOOOO! i love u JESUS!!!

he found christ, and God set him free of ALL his addictions! he accepted God as his Lord and Saviour before he died! i'm juz overjoyed!!! HOW WONDERFUL U ARE!!!

(woaH! the planet shakers new ablum ROCKS!!!)

ok, i had training today which was actually quite fun!! hahaha.. major killer but fun! hahahaha.... guess what we did! u will think i'm lying. REALLY! hahaha..

first we jogged 1.6km around the outskirts of our school for warm up!
den did stretching and sprinted 3x300!!! - MAJOR KILLER!!!
den we did ANOTHER 3x300!!! argh!! that's 1800m in all!!!
den we had sprints UP SLOPE! hahaha.. guess what! it wasn't tiring at all!! hahaha.. had fun instead!! i love that one the most! had fun... we did 10 times in all about 40-50m each i guess.. hmmm.. prolly lesser...

ok den finally, 10x, 20x, 30x, 20x, 10x, of push ups and sit ups!!! hahahahaha!!! my arm muscles were so tense and my legs were shaking la!!! hahahahahahaha!!!!

k... last of of, 30x of "superman" hahahaha... tt's all.

yea man.. my body's like "ah.... my bed!" hahaha...

12/01/06

ah!!! first, my friend msged me telling me he's lost on what to do. now's MY TURN!!!!

i got family outing this weekend. but it means burning my weekends away, which doesn't matter cos i will still waste it away doing duty on parents' day. argh!

i wan to help out on parents' day yet, i dun wan to... oh my... i think i have to talk to JJ or shan. see what they can do... argh!!! help me!!!

should i go or not? this is the BIG question. and how am i going to erm... plan things! ah!!!

den edge and all... i wan to bring my friends to edge this sat but parents' day ends at about 5.30!! how!!

GOD HELP ME!!! i need to do lots of thorough thinking now. am working on chem assignment too!! ar!!!

shall go down and take a walk. and spend some money!! i need a time out!

how how how????

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hahaha... am back from my erm.. short walk and shop. haha.. got back some stuff. now, i'm eating the noodles i bought and watching tv. hahaha..

central's having this documentary about Singaporeans lacking intimacy! hahahaha... we need more children! hahaha.. no more stopping at 2! haha... go beyond that! the reason,

"we want Singaporeans to have children, to love them ............" Lee hsien long

haha... ok... hahaha... juz laughing at some couples featured. quite funny and interesting. hahaha.. hmmm... wonder how many children i'll have, maybe i'll nvr have! hahahahaha....

maybe 1 or 2 ya... imagine, 6 or 8! hahaha.. that's what one couple wanted. but! all the pain ur wife has to go through!?!? soooo pain... i cant

bear to look. the agony and the pain. but, hahaha.. also nice to have babies la. so cute.

haha.... one couple who din want to have children said that they dun see kids as being cute and all but irritating!! AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! so they have dogs! hahahahaha.. ok. that's interesting!

okok, still got things to do! haha...

AHAHAAHA!! OMG OMG guess what's the ending song like!!

"everyone has had more sex than me!

everyone has had more sex than me! ......" hahahahahaha!!! on TV!!! hahahahaha... omg!

11/01/06

ah... pushed myself to write this entry before i go to bed. haha..

ok, sam u wan the timor pics right? gimme some time to upload it. need to find a way haha.. and i'm so sleepy now too..

hmmm.. also have a lot of funny pics today.

had training some where in BB near wilson's place. haha.. we WERE chocolate coated!! i'm gonna post the pic when i have the time! hahaha....

a lot of scratches... it was like raining la, soooo shiok, wash us clean from the mud. but it was for a while only. i had to sneak into the swimming complex to bathe hahahahaha!!

oh, enos, remind me! i still owe u $1 for the entrance fee. hahaha...

went dinner with hadi, enos and the new guy! hahah... was nice la. we had a good chat. yea.. rugby, christianity, islam etc etc... hahaha..

hmmm... still cant forget all the sliding on the mud! hahahaha.. oh and i miss east timor SOOOO MUCH!!!! once a while i think about it when i'm in school and how i long to go back there la!

i wanna be a missionary to timor! or a citizen there, i dun mind! =) God bring me there!!!!

hmmm.. i muz remember to study... was mapling with my sis since i came home.. wanted to do maths... but now i'm juz sooo sleepy. ha...

ah!! now i feel soo irritated cos i din do maths!!!! hahahaha.... shall do it all tmr! maths and chem! =D God remind me~!

