31/05/06

aye, i am just soooo amazed and touch by what God has been doing in my maid's life ever since she converted.

this is like gonna be my third story about her in my blog la!!!

just sunday, my maid misplaced her bag, she was panicky but not afraid. she had like 2 handphones in it, one is like the 3310, old nokia model, the other a camera phone in which she was gonna buy it from her friend at $120 and in her purse, about $200 total, almost $400 in her bag. of course it is time for her to panick!

so after reaching home, she realised her bag has gone missing, searched the car, nothing. she decided to borrow my ez-link and go back to church. after 2 hours she came home. still.... nothing.

she kept telling me, she's not afraid cos many times (and i really mean MANY) she has found missing wallets, purses, handphones and returned them to their respective owners so God would definitely make sure that someone would return her her belongings.

soon, she left the house a second time to go search for her bag in church at the same time she would stay over for evening service.

when i arrived, i saw her face, all happy! hahaha... she found her bag! however, the expensive phone was broken. nothing lost though. she said that someone found her bag in the carpark and returned it to her. a car must have ran over her phone.

she was too sad. but i could see it in her eyes, guess she was quite heart broken cos she has not paid for the phone. $120 is about 1/4 of her total income. but she told me, nvm, at least she has gotten back the majority of the items with the $200 untouched.

as i sat in service, i couldn't focus, cos i felt sad for her. $120 is no joke for a maid k, the only earn $200 - $300. of course not inclusive of CPF. all i could do was pray for her. i prayed that God would help her not feel so sad and heartbroken over her lost and that God would continue to bless her like he has always done.

wednesday...
just a while ago, my maid told me that she told this incident to this lady at my area (remember my previous story of my maid returning a hp to this women who is always cold to her??) anyway, the women was greatful, and these days instead of my maid greeting her, she would greet my maid. so, this lady offered my maid one of these latest nokia phones at only $120 i looked at it and told myself, it is worth a lot of money!

what my maid does is that she goes around the neighbourhood, buying second hand electronics, bring it back to batam and earn a profit out of it. so after her daughter checked the price of that phone in batam, it was worth $230!!! wow! wait there's still more!! the lady even GAVE her another phone!!! a sony ericson phone, so once she goes back to batam this coming week, she would have earned another $3oo at least!

$300 her pay + $300 CPF + $300 from phone sales, she earning 1K a month!!! wow!!!

God's blessing's really upon her, even as a maid, she pays about 20% of her income to tithings and faith plegde. i really wish God could bless me like He does for my maid...

i just feel soooo touched! AMEN!!!!
MY GOD IS A GOD OF PROVIDENCE!

God really blesses those of a humble heart.

29/05/06

it's been 2 days since my birthday!! HAHA!! juz wanna say some final thanks. =)

firstly, to R11/12 youths who celebrated for me, thanks! thanks jon for getting the cake.

den fabian who got me a christian CD - LIVE TO WORSHIP. (been a while since i've got any chrstian song CDs or have i been listening to them. hahaha..) BIG thanks!

den of course colleen who passed me the pressie yesterday. =) she got me a really COOL quicksilver t-shirt. really nice. ha! prolly bring it along for camp hahahaha!!!

thanks ALL OF YOU who made last minute msgs and all. hahaha.. at least you remembered ya! =DDD

alright! long day today, tmr too. after tt, FREE!!! but i gonna have to go get my passport extended, prolly do some fishing and of course STUDY!!!

hmmm.. fishing... prolly call gao ping and vijey haha.. see if we can get things settled.

k am off!

28/07/06

if i could live my own fairy tale...

i could be the benevolent KING,
to be loved by those under my rule.
i could have anyone as my queen,
i'd choose the smartest and the most beautiful in my land.
i'd have an army, rule my kingdom.
i'd be the most powerful, most loved.
i'd watch over my people and make sure all's going well.
there'd be no fighting, no wars.
i'd have many talents, do anything i want.
smart, wise, crowned, with all the riches.
if i could have my own fairy tale...

OR

i could be a PRINCE in bright shining armor,
strong and vigilant.
i'd slay dragons and save my damsel in distress.
i'd have balls in which i'd dance with - the one i love.
i'd be young and free, wild and full of energy...
if i could have my own fairy tale...

