30/12/06

ok, i received a package today with loads of goodies and a reallt sweet message hahaha!!!

thx miss chow!!!

ha.. the most enjoyable thing this christmas, is really reading all ur cards! they're all so nice and heart warming.

well, packed with thai goodies, i had a great time munching on em! hahaha... especially love the coconut candies. Mmm..mM!

well, miss chow, the bak kua thing, it's CUTTLE FISH!!! HAHAHAHA!!! roasted cuttle fish or something. ha...

well.. thanks sooooo much for the package. it made a huge entrance through my house, first the post man, then my mom lalalala all the way to my room. hahaha...

though i cant exactly enjoy this christmas cos of work, i guess it's been real nice... well.. new year's ruined too... work work work... man... though i love work, i would love to spend more time with my church friends...

hmmm... next few weeks are gonna be real busy weeks... i dunnoe what's wrong with me. but i just want to spend time with my friends...

last night, i slept at 4am. i couldn't sleep. wonder why... i thought of gabriel LOH. wonder what happened to him. i thought about my relationship with God. though i dun feel far from him, i feel tt i'm not keeping up. wierd.. i dunnoe what i am feeling...

but i thank God for everything... i just hope for a bit more freedom. wierd huh.... when i am in school, i longed for freedom, now tt i'm "free" i still long for freedom.

what kind of freedom am i looking for?

from the inside out,

Lord my soul cries out.

25/12/06

hmmm.. today's a really nice day. sitting behind watching the drama... and it's so cozy at the back, ah.....

anyways, my friends ps me!!! but oh well... hahaha...

am surprised that i actually got something from carmen. was so awkward and funny when she passed me the gift, cos i was SHOCKED! hahaha... but i'm thankful. she's sweet.

and at least i know xw still remembers me! hahaha...

the performance was great, and i'm sooooo tempted to upload declan's pic, WUAHAHAHA!!! black mail him. but am lazy. (as usual)

after everything, my family had a wonderful (and expensive) dinner. i hate expensive food, cos i think of all the stuff i can do if i used the money otherwise. hahaha... but i thought, since it was a festive season, i'd not spoil everything.

i am only willing to spend huge amounts on food for others. but when it comes to my dad or whoever spending the money, i'd rather just eat a plate of $2 chicken rice and save the rest which can feed me a further 50 plates of chicken rice. it still has the same effect right? feeling full. haha...

but i kinda wished i could spend my time with my friends. it's just so nice seeing pple happy and smiling.. but everuthing's ruined cos of my upcoming exam, which i wanted to work hard for, but after these few days of celebration, work tmr.... man, my days are BURNT! and exam's THIS THURSDAY! like wth right!?

i mean, the timing's so stinking stupid (i felt like swearing hahaha) and marketing is such a HUGE topic. HOW TO STUDY IN 5 days!? though now i'm left with 2.... man.....

oh well.. at least i did something that made me feel good. i finished my handbills. felt so wonderful. i could give out hand bills all my life..

i pray for God's hand over everything. exams and the biggest test of faith. MAN! HOW AM I GONNA GET MY FINANCIAL FUNDINGS GOD HELP ME!!! i'm doing my best already. working whenever they have a slot, but this means, that i'll miss church this week... ARGH! oh well...

i still praise him! =)

24/12/06

hmmm.. christmas tmr!!!

today like every other sundays before christmas, we exchanged gifts. haha... though this year, i had lesser cards, reading those few cards were really heart warming. =) and when i think about my cards.... ha... i wished i could rewrite some of them. haha...

ha... i suddenly forgot all about what i wanna talk about but oh well... i think this christmas is gonna be a really wonderful one! and a much better one, if not for my exams coming on the 28th man...

and i cant wait for watch night, HOWEVER, i've got work till 10pm ARGH!!! oh well... i'll just join the other youths after work. =) movie marathon! hope u all are gonna go down. i'll prolly fall asleep in a midst of a movie HA!

lalalala.... MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!

23/12/06

i really love kiki pple, they're fun!

well.. i forgot to thank alvin for the drinks, and i just left!!! slipped my mind, crap! oh well... thank him the next time...

haha... the filipino intern was drunk HAHAHA! she just kept laughing, and laughing at EVERYTHING! stinking funny man.

i am also dead man. just typing anything that comes into my head. am soooo full. from just now till now...

had too much to drink...