10/01/06

ahh... juz came back from my sprint-up-the-stairs again! soooo breathless now.

my chest hurts!! so tight. haha... cant take deep breaths. will burst! hahaha...

ok, today's kinda BORING! hahahaha... finished maths assignment 1.2. ha... dunnoe if i do correct also... like easy and like tough. hahaha..

ok, so mapled quite a lot today. haha.. in fact like no one's business. ha... been a long time since i've mapled-like-mad. haha..

kk.. gonna go shower cos i'm like so wet la. hahaha...

BORED!

08/01/06

ahhh!! song!!

u're gonna make me cry la! dun say sorry!!! hmmm.. yea, i am also at fault la... too foolish, and u noe me la, always fooling around...

really man, i have nothing against u. =DDD like i was telling u last time, we're friends, and u needn't worry, cos i may be playful, but ya.. i still noe my limits ya... yea... really too playful le.

SORRY!

thanks man, thanks for forgiving me.. =) THANK YOU!!! =))))))))

ALRIGHT! I AM SOOOO HAPPY I JUZ WANNA PRAISE THE LORD!!!

guess wad! in my previous entry, i was like sad, and scared, fearful and all. but u know wad!

i was at a christian bookshop getting bibles for my friends, den i picked this book up, and the spirit of the Lord juz filled me. i opened the book and there! "fear"

the book was on bible versus of why we should not be fearful. i was like, "woah, God, u trying to tell me something?"

DEN!!!!!

i walked to another shelve and randomly picked a book. i opened it, the heading of tt chapter, "FEAR" i was about to break down. i was reading it, and God answered everything! but... it's up to me to solve my problem.

i am still lost, and a lil confuse, but after this morning's service, where i recommitted myself to God, making Him priority, i know, somethings gonna change!

PRAISE THE LORD!!!

another one, this is a reminder of my dream, my purpose. wad happened was during edge service, sister yunfan she was preaching about not being distracted and all.

my bible was on my lap, and at a certain point, my bible dropped! i picked it up, u know what!

it opened directly at this page.

matt 28:19-20
"therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything i have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

and then i realised, i have been planting seeds but i have not fulfilled what i was suppose to do! "teaching them to obey everything i have commanded you."

man... I LOVE U JESUS!!!!!

MY GOD IS BIG!

07/01/06

ok! God's been good the whole of this week. i really pray tt i'll be hardworking, focusing on my work, especially maths, den chem too...

physics... hahaha.. i think i need to focus on all 3!

yea... have seen a slight change of my attitude towards maths.. it's good. am kinda interested in doing it now. i juz hope tt i can remember everything i've learnt. i also hope tt revision, would really help, as in class revision...

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hmmm... ok, have been feeling a lil erm... haha.. it's undescribable... prolly a lil confused on things... have been thinking about quite a few stuff since yesterday..

fear grips me but it's not like it's something bad. am lost. guess, the tongue is really a 2 edged sword. and what ever comes out sure hurts. ha... not tt it has hurt me la, it has rather struck fear in me.

lost lost lost.

05/01/06

hahahaha!!! this morning was phenomenal with our first GP lesson of the year!!! ahahahaahaha!!!!

it's like when mr fung steps into the class, u can start hearing VJ and kira like laughing to themselves and all wondering what's he doing with SUSPENDERS!!!

ok la, not tt it looked bad. like this judge on america's top model, (i think he's gay man....) he said something like "we should wear wad brings out the kind of person we are and be proud of our dressing"

but i felt tt mr fung looked like a small boy with his suspenders hanging down after he took em off his shoulder. hahahaha...

ok, so GP was like, erm... hahaha... like i dun wan to use the word. but it's like first was this 'virgin' cd. hahaha... has not been opened, then was the 'pregnant' files and den

S- social
P- political
E- education/environment
R- religion
M- mass media

haha.. wad else were there??? hmmm.. i forgot! hahaha...

but GP was pure silly today!! OH OH!!! i remember!!!!