BUT

i'd choose to be the peasant,
the peasant who lives a peaceful, humble country life.
be a carpenter or farmer.
i'd be my own prince, and win my princess's heart.
i'd be the one who would know how to treasure what i have.
be the one who will always be there when i'm needed.
to be the one, who truly loves her for who she is.
be the one who slay lions and bears, to protect what belongs to me.
to be the one who will understand hardship and strive for a better life.
be the one to work, cook, and work my way to become what i choose to be.
i can be a prince, a king, anyone i wish to be.
i can be a person, loved and cherished by the towns folk.
i can be a person who will respect and love the people around me.
fun loving, cheerful, and always making people around me happy.
if only i was a peasant in my very own fairy tale...

there's nothing wrong in being imperfect, or not being able to live up to expectation. carpe diem! =)

27/05/06

lean on me,

when you're not strong.

i'll be your friend,

i'll help you carry on.

had night cycling the WHOLE of last night, surprisingly, now tt i'm home and CLEAN, i dun feel sleepy but my senses and typing now is really SLOW!

haha... everything which happened last night, really felt like a dream. everything felt so fast yet so a day ago.

i enjoyed every moment spent... was really nice... a nice way to spend my birthday...

as we stopped at lao pa sat, and i checked my phone, saw sam cheng's sms in my hp. ha... den i was reminded of the time we rushed all the way down to lao pa sat to catch vic perform after edge, but we were too late. hahaha...

juz wanna thank all those who made yesterday special, and took the effort to sms me. ha! thanks!!!

esther chong also dropped by to pass me my birthday gift. ha.. u shouldn't have la.. but it was wonderful ya! thanks!! all the wierd and cool stuff, things i have NEVER seen! hahaha... cool pressie!

yea... i juz cant forget last night.. the bridge especially.... beautiful.... i'll miss it. hmmm... why am i using 'night' when it happened just this morning!!! hahahahaha!!!! SEE!!! how it just happened but felt sooo far away! hahaha....

i wanna go to sleep now with my beautiful thoughts of last night, so i'll extend my adventure in my dream... though i have like just 5 hrs of sleep left... haiz... cant do hw... wanted to.

seeya peeps!

(oh! i just typed in the date and i realised, it's still my birthday!!! hahaha... felt like it was over when morning broke... ha.. )

25/05/06

i was reading an article in which i sign up for, for rugby newsletters and their recent article was one about "when rugby coaches are asked the question : 'Do you coach soccer?' "

hahaha... they have some really hilarious replies:

"No, it's a rubbish game played by girls."
"Afraid not - once an egg chaser, always an egg chaser."
"That's the game with the round ball isn't it?"
"Thanks Andy, but 'S***' is a banned word in my house." ('soccer' sounds like 'sucker')
"sod... of."

hahahaha... i know in new zealand, they would call guys who played soccer girls. haha... saula once told me tt.

anyway, i'm juz sharing. hahaha... so soccer players, dun get offended. HA! only appeals to the ang mohs.

and tt reminded me to the miss singapore question: ang mohs or singaporean for a boyfriend. hahahahahaha... makes ang mohs sound gentleman and asians, gentle man.

hahahaha!! ok, enough of my crapping, exam tmr and 2 assignments to hand up!

24/05/06

ha... kinda missed playing touch rug... A LOT!

oh well, had dinner at sis lily's place, it was great!!! am really thankful for her invitation! ha... i hope we could have more of such dinner. yea... maybe i shall hold one at my place, den we can bring our laptops and dota!!! hahahahaha...

friday, short day. GP paper den go home! hahaha... next monday, A'level CHINESE!!! BOOOO!!!!

and i juz failed chinese for mid year la... haiz....

anyways, i'm still slacking.. need to buck up! ha...

i wanna play TOUCH!!!