I LOVE RAIN!

i love water, be it from the sea or the sky. hahaha..

many pple may hate the rain, but i simply love it, SO MUCH! i know it's uncomfortable and bad to get all wet and stuff. i personally love the little rain, not the heavy ones. heavy ones, when i'm at home. but while i am out, i would love one in which i can walk in it without fearing i'd get all wet or sick.

on my way home in the afternoon, i had a wonderful walk in the rain. the soft little drops so cooling on my skin, the wind, cold and quiet. every where, there's an eerie but calm silence. ah... i love it so much. the mild darkness, makes the afternoon feel like evening, and the morning, like night.

so wonderful.. to me, it's like a dream come true. i feel like going out, walking around the whole world in this weather. wearing a raincoat, carrying a back pack. how nice... haha...

ok, time for bed. school tmr and i was too caught up watching the WEG on arirang channel. i think pro warcraft players think too much. hahahaha!! every little detail counts.. MAN! pro! hahahaha...

18/12/06

wooo!!! i love working at kiki! it's sooo stinking fun! talking to pple, chatting with em and selling ponchos and umbrellas at the same time hahaha! i love those who would actually play along! and whenever it's raining, auntie will be out, and she's soooo funny la!

today, cos of a much heavier rain than those i have experienced, (for the first time i was soaked!) i had a super great time though all hell broke lose, and pple began throwing money at my face HAHAHA!!!

desperate for rain coats, i restocked 4 times, had a tough time catching up with demand and like everyone's just grabbing!

i am like soooo stinking lazy now, if not i'd be uploading some pics. hahaha... words are boring ya!

anyway, i'm sooo tired la... and yesterday's party, HAHAHAHA!!! high sia! hahahaha had sooo much fun!

now when i think about it, i have not done devotions, cos by the time i reach home, SLEEP! morning wake up go school... man...

oh well, SLEEP!

14/12/06

YAY!!! everyone's coming back today. i like to see pple online whenever i am on but well, I'VE BEEN TOO BUSY TO TOUCH THE COMP THIS WEEK!!!

for the past few days i've only logged in like 20mins and then bed. I'M SOOOO DEAD TIRED!

i did not expect myself to be THAT busy... school and work. ah... so nice to be off, BUT! i cant wait to get back to work!!! I LOOOOOOOOOVE WORK! FUN!

oh yes, i have not taken the new monorail. HEH! we've got staff preview rides! the sentosa express is only opened in jan.

hmmm.. i feel like an independent boy now. busy man. hahahahaha!!!

school, work, and i went blood donation today! hahaha... my day's so relaxed. but i am so tired, i cant sleep for 10 days!

thank God for seeing me through... God's been good. given me strength when i needed it the most. today i woke up feeling rather refreshed though my eyes, hurt and THE STUPID NORTH EAST LINE TRAIN IS SOOOO STINKING COLD!!! HOW TO SLEEP!!!

ah... i loved this week. i cant wait to go back to sentosa and make more friends. hahaha... it's fun. FUN!

13/12/06

i am a wreck every morning....

today's soooo stinking good! after lessons, went down to sentosa like 2 hrs before work. slept at the ferry terminal. just like 10 mins, and i woke up cos of some korean pple, but well, it felt like an hour of sleep! cos i fell totally asleep and i thought i was late for work! hahahahaha!!!

today's rather fun, i love work, look forward to it all the time though i get home feeling soo tired and lack sleep... WELL... TMR I'M OFF!!! WOOOOO!!!!

aint it so cool! i love work and offs! hahahahaha!!!!

well... it's still a bit too early, but i think i will love this job a LOT!