"toys have values"

AHAHAHAAHAHAAHA!!!! he was asking hadi like "what kind of toys are there" and he thinks it sounds wrong and he juz couldn't say it out! hahahahahahaha!!! VJ behind also getting horny la hahaha... silly! and i was juz acting innocent HA!

in the end we decided, children have children toys and adult has adult toys! hahahaha!!!

ok, den hahaha... i am missed by some of the SCs.. haha... make me feel sooo... i wish i was in orientation.

hahaha.. but no matters! am glad that i am in class cos i can do permutations!!!!

am super glad la!

GOD IS GOOD!!!

he held the rain for me, at least supposedly till i reach my bus stop. (that was what i prayed for haha..)

yea... enjoyed my day man... cant wait for tmr, the shortest day of the week, last day of the week, m gonna join the orientation, having P.E. in which after that we're gonna play touch rug hopefully! wuahahahaha!!! wonderful days ahead man. after tt WEEKENDS!!! wheee!!!!!

hahaha... hyper now! k!!! off to do erm.... NOTHING! i finished my maths assignment FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE LAST YEAR!!!!!

HA! what is permutations??? hahahahahaha!!

chicken feed! =P

04/01/06

wuahahahaha!! thank God for this wonderful day!!! enjoyed my day man...

too bad no rugby training... guess there were not enough pple? i dunnoe.. thought there were enough though... like 10 of us. =)

hahaha.. today i finish at 1.30pm!~! so i can play a lil with the orientation pple!!! yr 1s and all!!!

haha... did the MI dance with em!

ok, am studying permutations for maths C and i some how dun kinda have much problems with it!!! praise the Lord!!!!! am gonna hafta continue my assignment and stuff later!

thank God thank God thank God!!!!

MY GOD IS BIG!

03/01/06

hahahaha!!! school's GREAT today!!!

the yr ones and all hahahaha... too bad i cant have fun with all the yr ones. am "suspended" for the time being hahahaha....

but i met some pple i recognize and melvin!!!! hahahaha!!! silly bump! boosted my ego in front of everyone hahahaha... =PpPpPp

ok, math test went quite ok la! hahaha... i can do but i'll still fail. but! at least a better failing mark!!! hahahahaha!!!

k am juz excited for tmr. man!!! how i wish i was part of orientation... wanna have some fun! but still am having fun in class, and running FROM classes! hahahaha....

kk! am gonna go look for my physics notes! hahaha...

02/01/05

alright! second day of the year!!!

have been doing maths today. had like 3 hour tuition. marathon sia!!!!

hahaha... i juz realise while helping a friend upload a song, that i can upload christian music!!

why it did not hit me eariler!!! hahaha..

this is soooooo coool!!!!! hahahahaha!!!!

gonna update new music here and there! woohoo!!

SCHOOL TMR! HERE I COME!!!!!!

and those who dun have school to be excited about, TOO BAD!!! WUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

01/01/05

ha... ok, second entry of the day!

am juz real happy now. hahaha... dunnoe why.

but tmr, one whole day of maths man!!!! 4 hrs tuition!!!!

lalalala!! i love this song! i heard it on tonight's holiday movie. RAT RACE!~

hahaha... went to look for it right away! cos.......

this is the mood of how i wanna start school!!! am excited bout this whole new year!

yr ones, orientation, my maths sub paper! (cant wait to get it over with) and one whole year of craziness!

but not forgetting, my last 6 months of rugby.... aww.... i will miss rugby!!!!!!

i will miss fun touch, beach touch!!!!! bikini babes and all!! hahaha JK! =P

the sand, the sea and touch rugby!!!! i'll miss it alllllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'll be chanting rugby every night, dreaming that i got smacked and tackled and realise i was either hugging my bolster or smack flat on the floor! hahahaha!!!

i cant wait for sch to start all of a sudden! hahahahahaha!!

am gonna miss some new friends i've made this hols, cos we wont get to hang out any more! hahaha.. yes YOU! haha.. some others too... had lots of fun this hols... thanks for everything man... hahaha!!!

k! am gonna go to bed! 8am tuition! wooohoooo!!!!

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at the top of my lungs "JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

one God, one final year.

am gonna trust YOU!

01/01/06

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

aint anything much to me though... juz another year going by...

am at my window watching the fireworks... aww... how beautiful. wish i'm with some friends and all, juz partying away till next morn...

hmmm. gonna miss this yr, and everything tt has happened. am also looking forward to what the future holds for me! =)

I juz hope things this coming yr would be nice too.. haha... orientation.. cant join in, but i'll try and pop by! hahahaha....

shall see... next yr...

hmmm... k... off to continue playing games!