21/05/06

ah... today's a really nice day. except when we kenna pang seh(ed).. haha.. hahaha...

couldn't wake up this morning for sunday service cos of yesterday's activities!! haha.. i was soo sleepy and my legs were aching a lil from all the running, walking, standing and playing.

hmmm... sometimes i find myself really wierd. hahahaha... sometimes i cant be myself, and when i try, i become dumb! hahahahaha!!! dunnoe what to say, keep quiet, den become too quiet! hahahaha..

but with my friends, those i know, those i'm close to and like having fun with, i like one crazy other person. but when it comes to erm... some situations, i juz become lost hahahahaha!!! my word.

ok, i'm sooo excited about sleeping, cos i will always dream of the last thing i think of before i sleep. cool huh! there's this dream about this person, i can just never forget... haha.. the smile...

even in dreams, things are so real. when things get hot, u feel hot inside, when things get tough, it's just soo hard to move around, when ur eyes cant open, u really cant see where u're going, when things feel wet, u wake up thinking it's really wet (dun anyhow think here, i was talking about when it rains in the dream.) but in actual fact, everything's dry and fine. wierd.

dreams feel sooo real... what pple do inside, what they say, what they look like... i love to go to sleep now. i can do things i can never imagine myself do in the real world. imagine breathing in water or simply flying! hahahaha... and of course, u get to talk to pple as if nothing's happened, cos dreams brainwashes u somehow. u see pple u miss and u dun realise it till u wake up. u are having sucha a cool time with pple u wish to spend time with in ur dreams, and wake up feeling (aiya! WHY I DID NOT TAKE THE CHANCE TO ..... ask or say, in ur dreams!) hahahahahahaha!!! u juz waking up regretting not saying this, or doing that. hahaha...

i love my dreams... time to go in and see what super hero i'll be tonight! =D

21/05/06

this is supposed to be an entry for 20th may.

so, it's my mom's birthday today!! haha.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

had MI carnival today. met LOTS of familiar faces!!! i saw ina and syazana, EMILY!!! and other peeps including esther chong and like a few others. hahaha...

carnival was was, the dunking the food, games and the GLADIATOR!!! as usual, since vfc's carnival, i am still almost unbeatable at gladiator! hahaha... i remember back in vfc carnival, whenever i got up, everyone cheered!! hahaha... i defeated adults after adults at sec 2~!! hahaha...

ok, i played a short gladiator game with josh, yao zhong and one or 2 other. hahaha.. =P cant beat me! HEH!!! except josh plays cheat and JUMPS at me!!!

ha, den thulasi joined us together with hadi's gf. hahahaha... i kept tackling thulasi, and whenever they tried to stand or get out, i juz keep jumping and they need not get up anymore!! hahahaha.. soo hilarious, we were laughing our asses off!!! hahahahaha!!! FUN! until zash had to deflate it... aww...

ok, juz completed one crazy gae of dota, the longest ever! hard man, both sides equally pro, but eventually we won! hahaha.. yea... exciting... almost 3 hrs la!!! ha!!!

alright, tmr, church, bed!

-

memory of us still linger,
when the time i found the old open diary letter...
i read it and realised how much we had been through together.
though i may feel no more for u,
but u were once my ever beloved one.
i cherish u, even up till now,
cherished as a friend whom we'd be as besties, forever...
we can talk about or do almost anything together,
we can play or go out to places like forever.
(hahaha...)
it's juz this closeness, the bond tt we have created.
a friend like you, i'd never forget.
the past, is the past,
let's keep it safely in our hearts and remember those days,
the days when we were together.

to you my friend =)

19/05/06

you are given what all atheletes are given - a second chance...

but you have fear, the fear of blowing it.

i cant help it but turn back and think of it...

17/05/06

alright! had chinese mid year paper today and... i din noe a single thing bout it! hahaha...

soooo... i was on my way home with kira and vicknesh. after i left them and headed to the lrt, i began to think of all those times... haha...

those times where out of a spur of the moment, got mad, and hurt pple... felt sorry.

those times when i acted like a fool, not knowing why, but childish and pure dumb! hahaha... so embarrassing.

those times when i just simply felt so lousy... like towards the end of A'divs... i just did not have the confidence when like it all just began, AC and NY match.. towards the end, i began hating myself for all the mistakes.

those times where i just did silly things and spoke words which came out of no where... so silly and to think of it, i feel dumb! hahaha..

guess i'm growing. haha... i'm still treated like a kid in school though. haha.. i'm not complaining! it's fun! hahaha... i wanna put in effort for this final lap. but i'm worried.

i just cant focus. i must though!