12/12/06

HELLO!~

i feel like a responsible man now!!! AHAHAHAHAHA!!! i go to school and study in the morning, go for lunch, then straight to work. then i'll come home with my dad, all tired, and all we long for is some time with the tv, den bed! i finally understand what it feels like to be a working dad. HAHA!

i feel like i'm bringing home the bread. HEH!

no breakfast no dinner! i can start fasting!!! then i'll pray for auntie chilvi which i'll talk about later.

oh! before that! i wanted to blog on my off day - thursday, but since my maid is back for 1 night, I AM SOOO STINKING EXCTIED TO SEE HER!!!! she came back with christmas gifts and also testimonies of how God has blessed her! AMEN!

work's not what i expected, man.......................... IT WAS SO STINKING FUN! hahahaha!!! i love it there! they are so stinking friendly too la. so nice. however, standing 7 hours aint tt ideal la... hahaha, oh well!

from fort siloso, i made my way to another store at musical fountain, where...... i met auntie chilvi! jonathan could have at least warned me la! ok, auntie chilvi is one crazy, scary, horny old women, but i love her! hahaha... she only acts tt way la, her real self is someone really sensible and nice. SHE IS SO STINKING CUTE!

if i ever leave, i'll miss auntie first hahaha... den there's faizal, who did a superb job in breaking ice! he's so stinking funny! made us laugh a lot, and scaredy cat! he is scared of peacocks! YA, LIKE OMG! hahahahahahaha!!!! well, i know he will read this soon, and prolly come up with a chopping knife and ya, not stab me in the back, but stab me in the front! HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! inside joke! =P

ok la, to summarise, i love sentosa!

10/12/06

ok, so next week, lessons, 930 -1230 den work 1530-2200. WOOOOO!!! one day gone!! = no more comp games, = no more late nights = no more tired gabriel = NEW BEGINNING! exciting huh!

i wonder if i can actually cope, was worried, but now, when i think about the money i am gonna make and where i am gonna put the money into, i am really excited!!!

haha... ok, i shall not say where i am gonna put the money in first. hahaha... i typed it but deleted it. hahaha, cos i am afraid i cannot fulfil what i say. but i believe by faith this christmas would be a memorable one. =D

alright! just now on the lrt, the ah ma so cute hahaha... a family of 3 - ah ma, father, son. what happened was that the ah ma sat next to a man on a 2 seater. then a foreigner came, smile at the ah ma, ah ma smile back, den she squeezed and sat together and the 2-seater, became 3. hahaha! thank goodness, all 3 of them were skinny, which is prolly why the foreigner mistook the space for a seat or maybe, she just wanted to squeeze.

anyways! the ah ma seem to find it real funny, and the foreigner, realising everyone was staring at her, felt wierd. the ah ma, want to laugh, but cannot. so she kept holding back, HER FAMILY WAS OF NO HELP! the kept laughing at her, making her act of controlling even tougher! hahahahahaha!!! the sight of it, truly funny!!! hahahaha

den as i came out of the train and walked down the steps, this girl prolly in her early 20s was going down the stairs, she was reading an sms and she looked normal. den she took her eyes off her phone and like how pple go down a flight of stairs, "skipping" 2 steps at a time, she went down FLAPPING! i was like "BERFFFF-FFFFF-FFFFFF-BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!"

HAHAHAHA!! ya she FLAPPED down the stairs like OMG!!! hahahahahaha!!!!

oh well. maybe she was acting cute. hahaha...

ok! i am soooo happy a man came to christ today. and suprisingly, i felt drawn to him as i met him earlier on on the way to church. so i decided to do the consolidation despite me on duty. ah... came to know about his life and stuff, and i praise God! i seem to be drawn to pple who do not have tt fatherly love... hahaha... like a recent friend who came to christ.. almost the same thing. and i just felt this love for him... ah... how wonderful.

gonna have sweet dreams tonight.

BIG DAY TMR!!!! wheeee!!!!

10/12/06

bringing my friends to church is really exciting, but what's more exciting is if they won the lucky draw!!!! VIJAY! MAN! hahaha... there goes the xbox360 to a visitor... again!

haha.. wish i won something but oh well, what are the chances!! if my friend wins it, i'm so stinking excited and happy already! hahaha! it'll be soooo stinking more exciting if they accept christ!

i cant wait for kannan to come back and bring him to the edge again, even jeremy's asking for him. how nice! well... hope he's having a good time building a church in thailand! hahaha...

well... i got a lot of crap i want to blog about, but i'm lazy and u'd prolly be too lazy to read ha! so many things, like at the arcade, some really cool game machine which makes pple waste money like mad, but ah peks and moms are hooked on it. haha...

k la... shall go to bed already, i feel like dreaming!

need to finishing packing my room soon! it's a dump!

07/12/06

went fishing today!!!

brought daniel and shao wei fishing today. hahaha... actually, i wouldn't have wanted to go cos my toe!!! yesterday after playing soccer, i had an old injury on my toe, and now, it has internal bleeding and it's swollen! it hurt so bad last night, i couldn't walk!

what was worse was the ache. cos the area of bleeding is connected to this vein up the foot, that vein ached!!! it's like an unquenchable ache! no matter how i twist, turn adjust, it ached!

but well, my mama prayed for me last night, and now, I CAN WALK! though it still hurt, a lil.

and also i did not want to disappoint the 2 boys.. i mean, i also dun wan to sound like i'm lying!
"good morning, i toe pain, need to see doctor, sorry cannot go..."

like the ultimate lie u tell ur boss ya! hahahaha...

anyway, we had quite a bit of fun, thought the 2 boy boy, lost my water scoop, i made it this morning!!! ARGH!!! they threw it into the sea!!! so no fresh water for our fishys.

well, we barely caught any until an ah pek, show us his secret spot, all under the jetty, den we caught many little ones, (in which i used them as baits trying to catch bigger fish, but to no avail...) some of an edible size. so the boys brought them back to fry! like how dec and i brought em back to his house to fry em, but i did not dare eat em, like EWW!!! hahaha!! i caught it alive this morning, now i'm eating it!?

oh well.. took one or 2 and left the rest hahahaha...

ok, it was raining, so thank God i was well prepared, somehow, before i left i saw 2 ponchos and brought them along, so yea, protected!

nice, to be there... i wished it was day all day so i can stay there forever!

a day by the sea...

05/12/06

ah... i finally stepped out of the house!!! and it was like the right timing, and so made me wanna go out everyday from now on!! haha...

it was sunny yet windy, with the sound of the leaves on the trees rustling, such a wonderful sound. then the evening sun, warm on the skin, and when i walk into a shadow, i feel all cool and nice. ah....

went down to sentosa for my interview and i guess, i'd be working at sentosa too!! haha.. orientation this friday.

on my way back, i passed by the back of vivo city, which is the water front view... AWW!!! soooo beautiful!!! the sun's setting, pple strolling, the ideal place i would like to start a cafe, or just go there and relax.

ah.. how i wish my life revolved round the sea..

the sea, soooo majestic, soooo beautiful....

i wish i was a fish.

hmmm...

i really love youth/family camps my church organise, it's soooo filled with warmth... ha... to be away for just 5 days feels rather good. no, to be away from singapore feels rather good. and i bet the whole world thinks so.

before i turn this entry into "against ur nation" entry i'd better steer it back to what i wanna say. haha... yea.. i miss all the camps i've been to. they're soo wonderful. i mean, like the time spent with each other and all.

now the only times i feel the same way are in my dreams. really.

eversince A's ended, i began having really fun dreams haha... like just a while ago, i dreamt of dot! hahaha of all pple huh! she alighted at the bus stop carrying packet dinner den turns around leaving the packet food on the bus stop seats and i stole it! hahaha..

den we had a game of catching! hahaha!!!

den i dreamt i was a dragon! ice dragon and i was fighting some fire dragon, den we became mascots at yishun building which looked a lil different.

den on our way back, we began practicing our new dance for the next round of competition, and there was joy and brian miming the song. hahahaha! den we had our stand and squat routine. and i remember seeing grace chong! haha

dreams reflect things kept deep inside ur mind, it is therapeutic and helps pple prepare for whatever challenges they may face. dreaming gets them started.

so dream, dream all u want, dream more! cos it's so wonderful.

i wake up feeling that feeling of warmth whenever i dream of pple i miss, or those i think about. i like dreams with lots of friends in it, and it feels so real, it sometimes confuses me, like when i talk to someone, and then i really thought i did, or i felt tt way. it feels nice... especially to pple i really wanna speak with.

i love my dreams, and i cant wait for tonight's!