15/05/06

am feeling so lousy....

ok, we're gonna get medals!!! yippee!!! =D credits in fact goes to all of u others out there ya!

hmmm... guess this CJ game, i felt tt sense of playing NY feel. but yea, the lack of training for me do show with my mistakes. but at least it was better then JJ's game!

haiz... was deprived of a try today.. i was sooooo happy when i saw the gap, but i realised how try lines make pple blind... so true... it's like no one was in front of me...

am sad la, cos i dun get to score, but heck la. at least we din lose.

ok, nothing much to say la, cant say much too..

am off!

14/05/06

haha... while the rest are debating whether they want to dota, thought i'd pop by and blog. hahaha...

first, wanna thank joash for lending me his psp cos i was watching naruto movie 2 on his psp hahaha... MAN! holding on to a psp, really gives u a erm.... PSP FEEL! (Power! Such Power!!!)

hahahaha... den i wanna thank dot for her little card and kit kat. haha.. a little way of supporting us in tmr's match. THANKS!!! much appreciated!!!

talking about match.. i totally forgot la! and ya, i did not go down on sat... was too tired... after the prayer, i came home and bam! my hp rang till my dad shouted at me at about 8+ and my mom, haha.. she's nice. she told my dad that i went for all night prayer, let me sleep. hahahahaha...

they are still counting the no. of pple for dota.. -.- hahaha...

anyways, i cant wait for the holidays, den mid years! i have a feeling tt the holidays, will be a great turning point! in fact, by this week! i bet i am gonna feel good! provided school timings remain much the same and tt i wont have to go back to school tt much during the hols. =)

night cycling 26th may!!! i cant wait!!! den photog lessons!!! cool! i wanna start a touch rugby class!!! hahahahahaaha!!!!!! shall try my luck later in future and ask jeremy! HEH!!! den i wont miss rugby! =P

outsiders welcomed to join! (as if it has begun! hahahaha)

oh my! they have begun!!! hahaha.. BB!

12/05/06

hmmm... these 2 days have been great days of break for me hahaha...

i have been spending too much time slacking, but i've not forgotten my work ya... ha... finished 2 of te assignments i owe which is NOTHINZG MUCH! hahaha...

am trying to finish the third one now.. haha..

ok, i forgot to thank esther tan and dorothy who went down to support me. =D i love u both! haha...

i'm so sleepy, but i'm still gonna go down for al night prayer and focus. i just need to spend some time with Him...

am gonna get some shut eye before i leave the house. tmr still got training... but in all things put God first ya! i believe the rest will fall in place. i believe that i'll have the strength to push on tmr!

seeya pple!

10/05/06

just aint able to focus...
mistakes, mistakes, mistakes...
when will i ever learn?

08/05/06

friend or foe,

i'll kill you both.

superior or inferior,

i'll kill you both.

this is my game of rugby,

i'll kill all who opposes me.

prepared or not,

u'd better not get caught.

cause i'd break your legs,

and rip em off!

i'll play for myself

and for all who share my vision,

i'd play for those

who share with me similar goals.

8/05/06

ha.. it's about time i updated a little...

alright! i have uploaded my batam photos!! gonna put em up soon hahaha... have not been in the mood of updating lately. haha..

ok, it's 12.30 on a monday morning... i should be sleeping soon. haha...

am juz happy whenever i think of my friends.. haha... i wanna be like last time, all cheerful haha... wanna make pple wonder why i am smiling all day. wanna make pple laugh and smile like i use to. haha... i am juz less playful these days. hahaha...

i also need to push on my work. i juz cant focus on chem today cos i was a lil frustrated at miss lee's way of tutorial and all.... haiz... it's not helping us... tt's how i feel... we need time to work together ALL the problems before attempting the assignment, but now, we are juz going through certain questions here and there.

what if we did wrongly during assignment? she does not go through the corrections with us as she assumed tt she has gone through them during tutorials... man.. how are we gonna learn.. i know i cant... haiz... till rugby's over, i'm gonna push.

as i sat down in service today, i couldn't focus as there were 2 things stuck in my head. one was my studies, one was behind. hahahahahaha.. i juz kept thinking how i can study so tt i can amuse pple haha.. make my parents proud. man... to be able to get straight A's stinking cool la.. i also want.. but i know it comes with a HUGE price tag... am gonna work towards it i guess... I REALLY DUNNOE HOW! but i'll try!

04/05/06

after reading ur blog, it brought both joy and pain, and already feeling sad about today, what i read brought tears to my eyes from both the warmth, and yes, the pain...

it's been sometime now, and hell i missed u so much. thought i was long forgotten, but am happy u remembered me. guess things were'nt just meant to be ya..

to you, work hard and do well, to the both of u,
my best wishes...... =)

-

CJ, CJ, CJ... u played well...

it's a one point victory, and i'm not too happy about it. many mistakes i made, many things i did well.

overall, I HATE MY POSITION, though i love playing... i am so, sub-able.

and not being able to play much and this being my last year, i want to play.......

mistakes are mistakes, my coach said tt though i may not be the one making the most mistakes, but he has no choice but to sub only me cos he has no players for the other positions.

AINT IT SO UNFAIR!

it's just 2 mis-tackles man, and it's so stinking hard to tackle them. i dunnoe why! u want me to kill the first forward, i did it beautifully today, won us a knock-forward. but to sprint all the way back and catch e, i still need practice man, so gimme more chance!

i barely played in year 2 cos my captain hated me, my coach respects my captain's decision, and proly cos i suck! but this year, a lot of effort was put in, despite the many times i wanted to quit!

argh!!! what the heck!

man, sometimes i just hate team games.

dumb ref too, what the heck, forward pass!? i was shocked! it was a back pass, but because mannan was stopped, and so the ball looked as if it was a forward pass... dun the ref know physics!? the ball, would gain forward movement from mannan's running speed. if mannan were to continue running, his pass would definitely look like a back pass!

that costed me a try man! one dived at me, i shook him off, the others, THEY WERE FREAKING WAY BEHIND MAN! 1 TRY! argh!!!

nvr meant to score.

so, heck, shall see JJ in the semis and all the best to u CJ, u'd prolly be playing PJC.

today's victory was totally by luck...

3/05/06

haha... ok! hugh has passed me the photos already!!! yipee!!!

haha.. gonna upload em soon. heh!

oh yes, tmr's our big game! CJC! haha... heard they wanna kill us no matter what it cost them.

HA! i wont let em, that's for sure. our team has trained hard, and we're looking better than last year, so we shall play the gentlemen's game tmr!

ha... am a little excited, am not too excited now cos, i am sooooo sleepy, and i have tonnes of work to do!!! argh!!!

i am beginning to lose momentum, and beginning to look like last year! i am not finishing my work on time!!! i cant wait for a new term, a new start where i can refocus once again.

i am scared now, cos i am losing focus on my work, unlike the start of the year where i had steady and good progress... aint gonna be the same this mid years if i am not gonna push myself.

haiz... kinda feel a little stress, but i'll do my best ya... ha... ok, am gonna go get some rest!

2/05/06

ar!!! cant wait for the rest of the batam pictures to come from hugh!!!

haha... funny and stinking cold guy. ha!

dun u think hugh sound like "eew"?

he was wondering over dinner why his name was hugh (or eew). HAHAHA!!!
so, being mean i replied "maybe after u were born, ur parents were trying to name u. den the nurse brought u out and placed u in your mother's arms. AND the very first thing she said when she saw you was probably 'eew!~' hahahaha!!!!"

HAHAHAHAHA....

so anyway, batam was cool except tt now i have TONNES of work to catch up with!!!

PHOTO PHOTO PHOTO!!!

01/05/06

ok, was uploading my hp pictures and looking through some of them and guess what i found! hahaha!!!

WUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

hehe.... this was taken on our way back from bintan during our pre-u 3 retreat during the march holidays.

den... there's bridget!!!





she practically polluted my WHOLE MEMORY CARD with her photos!!!

i had to delete like 50 of her pics! hahaha....polluter! btw, this photos were taken in batam, when we had our hospitality lecture and wine appreciation session.

ok, look at this!

A RAINBOW!!!

how cool ya.. haha.. took this pic after rugby training the other day... haha... we stood there like for 30mins juz taking pics la.. haha..